Thank you for making me who I like

Chapter 19 Facing life gracefully and brightly is because of you (4)
The first class of the second day is physics class.I forcefully opened my red and swollen eyes, waiting for the violent storm, even one minute before the physics teacher walked into the classroom, I was still praying: God, don’t let the physics teacher see that it is an acrostic!

The physics teacher had a rare smile on his face, and his opening remarks were even more ingenious: "Before the new lesson today, I will make a couplet: power, gravity, friction, force and force. If you have a couplet, please raise your hand!"

Classmates, you look at me, I look at you, no one can figure out why the physics teacher doesn't teach physics, but why he wants to publish such a couplet, and can't help whispering for a while.

The physics teacher saw that I was still refusing to look up, and the students couldn't match the second line for a while, so he directly clicked on me: "Can you match the second line?"

"Family, friendship, teachers and students are in love with each other." I blurted out without thinking.

Originally, after the second couplet was released, it should stop here.But whether it is the "toilet incident", "door blocking incident", or "post bar incident", I feel guilty.I couldn't help explaining: "Whether it is power, gravity, or friction, they are all forces that interact with each other. If you give it a force, it will definitely give you another force. This is just like family, friendship, teacher-student relationship, as long as you Give him a love, and he will definitely give you a love back. Teacher, please believe me, no matter it is gravitational friction, I will take it as the motivation for my own learning!"

"Okay, please applaud, students!" The students were stunned for a moment, seeing the physics teacher taking the lead in applauding, and then applauding in unison.

This is the warmest applause I have ever heard in my life.Amidst the applause, I finally couldn't help but shed tears of regret.

The students may not understand why my tears flow, but I believe my "stupid bear" teacher must understand.This is not because I am sad because my physics teacher and I lost in the PK, but because he is moved by the tolerance that only a father may have!
"I'm sorry, my stupid bear teacher!" After the applause, I finally had the courage to say what I wanted to say most in my heart.

Years are long, clothes are thin

Nine students
In the early morning, lying alone on the bed, only the shallow breathing of my roommate was left in my ears, rising and falling.I wondered whether the jasmine clump in the north building was in full bloom, and whether it was using the warm bright yellow to paint the colors of spring, interweaving the wall with amorous feelings.

The night wind howled across the fields, disturbing the dream of a pool of water.The vegetable seedlings in the field tilted their heads, and I seemed to hear the sound of the season quietly leaving in the evening wind when the night fell.And I can't back down.I don't know if I'm sending away a day, a season, a year, or a lifetime.

We are always eroded by the complicated past under the cover of night, and we cannot sleep peacefully.You know, in fact, every memory only stays in that short moment, and that moment flies by, and all the pages are burning, bright and warm.Because of that moment, we love them forever, even though they are quickly reduced to ashes.

On such an ordinary night, I was tossed and turned suddenly, attacked and entangled by some scenes, caught off guard and unable to escape.It turns out that there are still so many trivial and unintentional details stored in my mind, they are cross-arranged and pieced together into colorful pictures, either warm or cruel, sharp or soft.

I saw that little self sitting in time, perhaps holding a copy of "Alice in Wonderland" with a red cover in his hand, or "La Traviata" that I didn't quite understand at that age.There are pink flowers on my head, my childish face is serious and quiet, and every pore is so clear under the sun.Maybe he even frowned slightly, pretending to be mature, making people laugh.At that time, we were ignorant and fearless, every dime was wealth, and wearing a bed sheet was a princess.Our pride is to stick the certificates in the most conspicuous position, and that never-ending album of stickers carries all the fun of childhood.

Then the camera turns.Dad slapped his belt angrily and chased you in the neighborhood alleys. You yelled to hide, jumped over flower beds, and jumped down the stairs. When you turned around, you looked like a teenager.Youth casually sprinkles a piece of acne on your forehead, but you still don't understand the meaning of youth.You met a group of new friends, and spent a year chasing after reading "Kunlun" and "Sou Shen Ji", and also put away "Digimon" and watched "Mobile Suit Gundam SEED".At that time, you felt that the high school entrance examination was still far away, and happiness was only the thickness of six magazines per month.

You see, we just turned over memories like this, but only a few words.You happily told me about your high school reunion, but I never told you what happened to me later.I always want to forget those helpless and gloomy years, and I always hope that when I look back, there are only sunny days left.I didn't tell you what terrible people I've met that hung over a few years of my life like a dark cloud.I have tasted the warmth and coldness of human relationships early on, and the fickleness of the world; I have also become withdrawn and perverse, extreme and indifferent.But I am very fortunate that those sarcastic remarks, bullying and insults have made me strong enough, so that no matter how bad the situation is, I have never betrayed my inner beliefs.

