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Chapter 14 You suffer, you deserve a better life (1)
During this extremely difficult time, those who survived will have a brighter life; if they cannot survive, time will teach you how to shake hands with them, so you don't have to be afraid.

You deserve a better life for what you suffer
No one is obliged to understand and publicize your dedication, they will only see your success, only by following your goals and enduring the hardships brought about by your goals, can you become the person you want to be.

A certain Chinese New Year, a reunion of high school classmates who have graduated for many years.There are not many people who get together, no one talks about who got good grades and who got bad grades in high school, who is doing well and who is doing badly now, everyone just caress about eating, and occasionally jokingly say, so and so, you have made a fortune again , When will I resign to carry the bag for you Yunyun.

Everyone has their own secrets in their lives in private.

A classmate nicknamed "Big Face Cat".Because his face is very big.Although he is not so happy with this nickname, it has been called for more than ten years since high school, and it has already become another name for his face.Everyone was urging each other to drink that day, and they had to go out and continue singing after drinking.

It just so happened that my father was not in good health in those few days, so I excused myself and left first.The big face cat took advantage of the situation and said that he would send me back, and also refused all the persuasion.Along the way, we didn't talk much at first.Then suddenly he spoke.Ajiao, what are you doing now?

I said: magazine editor.

He said: How is the income?

I could hear that he had something to say, so I replied "It's okay".He went on to say that he felt that I was different from other people, that I didn't like to talk, and I didn't like to be lively, so he wanted to complain to me, saying that I would not joke about how much money he made.

In the past few years, Big Face Cat has worked in a factory that has a cooperative relationship with the central bank to print banknotes.After earning some money, I ran a steel business in the Yunnan-Guizhou area. After a few years of tossing and tossing, my income was really good, but after getting married and having children, no amount of money was enough.

Buying a car, buying a house, gas money, milk powder money, taking care of the family, etc., need to consume too much money.Everyone only saw how much money he earned, but did not see how much pressure he was carrying behind his back.This evaluation is too biased.I am also unwilling to respond and argue too much.

He has two cars, one at home, and one off-road that has been with him for a long time in the mountainous areas of Yunnan and Guizhou. His steel business is mainly in the Southwest.The environment in Guizhou is too difficult. How many times he almost slipped down a [-]-meter deep ditch on the unfamiliar Guizhou mountain roads in order to meet clients.He said that if he really slipped down, no one would know if he died in the mountains.No one saw his hard work, but only saw what a nice car he drove, what nice clothes he wore, and how his hair was well combed.

Everyone thinks that Big Face Cat is an uneducated local tyrant and nouveau riche.He said that when he was running a business in the mountains of Guizhou, he often saw children from poor areas in the mountains watching his car pass by with curiosity in their eyes.How many times, he has seen the emotion in the eyes of those pure children. He feels that these children are different from everyone in the outside world, including his own classmates and friends.

That kind of touch made him stop the car every time he saw a dirty child, open the door and let the child get in the car.Ask them where their school is and send them there.These children didn't think he was a bad guy or a liar, and they were full of curiosity about the world inside the car, so they all got into his car.He also doesn't worry about the kids getting his car dirty.

He said that the short time with those children was very happy.He was so happy that he forgot about the business in the outside world, the pressure brought by his wife and children, and those classmates and friends teasing him about being rich.When the big-faced cat talks about children, it really looks like the big-faced cat in the cartoon.

I think I understand what Big Face Cat wants to express.

The world may not understand you, and may even be wary and hostile towards you.Just like we often see rich people and the rich second generation who show off luxuriously online, they are always hostile.No one really cares if you put in a lot of time and effort to make a career out of it, and no one cares if you’re under a lot of pressure. They only see the outer side of you.

Not many people in this world are really willing to come to understand you, whether it is a friend in the business field or a classmate who has known each other for many years, the only one who really understands his heart is himself, and those innocent children who know nothing about you.That recognition is a touch that comes from deep inside.Too much running around, intrigues with the world, lying and deceiving, but no one has ever been able to deceive themselves.When you see the pure curiosity in the eyes of pure children, you will know that all the hard work you have endured is worth the life you have now.

You deserve a better life for what you have suffered.When Big Face Cat talked about the way children looked at him, tears filled his eyes.

No one in this world has to understand you, just like you don't understand the world.We often look at others living well, but are full of envy, envy, hatred, and hostility. Why can he live so well.There is a saying: As long as I know that you live better than me, I can't stand it.This is probably the epitome and portrayal of the impetuous emotions of many of us in the Internet age.

Yes, we are full of hostility to this world, because this world is not fair.

