Thank you for making me who I like

Chapter 13 You Taught Me to Hold the Crown Calmly and Firmly

Chapter 13 You Taught Me to Hold the Crown Calmly and Firmly (3)
The ban on entering the school dormitory is at 10:30 in the evening, so I have the task of opening the door for him who came back late.He would lend me his Sony CD player.To be honest, I was used to listening to pirated tapes, this was the first time I listened to genuine albums.That album was called "Qilixiang", and I still remember all the songs in it.Lying on my bed in the dark with my headphones on, I contemplated the future, the orange covers of CDs spinning in the machine, and I seemed to see hurricanes, tides, and fires.

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Knowing that I like reading books, Ah Quan gave me a rechargeable desk lamp on my birthday.

Throughout the following summer, I developed the habit of listening to CDs and reading books with a rechargeable desk lamp. As long as the mobile phone next to my pillow vibrated, I would get out of bed to find slippers, and run downstairs with my upper body and underwear on.In the hallway of the dormitory where the lights are turned off, the only sound is the empty footsteps from my slippers.After opening the red wooden door, you can see his smiling face and the full sky behind him.

In winter, Ah Quan had a girlfriend named Zhou Ying who studied art with him.I swear I have never seen such a beautiful girl, she is just like described in a certain poem or song, with a soft voice and a different kind of sadness.

On weekends, Zhou Ying will come to our school to watch Ah Quan play football, and I will accompany her.That was the only time Jingqiu had to wear a sweater in winter. I remember the sky was very bright, a little wet gray, and the air was a little cold.Aquan was running hard on the playground, and I took out the CD player and Zhou Ying listened to songs together by the playground.

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I enjoyed being the light bulb between the two of them, and it seemed to be part of their relationship, and I even got involved in the conversation about going to college in the same city.They are all art students. It is almost not a problem to go to a key university with good grades in school. My grades are in the middle and lower reaches of the whole school. It would be good to go to a decent undergraduate school, but at that time I was determined to follow They are together.

I thought that the three of us would maintain the same posture through puberty and even beyond, but in fact the human situation is very pitiful. We have imagination and are full of expectations for the future, but what we cannot control is our own life.

Two months before the college entrance examination, Ah Quan's father died of a myocardial infarction in the middle of the night due to overwork.His mother has also been in poor health.At that time, most people in the city thought that the purpose of going to school was to make money, not to mention that art is a high-risk industry, and now there is a good business in front of Ah Quan, which should be a hundred times better than going to school, let alone now The heavy responsibility of taking care of his mother also fell on his shoulders.

On the day of the funeral, at the banquet in the entire courtyard, Aquan was surrounded by relatives, friends and father's business partners, all talking about asking Aquan to take good care of his own business.That afternoon, Ah Quan told us privately that he really wanted to smash their heads.

For Ah Quan, realizing that he can no longer paint is a very difficult and realistic thing.

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At night without a CD player, I always feel that the mobile phone next to the pillow will suddenly vibrate in the middle of the night, creaking in the summer night.

After the college entrance examination, I visited Ah Quan once.He lives on the second floor of the shop, where there are bright red and emerald green vegetables downstairs, and there is a fishy smell in the air.Every morning at 03:30, he would get up to pack and distribute vegetables to various parts of the city, and he hadn't touched a paintbrush for a long time.He told me he was going to age from now on, quietly at first, then with great fanfare, his future and dreams had been cremated with his father in the crematorium, he could hear something soft fall into A muffled sound at the bottom of the pit.

Later we stood on the balcony on the second floor and looked at the rooftops of the city for a while.The roofs of this small town give people a sense of danger and beauty. Everything is light brown or yellow, like a bright earth or a shining desert.In the past, Ah Quan always felt that it only took one hour to drive from Jingqiu to Xiamen, and he could see the vast sea and vast sky from Xiamen.At that moment his expression was like that of a seagull on a church bell tower preparing to fly out to sea.Unexpectedly, Ah Quan could no longer cross such a short distance. The CD player behind him opened his mouth on the bedside, but there was no sound.

