The maid is the queen

Chapter 38 He is leaving
He said: "I really hate your tears, Yun Zhiqiu, aren't you very courageous? Even I dare to fool you, why can you only cry now?"

Although the ambiguous weather was a bit late, but after all, even he couldn't stop it.

He put on his clothes and looked at me and said, "Cry, Yun Zhiqiuzhen will never see you feel better."

I also got up and put on my clothes silently, I didn't know what I stepped on, he pulled it, and said fiercely: "You stepped on the hem of my clothes."

Yeah?I spun it hard again, stepping on it more dirty.

He looked at me for a while, and simply threw his half-worn robe on the ground: "Yun Zhiqiu, if you want to die, tell me, so that I can have someone send you back to the Three Princes' Mansion to fulfill your wish." .”

"Damn you, are you happy to play like this? Let me tell you, you can kill me, you can humiliate me, but I won't please you."

"Oh, is it?" He smiled instead of anger, "That's good, I don't want anyone to tell me what title I want from me to spend a night in the Spring Festival, I appreciate your arrogance!"

Hate, hate, but there is nothing to do.

Gritting my teeth: "I just let the dog bite my teeth, but you always say that I am a lowly person, the emperor, so you don't know if the noble emperor was bitten by a dog, so you would do such a vile thing."

He walked up to me, looked at me coldly and said, "Yun Zhiqiu, today I am in such a mood that I don't care about you. If I hear you being so rude to me again in the future, you can try to lose your feet and hands." taste."

After he finished speaking, he strode out, and the cold autumn morning wind squeezed in through the open door, surrounding me heavily.

I wiped the tears on my face, I can only cry quietly alone, my helplessness and painful cowardice, I only leave myself alone.

I told myself, the second time and the first time are nothing, anyway, I am already an unclean woman, but the tears still flowed all over my face, dripping from the palm of my hand in the wind.

When I went to wash the clothes the next day, I was exhausted, and I was getting weaker and weaker, but I had more clothes today than the first few days.

"Zhiqiu, do you want me to you?" A kind maid asked quietly.

From morning to afternoon, I didn't even have time to drink saliva.

"No, thank you." The people here are quite easy to get along with, everyone is of the same status, and there is nothing to argue about. On the contrary, those vicious nuns, if they see someone being lazy, they will wave their whips mercilessly. , Of course, they also do not allow maids to help me.

I don't know if he did it on purpose, do you want me to admit defeat?

Finally finished washing, but his hands were shaking.

Squatting in the toilet, I closed my eyes tiredly, I didn't even know what I was insisting on?When will such a day be a head?
I finally knew that my whole life would be in the deep palace like this, and he would not make me proud. If I had known that I ignored him at the time, I would have liked him not to tell him to go away.

One word, one life.

Xia Juntang, I'm so tired, but I have to persevere, I can't let you and Concubine Yi worry about me.Death is just a more cowardly act. My dad wrote in his book that if you are not afraid of death in life, what are you afraid of?

"Yun Zhiqiu, come out quickly, you don't want to eat until you finish washing these clothes."

Mammy's voice yelled desperately outside again.

I took a breath and went out, looking at these outrageous faces that were almost printed in the same mold, I went to the water table and started washing again.

The moon in autumn is so round and so bright, and the water is also silvery. I was panting, but I didn't dare to raise my head suddenly, otherwise my head would be full of stars following me around.

Bite the cold steamed buns and go back to the place where I live. It’s too quiet next to the Lenggong, only the sound of bamboo babbling. Tonight, I don’t want to go back to the room to rest. I’m afraid that the same thing as last night will happen , went in and took the quilt, then came out, and went to the Huanyi Palace, lying on the ground to sleep under the moonlight with fluttering clothes.The wind at night is cool, the more you sleep, the colder you get, but the quilt is too thin, so you can only curl up and fall asleep.

I felt as if someone was watching me, but when I opened my eyes, I saw the clothes blowing high like waves in the wind, and I didn't even see anyone.

Don't worry about going back to sleep, when I wake up at dawn, there is an extra blanket on my body, I don't know who covered me quietly, I think, maybe the palace maid looked at me pitifully, and moved her heart to quietly cover me. Cover me.

Maybe it was tiredness, but I slowly suppressed the sadness in my heart and buried it in a corner of my heart. Every day, I faced endless laundry and ate cold steamed buns.

I knew he was going to the Northwest in October, but when that day came, I was still very sad, and my inexplicable tears fell into the water.

"Third Prince Jing is very nice. I heard that he has come to the Huanyi Palace, but the mother said that this place is too low to let him in." A palace maid whispered while beating her clothes.

Juntang, why did he let you see me?
"Hey, listen, the voice of the jade flute is so nice."

All the voices fell silent, even the nuns stopped. Listening to the voices outside the high wall, they were faint like weeping, lingering in lovesickness.