On social networks, there are always people discussing Channel, Gucci, Givenchy, some people are discussing food, drink, and entertainment that you have never heard of, and some people are always chasing British dramas, American dramas, and Japanese dramas, and other than cursing the rich.There are so many people in this world, if you don't work hard, there is no reason for you to be the successful one, and there is no reason for you to be a member of those scolded groups.The unfairness of this world is not that other people live better than you, nor is it that others are more successful than you. The unfairness of this world lies in that others have achieved their achievements through hard work, but you do not want others to live better without hard work. better.

Not long ago, John Woo's movie "The Wheel of Peace" was on fire.Suddenly I remembered that a friend asked why Cai Kangyong was so popular and respected in Taiwan.One is that he has always been a top student and has been working hard for his dream.Furthermore, his father, Cai Tianduo, owns a large share of the company Taiping Ship belongs to.The story of Taiping Wheel is very sad in the end, but Cai Tianduo has made great contributions to Taiwan.

Whenever we lament the rich life of others and doubt the efforts of others, maybe we take one more step towards our dreams, read one more book, write one more article, work an extra hour of overtime, and take more fitness classes, and you will also Be a great writer, be a great employee, be a guy with eight pack abs.

No one is obliged to understand and publicize your dedication, they will only see your success, only by following your goals and enduring the hardships brought about by your goals, can you become the person you want to be.

No matter what, I believe in the power of dreams
Dream is a kind of power, which guides you to live better, like a bright light, takes us farther.

一
When I was writing articles, I often intentionally or unintentionally criticized the popular success theory today. Everyone is pursuing success and money, and they are not hesitating to sacrifice their bodies in exchange for material enjoyment.

Now there is a popular saying, "If you don't forget your original intention, you will always have it."Many times, someone asked me about my dreams and my confusion about growing up, and I would say, oh, as long as you stick to your original idea, keep doing it, and do it day and night, one day you will definitely succeed.Just like how I wrote articles so badly many years ago, I finally realized the beauty of words, and persisted until today.

I want to tell you that it is a statement with a gorgeous coat of "dream".In other words, it's just pretending, a very pretentious way of saying it.

In fact, about dreams, I think I have another way of saying it.

two

As long as I can remember, my family has always lived in a mud house.I am born in the 80s, you think it was the 80s, everyone started to run towards millionaires, our family is still thinking about how to repair those few mud houses.At the foot of the mud house, there is often some fallen sand, and there are small fleshy insects in it, which are harmless and are often caught by us to play.When I was young, it didn't matter whether it was good or bad, and there was no competition. No one's house was much better than another's. Your house was only a brick house.The distance between the mud house and the brick house seems not so obvious to us when we were children.

At that time, I was small and grew up quickly, and my family was not rich, so I often wore the leftover clothes of my older nephew.After studying, I learned about shame, the so-called "more knowledge, more reactionary", and I felt that wearing old clothes is not such a glamorous thing.

The difference between your family and ours is that you have new clothes to wear, and I basically wear old clothes throughout elementary school, except that I buy new clothes during the Chinese New Year.That's a year of hope. Children nowadays have no expectations for the New Year. When can't they buy new clothes?

At that time, the second sister had already gone to Guangzhou to work, and the eldest sister was studying in a medical school.

When I was young, as a boy, I also enjoyed some of the benefits of patriarchal thinking.At that time, I took rice to school to exchange for meal tickets, and I had to pay to subsidize the discounted part.Sometimes when the meal tickets are finished, they have to bring their own cold rice and vegetables and go to the school cafeteria to cook together.You need to pay 5 cents to the school canteen.Because it is a very big steamer, everyone puts their meals in it. At noon, the misty white water vapor is like a signal that the meal is ready!

Sometimes if you run fast, you can get the ceramic teacup with your meal first.There are often students who take other people's jobs by mistake and take the opportunity to eat delicious food.Maybe there was an omelet or something, and I ate it quietly, and then put the ceramic teacup back, pretending I didn't see anything.Some students did not bring ceramic teacups with their meals, but aluminum lunch boxes, which looked very foreign.

At that time, the biggest feeling was that the family was poor and had no money.No new clothes without money.Gradually, I found that the gap between new clothes is far less than the gap between a mud house and a brick house.Later, my parents started raising money to repair the brick house.At that time, my father's brothers, the family I called Uncle, were disrespectful and beat my parents when they started to repair the brick house.

When I was young, I didn't even dare to speak out at that time, I was just afraid.

But then the mud house was finally converted into a brick house.I also gradually got new clothes to wear.

There is a wooden cabinet in the bedroom where the parents live. It has been painted with varnish to show the texture of wood and the color of black lacquer. I don’t know if it is because of the age.There are two drawers in the middle, and the left drawer is locked with money.Watch them take money from there every time.

There is a small hole on the side of the wooden drawer, when I was little at that time, my little hands could go in.