When I left Ah Quan's house, I realized that the person I regarded as my target had changed into another appearance.There is no better Ah Quan, not here, not there.

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After the results came out, Zhou Ying decided to go to Beijing, and I decided to go to Wuhan.We seem to have reached a consensus that we did not choose a coastal city. Maybe there will be an ocean only where Ah Quan is in our hearts.

At the moment when I stepped on the train bound for Wuhan, on the noisy aisle, I saw a gray but bright sky that cleared up after the rain. The light was like a tide, separating the sky from the earth, and separating yesterday from today. .

I knew I had a chance, a chance to move forward with my dream, a chance to surpass Ah Quan.But I didn't feel happy. Instead, there was a feeling of losing something that stimulated my eyeballs. I decided to take this train, carrying Ah Quan's expectations for the future, and not looking back.

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Now, four years later, I am sitting in Quan's car with the windows down and the wind blowing his hair.The co-pilot was a strange girl. Ah Quan and Zhou Ying broke up two years ago.He told me that he bought a house with a view in the city center and was planning to get married at the beginning of next year. I told him that I was still working hard to become a great writer.I observed Ah Quan's appearance in the dark, and I couldn't find the expression that made me yearn for and chase after him when he was young.

All the lights in the factory near the train station went out at the end of the day. On the side of the street where the phoenix flower was newly opened, I saw young Ah Quan on the side of the road. Our vehicle passed him and accidentally honked the horn.

shared your youth with a kind of humility
Bridgeside Red Medicine
Xifangduruo, a man in the mountains

Girls who show their sharpness when they first arrive are often like epiphyllum, blooming overnight and dying overnight, far inferior to those who slowly appear in front of you in the future.When we are deeply attracted involuntarily, there is too much attention and envy in the eyes and brows.It's like, envious of Fang Duruo.

During the military training of freshmen, the neat and uniform camouflage uniforms could not conceal the beauty of the girls in Fang Duruo's school.The belt of the military uniform was tied on the camouflage uniform to tightly wrap the waist. The tall girl raised her hand to wipe the sweat from her forehead under the scorching sun, and her fair face was slightly red.Looking around, Fang Duruo is far from being the most pitiful girl.

But Julia found out about Fang Duruo.Just when the instructor gave the order to rest and all the girls were sitting on the floor in disarray, Fang Duruo walked unhurriedly to the edge of the playground. She took out a handkerchief and wiped her face, then took out a water glass and took two sips of water slowly. .The boy who delivered the water asked Fang Duruo if he wanted to refill the water when he passed by. She shook her head politely and said "thank you".You must know that under the scorching heat and high temperature, almost everyone can't wait to grab water to drink, and few people are like Fang Duruo.Julia discovered this scene when she was desperately getting together with a group of people but was ruthlessly eliminated.Fang Duruo's expression was calm, and he looked at Julia with eyes that were aloof and somewhat sad.She smiled slightly and turned her head away, like a condescending princess.

Julia suddenly remembered that when Fang Duruo introduced herself on the first day of school, Fang Duruo said: "My name is Fang Duruo, and I am from the mountains. Fang Duruo is like Fang Duruo, but this side is not the other side." The foundation is good.But this time, Fang Duruo made Julia feel as if she had been humiliated.

julia without romeo
In the first class of each course in the new semester, teachers like to play with the rosters in their hands, picking out strange and novel names.Julia is hot because teachers usually pronounce it, Juliet.

But my dear, Julia is not Juliet.Julia has dry hair, stands up slowly and bows her head, and is always overly reserved and petty; she swallows words while speaking, and the answers you can hear are always weak.Soon everyone got bored. When the roll call was held in the last class of the first day, everyone lay down on the table in unison, no longer curious about Julia.

Sometimes being expected is a kind of happiness, but losing expectation is a kind of out-and-out loneliness.In the evening when everyone went out for dinner, Julia sat alone in the classroom. She wrote in her diary: "I am not Juliet, my name is Julia. Also, my home is in the village below, not in England."