On this night many years later, I seemed to see my young self hiding alone in the empty dormitory, weeping silently, then wiped away the tears and straightened my spine.

Thank you for giving me setbacks in life, let me know: this is a beautiful and cruel world.

I gradually understand that deep emotions can be a momentary thing or a lifetime thing.Everyone meets different people at different times, we shake hands, say hello, and say goodbye.

Now, I study and live peacefully, write papers, and go shopping occasionally.In the afternoon when the weather is good, I will find a small shop, order a brightly colored drink, and let my thoughts drag.Occasionally, when I think of the past, it is full of beautiful lights and shadows.After being surprised, he just smiled casually to himself and said that it turned out to be an old thing.

There is always something forgotten in the memory of others, and forgetting makes us strong.

The years fly by like a snowstorm, and the gully of life lies in time and space.I finally shed all the edges and corners and shook hands with the years.

Loneliness is a mild cold when I was young
Zhu Zhu
I have been a very lonely child since I was a child.I remember when I was about 12 years old, I had short hair and wore a white shirt with a half collar designed by my mother, and a pair of light purple suspender skirt pants that my aunt sent me and sewed for me according to the popular style. Put on a big straw sun hat and a pair of beige platform sandals.When I first entered junior high school, I was undoubtedly the most fashionable female student in our humble rural middle school. In addition, my grades were unattainable. Walking quietly among the bustling crowd on campus, I was always the loneliest that one.

I like to read. The place where I often go to read is under the stone bridge of the small river behind the house. Especially in summer, I spend all afternoon there.Soaking barefoot in the cool river water, the fragrance of aquatic plants rises from the soles of my feet and spreads all over my body, which makes my mind extraordinarily clear.Holding a book in my hand, even if I just flipped through a few pages, the pictures and texts in the book are deeply imprinted in my memory.

For me, reading alone is the best way to learn.I like to go to the reading room and read the books I brought with me.Often in a corner far away from my seat, some of them write quietly like me, while others cover their faces with books and bask in the sun leisurely by the window.Everything is so quiet, so quiet that only time is passing by quietly.However, the later ignorance proved that maybe I didn't read any books seriously there at all, but I was just used to guarding my own loneliness by myself.

For a while, I thought I was suffering from severe depression. When I opened my eyes, I couldn’t see anyone, as if I was the only one left in the world, and I had infinite anxiety.I imagined that when I was crossing the road, my body was hit by a speeding car like a light and fluttering leaf; I imagined that when I crossed the bridge, the stone bridge would suddenly break, and I would fall into the water like a white butterfly .I dreamed that I fell into a bottomless black hole, dreamed that I was buried in thick black soil.I listen to Wang Feng's songs all day long, knowing that love is like a bullet that has completely penetrated my heart; I know that my life is two sides of a coin, one is crazy and the other is silent.I am lonely and don't know how to save myself.

I began to climb mountains alone, talk to trees, and listen to the sound of the wind—that was the response from another world.I went to see the fish in the pond. They shook their heads and tails, which made me feel alive.I also get up in the middle of the night to look at the stars, I think they are many pairs of distant eyes.Gradually, I fell in love with shopping, watching movies, and listening to the radio. I began to understand that watching the crowds and listening to people's voices is also a very fulfilling thing.I began to like parties, cafes, parks, streets, bustle and even noise, although I was still the quietest shadow in the background.

I think, if one day I engage in writing, I will go to a quiet small coffee shop like Duras.I would sit by the window, and when I looked up I could see the street and watch people go by.In my spare time, I would also sit with a large group of people around a warm fire, drinking tea and eating hot pot, as described in Wang Anyi's book.

Loneliness is a mild cold when I was young. I have a wonderful prescription to cure this cold. When I walked through this lonely youth, I suddenly realized that my whims and the little things I was immersed in. The style, the warm dream of being a writer, and the little sorrows in the depths of time have all been polished into an old face that I will never forget after many years...

Junior sister, you don't just study in college.
Wicca
Dear Junior Sister:

Just yesterday, I heard you talk about your freshman life on the phone all night, and finally you asked me a question-how to study well in college?

It was June, and the phoenix flowers were blooming. When we returned to the campus, we could see graduates wearing bachelor uniforms taking photos everywhere.Everything in the past is vivid in my mind, and I think back to the four years of college late at night, so I decided to write this long letter to you.

The purpose of entering university is not just to study

Dear junior sister, you asked me what is the use of going to university. I think the biggest function of university is to turn us into a young man who understands system analysis and execution ability, not just holding a few satisfactory answers.

