The maid is the queen

Chapter 203

"So what if it's not suitable? There's nothing you can do for yourself. You have to adapt slowly. Now that I have a child in the palace, you won't understand what it's like to be a mother."

He lowered his head and looked at his slender hands: "I understand, but Zhiqiu, you will always be unhappy like this. I am used to watching the battles in the palace these days. Everything is aimed at you, Zhiqiu. Let's leave! Maybe your departure can bring them peace and quiet."

His words are so bright and gentle, I know what he means.

Suddenly feeling that he was really tired, he smiled faintly: "I think I accepted this fate."

How can a person live only for himself?Now I'm not alone, I reached out to hold his hand: "Thank you for thinking about me."

He held my hand with both hands, closed them tightly, and looked at the ground with a low and painful voice: "Son, what should I do to protect you?"

The words reached my heart, and I slowly leaned over, buried my head on his shoulder, absorbing the feelings that belonged to my father, as well as the warmth and care.

"Zhiqiu has grown up, and I have to face the bumpy road by myself, but Zhiqiu is very happy. I used to have nothing, but now I have a father and a child. I want to be content and happy. I have these enough to wear away My heart is suffering."

He patted my shoulder lightly, with tears in his eyes: "Mu Xue is not as good as you, Zhiqiu. If she hadn't been jealous, you wouldn't be here. Father is extremely guilty of you. If I came back then , none of this will happen.”

Of course there are no ifs in life, I sighed in my heart.

But I heard a slightly cold voice saying: "The relationship between Concubine Yun Gui and Duke Mu is really good."

He quickly straightened his back, stood up and saluted: "Long live the emperor."

Duke Mu also saluted, and said with a smile: "Is the dragon's body better recently, Your Majesty?"

"Thanks to Duke Mu, the genius doctor who healed the bone was not bad."

His hands were still tied with white gauze, and he was hanging in front of his chest with a jade board. Thinking about the fall, he was still like this. His eyes fell behind him, and he felt a pity that he didn't bring Xi'er out.

"It will be the best if it can heal the emperor's hand." Muyan replied modestly and gracefully.

He didn't speak anymore, but went to the imperial academy.

"Zhiqiu, ask dad to help you, see if he loves you, or really abandoned you, it always makes my heart a little bit cleaner."

"No need." I chuckled lightly, "I've already given up thinking about it."

"Maybe?" He raised his eyes, and there was some hope in his eyes: "Maybe there are factors from the Lu family."

My mind was still a little chaotic, but he actually opened his mouth and said: "Your Majesty, Mr. Mu wants to ask His Majesty about something."

"What's the matter?" He turned his head back and asked lightly.

"Zhiqiu is the daughter of Duke Mu. Duke Mu feels guilty towards him. Now that Zhiqiu is not in good health, he is unhappy in everything in the palace. Duke Mu wants to ask the emperor for Zhiqiu to return to Duke Mu's mansion to make up for the guilt he has suffered over the past ten years. .”

He thought for a while and said, "There is no such precedent in the palace."

"Mugong thinks, the emperor will not refuse. People in the palace have heard that Qiu has repeatedly harmed the emperor, and the prince today. Maybe once Zhiqiu leaves, these things will never happen again. Please let the emperor decide to let Mu Gong Bringing it back to Zhiqiu, it would be good to study the scriptures and recite the Buddha’s name, Mu Gong thinks that the Empress Dowager might agree with Mu Gong’s proposal.” He gave a long salute.

His eyes flicked around my face and said: "Concubine Yun Gui wants to become a monk?"

I didn't say anything, Duke Mu sighed first and said: "Gong Mu has been in the palace for a short time, and everything has to do with Zhiqiu. There is no outsider, so Duke Mu is not afraid to say it. Your Majesty, if there is no Mu Gong The public is responsible for Zhiqiu. The emperor fell off the horse and wanted to bring Zhiqiu to the Criminal Ministry for interrogation. In Mugong's view, the emperor hates Zhiqiu to the core, and if he wants to vent about her, he will always be more annoyed. If you want her to die, then please let the emperor let Zhiqiu out of the palace for Mugong's sake. My Mu family has the troops in the east. Mugong must teach Zhiqiu well, so as not to delay the development of the country. Then I will hand it over to the emperor to take care of it."

Dad, is it like this that you can want nothing for your own daughter?I can do it for my Xi'er, and he can do it for me. This is the so-called family affection. It's great. So I have these too.

It turned out that he wanted to kill me, but Mr. Mu stood up to me. Without him, I would see the cruelty of some facts.

He had a cold face, and his thin lips were tightly pressed.

I sighed and knelt down, and said crisply: "Yun Zhiqiu asks the emperor to let Yun Zhiqiu become a monk, and never ask about worldly affairs."

He turned around and left: "Let's discuss again." There was no rejection, no permission.

Duke Mu helped me up: "I sincerely want to take you away, at least outside, I can let you live the life you want to live."

"Daddy, thank you."

He was a little startled, he was not as smooth as I called daddy, a smile appeared on the corner of his lips, I lowered my head to prevent him from seeing the pain in my eyes, and hurried outside, he arrived at the Royal Academy, Maybe it's because of the children, but it's not necessary to pick them up.

