me and a divorced housewife

Chapter 614 Notes
I stood up suddenly, and found that everyone around me was looking at me with surprised eyes.

I didn't care about these and chased them out.

As soon as I came out, I found that the back had disappeared, long gone, the street was empty and there was nothing, a stray wild cat jumped down from the trash can, screamed, and disappeared into the night ...

I walked back again, maybe I was wrong, she had already left the city so sad, how could she come back?

I shook my head with a wry smile, sat back and continued drinking.

Thinking of Guo Xiaoting, there is a strange feeling in my heart, a kind of sadness, all kinds of her come to mind, laughing and teasing, angry look, when I am unhappy, get drunk with me, and say sadly, I am so I like you, what can I do if you like me?Crying and looking at me, saying goodbye to me, that figure that melted into the setting sun...

That lovely girl, although it wasn't my fault, but after all, I owed her, and I feel very uncomfortable thinking about it.

In fact, thinking about it now, if I had chosen her back then, would I still worry about these things now?

Forget it, what's the point of making such an assumption?I smiled wryly to myself, I have no choice, who knows, when I'm with her, maybe I won't have the problems I'm facing with Liu Ruyue now, but maybe there will be other problems, who knows.

Alone, drink with the past, everyone will get drunk if the wine is not drunk.

After thinking about it a lot, what made me angry was that at the end of the drink, my consciousness was still clear.

What should be forgotten, still cannot be forgotten, what should be cared about, still should be cared about, what should be thought about, should still be thought about.

In the end, the question came back to me, what should I do?
Chang Hai, should I continue to stay?Mr. Meng has always valued me. If I help him make a comeback this time, with his personality, I think he will definitely give me a better platform and treatment.

But I didn't look forward to it so much. Instead, I felt heavy pressure in advance.I can't see through the people here, except for Meng Laosan whose ambition is too exposed.

Especially Mr. Meng.

Although he did not admit that he did those things, he has always given me an unfathomable feeling, and his impression in my heart has always been vague. This feeling deepens.

At this time, I remembered the moment when I was talking with him, what was the idea that popped up suddenly.He said, it's a pity that Lao Chen is gone, after working together for so many years.

Obviously, this was his move. In order to regain the country, he sacrificed Lao Chen.

This also explains why he asked Chen Ke to take care of Meng Tingyun after he notified Chen Ke, why he asked me to take care of her.

Intensify the conflict between Meng Tingyun and Chen Ke, get rid of Lao Chen, a stable materials supplier, and make Meng Laosan and the others helpless.

I think, in the end of this matter, Meng Laosan and the others may have to rely on him.

Just the day before the meeting of the board of directors, he felt the crisis, but overnight, he came up with such an ingenious countermeasure, which not only easily resolved the crisis of his own shares being divided, making it impossible for Meng Laosan and the others to seize power, and Meng Mu Meng The third child can no longer stand on the united front, paving the way for his comeback.

I am afraid that I will not be able to learn this kind of thought in my life.At the same time, I also feel inexplicable fear and disgust for this exhausting precaution and calculation. I don't want to live in such an environment for the rest of my life.

At the same time, where should Liu Ruyue and I go?

Now I feel that there seems to be a thick wall between us, the kind of hopeless and insurmountable high wall.

And I found that when I think of her now, the feeling of warmth in my heart when I think of her name has completely disappeared, replaced by a sense of powerless strangeness.

……

I can't remember how much I drank that night, and I fell asleep in the bar without knowing it, and I was woken up by the bartender until the bar closed in the early morning.

I rubbed my sleepy eyes, sat up slowly, paid the bill, and walked out.

It was already dawn outside, I took a taxi and went back, the car was walking on the coastal road, the waves crashed against the rocks, the sun slowly rose from the distant sea level, dyed the sky red for half a day, and shone on me On my body, I feel like I can’t keep my eyes open. There are very few cars on the road, as if I am the only car, and I have a feeling of being out of reality.

When I got home, I found that Liu Ruyue seemed to have left.

There was still dinner on the table, and no chopsticks were moved.There was a piece of paper next to it, I took it over, and found that there was a lot of writing on it, I couldn't help being stunned, and looked carefully:

Yu Hao.

I waited here for you all night, but I didn't expect that you really didn't come back all night. I didn't sleep this night. I was thinking, what happened to us?We have overcome so many difficulties in the past. I thought that after the catastrophe, there will be a lot of happiness waiting for us, but why it is even more difficult at this point.I don't know, maybe it's my fault, but I have never changed, I have always been like this, I believe that I will not change easily, whether it is the person I love, or what I want to do, I will never change. Don't change your original intention.

My life has never been smooth. Because of my father, I never felt the warmth of my family when I was a child. I suffered from poverty and ups and downs. After graduation, I immediately entered into a wrong marriage. I once wrongly expected this marriage to make up for it. Regarding the warmth of my family, I didn’t expect that life was still so cruel to me. During that time, I even wanted to die in the past, because God was so unfair to me...I didn’t feel that life was kind and gentle until I met you , Let me ignite hope for life again, your enthusiasm, your sunshine, your passionate love, melted the coldness deep in my heart, and deeply infected me, let me feel that love is so The beauty of being loved and cared about by others is so warm and beautiful. So I still have the qualifications to continue pursuing my life and happiness...Dancing is the biggest thought in my life. Although I am not as persistent as Yang Yang, as a The ideal of my life, but I love it, and it can bring me such great benefits, it makes me feel the value of my existence, so I want to pursue it, I know you may not understand, this... we can discuss , but don't put it off like this, okay?I am afraid of this kind of indifference and alienation, I dare not think about the consequences of this going on, I dare not think about it, so let's talk about it, shall we?
Liu Ruyue

I took the note and looked at the table of food, and couldn't help but froze there.

(End of this chapter)