The whispers of the classmates that day and the later impatience let Julia know the story of Juliet bit by bit.Juliet, the jewel in the palm of the Capulet family, has a complete set of court attire, and her speech and behavior are the demeanor of a princess.She became the protagonist at the 13-year-old banquet, and fell in love with the young and handsome Romeo at first sight.But 17-year-old Julia broke the fantasy of all the students in the first year of high school on the first day of school, and wiped out their expectations in one fell swoop.

This is exactly the opposite of Fang Duruo.Fang Duruo's thick bangs are under her bangs, her black eyes are bright, and she smiles when she speaks; her lips are thin, and her voice is so pleasant when they are pressed together, her standard Mandarin is like the anchor of a radio station.The most enviable thing is that every time the life committee member opens the mailbox in the class, there is always a letter from a certain army to Fang Duruo lying quietly in the mailbox.Julia has seen the handwriting on the envelope, with a handsome face, powerful and generous, and the five big characters "Fang Duruo's personal invitation" seem to be engraved on the envelope.And Fang Duruo always took letters indifferently, opened them, put them back in the envelopes and threw them into the drawer.Later, everyone began to spread that the "brother soldier" who wrote to Fang Duruo regularly every month was a boy who liked Fang Duruo.Some people have also seen the photos enclosed in the envelope, wearing a neat military uniform, with the unique freedom and handsomeness of a soldier, with a clean and bright smile.

The young 17-year-old, when he has the upper hand in pure love, will be condescending as he pleases, and he doesn't care about the stationery and photos sent over the mountains and rivers.That is the pride and willfulness of a 17-year-old girl.Julia is not Fang Duruo, she does not have such a prominent capital to be proud of, the last sentence she wrote in her diary in the first year of high school is: Julia has no Romeo.

orchid
When she was a sophomore in high school, Julia studied liberal arts. She didn't expect Fang Duruo to also study liberal arts.Because Fang Duruo majored in both arts and sciences, studying science is the treatment of all the stars in the science class, but she prefers to study liberal arts.It's just that Julia doesn't like Fang Duruo, and if she insists on finding an excuse, it's just her faint smile when grabbing the water.

Julia worked harder in her studies. She practiced Mandarin hard if her Mandarin was not up to par. When there were too many people, she had to stand up and speak, and she corrected what everyone said was wrong. I did the materials three times from the beginning to the end, and then the materials were all overwritten so that the title could not be seen clearly; I also heard people say that Julia’s sleep at night was all about the prime meridian passing through France.I have to admit that Julia is coveting the 200 yuan inspirational scholarship, and she knows what that 200 yuan means to her.

After the chirping of cicadas in summer, the autumn wind blows the sky high and whitens the clouds with coolness.It's just that Julia was not No.1 in the final exam of the second year of high school. She lost a scholarship of 1 yuan with such a small Arabic numeral of 200 point. No.1 is Fang Duruo, only 1 point more than Julia, but it is still 1 point more.In the office, the teacher said euphemistically: "The original intention of the inspirational scholarship is to reward students from poor families but with excellent grades." Fang Duruo still pursed his lips, but he was firm: "I just strive for what I deserve, and I don't want to get it." Give up." The evening in September was already cool, and the plane trees outside the window kept shaking, but Julia, who was standing aside, felt that the air was frozen and time was frozen, and Fang Duruo's words were buzzing in her ears.She said softly, "Teacher, I'm going out first."

For Fang Duruo, who is from a wealthy family, the 200 yuan may be just a skirt, a backpack, and a ticket to an amusement park, but she is unwilling to give it up.Why did she let it out?Du Ruo was originally a kind of vanilla, like the orchid in the empty valley, which experienced wind and rain, and then became tenacious and persistent.This is what Fang Duruo told Julia. She chased him out of the office and told Julia word by word.In the sky, Huoshaoyun provoked half the sky.Julia suddenly rejoiced that she did not refute Fang Duruo's decision. The scholarship given up was a kind of charity, more like an insult.

that is an amazing photo
The third year of high school came with a strong smell of gunpowder, and everyone got used to the letters sent to Fang Duruo in the usual exams.The biggest reason for this may be that Fang Duruo has maintained the legend of being the first in the grade, while Julia has been chasing non-stop like a knight, but has repeatedly ranked second.Everyone has seen the photo that Fang Duruo posted on the desk later. She said that it was a magical photo, because of the photo, she had the courage to accompany thousands of troops across the single-plank bridge without fear.Everyone laughed. Although the boy in the photo wore a series of military medals and smiled gently, but at the age of 19 Feiyang, what he blurted out was the power of love.

