The maid is the queen

Chapter 87 Reconciliation
He said no, so I won't.

"I read those letters, sometimes I really hope that you wrote them." He smiled softly: "But I know it can't be you." He tilted his face down, and his breath gently brushed my face, I His lips trembled, a little scared and confused, but his kiss didn't land on his lips, but on my shoulder: "Take care."

He left without hesitation. From the window, I saw him striding down the street with his qin on his back and his baggage. The crowd slowly overwhelmed him and took him away.

He stayed here just to wait for me, just because he was afraid that I would be ashamed for the rest of my life if I couldn't see him. Since when did he know my thoughts so thoroughly.

His shadow is getting smaller and smaller, until nothing can be seen, I really want to chase him, holding on to the window lattice with both hands, maybe it is better to leave, the capital is full of fireworks, but dreams are too inappropriate.

Biting her lip to keep from crying, she looked up at the side of the wall.

I sent the maid to buy Lu Yao's favorite food, and I sat on the sedan chair and went back in a daze.

I really want him to hit my head hard and tell me in a vicious voice, stay away from me, you woman, it is unlucky to be with you, so I will feel better.

Lou Fengming, a man as noble as a qin, he loves the qin madly, and he will be the number one qin master to be famous in the Daxiang Dynasty, but the palace, what kind of dream it brought him, was born broken.

You are gone, you can still have your dreams elsewhere, but I am still here, there can be no dreamers in the palace.

After returning to the palace, he was exhausted and sat in the study staring blankly at Qin.

The feeling of touching the piano with my face was a bit painful. I retracted my index finger and played with one of the four fingers without a click.

I stood up and said resolutely: "Because of my aunt, I lost this piano."

The reason is that my aunt may be because I was angry with her, so I didn't dare to ask more questions, hugged Qin and went out.

Read books hard, eat hard, write hard, and then sleep hard with the quilt on. The scene in May is so beautiful, the flowers are shining and fragrant, but this May I saw the flowers on the petals. Tears, tasted its bitterness.

The water on the lake without lotus leaves is shimmering and shining, and it looks a little scorching hot, but I know that if I stretch my hands down, I will feel the cool water. I really want to jump down and feel the water, whether it will be cold One piece is suffocating.

It can be very gentle, let the wind blow your brows quietly, and it can gently wrap you under its underwater, snatch your air and let you suffocate in its arms.And he, like water, is gentle and warm towards me, but his essence is indifferent and ruthless.

The cry of a baby is the most real emotion in this palace, there is no need to hide anything, he will only cry, cry when he is unhappy, or cry when he wants to pee or breastfeed.Adults are not as good as children, no matter how much you hate, no matter how sad you are, you can't show it.

"The emperor is here." The loud voice was so frightening that the prince who wanted to squint his eyes cried again.

I gently rocked the little cradle and coaxed him softly: "Don't cry, don't cry, be good."

As soon as he came in, Qiuqiu automatically walked far away, and ran to the corner to nest.

"How virtuous." He joked with a smile, not blaming me for not welcoming me.

Thinking of what my brother said to me when he left, he wanted me to be happy.However, I looked up at his smiling face, which was as handsome as the melting snow in spring. I wanted to smile at him as if nothing had happened. So many people hoped that I could live happily, but in my heart It's hard to be calm, sighed and said: "I really hate you, how can you do that? How can you be so cruel?"

He didn't speak or get angry, but hugged me tightly from behind.

"Let go of me." I gritted my teeth in hatred.

He is bullying me now that I can't struggle vigorously while holding the prince, right? I raised my foot and stomped hard on the back, and found that the strength in my waist was a little stronger.

I turned my head and stared at him, and said angrily, "You are really ruthless. I realized that I really don't know you. The longer it has been, the more incredible I think you are."

"I love you, love you."

"Don't use this kind of love to hurt again, you selfish thing." I also stepped on him, wishing I could jump up and step on him hard.

He hugged my waist and didn't let me step on him again, but said in a low voice: "I don't like you being with other men, and neither does my father-in-law. You belong to me and only belong to me. Your smile , your innocence, your sincerity can only be given to me alone."

"If you are not the emperor, do you know what the first thing I will do?" I looked at him coldly: "I will go to court, if what you said is love, I'm sorry, I I can't afford it, I can't bear it."

"Zhiqiu, then I will only give you one sentence now. That will never be possible. You belong to me, and you will always belong to me alone. I will never let you go for the rest of my life. If you die, Zhiqiu, you will also Will not live, do you understand this kind of love?"

It's so heavy, so heavy that I can't appreciate his feelings.With his toes on the ground, he twisted his body and broke away from his embrace. He was too selfish and too exclusive.

