psychochemist

Chapter 271
"Giving" is sometimes more pleasant than "getting".

Yu Fan continued to drag the progress bar. The e-mails were like a story connected in series. This story spanned three full years.

In the letters exchanged, Yu Fan learned that with the encouragement of her grandmother, this girl named Li Yanfei was preparing to be an art student in a famous college by virtue of her superb hand-painting skills honed for many years.Later, it was not so non-mainstream, and she returned to become an intellectual girl full of literary and artistic atmosphere.

Yu Fan can still see in the records of the relationship that she also talked with her grandma on the phone and exchanged many issues, such as learning methods, relationships between men and women, future choices, etc. It can be said that they talked about everything.Grandma also sent her some books that she thought would be useful.Li Arfei has completely regarded her grandma as her spiritual mentor.

Yu Fan got the last few emails from grandma.

Li Yanfei: "Grandma Zhang, I'm going to take the college entrance examination soon, and I have to make final preparations. Maybe I won't be able to send emails to you. Thank you for your encouragement on the phone last time. My heart is more determined, and I will definitely work hard to complete it." Our agreement! To be admitted to the university in my heart! To find my own stage!"

Grandma: "Come on. Grandma, I have to go to a far, far place recently, and I may not be able to send emails or answer calls for a while. Don't worry if you can't find Grandma Zhang. Just concentrate on preparing for the exam. No matter Zhang Wherever you go, grandma will cheer for you."

Yu Fan looked at the time. At that time, his grandma was in the terminal stage of cancer and was dying. Maybe grandma knew that her time was running out, so she told Li Arfei in advance that she was going to a far, far place.In other words, grandma didn't tell Li Arfei that she had cancer until she was dying, perhaps because she was worried that Li Arfei would be distracted and affect the college entrance examination.Hey, Yu Fan sighed, what a kind grandma.

After this email, there was no communication between the two for two consecutive months.Two months later, it was Li Arfei who sent: "Grandma Zhang, I have finished the exam!"

But grandma never wrote back, never again...

In the days that followed, Li Argon would send an email to her grandma from time to time.At first, I anxiously asked Grandma Zhang when she would come back, but later I didn't know if she had a premonition, so I didn't send any follow-up messages.Instead, post some recent updates about her life.She was successfully admitted to the university, how did she not adapt when she first entered the university, her classmates cared about her disability, she joined the club with her own efforts, the club performance was very successful, and she became a class committee member Pity her to adore her...

Grandma's mailbox seems to have become her diary, a diary with only herself and her spiritual mentor.Yu Fan reads her mental journey along the way, and also deeply feels the growth of this little girl. She does not avoid her "flaws", but faces them bravely and lives positively.But she also often tells her troubles, hoping that grandma can give answers, even if this hope becomes more and more elusive as time goes by.

Yu Fan understood now, grandma hoped that she would reply to Li Yanfei's email and explain to her clearly what she hadn't explained.

Yu Fan took a deep breath, it seemed that it was time to tell this little girl the truth.Start typing.

"Hello, Li Yanfei, my name is Yu Fan, and I am the grandson of your grandma Zhang. When I saw this email, grandma Zhang had passed away for four years. Today, I accidentally found the will that my grandma gave me. She told me to give you Reply, and also left your account number and password. I believe she must be very pleased to see you in another world. You don’t have to wait for this mailbox to reply. I wish you better and better in the days to come , take care." Yu Fan finished writing.

Yu Fanzai read it twice carefully, and there are basically no loopholes.Yu Fan moved the mouse, ready to send.

When the mouse was close to the "send" button, Yu Fan stopped and began to think, is this what grandma really meant?If grandma really wanted me to tell Li Argon the truth, why didn't she just write "tell the truth" in the letter?
Grandma must have other meanings.

Yu Fan clicked on his inbox and started to study these emails again.

After a closer look, there is indeed something strange.Li Arfei wrote in an e-mail asking questions: "Grandma Zhang, you promised to be my spiritual mentor for the rest of your life.", "Grandma Zhang, you must keep your promise... Be my lighthouse for the rest of your life.", "Thank you Grandma Zhang, I don't know how bad my life would be without you."...

Lifelong "mentor"?Grandma made such a promise?
While straightening the computer screen, Yu Fan thought, "If grandma is still there, how would she deal with it?" Yu Fan began to think about grandma's way of thinking, and he became more and more curious about the real purpose of this task left by grandma.

This task is written on the back of the book cover with the word "Cheng", why is it the second task instead of the first?Could it be that……

Yu Fan suddenly realized what was the mystery. The first task was to write on the cover of the book with the word "virtue". The book cover contained the Tao Te Ching. The task was to guide Yu Fan to Aunt Lu's past, to repay grievances with virtue, and to resolve the previous psychological shadow. .Then the book cover with the word "sincerity" is "Zhu Zi's Family Instructions". The whole book actually expounds a committed family education theme.In other words, grandma's real purpose is not to let Yu Fan tell Li Argon the truth, but to let Yu Fan continue to fulfill grandma's promise - to be her lifelong beacon?
Li Yanfei lost a leg at the most beautiful age, which is a disaster for this girl who loves to dance. Her heart must be more fragile than others.Yu Fan remembered a document about the psychological characteristics of disabled people that Brother Yi had read. Disabled people generally have stronger self-awareness than ordinary people, and have stronger psychological compensation capabilities than normal people (generally disabled people will Due to some of their own physiological defects, they will make functional compensation in some other way).

To put it simply, they need external support more than normal people. If the "nutrition" of their hearts is directly removed, it will be difficult for them to recover as quickly as normal people. Li Yanfei is only 20 years old, which is the critical age and the outlook on life , At the moment when values ​​are established, if you tell her the truth that her grandma has passed away now, it is tantamount to extinguishing her lighthouse and letting her navigate the social ocean full of danger and temptation.

That's why grandma chose to be her spiritual mentor all the time, another "leg" to support her walking.

Yu Fan smiled, he deleted the words he typed before, and re-typed: "Girl, I'm sorry, grandma has been away for a long time. Now, grandma is back."

　The flower-giver is surrounded by flowers, and the thorn-planter is surrounded by thorns——Ti-6Al-4V
　　
　
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