The world is so bad, so lucky to meet you

Chapter 20 Some happiness is not yours
Beaver said she gave up.

I feel sorry for her, but I don't know how to comfort her.

Heli knew Katagiri when the two companies were cooperating. Katagiri and his colleagues were temporarily transferred to Chengdu to work together, and the contact person here was Heli.

The leader brought in three young men, about 30 years old. The leader introduced her and said: This is Beaver, and she will connect with you. If you need any information, you can find her.

Katagiri said: Hello, I am Katagiri, I am in charge here, please.It was very concise, and he politely extended his hand towards Beaver.

She also held his hand politely, and they glanced at each other. She didn't fall in love with him at first sight. She had a normal appearance, wore glasses and was gentle, spoke with a little smile, and didn't have much memory. She even felt a little Face blind.This was her first impression of him.

Beaver and Katagiri work together almost ten hours a day, connecting, searching for information, assisting, testing, etc., and they get to know each other after coming and going.Beaver finds that Katagiri is actually quite humorous and can talk, and is gradually attracted to him.

Katagiri made no secret of his affection for Beaver, and always said in front of his colleagues that he did not expect such a good-looking girl to meet us.

In other words, the happiest thing about this visit is to partner with such a beautiful girl.

He also said, if only I could find such a beautiful girlfriend.

He would also say that it would be nice to find a Sichuan girl as his wife.

Every time at that time, Beaver's face turned red, and he pretended to be calm, but his heart was not calm.

She had the courage to ask Katagiri: Do you not have a girlfriend?

Regardless of temperament or dress, Katagiri does not belong to diaosi at all.He looks normal, has good working ability, and can talk, no matter how he looks at it, he doesn't think he is a person without a girlfriend, and even having several girlfriends is fine.

Katagiri said: I also want to have a girlfriend, but unfortunately I don't have one.After speaking, he looked at the beaver.

It sounded like a confession, without revealing any traces, and it made the other party distracted.The beaver couldn't figure it out.

During the time they went to work together, Heli basically did not do tiring or heavy work. As long as she touched the document with her hand, Katagiri would say: Don't take it, I will do it.

The beaver said: No, no, I'll come.

Katagiri said: I will come and I will come.

They often rush to get things, making other colleagues laugh.

In the past, when the bottled water ran out, it was replaced by whoever found it convenient, and soft girls like beavers were also used as men.Now Katagiri would put down the mouse when she saw her doing it, picked up the bucket and poured water into the water dispenser, not to mention how manly it was, the movements were so smooth that the beaver didn't even realize it, and stared at it in a daze.

There were several meetings that went late, and Katagiri's hotel was near the company, but he wanted to take Beaver home.

The beaver couldn't laugh or cry, and said: You don't know the way here, if you send me back, I have to send you back to the hotel.

Katagiri said: It's okay, I'll take a taxi to take you downstairs to your house, and I'll take the car back the same way.

Then he really took a taxi, opened the door for Beaver to sit in, insisted on taking her home, and then returned to the hotel on the same road. It would take more than half an hour to go around without traffic jams in the middle of the night.

The beaver was embarrassed and said "thank you, thank you" when getting out of the car.But he grinned like a child and said: It's all right, as long as you are safe.

Three out-of-town men wanted to experience the bar, and Beaver led the way to a well-known local bar.

The three men ordered a dozen beers, lemonade for the beaver, and three tawny beer bottles clinked in a clear glass.

Sitting under the stage, listening to the singers on the stage singing lyrical or hilarious songs, the beaver hummed softly along with it, talking close to the ear in a noisy bar, with an ambiguous environment, ambiguous singing voice, and ambiguous tune.

Beaver saw them drinking beer and playing with their mobile phones boredly, and asked Katagiri: Is it not convenient for you to play with me?

Katagiri said: No, I just want to play with you.

Beaver's little heart was beating wildly for a while.

Katagiri said: I would be happier if you could drink with me.

What Katagiri said always made her think wildly.

Once when I was looking for materials in the company's reference room, she was not tall and couldn't get the materials on the top layer. He reached behind her and took them out and handed them to her.

She smelled the fragrance of washing powder on his body, felt him take a breath above her ears, turned her head and looked up at him, and he looked down at her. The atmosphere was good, but it didn't play out the plot on TV. Just handed her the file box.

Another time they were standing outside on the street waiting for their colleagues. Her hands were already numb from the cold, and she held them to her mouth stiffly to exhale.

