The maid is the queen

Chapter 40 Lin Luoshui's Mercy
I looked at him indifferently, seeing his anger, and even smiled softly: "Who are you?"

He gritted his teeth more and more, and his black eyes, which were as good as evildoers, were full of anger: "Don't dare to pretend to be confused again."

I'm not pretending, I raised my weak hand to pull his hand: "I know you are the emperor, I just asked who you are, why do you want me to keep you?" Who are you, so arrogant, so domineering , why should I try my best to keep it for you.

I don't love you, what am I fighting for, what am I fighting for?I can fight, can I fight?

I don't know if I want to laugh or cry, I just got used to the life of the power at the bottom, what do you want from me?I already seem to have died once, how do you treat me, I am not afraid of it.

He was so angry that he pushed me hard, pushed me back on the bed, and called coldly: "I am the emperor."

One sentence is enough, yes, you are the emperor, but you are not my part of the sky.

His anger made me feel funny, and I couldn't help but raise the corners of my lips mockingly: "What do you want to see from me? Seeing me in the dark room, screaming for help, praying for someone to rescue me every day, and that A child who shouldn't be here? You grew up in the palace. I believe in the people and things in the palace. You know ten times better than me. Do you think that screaming like this can change anything? They sent me back, push me I go down the steps and kick my stomach again, even if I yell for help, will it change? Maybe you know it from the beginning to the end, you are just waiting for me to ask for help, how can I be a mother, I am a lowly person, how can I have noble blood, a child who should not come, I am ruthless, and you are more ruthless than me." Now, he comes to blame me for not protecting the child, I really want to laugh , but my heart is extremely bitter.

In this harem, there is no power and no backer. You are a slave and servant who survives at the lowest level. No matter how much you suffer or how wronged you are, you have to hold back the bitterness. No matter how hard others treat you, you have to knock out your teeth And blood swallowing, dignity and stubbornness are all ridiculous things.

If I don't resist these things, I will become the most unintentional person, what does he think of me.

"Shouldn't you be here?" He raised his hand angrily.

But I looked at him with wide eyes stubbornly, without any fear: "Is this what I thought?" If he hadn't robbed my body by force, perhaps these things would not have happened.

"Do you only have Xia Juntang in your heart?" The slap like a cattail fan stopped in front of my face, close enough for me to see the lines in his palm.

I smiled, with a touch of warmth in my eyes, and said seriously: "Yes."

Let's fight, I won't be afraid of you, so what if you are the emperor?I'm not even afraid of death, am I still afraid of you?
His face was dark and gloomy, as if a storm was about to come, he raised his hand fiercely, but he didn't drop it, instead he clenched his fist in mid-air, and hit the bed with a bang. Just punched a hole out.

He has a pair of beautiful dark eyes, very similar to Xia Juntang, but now these eyes are looking at me deeply, with a kind of burning anger and pain, as if they want to tear me apart, but I am still like that He looked at him arrogantly and indifferently.

As soon as he turned his head and walked away, the sound of his steps carried his anger and hatred.

Shouldn't I hate him, shouldn't I?There was a kind of joy of revenge welling up in my heart, and in conjunction with the pain in my body, a line of clear tears flowed out.

Gently touching my stomach with one hand, I asked softly, "Are you gone? I'm sorry, I can't protect you."

Losing a child is a complicated feeling that can't be reasoned out or divided.

I'm not a cruel person, and I don't even dare to kill chickens on weekdays.

I can't keep what doesn't belong to me. I also try to fight for something?I went to beg Lin Luoshui to let her save my mother. Xia Juntang and I went to the concubine's place and then to the queen mother's place, just to fight for it, but in the end I still had nothing and was alone.

I don't fight, and I can't afford to fight. It turned out to be a mistake.

The door opened again with a creak, and a familiar person walked in. The light blue clothes set off the young man like the blue sky, clean and comfortable.

I smiled softly: "You are here."

Lin Luoshui frowned: "How can you still laugh?"

"What's the point of crying." Can everything go back to the way it was before?I have been very strong step by step, I do not want my memories only tears and bitterness.

He sighed softly, then pulled a broken stool and sat beside me, without raising his brow, he said, "Extend your hand."

"The imperial doctor said, miscarriage." I told him the news calmly.

He didn't speak, but took my hand and felt my pulse.

Seeing his eyebrows furrowed tighter and tighter, I pretended to be relaxed and said: "This time, the genius doctor, you are also stumped. In fact, forget it. Really, I am not qualified to be a mother. What should I use to raise a child?" , what can I give him?" I can't do anything, I'm just a court lady.

Lin Luoshui's hand slid from my wrist, held my cold hand tightly and said, raised his warm eyes and said softly: "Zhiqiu, if you want to cry, cry loudly, no one will know. "

"Who said I'm going to cry." The tears flowed more and more.

