Follow the wind

Chapter 25 Learning to Say Goodbye to the Past

The past few days were really lively. When they learned that the teacher was ill, many of Lan Xin's students came to see her.

Gao Xiang came with Yingzi.

Compared with Yingzi who was holding his hand generously, Gao Xiang was obviously much shyer.After the Internet cafe incident last time, he seemed to have grown up all of a sudden, becoming mature and stable.He seriously inquired about Lan Xin's condition, and told her to take a good rest and pay attention to nutrition. He sounded like a considerate elder brother caring about his little sister.Yingzi looked at him with infatuated eyes from time to time, his face was full of love and happiness.It seems that the relationship between the two of them is developing well.Lan Xin looked at them happily, envious of them from the bottom of her heart.They are so young, dare to love and hate, just like themselves back then.She thought of her college days again, and thought of brother Lin Feng who was by her side every day.They were so carefree and happy back then.Together they looked forward to a happy life in the future, but they didn't know that the few years in college turned out to be the most beautiful time in their lives.

Xiaoyun came here by himself.

Now she is cheerful and confident, studying and studying seriously, and living a fulfilling life.She told Lan Xin that she planned to go back to her hometown for an internship next semester, and she also planned to go back to her hometown to work after graduation.Lan Xin was very happy that she had such an idea, and she was pleasantly surprised by Yu Xiaoyun's change.

"How are you doing recently?" Lan Xin asked with concern.

"It's okay. I've been very busy recently, my homework is very tight, and I have to think about my graduation thesis, so the time is full."

"I really envy you all, you can spend all your time studying." Lan Xin sighed, "Treasure it, when you work in the future, the pressure of work and life will make you miss the college time in the past few years."

Xiao Yun smiled and nodded, expressing her agreement.

"Pay attention to the balance between work and rest, and go out to play more when you have time." Lan Xin reminded.

"Have any boys chased you recently?" Lan Xin did not forget to make a joke.In fact, it's not a joke. I haven't chatted with Xiaoyun for a long time. I don't know her recent situation, and I am very concerned about her recent situation.

"No." Xiaoyun smiled shyly, "I don't want to think about these things now either."

Lan Xin looked at Xiaoyun, half a year had passed, and she didn't know how much that incident had affected her.Xiaoyun is an introverted child.She always kept all her thoughts and pains in her heart, and slowly digested them by herself.Lan Xin was most worried that she could not get rid of the shadow of that incident.

"Forget about those unpleasant things. You must learn to say goodbye to the past." Lan Xin looked at Xiaoyun and said with concern, "You are still young, and you have plenty of time and opportunities, so don't rush. The most important thing is now The only thing is to try to make yourself perfect and strong.”

"To be honest, I'm really a little scared now, afraid of the people I meet..." Xiaoyun hesitated to speak, but she was still willing to confide in front of the teacher.Although she only spoke half of what she said, Lan Xin completely understood what she meant.

Yes, Lan Xin felt the same way, she could fully understand the resistance, repulsion and self-defense after being hurt emotionally.That kind of fear and panic about the unknown future can really make people disheartened.

"A friend of mine told me." At this time, Lan Xin remembered the letter Lin Feng left her, "No matter how much you have been hurt, no matter how disheartened you are, please always believe in love. Because of love, it has always been there, because love is still the beauty that each of us most yearns for and desires to meet in our lives." Lan Xin finished speaking, paused, and sorted out her emotions, "So, we must have confidence .In fact, everyone longs for love. If everyone can turn this longing into persistence, responsibility and responsibility, then love in the world must be the most beautiful existence. Believe in love and believe in people's hearts."

She used Lin Feng's letter to inspire Xiaoyun and give herself confidence. She saw a glimmer of light in Xiaoyun's bewildered eyes.

Everyone should learn to say goodbye to the past.This is what Lan Xin said to Xiaoyun, and this is the heart-to-heart communication between Lan Xin as a teacher and the students.However, as for herself, she still couldn't learn to say goodbye to the past.

"Xinxin, don't get bored after staying at home for so many days, let me go out with you?" Chen Zheyu thoughtfully suggested.

"Okay, I want to see the reeds." Lan Xin thought of the large and graceful reeds swaying in the wind, and also thought of the reeds that Chen Zheyu hung on the wall when she was sick, those reeds that gave her courage and hope reed.

Now is not the time for the reed flowers to bloom, the light purple reed ears are growing vigorously, and they are growing vigorously, looking forward to being brilliant in the blooming season.Life is such a constant cycle.But her elder brother Lin Feng's life came to an abrupt end in his best youth, leaving her with endless memories and sadness.

"I always thought that death is a very distant thing for us. But the reality is that it may happen at any time." Lan Xin sighed, and suddenly remembered a sentence in a poem, "Life is The smile on the lips of Death."Is this the most accurate interpretation of life?
"Yes, life is impermanent. In many cases, human beings are small and fragile." Chen Zheyu echoed.He stared at Lan Xin under the sun, full of thoughts.