After love and hatred, they are put to death. How many women who are handed over to the Ministry of Criminal Justice for review can die peacefully, and they will die if they can't be beaten a few times.

In the evening, when Xu and the baby came back, they were so tired that I stretched out their hands and asked me to blow them off, saying that they were going to learn horses.

"Father is scary today, I have to learn one thing, and it doesn't hurt to fall." The baby pointed to Xu's feet: "It's all green."

When I was washing his body, seeing the bruise really made my heart ache: "Xu, does it hurt?"

"Mother and Concubine, Xu is not in pain. Xu has to learn a lot of things, so that he can make Father happy, and when Father is happy, Mother and Concubine will be happy."

"No, Xu, this can't be said together. Come on, mother concubine rubs medicine on Xu, and after learning it, she won't fall off the horse again. Xu, if mother concubine leaves you, will you be sad?"

His dark pupils looked at me, blinked quickly, and hugged my neck: "Xu won't be sad, mother concubine, don't be sad."

"Hehe, concubine Xu has really grown up a lot. Concubine mother will take Xu to bed and sleep well. She will have a good rest and won't be in pain when she wakes up tomorrow. It's better to grow up in hardship than to be pampered. "I covered him with a quilt, and looked at him and sighed slightly. I was really thinking seriously about Mr. Mu's words. It might be better to leave.

Sleeping at night, I slept a little heavy, I just felt my head was heavy, my body was shaking my head vigorously, and I kept calling: "Concubine Yun, wake up, Concubine Yun, wake up."

"Why are you still awake?"

"Your Majesty, this medicine may have been given too much."

I opened my heavy eyelids, and slowly saw the person in front of me, the emperor, and Eunuch Chen.

"Zhiqiu." He called in a low voice.

My mind slowly came to my senses: "Is it a dream?"

"No, it's Zhen, it's Xia Junlan, Zhiqiu." He took my hand with his uninjured hand: "Zhiqiu, it's Xia Junlan, Xia Junlan."

Withdrawing my hand abruptly, even if it was a dream, I had to break him, so as not to let myself be so addicted, I got up and saluted calmly: "Long live the emperor."

"Concubine Yun Gui, please don't be angry with the emperor. The emperor made a fake show for the Lu family." Eunuch Chen said in a low voice, "The emperor is here to protect the empress from harm."

Alas, she smiled softly and looked up at him: "What do you think of me?"

"Don't leave, and live in the cold palace. When I slowly clear the Lu family, I will restore your identity." He looked at me, still a little eager.

But I shook my head: "Your Majesty, I don't want your favor, and I don't want to be a chess piece anymore. You let someone put the needle in the horse's hoof, right? Your Majesty, no matter it is true or not, some things hurt, and I can't make up for it in my life." Now, I return the jade ring finger to the emperor, just to cut off my love for you for the rest of my life."

There was hurt in his eyes: "I thought you could understand me."

"Why do you want me to understand you? I remember all the injuries I suffered bit by bit. I was waiting outside Zhenghua Palace in the snowstorm to see Xi. Well, I don't want to say these things. Your Majesty, please allow me Leaving the palace, the emperor's house is the most ruthless. It keeps saying it is for me, but I also know how much ambition the emperor has in it. One chess piece is enough. Emperor, I am not a small thing, I am a person , you are not a child, when I said I was going to leave, you were eager to stay, you not only want Duke Mu’s Eastern Army, you want everything, do you know what your heart looks like?”

Picking up the jade cup on the table, the cup slipped from his hand and fell to the ground crisply and shattered: "Yongwu can't be put together, it can't be perfect."

"You still know me so well." He looked at the broken pieces of jade on the ground: "What I want is exactly what you said, and when the Northwest lost power, I was surprised to realize that I had to hold on to my forces. You just said I hurt you, do you think I didn't let you hurt me? It's like an afterlife."

He must have heard what I said to Xia Juntang that day, and he started to treat me coldly after he came back. He lowered his head and picked up pieces of broken jade. His heart was broken, so he had to sweep them up by himself.

"Since the emperor cares so much, I don't think there is any need to look at each other and hate each other for the rest of my life."

In the silence and silence of a room, the spark in his eyes can ignite all love and hatred.

The voice was as cold as ice and snow: "Lianxi, don't you think about it too?"

"When did the emperor return Xi to my side? This palace belongs to the emperor. If the emperor says yes, he will give it. If he says no, he will take Xi away without making a sound. Do you think I am going too far and want to take Xi away?" Go to the Three Princes' Mansion, and never let me see you again. I don't know what you think in your heart. I have given up many thoughts, and I don't want to let my heart be exhausted. It’s a good time to say, maybe leaving will be more relieved.”

He turned around abruptly, but his injured hand hit the head of the bed. He gasped, and immediately bright red blood seeped out of the white gauze.

I just watched lightly, his injury, his pain has nothing to do with me.

Maybe it was my calmness, he became more and more annoyed, he twitched his brows despite the pain, and squeezed out two words: "Don't think about it."

(End of this chapter)