The maid is the queen

Chapter 246 Restoring memory
The queen mother became more and more unhappy, and her voice became more and more cold: "Your Majesty, is the queen's injury in vain? The most important thing about a woman is her face. How could she let it go like this if she scratched her face."

He said impatiently: "What is the queen going to do? We don't have to talk in circles, my queen. No matter what I do, I know what I do. I know who does what. There are some things. Don't force me, my mother, or you will be sad." It will be the queen mother, I don't want to be an unfilial emperor."

The queen mother was panting: "Crazy, Lan'er, you actually talk to Aijia and your queen mother like this for a woman?"

"I'm not crazy, mother, I understand what I'm doing, but my mother doesn't understand. My mother still doesn't understand that the Lu family and the Xia family cannot walk side by side."

The more he spoke, the more cold he became, and the queen mother also said coldly: "In short, the Ai family will not tolerate people who hurt the queen in the palace. The emperor's temperament has changed drastically, but for a woman, whether it is really worth it for you to weigh first .”

"I think about it very clearly. You don't have to be relentless, queen mother. You can kiss the queen as long as you want. The queen mother will definitely know what the queen does. Even if I betray the world, I have to protect Mu Qiu. I don't care. Some words will be repeated again, such things as who to kill and protect whom, I know clearly in my heart, if I don’t say it, it doesn’t mean I don’t know anything.”

When I heard him protecting me so much, my heart warmed up, and something flowed out of my heart, permeating so much that my heart softened.

After all, the queen mother had nothing to do with the emperor's obsession, she just let out a long sigh and led the people away.

When the emperor came in, he was not very heavy, and he didn't talk about the queen mother's business. He still ate, talked, and chatted with me relaxedly, and didn't show any thoughts to let me know.

But I also know that now that I am standing on the cusp of the limelight, I am more careful not to go anywhere, so I just stay obediently, not wanting the emperor to worry about me.

It was Lin Luoshui who told me after entering the palace, and asked me what was going on, so I realized how much pressure the emperor was under.

He asked me about hurting the empress, which made me feel heavy and powerless, so I said: "Do you believe it? It is said that I hurt the empress, I don't think I have to do that." I can't find a reason why I to hurt her.

He snorted coldly and raised his good-looking eyebrows: "I don't believe it, but there are so many people talking about it inside and outside the palace. If the emperor wants you to be sent out of the palace, the emperor will always have to make some judgments to come out." Convincing the people of the world, I have said too much, if the emperor does anything unfavorable to the Lu family, then the emperor will lose the hearts of the people and the people."

As soon as I heard it, I felt a little repetitive. I have never thought so much about it.

But Lin Luoshui comforted me again: "Don't worry, if the emperor doesn't handle these things well, he won't be worthy of being emperor anymore, right?"

"Yes." I smiled faintly.

He took my pulse: "The physical condition is not as good as I imagined, but there is nothing serious. I will give you an acupuncture today!"

"Honestly, I'm a little scared."

He lit the incense, and a faint smell came out of the incense burner: "There should be nothing wrong, maybe you can't recover, you have to try it, it's better before the emperor goes down, he is making me firm open."

Yes, he felt nervous about me too.

Incense can slowly captivate the mind. I don’t know how many times he called me, but I felt a little confused when I responded. At the end, I saw him take out the long needle in the kit, and his expression was not as relaxed as before.

The needles hit my head, and I felt it, but no pain.

I tried to grasp something tightly with my fingers, but my fingers were empty and I couldn't feel anything.

I close my eyes, I don't know what kind of life is waiting for me, whether I can restore the past memory, or I will always be like this, the blood in the brain must be cleared out no matter what, Lin Luoshui said that it will happen after a long time It is very dangerous to oppress the brain.

In the faint fragrance, someone seemed to be walking towards me, I looked at the hazy look, is it Xia Juntang and Xia Junlan?But I can't tell the difference between the two.

He fell asleep deeply, as if he hadn't slept in a long, long time.

When I woke up, it was already the setting sun, and Wanqing's yellow light shone in, which was a bit dazzling.

An enlarged handsome face anxiously appeared in my eyes, I looked at him for a long time, tears came out for some reason, I didn't even know who he was for a while.

He called me softly: "Zhiqiu."

"Your Majesty, let her rest for a while before she wakes up. She must be very tired. Do you remember? Everything is God's will and cannot be forced."

That handsome face did not look forward again, I closed my eyes and tried hard to think about who I am, the past unfolded in my mind one after another, when I was young, I fell, I bleed, I cried, I am strong, I laugh, and I remember my mother's appearance. It turns out that it is my past. It seems that I have searched for them thousands of times. Finally, I also know that I was like that when I was a child, that wooden building, that I remember the small window with wind, the wooden vase with flowers, and even the threshold where I like to sit.