That time my parents were working in the fields.I walked into my parents' bedroom nervously, trembling all over, and quietly stole 5 yuan from the drawer.The process of stealing money made me feel empty-headed.

At that time, there was a popular game, that is, paper painting.There are some animation patterns printed on the paper, and the coherence of the patterns on the whole page is a story.There are gourd babies, Transformers, and Journey to the West.Cut out are all small paintings.If we win or lose, we can win other people's paper paintings.

I often see that other people have paper paintings to play with, but I don't.After stealing 5 yuan, he bought a large stack of paper paintings from the older children in the same yard.I can't wait to put it away and hide it in the most hidden place I think.

In the end, I was found out, and my mother found out about my stealing money.

That was the worst time I've ever been beaten.Stealing money was a very intolerable offense in our family.But back then I felt as if money could make everything better.It's like money changed our house from a mud house to a brick house, made me wear more new clothes from old clothes, and made me have paper to play with.

But the price of stealing money, I will probably remember it for a lifetime.I was punished to kneel at the door of my house, with charcoal slag scattered on the ground, and blood seeped from the place where the charcoal slag pierced the flesh.My mother beat me with a very thin bamboo stick.

I just cry and dodge.How it ended in the end, I can't remember.

three

My father's generation had a lot of brothers, and my father was the youngest, so many of the older brothers' children were older than me.I somehow became an elder.

There is a junior, let’s call him Li, who is about three or four years older than me.He is very lively and outgoing, and greets every elder when he sees them from a distance.Although his academic performance is very poor, everyone has a good impression of him.No matter what, he is a polite child.

Every time he sees my little uncle, he screams extra hard.I also have a good impression of him, and often act as his little follower.

At that time, there were paper mills and glass fiber factories left over from the "Cultural Revolution" in the village, but they were all facing bankruptcy.There is a big pond in the factory, and the bamboo is soaked in lime water. After soaking for a long time, the bamboo will melt into fibers, and the lime water will turn yellow, and the smell can be smelled very unpleasant from a distance.The fiberglass factory is the favorite place for children.

Fiberglass factories have ceased operations, and the walls are crumbling.We often turn in because there are some marbles made by the fiberglass factory.Probably after the glass fiber factory was not working well, I started to focus on the marbles played by children. I switched to marbles for a while, but in the end I couldn't make it.

I followed the elder Li over the wall and sneaked in the marbles from the factory.He often took me to play marbles with his peers.All of them are very good at playing marbles, and finally won all my marbles.Another time, he took me to play in a nearby reservoir, and then left quietly.How I got back from the reservoir in the end I can't remember.

All I remember is that I was beaten again.

I went to play with Li, and I didn't even know I was coming back.While beating me, my mother said, what will I do if you drown!I was afraid, but I didn't dare to say anything. Aren't you worried about me? Why did you still hit me?

In short, when I was young, being beaten was my forte.

Later, when he was older, Leigh left.

I don't have a big kid to play with anymore.At that time, the Hong Kong film "Young and Dangerous" was popular, and there were people fighting and killing, and some people covered themselves and felt as if they had a special identity.

Like Li, I also have a good brother named Chen, and we have a good time together.

Later, both of them disappeared from my life, and both went to work far away.

I didn't see them for several years after that.Later, I heard that they lived in Guangdong with a low income and had a very hard life. They could only return home during the Chinese New Year.Wandering in a foreign country, can't earn much money, and finally have to spend the night at the train station, squeeze the train, without a ticket, and stand for dozens of hours to return to my hometown.Sometimes it is impossible to pee, the toilet is full of people, and they are carrying big and small bags. If you want to move a step in the crowd, it is probably not as easy as the college entrance examination.

They all went to work, and I continued to study, middle school.

When I was in junior high school, I thought there was a senior sister who was very beautiful.It's always nice to see her every time.When get out of class is over, I always run upstairs, and then stand in the aisle to see if she is also in the aisle.

When I was young, when I had a crush on a girl, I felt like I was full of energy.

But I didn't talk to her until I graduated, and I didn't even know her last name.Still later, I fell in love with the girl show in my class.At that time, I thought we would be able to live forever with Xiu, but we never expected that after graduating from junior high school, we would separate and go to different high schools.

High school has two days off every month.Returning from school to his home in the countryside, he saw the senior he admired in the small town.She was already a mother with a child in her arms.So soon, without reading, she had children.She must have been under 18 at that time.

It's like that in the countryside. As long as there is a banquet, the parents of both parties seem to be legally married.To the legal age of marriage, and then go to make up the marriage certificate.In such an environment, the relationship is as simple as going around life, it doesn't matter about the relationship, it is only about reproduction, the relationship seems to be much stronger, and there is no so-called seven-year itch in the city.

(End of this chapter)