He saw it and asked her: Are you cold?
She said: A little bit.

He reached out to hold her hand and put it in the bag naturally.

She looked at him in surprise, but he smiled calmly and said: Help you warm up.

Beaver was moved again.

Katagiri is like an angel descending from the sky, no matter how you look at it, it looks like it is here to protect the beaver, everyone thinks so.

Katagiri and his colleagues also half-jokingly asked Beaver: Would you like to marry out of town?

The beaver didn't know how to answer, and said, "It depends on the situation."

Ask the girl so bluntly, what should the girl say?Too positive, it feels like rushing forward; too reserved, people think she is unwilling, she can only choose a half-way answer, she doesn't know what he will think of such an answer.

Soon, the project of more than half a month came to an end, and Katagiri and his colleagues had to go back, and the dinner was to eat hot pot.While eating the hot and spicy red oil hot pot, Katagiri drank a lot of wine, expressed reluctance in his words, and looked at Beaver with gentle eyes.The beaver is not willing, so what?She couldn't keep him, she could only look at him a few more times and engrave his appearance in her heart.

On the day Katagiri went back, Beaver went to see him off, and at the airport where he was leaving, his colleagues were all saying goodbye.

Katagiri and two colleagues exchanged boarding passes and were about to enter the security check.After walking in for a few steps, the beaver called out again.Beaver asked him in a low voice: Will you come back to see me?
Without any hesitation, Katagiri said straightforwardly: Yes, I will come to see you when I am done.It's still the signature laugh.

The beaver thought that she was close to happiness.

Girls are sometimes stupid because they unswervingly believe what a man says casually.

After going back, Katagiri always seems to be very busy, and often socializes, drinking a lot of wine, Heli dare not send him a message, dare not call him, she is afraid of what if he does not reply, what will happen if he does not answer? She didn't dare to face such setbacks.

When girls like someone, they will become cautious, and the frank self will never be found again.

Beaver always sent messages to Katagiri very late, sometimes he said he was sleepy and wanted to sleep when he came back, sometimes his speech was floating and he felt a little drunk.

Heli remembered that Katagiri often responded to messages when he was working here, and the other party had a very eye-catching profile picture.She thought, there should be a girl on the other side of the phone screen. How could a normal man like him not have a girl?Even if he didn't take the initiative to attack, there should be a little girl who took the initiative to sneak into his arms, right?After all, he is not bad.

With doubts, Beaver asked him cautiously: Do you have a girlfriend?
He said: no.

She didn't give up and said: Do you have a wife?
He said: no.

Katagiri answered very simply, and Beaver believed it, and the two of them still exchanged warm words every day.

One day, Beaver was bored, so she clicked on Katagiri's profile picture and looked through his circle of friends one by one. She thought, she must know more about him.I don't know if I don't read it, but once I read it, the more I look at it, the more frustrated I become, and the more I look at it, the more I feel more determined.

There is a person hidden in his circle of friends, and he has sent many messages for her, each with naked affection.

Two years ago, he posted a photo of the girl when she was a child, with the text saying: This is the girl I want to chase now.

A year ago, he took a picture of the road in the car, and wrote: In order to go back to see her, the beauty of the winding mountain road is nothing.

Half a year ago, he went to the island alone and lived in a big honeymoon room. He wrote her nickname on the beach and said with the text: It would be great if I came here with my girlfriend.

A few months ago, when he was traveling abroad, he took a picture of a street scene with her nickname and posted it on Moments, so anyone who understands it can understand it at a glance.

More than half a month ago, he posted a circle of friends saying: My mood, only you can understand.It was sent before he came to Beaver Company.

With so many messages about her and texts sent to her, in his circle of friends, apart from life and entertainment, she is the only one.

He always travels alone, but he thinks about her wherever he goes, which shows how important this "her" is to him.

Beaver is confused, who is this mysterious "she"?If it's a girlfriend or wife, why is he always on the road alone?Why doesn't she accompany him?Too many questions piled up in my mind.

She asked Katagiri again: Do you really have no girlfriend?
He still said: no.

She was silent for a long time, thinking whether to ask him who "she" was in his circle of friends.Why should she ask?He was nice to her, but he didn't say anything, let alone promise anything. What right did she have to ask?
When they like someone, girls always like to think about things, make countless assumptions, make countless guesses, and go back and forth in their minds, forcing themselves to death.