During my four years in college, some people around me have changed from dull and seldom-spoken to eloquent debate team members, some have changed from simple and unpretentious little girls to girls who know how to dress, some have changed from desperate Saburo to entrepreneurial experts, and some have changed from physical Coordination becomes the backbone of the dance team, and some people go from entertaining themselves to forming their own band and brand management.Such changes are not directly related to reading, but enrich their lives.That's what I'm trying to say, a huge and real function of the university - transformation.

The relaxed university environment allows us to realize dreams that cannot be realized in the rigorous and stressful middle school study environment.This tolerant environment allows us to stretch our strengths and become more aware of our potential.

My fondest memory of college is that we started a magazine together.At that time, we rode bicycles to take forms to the venue management office for stamping at noon, distributed magazines after class when the traffic was the most crowded, ate cold packed lunches after working together, and discussed content together in the small gazebo at night. That magazine is very immature, but it prints the footprints of our youth.That magazine didn't get any of us paid, but thinking about it still remembers the joy.If I didn't do many things when I was young, I might not be able to taste the joy and sweetness again when I entered the society.After you graduate, you will find that many people’s regrets after graduation are not in their studies, but in some things they wanted to do but did not do.

Even if you don't fall in love, youth will be squandered
Next, let's talk about feelings.You said you have a boy you like, but you are eager to fall in love, but you dare not try.The rare thing about college romance lies in the simplicity and purity of each other and letting nature take its course.

Love is not a compulsory course in college. We have passed the age of burying our thoughts in our hearts. If you like that boy so much, you might as well tell him openly. The worst thing is that the two of you will become ordinary friends.We often increase the distance between people, but if you try to measure the distance, maybe it is not as far as we think.

Of course, if one day you fall in love, don't leave the group, or even leave school early to live together.You have to find something other than love that will keep you on your feet, and you have to be an individual in order to love and be loved.You still need to have your own circle, hobbies and ideals.Of course, don't be afraid of meeting the wrong person, youth is meant to be squandered.Even if we don't fall in love, our youth will also be squandered.

The best quality is tolerance

In college, what makes us grow up is not only teachers who teach by example, lovers who are caring, but also classmates who meet by chance.

You are an only child and have never lived on campus.You have been wronged in the dormitory, and you feel that your roommates are all black-bellied.Dear junior sister, not everyone needs to be nice to us.There is no unreasonable love in the world, and there is no unreasonable hatred. When we are angry, we might as well look at ourselves, why me?
If they wake up early and move loudly, it may be that they are trying hard to cherish every day; if they are too stingy, it may be that they are struggling; with a cold expression, it may be that they have encountered something unhappy.

Of course, I don't deny that there are bad people on campus.When I was in my junior year, one day when I went to the bathroom, a girl I didn’t know was walking with hot water and listening to music. Suddenly, a big pot of hot water was poured on me by accident.I had extensive burns on my upper body and had to take medicine and change dressings every day. For two months, I had to be taken care of by my roommates and friends even when I combed my hair and changed my clothes.For such a big incident, the perpetrator who was safe and sound was unwilling to pay even a penny.There are bad-hearted people in this world, and there are also warm-hearted people.Those friends who take care of me to drink porridge and change clothes are the treasures in my life journey.Just like you must have friends who care about you, they are the most important people around you.

Every flower has its own posture

Now let’s talk about the career planning issue you mentioned.Maybe you are looking forward to this part and I will give you many suggestions, but forgive me for subjectively thinking that the freshman career planning is still early.You can first discover your own characteristics and potential in the rich courses, activity environment, and internship opportunities on campus.Think about what your strengths are compared to others?If you want to work in your own profession, you should exchange experience with your brothers and sisters in the same profession. If you want to be a civil servant, you can take the practice test and application as soon as possible. If you want to be a teacher, you can take the teacher qualification certificate.In fact, there are countless people around us who are engaged in jobs that have nothing to do with their original majors. Some people study electronics but do Japanese translation, and some people study chemistry but do financial management... Just like when we plan to travel long distances, you must first know your shoe size , and then pick a pair of suitable shoes to start planning the route.

What if you don't love your major?Some people have said that you can't not specialize in one profession, nor can you only specialize in one profession.The former is an essential skill for our survival, while the latter is what will help you choose your career.Just like the human resource management you studied is a good major, before you have no clear goal, don't rush to change majors, it is also a good choice to try to study a double degree.I used to feel that the subjects were boring, so I went to audit the courses of the school’s School of Communication. I have taken professional courses from the Department of Journalism to the Department of Advertising, and I have benefited a lot.

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