My mother will call me Zhiqiu, she will look at me and smile, but her eyes still look at the existence of another person through me as before, and then a little longer, the mother is getting older, and the tingling pain in my heart, I carefully collected it, as long as she smiles, as long as she is good, I have nothing to think about. I am learning the piano outside Tianyun, my senior brother, the faint sound of the piano, and the score are all back. , I can remember clearly.

And the next thing is to meet him, he teased me, laughed at me, and Xia Juntang, I played the piano with me, with joy in our fingers, but turned to the sad face of Concubine Mu.

No, I can't think about it anymore. Subconsciously, I know that the next thing will be endless sadness. I don't want to think about it anymore, but my consciousness makes me have to think about it.

I closed my eyes tightly, and the tears flowed down. The injuries I had suffered, the joys I had enjoyed, and everything all unavoidably hit my heart.

I finally remembered him and the love and hate between us.

Xia Junlan, I loved you so hard, but I also hate you so desperately.

"Zhiqiu." After a long time, he whispered worriedly, and asked Lin Luoshui to come and show me if there was any discomfort in his body.

I didn't say a word, I didn't want to tell him that I remembered, Lin Luoshui came to get my pulse, I shrank into the bed, he sighed softly and said to the emperor in a low voice: "Princess Muqiu needs to rest , Your Majesty, if you don’t come back tomorrow, let her rest well. She’s always in the palace, and she can’t leave.”

He was silent. I believe that with his intelligence, he must be able to understand the meaning of Lin Luoshui's words.

I finally came back to this palace. Even with my eyes closed, I know the taste and atmosphere of the palace. How right Xia Juntang said, it would be good for me to leave the capital.

But why, I came back again, and now I remember, I still don't want to come back.No matter how good he was to me, I will never forget the past.

My Xi'er, my Xu, my baby, these my children used to be his pawns, let him pull me like a thread, and I will never be able to get rid of it, even if I am a nun with shaved hair, I can't get out of his grasp, Rolling down from the mountain, I can finally let go and never remember.

No wonder I am afraid, I still think of the pain in my lower abdomen, such a deep pain.

No wonder the fingers are so empty. I once wore a warm and crystal-clear jade ring finger on my thumb. Then no wonder I would be content with that status quo. It turns out that I know that people's memories have joys and sorrows.

I remember, but what can I do?The unforgettable pain entangled me deeply, my brows were pressed heavily, and the candle flame fluttered in the cold wind.

I sat up and suddenly missed Xi very much.

I asked the maid to bring Xi over, and the maid told me: "Master Muqiu, Prince Xi has already slept in Zhenghua Palace at this time, if I don't wait until dawn, I will come to Zhenghua Palace to bring Prince Xi."

It was still in Zhenghua Palace, a palace full of power, a palace that had cared for me, deceived me, and hurt me.

Hands inserted into the hair, the short hair of the shawl, what can't be cut is the pain of the past.

It turned out that during the rounds and turns, I couldn't get out of the palace, and when I shaved off my long hair, I thought I would never have love in my life, and I would never have any emotions or desires again.

"Princess Muqiu, drink some soup." The maid offered it up: "The emperor told the princess to drink some soothing soup when she wakes up, so that she can sleep until dawn."

I shook my head, sat on the bed with my arms around my knees, and didn't want to eat or drink anything.

Xia Junlan, you still don't want to let go of my hand, why are you doing this?When you said you loved me, you hurt me mercilessly. A heart was already like that broken jade finger, and it was impossible to return to the original.

There are many things in life that may be repeated, love, is it okay?Xia Junlan, I have already given up my mind on you. The emperor's family is the most ruthless. When feelings and power collide, I will become the second queen. I can see clearly and carefully.

Sitting quietly, I finally woke up from sleepiness. When I woke up, it was already daylight, and my eyes were swollen and unable to open after sleeping for too long.

Stretching lazily, he felt like he didn't know where he was.

With his fingers, he touched the spike hanging from his neck, and he let out a long sigh of relief as if he felt at ease.

"Zhiqiu, you woke up, how do you feel, but is there any discomfort?"

It was the emperor who asked in a soft voice. I always remember his voice clearly.

I shook my head, opened my eyes and looked at him indifferently, and met those dark and haggard eyes. If I said I was sleepy from too much sleep, but if I said he hadn't slept all night, I could tell. .

Eyes full of eagerness and anxiety, full of longing.

I was very light, very light, and saw his hands tightly grasping and closing, closing and grasping again.

He said, "Zhiqiu, get up!"

(End of this chapter)