"You, a high-ranking person, will never understand our feelings. You will never know how happy and bitter the moment Lin Shangyi left in the palace. You will never know how big a blow it is for a luthier to lose his index finger playing the piano." , you are an emperor, you can have whatever you want, you are omnipotent, you use any means to deal with everyone, including me, you have never respected, I don't want this kind of love."

He raised his eyebrows and walked to the window to look at the green lotus outside.

I didn't say a word quietly, and I was still angry with him in my heart. It was bitter and astringent to say what was suppressed in my heart like this.

what is love?Does he really understand?
My master and master respect each other. If he is not the emperor, I will really go to court and ask for it. If he refuses to give it to me, I will go as far as I can.

It turned out that Lu Yao saw what was in my eyes, and I really wanted to run away.

If it is because of love again, then his monopoly really scares me.

He still didn't speak, didn't speak, he always felt that he was right, and I was provoking him again.

I turned my back and didn't look at him, brother, I really can't pretend to be happy, I can't pretend that nothing happened, and I even laughed and made trouble with the emperor.

Talking too excitedly woke up the child and started crying again. I gritted my teeth and didn't cry, because I didn't like being cowardly in front of him.Coaxing the child to let him fall asleep slowly, looking at his face, always thinking of his mother and concubine, that poor woman is always praying, but this man is very selfish and ruthless, he only thinks about his own feelings , Everyone else deserves to be trampled under his feet.

Gently put the little prince on the bed, and then pulled the quilt to cover him. The nanny said that the child must not be frozen, and must be taken care of carefully.

He walked over, looked at the little shoes on the side, played with them for a while and said, "I will give the child a proper name, and you can give him a nickname."

I snorted coldly and ignored him, and went out lightly without worrying about the little prince sleeping.

He followed out, caught up with me in the corridor, and grabbed my hand: "Don't go, I have something to tell you, I will learn to respect you, but you can't be angry with me."

It's quite domineering, it's just a respect, some people say it lightly while others say it hard.

He is the emperor, always more tolerant and obedient to him.

I sighed softly, could it be that what I owed in my previous life has become an enemy in this life.Turning her head to look at him quietly: "He told me to live happily to be worthy of him. To be happy is not to quarrel with you, just to act as if nothing happened."

In contrast, the behavior of the emperor really makes me feel very contemptuous.

Cutting someone's finger is just an unimportant matter to him, too small to report to him. This selfish and exclusive feeling really makes me tremble.

He said so, but what I felt was not as good as what he said.

I forgive him, what they want me to do, they think I will be happy, so I will do this, I am really sorry for them, Xia Juntang and senior brother are also the same.

The little prince was named Xu, as for other things, we will wait until after his coming-of-age ceremony.Nickname he asked me to name, I will
Call him Ying, fortunately there are a few people waiting for him in the palace, so I don't need to worry about it.

After talking to him, he said that he would respect me, but I didn't have any idea about this matter.

It's a relief to not be here for a few days, and I think we all need some time for each other to think about something.

But every day, people still send some light food over, because my aunt said that the emperor would ask me about things every day.

I sighed secretly in my heart, and asked myself in a cold voice, what else can I do?In the palace, as long as it was someone I knew before, he took it away.

I am trapped in this palace, I am so lonely that only he can rely on, he likes me waiting for him to come, likes to see the expectation and joy on my face.But he never knew what it was like to wait, every moment was so difficult, and every moment was so long.

He had never waited before, in the palace, only others waited for him.

When I went to pay my respects again, Lu Yao left me and asked, "Didn't you and the emperor quarrel?"

"No." I put a smirk on my face.

She frowned and pulled my face with her hands: "I hate your smirk, don't tell me there are no maids here, only us two sisters, are you telling lies to me? I hate it, I hate it."

"I'm very angry, Lu Yao, he broke my brother's finger, but he actually took it as an insignificant thing."

She laughed: "You girl, what's wrong with him? Tell me, tell me quickly."

I sighed: "He is too domineering and arbitrary. He said that I can only see him. His exclusive heart makes me a little scared."

Lu Yao also nodded: "That's true, maybe the emperor will think that I am getting too close to you, then..." She looked up and down her whole body: "I don't know where I will fall."

"Lu Yao, stop joking." Such jokes are not funny at all.What scares me is that his fierce love is looking at me, but his eyes are so far away that I can't touch them.

I always ask, what does he love me for?How can I be so persistent, is it really my temper?He really has a masochistic mentality. He puts a lot of emphasis on enjoyment, so he won't be like this.

(End of this chapter)