After thinking and thinking, after all, she is not a girl who can hide her thoughts and hold back her words, so she decided to ask Katagiri to clarify, it doesn't matter if she is thick-skinned, it is better to just let herself give up than not to know.

She said: Who is that "she" in your circle of friends?

Katagiri said: ex-girlfriend.

She said: You sent her a few days ago...

He said: She got married and gave birth to a baby.

She said: Do you still miss your ex-girlfriend?
He said: no.

Beaver is not blind, and he is not blind, so he would not admit it so nakedly, she felt very blocked.

Katagiri was always entertaining, and always drank a lot of wine. On a slightly drunk night, taking advantage of one day when he drank, Beaver talked about this issue for the third time.

People who drink alcohol, their mouths become unreliable, and people who usually keep their hearts closed also start to dig out their hearts and lungs, always telling their secrets inadvertently.Katagiri is like that.

Katagiri said: I have a lover.

Beaver's mind buzzed, he had a lover, and he had a lover!Not a lover, not a lover, not a wife, he is targeting a lover.

Beaver has filled up countless bloody plots. Two people who love each other make a vow to each other, but the family objects, or they are forced by bad guys, or they get terminally ill and have a car accident like in Korean dramas, and finally become lovers.

Katagiri said: the "love" of the plot.

The beaver doesn't understand: what does the lover of the plot mean?
Beaver went to the bottom of the matter, and Katagiri told her a story that ruined the three views, about himself and his so-called ex-girlfriend.

Katagiri likes a girl, they met nine years ago, Lang Youqing concubine is interested, but at that time Katagiri had just stepped into the society, no money, no future in sight, the two of them only had love.But not every girl is a fool who can be thrown away for love. This girl is very clear-headed and has already made up her wishful thinking. While dragging Katagiri, she found a rich man who was decisive when she was young Married and had children.

It stands to reason that there are so many separation stories in the world, it doesn't matter if there is one more, each chooses, each is happy, and everyone is happy.But the girl who has bread is greedy again, she wants love, maybe she still loves Katagiri, she has been arguing with him all these years, unclear.

After watching too many scenes of infatuated girls, it is rare to see an infatuated man, and Beaver didn't react immediately.

Beaver said: Do you like her?

He said proudly: She likes me too.

The beaver was so angry that he said, "If I like you, I won't marry you?"
He said: "She let the children call me daddy.

She said: Is it yours?

He said: no.

She thought to herself, nerves, cheap dad is so happy!
Katagiri was overjoyed and sent a photo of the girl, the background color was the color of the avatar he often sent messages.

Beaver looked at the girl's photo with mixed feelings. She was afraid that she might be prejudiced, so she showed it to her best friend, who replied that it was average.

It was such an ordinary girl who had kidnapped this man emotionally for many years, and that Katagiri, who seemed to be glib, foolish, and pleasing girls, steadfastly hid this girl in her heart.

Beaver said: She is married, are you stupid?
He said: I am stupid.

She said: You are not stupid, you are stupid, stupider than a pig, knowing that the other party is playing with you.

She wanted to say, I didn't believe it when people told me that men couldn't see green tea whores, but now I do.She also wanted to say that men really like green tea.But she didn't say anything.

Beaver is not a person who can hide his thoughts, and has no potential to act scheming at all. If the opponent is such a scheming girl, then she will probably lose without a fight.

Katagiri said: She always looks for me, what do you think I should do?
The beaver said: Lahei, can't you?
Katagiri did not answer the question.

All he can't do without is that he doesn't want to leave. He doesn't want to leave the girl who has been leading him by the nose. He knows that she is just dominating him. There will be no future for the two of them. He is still willing to continue to be dominated by her. Maybe it's unwillingness, maybe it's love, he can't tell the difference, let alone Beaver.

Beaver told me that the woman who has been able to pull a man for so many years is too skillful. If he didn't take the initiative to blacken that woman, he would never be able to concentrate on other women.

I saw the sadness and helplessness on her face.

Yes, if he doesn't ruthlessly break it off completely, that married girl will always treat him as a spare tire. Anyway, she is married and has a baby anyway, so why can't she afford it?

If Katagiri is her spare tire, then Beaver can only be his spare tire, he can only get close to her, he will not hold hands, express his position, or make promises.

The situation was messy enough, and Beaver didn't want to get involved, so she gave up.

Love always comes first, first come first, if you still retain other people's residual warmth, no matter how affectionate he is, that kind of happiness is not yours.

(End of this chapter)