Only married but not in love: Ex-wife, see you tonight!

Chapter 293 The Repressed Past

Ruan Anxi didn't feel that she had to satisfy Shi Yan's curiosity, and she didn't want to answer Shi Yan's questions anymore.

Admitting that she had been attracted to Shi Yan before, and even did stupid things for him, this has already made Ruan Anxi very entangled, but now the other party has to ask her why she kept it from him, isn't this going to make herself say that again? What did you think at the time?

Ruan Anxi didn't want to talk about those feelings with Shi Yan, because those things made her feel like a resentful woman who would only keep complaining that she wasn't getting the attention she deserved.

So she didn't open her eyes to look at Shi Yan, but just replied perfunctorily: "Because I don't think it's necessary, to me Xiaobei is just my own child."

She didn't want to say anything because she was afraid that Shi Yan would not let her leave because of Xiao Bei, or even have other thoughts because of Xiao Bei's existence.

Ruan Anxi had these fantasies before, but she would not tell Shi Yan, because in her opinion, it would only make Shi Yan feel that she was being selfish.

But Shi Yan was impatient with Ruan Anxi's uncooperative attitude.

He really wanted to ask about what happened back then, but Ruan Anxi didn't intend to cooperate properly.

It's just that it's different now. In the past, he had so many misunderstandings because he was too hot-tempered and refused to listen to others' explanations. So this time he forcibly suppressed his anger.

Feeling helpless, Shi Yan took a few steps in a small area, and finally sat down slowly on the chair next to the ward, looked at Ruan Anxi's face and asked again: "There must have been something else that I didn't know about, right?" No? Why don't you want to tell me?"

Shi Yan sat by the window this time, and Ruan Anxi happened to be lying on her side to avoid his gaze, so now she could see Shi Yan's serious gaze when she opened her eyes, and she couldn't help but feel even more annoyed.

Shi Yan's gaze made her unwilling to close her eyes and fall asleep again, so she had to lie on another side, anyway, to prevent Shi Yan from seeing her expression and eyes.

Ruan Anxi's silent resistance made Shi Yan a little annoyed.This person has kept everything a secret for so many years, and now he finally speaks out a little bit, but he plans to hide in his shell again like a snail.

Looking at Ruan Anxi's thin shoulders, Shi Yan took a few deep breaths before trying to calm himself down, sighed, and then softened his voice: "But Xiaobei is indeed my daughter, isn't she? She has a legal relationship with me. And blood connection, you can't deny that, right?"

He wanted to guide Ruan Anxi to talk more about the past, so he planned to appease Ruan Anxi first.If she could get her to open up, she might be able to tell all about what happened at that time.

However, Ruan Anxi was not appeased by Shi Yan's gentleness. She just thought Shi Yan's words were a bit funny, so she laughed unceremoniously, and said sarcastically, "So what? You have done a little bit." Is it the responsibility of the father?"

As he said that, he turned his head and looked at Shi Yan mockingly, which made him feel an unknown fire burning in his heart.

Now I suppress my temper, trying to find out what happened that year, and intend to take the opportunity to clarify the misunderstanding between the two, but Ruan Anxi is not cooperative at all!
But if it's just like this, then forget it, he will not force Ruan Anxi to do anything.

But Ruan Anxi repeatedly emphasized to herself that she failed to fulfill her responsibilities as a father?

Shi Yan didn't know why he had to take the blame again. When Ruan Anxi accused him of not protecting Xiao Bei, he felt guilty because of Mrs. Shi's actions and Ruan Anxi because of Xiao Bei's fainting. refute.

But this didn't mean that Shi Yan felt that he was really at fault, Xiao Bei's disappearance obviously had no direct connection with him.

Even in Shi Yan's opinion, if it wasn't for Ruan Anxi leaving the villa without a word, nothing would happen to Xiao Bei.

But Shi Yan doesn't say these things now, he knows that if he opens his mouth, Ruan Anxi will definitely argue with him again, but he doesn't have the energy to argue with others now, so he has no choice but to admit it aggrievedly.

After looking at the person on the hospital bed for a few seconds, Shi Yan's eyes showed guilt: "Even if I failed to protect Xiaobei this time, can't my previous actions satisfy you? I have always They all regard Xiaobei as my own daughter."

He wanted to remind Ruan Anxi of the thoughtfulness and pampering he had shown Xiao Bei in the past. Could those be better than the negligence this time?
Besides, when he first met Ruan Anxi and Xiao Bei, even though he thought Xiao Bei was not his daughter at that time, he didn't have any other views on her.