Julia sat in the front row and did not speak. She watched the sycamore leaves falling from the window, falling so lightly on the ground without making a sound. Like the sycamore leaves, she was quietly obliterated.But maybe, maybe it really was a magical photo.

In the final exam in the winter of the third year of high school, Fang Duruo's grades unexpectedly slipped, and everyone found that the magical photo had disappeared.Everyone thought that Fang Duruo would make a fuss, or at least cry, but she just searched for it as usual, and then quietly changed the test paper.I heard from Fang Duruo that a person with a truly strong heart doesn't need those things.Julia didn't understand, but she was very calm, and she didn't get No.1, how could she take the photo?

Who guides the full youth

That year, Julia had the last laugh in the college entrance examination, and she was admitted to a higher education institution with the No.1 score in the city.When the legend of Julia is being talked about in the streets and alleys, no one talks about Juliet anymore.It turns out that when a person is good enough, his name is the most important weight to weigh his achievements.

In the hot August sun, Fang Duruo hugged Julia, and she said: "Congratulations, you are really outstanding."

This hug made Julia feel overwhelmed. She scratched her dry hair, lowered her head and said, "If you hadn't lost that photo, maybe you would still be No.1." Fang Duruo heard Julia start to answer in a low voice, and suddenly He laughed loudly: "Do you really believe it? How could it be a magical photo?" Julia didn't know it, and Fang Duruo said, "That's my brother's photo. He is a very good soldier. In order to Urging me to study hard, he wrote to me every month, and I took my brother as a role model, so I pasted the photo on the table." Julia asked again: "So, even if someone really took your brother's photo on purpose, You won't be angry, will you?" Fang Duruo smiled: "I hope the photo will bring good luck to the person who finds it."

Julia knew that she had been pardoned.

In fact, when we were growing up, we always met outstanding and dazzling people. We kept chasing after them, but we always crawled in their shadows.Those low self-esteem and sensitivity let us learn to work hard, and when we gradually become better, we realize that they have guided our youth, and that is the weather vane along the way.

Now, Julia would put away that magical photograph of someone's youth she had shared with a kind of humiliation, but ultimately filled with youth.

Be Queen, Not Cinderella

Xiao Fenglian

Ms. Guo is a plain-looking Sichuan girl, with a chubby face and radiant pimples. She speaks Sichuan Mandarin and makes a lot of jokes.In her freshman year, she ran for class cadres and various departments of the student union, all of which ended in failure.What's outrageous is that she was rejected when she confessed to a sophomore senior. His reason was: I like men.

In the eyes of ordinary people, Ms. Guo is a failure, but Ms. Guo is an optimist, humming a little song every day, as if she has never encountered any setbacks.

When I first went to college, among the four girls in our dormitory, the eldest was very popular in the student union; the second was a flower, and was surrounded by boys all day long, dating constantly; and I was busy coding every day , When I have a holiday, I go out to travel, but I am happy and free.During that time, everyone ignored Ms. Guo. I vaguely remember that she went out with her schoolbag every morning and came back after ten o'clock in the evening.

In the second semester of the freshman year, we gradually got used to the relaxed and free life of the university. We all became lazy and slacked off, sleeping until the sun was up in the morning, skipping classes was commonplace, and spent a lot of time in the dormitory playing games and browsing Taobao.Miss Guo still leaves early and returns late.Because there are few points of intersection in life, our relationship with Ms. Guo has gradually become estranged.

One day, we suddenly noticed the changes in Ms. Guo - she became thinner, more beautiful, more temperamental, she spoke Mandarin fluently, and she was full of vigor and confidence.

(End of this chapter)

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