The cool killer is the queen

Chapter 212

I never knew that losing someone is such a pain, it hurts so much that I wish I could die, I know it’s not possible, I belong to the entire Aoyu Kingdom, I can’t even decide my own destiny, some Sometimes I really want to be selfish, but I know it's impossible.

Xin'er is gone, if Su Wan'er is the happiest, isn't all of this also a trick by her?Why did such a virtuous and virtuous woman turn into such a vicious woman with a vicious heart? I admired Su Wan'er in the past. I admire her gentleness and generosity, but for Su Wan'er now, How could she become like this, sinister and vicious, she is also a person, such Su Wan'er makes me feel disgusted.

Above the court, the group of old men headed by Su Deshun forced me to make Su Wan'er my queen. Do these people really think that I am still a child with a yellow mouth and let them manipulate me?So I demoted Su Wan'er's imperial concubine position and cut off Su Deshun's military power, to let them know that I won't be a queen anymore, so I don't need to bother trying to figure it out.There is only Xiner in my heart, and only Xiner can be the queen of my Aoyu Kingdom.Sure enough, no one was proposing to me the matter of becoming a queen, and I was finally able to calm down.

For me, the current life is like a nightmare that I will never wake up from. I am immersed in the whirlpool of pain every day and cannot extricate myself. My Xiner, I miss her, but I dare not think of her, miss her , My heart will hurt, and my heart will hurt if I don't want her. Without her, it means that everything is gone, but I understand everything too late.

I don’t know how long this chaotic day has passed, but it was her, Feng Yuzhen, who woke me up in the end. I know that she has been silently by my side. Whenever I pass out, she will take care of me by my side. , and these days, she has been taking care of Che'er with all her heart. She never said a word of comfort to me, but she has always stayed by my side. She let me understand that even if Xin'er is gone But I still have to live on, because the entire Aoyu Country is still waiting for me, and my Che'er is also waiting for me.I can't be depressed like this.To the whole country with disregard.

I have returned to the early court, and I am busy with government affairs every day, but I am still like a walking dead. Only when I am with Che'er in my spare time at night, will I feel a little joy. Che'er is the witness of my love with Xin'er. Looking at that little face similar to Xin'er, it's like Xin'er is by my side, my heart gradually warms up, but I can't go back to how it was before.

To be honest, I am very grateful to Yu'er, she never asks me for favor, and also flatters me, and she is no longer self-willed, and sentimental. She seems to have changed a lot in a short time, which makes me very gratified. She gets along like a pair of friends. It can be seen that she is very soul-absorbing Che'er. She treats Che'er as a parent and child. I am very relieved to give Che'er to her. I never knew that it can be like this between a man and a woman. Get along, if possible, I hope my relationship with her can be maintained forever.

When I dream back at midnight, Xiner will always come to my dream. In the dream, she will always smile at me. Seeing this scene, I am crying in my heart. Xiner, are you forgiving me?I desperately want to keep this moment, but I always wake up at this time. The reality reminds me all the time that this is just a dream. Although it is a dream, it is the happiest time for me. If I meet her by chance, as long as I can get along with her in my dreams, it can also comfort my heart. The only thing I want to do now is to wait for Che'er to grow up quickly and pass on the throne to him, so that I can be freed from now on .

Xiner, will you wait for me?Waiting for me to find you, if there is an afterlife, will you still choose to love me and enjoy your life, if you can, I swear that I will never let go of your hand again, and I will protect you wholeheartedly for the rest of my life, no, It is life after life.

(End of this chapter)