My tears fell even more fiercely, and I beat my clothes vigorously, but the beat was cheerful.

I know he can understand, and God knows how uncomfortable it is for me to type it out like this.

Xia Juntang, leave, this is not your sky, please forget about me, so that you won't feel guilty, if you like me, I don't want your liking for me to be just a kind of guilt.

He understood, and the voice of the jade flute changed into a brisk tone, as if galloping on the boundless green field.

That's good, my wooden pestle fell into the water feebly, a nanny looked at me sharply, I jumped into the water without saying anything, the wooden pestle here may be worse than my life Also heavy.

The bottom of the water is a quiet place, only the water knows how much I cry.

He is leaving, he is leaving here, and from now on, we will be separate and cherish each other.

I will go to the northwest with you, and I will never be able to say this sentence.

Goodbye, Juntang, goodbye to the man I like, I don't regret it.

Although I know that falling in love will still hurt, but this feeling is worth it, you like me.

It hurts so bad, my heart hurts so much that my whole body is convulsed.

A big hand picked me up and said fiercely: "If you want to die, don't die in Huanyi Palace."

I don't even know how I walked back to the bamboo forest. I just let my feet walk in a daze, and the wet clothes stuck to my body let the wind blow so coldly.

What is the meaning of being alive? He finally left, and I have nothing to worry about.

Sitting on the bamboo swing, kicking the fallen leaves with my toes, I asked myself over and over again, what is life?So hard, so tired, so endless days, the high palace walls are like a big cage, locking me to death inside.

I sighed, my heart was so tired that it seemed that my whole life was over.

When I was in the water, I didn't even know I didn't want to live anymore.

Death is a very easy thing, as long as a rope can understand all my pain, mother, I'm really tired, I can't hold on anymore.The words written by my father and some words full of life philosophy can't compare with the tiredness in my heart.

Forget it, why are you so tired?
I leaned on the bamboo, and held the cool bamboo branch with my fingers. The place where I held it was a little uneven, as if it had been scratched. I poked my head to look, and there were words engraved on it.

My heart skipped a beat and I squatted down on the bamboo to read. There were small words engraved on it: Zhiqiu, wait for me to come back.

Turning to one side to look at it, it still read: Zhiqiu, wait for me, wait for me.

Xia Juntang's words, my fingers rubbed with emotion, do you understand me, are you also afraid that I will not be able to hold on?
These words are like the warmth in the autumn wind, filled with the buds of life, waiting for you, Xia Juntang, I will wait for you, if you don't see me when you come back, you will feel even more guilty.

A small bamboo forest hides unspeakable feelings. He said he told me to wait for him. He also engraved that he likes me. I sat on the bamboo leaves with admiration. The faint autumn wind is such a lingering feeling. Some people say love It's hard work, but the men and women who are caught in love are happy with it.

The first person I dared to like, he also liked me.

How lucky I am, some people spend their whole lives without knowing what their favorite taste is?
After sitting in the bamboo forest for one night, the bamboo also made a sound, it was his voice, and he told me affectionately and gently, Zhiqiu, wait for me, wait for me.

The next day I went to do the laundry as usual, but I felt much better. I don’t know if it was because of the drowning incident yesterday. Today, they didn’t bother me any more. I had lunch with the maids at noon, rested for a while, and then continued to wash. Time quietly The ground is passing in the afterglow of the rippling clothes and water waves.

I deliberately forgot the time, I deliberately did not remember the day, I only knew that I was waiting for him, and I will definitely wait for him.

Maybe it's because I'm full of lovesickness, I can't eat well, I can't sleep well, and I always feel dizzy. I suddenly remembered the lottery: Killing Hundred Flowers.

Oh my god, I actually forgot, is it because I'm sick in such a bad state?

"Zhiqiu, your face is so pale?" Just thinking about it, a palace lady on the opposite side looked surprised and said, "Zhiqiu, don't wash so hard, take it easy, we will spend our whole life in Huanyi Palace. That's it, if you don't relax, you will only suffer yourself, look at your current state, you are really haggard."

I thought I was sick, I stroked my chest and gasped, "Amu, I feel really uncomfortable."

"I can tell by your appearance, Zhiqiu, or else you can take a leave of absence from the nanny, give her some money, and ask her to call a medical girl to show you. How can this go on like this?"

"Zhiqiu, take your time washing, I'll help you later." A maid next to her also whispered.

"Thank you." They are so kind.

"Zhiqiu, look." She motioned me to look upstream, where two court ladies were washing a very beautiful dress: "This is the dress worn by Concubine Mu, it's so beautiful, but it's not our turn. I heard that it is made of snow and silver silk, luxurious and light. Last night, the emperor selected the concubine among the beautiful women, and the empress dowager hand-picked the beautiful woman Lu Yao to be promoted to Shangyi. This is a five-level promotion , something that has never happened in the harem."

(End of this chapter)