It was here that he was deeply attracted to her.Even though he knew that she had a past that she couldn't let go of, he still devoted himself to her without hesitation. He believed that one day, he would touch her.And he did it too, they loved each other deeply, they were already so close, and he had gradually occupied her heart.But now, he felt that the distant figure sneaked into her heart again, and would always be engraved there in the name of life.This time, he, who was never afraid of fighting, was unable to fight back!
But, just lose without a fight?He is really not reconciled.He regarded her as a treasure, so how could he give up so lightly?He remembered that phone number, it was that number that connected him to her, everything was the best arrangement!Even if he wanted to take care of her for "him" for the rest of her life, he was willing.If possible, he is willing to hold up an umbrella to protect her from the wind and rain, but if he can only stand aside from a distance, he will silently watch everything about her.He thought he wouldn't back down.

Lan Xin beside her seemed to feel the message from him.However, at this moment, her mind is full of the shadow of the wind, because the wind is everywhere.

Chen Zheyu also felt the shadow of the wind, because the wind is really everywhere!

"Xinxin, how about going out for dinner tonight?" Chen Zheyu made an enthusiastic appointment.

"Forget it, the summer vacation will be in two days, and there will be a lot of finishing work. Let's do it next time." Lan Xin declined politely.

Actually, it's not that busy, is it?Lan Xin asked herself.In the past, didn't the two of them always have dinner together, and then return to Lan Xin's nest, and then go about their own work together without disturbing each other, and sometimes look at each other and smile?

Lan Xin felt this change, she was a little afraid that her refusal would hurt Chen Zheyu, she couldn't bear to hurt him.

So, the next day, she called Chen Zheyu again.

"We're almost too busy, shall we have dinner together today?" Lan Xin sent out an invitation.

"I'm sorry, Xinxin, I have an important dinner party tonight." Chen Zheyu's words were full of apology, which could be heard through the microphone.

When did it become like this?Don't you have to bring her with you for important dinner parties?

They still eat and watch movies together, like so many other couples.However, Lan Xin clearly felt that both of them were trying to avoid something, and an invisible force was pulling the distance between them.

"The university in the United States came with an invitation letter, inviting me to study for a year." At the dinner table, Lan Xin, who had been silent for a long time, finally said this.

"Really?" Chen Zheyu, who was opposite him, raised his head with a look of surprise. The news came so suddenly.

"You told her, right?" Lan Xin asked.In fact, she already had the answer in her heart.

Chen Zheyu didn't answer, both of them knew it well.Who else but him?
In the afternoon when Lan Xin was sick and fell into a deep sleep, apart from searching for beautiful pictures of Lu Wei on the Internet and printing them out at a printing agency, the first thing he did was to make a phone call, even though he knew that it was almost late at night in San Francisco.

"Hello, Aunt Qin! Do you still remember me? Before the Spring Festival..."

He thought, as her biological mother, she should know about it.Besides, in this matter, he felt dejectedly that he was so much more than capable.

"Please take care of her first, and I will arrange other things." A calm voice came from the other end of the phone.

Chen Zheyu told her about this old man, in order to let Lan Xin get more comfort from her relatives.He didn't expect that the other thing she wanted to arrange was to take her away!
"What do you plan to do? Do you want to go?" Chen Zheyu looked at Lan Xin, how he hoped that her answer would be "I don't want to go, I want to stay with you".

"I don't know, think again." Lan Xin didn't answer directly.

In the past, according to Chen Zheyu's personality, he would definitely order her domineeringly, "Don't go, you must stay with me."However, this time, she did not hear Chen Zheyu's decisive order, and she even saw a trace of dodge in his eyes.

This time, he didn't try to keep her, and Chen Zheyu felt unprecedented frustration and failure.When did he, who has always been unrestrained and full of confidence, become so cautious and timid?

"Xinxin, aren't you on summer vacation? Let's go out to play and relax." Chen Zheyu looked at Lan Xin expectantly.Yes, they desperately need to relax.Chen Zheyu thought, hoping that this relaxation can change their current situation and save something.

"Okay." Lan Xin agreed.She also tried to change something and restore something.

So, they went to Xiangxi, Hunan, Zhangjiajie, Fenghuang, and Hongshilin as promised.They know the meaning of this trip.

The large expanses of red stone really shocked Lan Xin, especially in summer, the thick red was shocking and breathtaking.Shuttle among the stone peaks and rock cliffs, as if cruising on the bottom of the sea [-] million years ago, the sound of waves and waves echoed unconsciously in my ears.Yes, [-] million years ago, there was a vast ocean here.At that time, only miraculous species such as trilobites and nautilus lived in this vast ocean, right?Today, [-] million years later, this place has become an uplifted stone forest, where generations of Tujia people have slashed and burned and thrived.Life is like this, endless and infinite.And the sea dry stone here is not rotten, it should have witnessed how many great and steadfast loves!

They quickly found fossils of paleontology from the vicissitudes of the texture of the red stone, and those fossils embedded in the red stone proved that there was once a vast ocean here.Those fossils, some like snails, some like shellfish, are scattered in the red stone.Hundreds of millions of years ago, these fossils used to swim and play happily in the ocean.Time has taken away their lives, but their bodies have stayed with this seabed until now, becoming eternity.Lan Xin looked at these ancient biological fossils in surprise. It was a miracle that they had traveled through time and space and met her here by chance.Lan Xin really felt the insignificance of life, yes, everyone's life is just a glimpse in the long river of time, like a spark that shines brightly in an instant.

Lan Xin stared at these fossils quietly, for a long time, for a long time, unconsciously, the miraculous fossil turned into Lin Feng's young and handsome face.

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(End of this chapter)