He didn't comfort me either, he just lowered his head and listened to the sound of my tears falling, and kept holding my cold little hand tightly.

Then a handkerchief covered my face, and I cried more and more.

He prescribed a lot of medicine and put them on the table, and said softly: "One pack a day, take it for three days in a row, and it's best not to get it in water during these days."

"Thank you." He walked to the door, and I softly squeezed out two hoarse words from my throat.

He smiled softly, and his voice was as soft as the wind: "Thank you, I am also an imperial doctor, but the veil is stained by your sweat, please return it to me next time after you wash it."

After the miscarriage, no one asked me to wash clothes, so I recuperated in the bamboo house, and the maids did not bother me anymore.

What surprised me the most was that Lin Luoshui came back the next day and brought some soup. Before I thanked him, he said, "I just came to ask for a handkerchief. Have you taken your medicine yet?"

"No?" He was just talking nonsense, he even came here to ask for a handkerchief, and brought me delicious soup.

"Save people to the end, I'm an imperial doctor, I know you can't get wet." He dug out a medicine pot from the medicine box he brought with him.

"I just had a miscarriage." It doesn't have to be so serious, save people to the end.

He glared at me with warm eyes: "What's so great about miscarriage, don't think that this imperial doctor will decoct medicine for you, go find some firewood yourself."

He found a few bricks and piled them into a stove, then grabbed a handful of the bamboo leaves I swept, stuffed them in, and lit them with a fire.

Thick smoke came out, and he coughed while fanning.

I said softly, "Lin Luoshui, you are really a good person."

He turned back with a thin frost on his handsome face: "You think beautifully. In a word, I want you to decoct medicine. I just want your health to recover soon, and then wash the veil and return it to me."

I lowered my head and almost cried. I am a person who is easily moved.

On the bitterest days, there are warm fireworks rising, and time goes by so fast.

Anyone can see that he didn't come here for the veil, he came to pity me.

I will live a good life, some things in life, there must be sometimes, I don't want to be sad anymore, I can't grasp what doesn't belong to me.

I think he hates me too. He was so angry that day that he punched a hole in the bed, and there were some blood stains on the bamboo mat. When I saw it that day, my heart was calm.

He hates that I don't care about his children, he hates that I only have Xia Juntang in my heart, so let him hate, it was a mistake, a mistake full of sadness.

Lin Luoshui is really good, and only such a person can be called the number one genius doctor in the capital. He not only has superb medical skills, but also has a compassionate heart. How could I have identified him as Lin Luoshui?He was deceived alive and got a lot of ugliness.

Life is like a bamboo leaf rolled up by the wind, fluttering a few times and then returning to its former tranquility.

My body has improved a lot, maybe it's because I've had a good nourishment, and my bloodless face has turned rosy again. I don't know what kind of elixir soup Lin Luoshui sent me in those three days.

After washing the kerchief, he never came to pick it up, so I put it in the room and then went to the Huanyi Palace.

Who knew that as soon as I went in, people inside looked at me in surprise, and I said softly, "I'm here to do laundry." My body recovered, but I still don't forget my identity.

A nanny hurried over and said in panic, "Miss Yun, this place is too dirty, please go back, Miss Yun."

"I'm also a court lady?" She probably hasn't been removed from the Huanyi Palace yet.

The nanny still panicked and said: "Miss Yun, please go back, you don't have to come to Huanyi Palace again."

I opened my eyes, but I didn't see those vicious nuns before. I thought maybe they dealt with it quietly. The maids didn't know what happened, and they yelled loudly when they saw me: "You know what happened?" Qiu, you are here."

"Zhiqiu, they say you are sick, are you better?"

Sickness, yes, a sickness that I don't want to remember.

The palace treats this as if nothing happened. I just fell ill for a while, and now I am cured.I smiled at them, turned around and went out feeling disappointed.

The autumn wind is already very cool, will the northwest in mid-November be beautiful?Is the northwest in November the same as here, the wind is very strong.

I was bored, I was so lonely that I shrank under the wall, watching the red apricot leaves fall one by one, I didn't know what to do all day, so I could only walk back and forth in the lonely place like this.

The high wall blocked the sky outside, and the high wall formed a circle around my heart. In this circle, I was the only one squatting. I have no right to think of you again and again. Your good and bad are ultimately yours alone. I don't think about anything anymore.

He never came to see me again, never let anyone bother me again.

I should be very happy, I can finally get rid of him, but I dare not stay in the bamboo forest for a moment, even though there is the lovesickness left by Xia Juntang to me, but there is also a child lost there, I have scolded myself, it is true I can't keep it, or I don't want to keep it.

(End of this chapter)