Thinking of this, Yan couldn't help but rubbed his temples with a headache. Originally, the two were clearly talking about Ruan Anxi leaving Pei Jingchen, so why did it suddenly become like this.

"How can I be satisfied? Where were you when Xiaobei was born? Where were you when she was in poor health when she was young and was always sick?"

Before Shi Yan could figure out how to bring the topic back, Ruan Anxi had already started venting about his words.

As if Shi Yan's words picked out the deepest pain in her heart, Ruan Anxi no longer dodged, she stared at Shi Yan fiercely, wishing to travel back to a few years ago and slap Shi Yan at that time.

Shi Yan didn't expect Ruan Anxi's reaction to be so strong all of a sudden, the anger and resentment on her face made him a little uneasy.

For some reason, Shi Yan thought of Ruan Anxi's ravings after he fainted in the car yesterday.

Thinking of Ruan Anxi's venting torture just now, Shi Yan felt as if he had grasped something very important.

"What happened when Xiaobei was born? Ruan Anxi, if you don't tell me, how will I know what I missed?"

When the last half of the sentence came out, Shi Yan's voice had subconsciously lowered, even with a hint of coaxing.

When he asked this sentence, Shi Yan suddenly felt that the inexplicable uneasiness in his heart was getting deeper and deeper, but before he could think it through carefully, Ruan Anxi had already said: "What do you want to happen? I left Pei's house I was already eight months pregnant when I was born, what do you think will happen so that Xiao Bei has to be sent to the neonatal intensive care unit as soon as she is born?"

Ruan Anxi felt that she was surprisingly calm now. She remembered that at that time, she listened to the sound of those instruments operating every day, just like now, all her thoughts were on Xiao Bei, and she didn't want to think about anything else.

However, Shi Yan would not let Ruan Anxi get stuck in her own thoughts like this. He waited anxiously for Ruan Anxi to continue talking for a long time, and finally couldn't help asking softly: "It's you... what happened?" Accident?"

Thinking of Ruan Anxi's painful cries in the car, Shi Yan couldn't help but had many terrible guesses in his heart.

What happened later, even Ruan Anxi feels scared when he thinks about it now, but now the person in front of him is trying his best to remove his scar.

Ruan Anxi smiled almost self-abuse, but still said softly: "I was anxious to leave the Pei family, but Pei Jingchen didn't want me to leave with a big belly like that, so in the end I had to take advantage of him not paying attention. ran out."

In fact, Pei Jingchen was right at that time, although Xiao Bei was not yet full-term, nor was she in the most dangerous period of pregnancy.

But because I was not in a good mood during that time, the situation was not very optimistic, and I even had a threatened miscarriage.

Pei Jingchen felt that Ruan Anxi couldn't take good care of herself by herself, so she tried her best to persuade her to stay.

Ruan Anxi resisted Pei Jingchen because of Shi Yan's matter, so she ignored his request, which led to so many things happening in the end.

"Actually, it was impossible. Pei Jingchen also found someone to stare at me."

When Ruan Anxi talked about the events at that time, she was suddenly in a daze. She almost forgot how she got out of Pei's house, but she remembered the things that followed clearly.

But when she thought about it, Shi Yan didn't want to know that, so she simply started from the place she remembered: "Later, I left Pei's house, and I was going to find a place to live alone, but when I passed by a crossroad Suddenly, I received a call from Pei Jingchen."

Speaking of this, Ruan Anxi couldn't help but close her eyes, paused for a few seconds, and finally said softly: "But I don't want to go back to Pei's house, so I didn't answer his call, I just put the phone back after looking at it, but I I still forgot to see if there are steps under my feet, and I forgot to see how long the green light is."

That small step didn't make Ruan Anxi fall, it just made her jump, but the sudden panic made her forget to pay attention to the vehicles on both sides, and then she was caught by another taxi.

In fact, it was just a small car accident, because the driver stepped on the brakes in time, Ruan Anxi did not suffer any serious injuries.

"I felt as if I was hit by something. When I realized it, I saw the upside-down building and the sky."

Speaking of the car accident now, Ruan Anxi can still remember how blue the sky was, without a single white cloud on it, and it looked so pure.

She almost seemed to be telling someone else's story, her light tone didn't sound sad at all.

But Shi Yan could feel her sadness and helplessness at that time, probably because Ruan Anxi's eyes were suddenly so hollow.

It was Ruan Anxi's next words that made Shi Yan understand how desperate she was at that time.

"At first I thought I just fell down, and even thought about getting up and continuing to look for a place to live. It wasn't until I followed the driver's terrified eyes that I realized that I...under my body..."

(End of this chapter)