cut love silk

Chapter 84
Chapter 68 Bloody War (Part 2) ([-])
I felt that I was out of control at that time. Only when Yun Jinyan came over and saw a familiar face, did I feel that the lady was not dead. Only when I heard his soft voice comforted me did I believe that everything was true. It's a dream.

For all of this, I choose to ignore the consciousness that is not under my control. I can't separate my body, so I can only bear it.

It was another summer, and Yun Jinyan suddenly whispered in my ear that it was time to have a baby.

I did not resist.

The premise for him to keep me is that I am useful to him.

But when the Xi pulse was really diagnosed, I was afraid, and I thought, even if I got to the bridge of Naihe, the lady would not forgive me.

Pregnant with Yun Jinyan's child, I began to miss Miss more and more. I often felt that she hadn't left, as if I could smell her breath in the palace, but I knew best that if I killed her and burned her myself, she In my hands, it's gone.

At the same time, Gu Yanlin was also diagnosed with a happy pulse.I understood in my heart that Yun Jinyan started the draft, which means to win over new forces and make me and her happy at the same time, and he just wants to use my hand to get rid of her.

He guessed right, such an opportunity is in front of me, I will never miss it.

Grandpa Feng burst into tears after hearing me finish the plan, and insisted on refusing to give me the abortion medicine.I was firm and said that he would not take medicine, and I had other ways.I know that Grandpa Feng is afraid that I will hurt my life, so he will definitely give it to me.

When I drink the medicine, I always see Miss in my heart, she is already eight months pregnant, and she still has to endure the pain to go to the execution ground; when the lower abdomen hurts, I let myself think of Yun Jinyan, full of hatred, just think Thinking, this is his child, and I feel inexplicably happy in my heart; when I returned to peace, I looked at the curtain, my heart was empty, and another piece of my life was missing, that is also my child...

Gu Yanlin finally went to the cold palace. The image of me being in power and not forgiving has already been deeply rooted in the hearts of the people. By going there specially to humiliate her, I have many more chances to see her.

Grandpa Feng said that everything is ready and they can leave the palace one by one.I am reluctant to send Yi Yi away, and I will never see him again in the future, but Yi Yi does not belong to the palace.

Gu Yanlin died, and then Grandpa Feng died.

The world before my eyes has darkened again.

I am not Yun Jinyan's opponent, so I give up.I just want to stay in the cold palace and spend the rest of my life with Yi Yi.But Yun Jinyan seemed to have sensed something, and did everything possible to prevent me from doing what I wanted.

I began to fear, afraid that one day Eunuch Hao would come and tell me that Yiyi would also die.

Racking my brain, I only thought of the apprentice that Grandpa Feng had mentioned to me more than once, Li Zihe.

The only impression I have of this person is that he wrote a handwriting very similar to Miss.In my heart, why should he imitate Miss's words?Grandpa Feng told me that he taught it with his own hands, and the grievances in his heart were only slightly removed.

The lady told me that people in the world can't be trusted, but it's not that people can't be trusted.People have to make a choice, as long as they weigh the pros and cons when choosing, and make sure that they will not regret it in the future. The same is true for trust. If everyone does not believe and lives in suspicion and worry every day, what is the fun of being a human being?
What the lady said has always made sense.

I choose to believe Li Zihe.

In fact, it is also my only chance, otherwise Yi Yi will fall ill in the cold palace and will undoubtedly die.

The outcome of this incident was beyond my expectation.Li Zihe loosened her long hair and told me that she was a woman. There was an all-too-familiar light in her eyes, and what only the lady and I knew about her mouth. , something that only appears in dreams, suddenly and vividly collapses in front of my eyes...

Perhaps, I was a little skeptical.

But the joy in my heart, the strong intuition, and the compulsive belief in the subconscious made me put aside all my worries, firmly grasp the last straw, and curl up in her arms like a kitten. The lady is still here, and I So don't worry, don't worry, don't be sad, the lady will take one by one away, take me away, and I can stand silently behind her and let her protect me, just like many years ago...

All my madness disappeared overnight, and I became more docile than before, more dependent on the lady, no longer thinking, no longer worrying, I did what the lady said, and waited for her to take me out of the palace.

The word "Shen Mo" appeared frequently in the young lady's mouth, but his identity was somewhat shimmering. I only knew that the person who should be most grateful to the young lady for being able to have today is him.

But that day, he came to Chenxiang Hall.

The moon-white clothes, blue silk like ink, came into view as he turned the window, his brows were a little cold, and he couldn't see the waves in his eyes. The handsome man, but it was a faint feeling. Only then did he understand why the young lady revealed her identity before she revealed her identity. I hardly noticed her, perhaps because of the influence of Shen Mo, she was so indifferent that people could ignore his existence.

He said that he came to bid farewell with King Pingxi, and he asked why my son was okay, and he said that he would take good care of him.

My intuition tells me that he is not someone who can talk so much, he is here, what is he trying to cover up?

He turned around to leave, but walked very slowly, and finally stopped, turned his back to me, and asked a word.

I was stunned, many things rushed into my mind one after another, I answered blankly, and suddenly understood in my heart, I know, a secret of Yun Jinyan.

I didn't notice when Shen Mo left. After the emotional turmoil, there was only a smile on the corner of his mouth. The hatred for Yun Jinyan over the past few years disappeared without a trace. I only felt sorry for him.

It's just that there are some things that I don't bother to think about.I curled up in the arms of the lady, and gradually, some lost things returned to my body, I was no longer paranoid, no longer manic, I felt that after a while, I would be able to return to the original Yao'er.

However, not all the things that come back are what I like to see, such as dreams every night.

The day and night nightmare is finally gone, but in the dream, I am still hesitant and afraid. There is a warm place in the dream. As long as I lean on it, all the anxiety and fear will disappear.In the dream that repeats day by day, I clearly feel that I am attached to that piece of warmth, from temptation to dependence, dependence to dependence, and finally, attachment.

Until the young lady said that she would poison Yun Jinyan to death, my soul seemed to be pulled away again. I realized that what was in my dream...was the memory I had lost in the past six years. The warmth came from Yun Jinyan...

It turned out that all these years, I suffered from hesitation and hysteria, and it was also because, subconsciously, I fell in love with that piece of warmth. I clearly hated him and knew that he was an enemy, but I fell in love with him.

I couldn't bear his death, so I took the antidote and secretly went to Dragonspin Palace.

Yun Jinyan was not there, no one stopped me, I put the antidote on the table, I left in a hurry, bumped into a young eunuch, went back to Chenxiang Hall without saying a word.

I thought, Miss and I will leave now, as long as Miss and Yiyi are still alive, let those so-called hatreds disappear.

The cold wind at night was painful, the young lady took my hand and moved forward carefully, my head became more and more dizzy.The scenes from many years ago began to appear in front of my eyes again, those who were smiling, making noise, worrying, and crying.

Pieces of blood red began to appear in front of my eyes, and cold sweat poured out again and again. It was a thunderstorm, and my consciousness was stripped...

Trying to stay sane, I asked the lady to let me go, knowing that I would become hysterical again and attract the guards, and the lady would not be able to escape.

In a daze, I remembered the little eunuch who bumped into me. At that time, there was a strange smell. It turned out that... Yun Jinyan found out...

When I woke up again, the young lady's face was full of tears. I felt distressed, and I was even more afraid that I had just revealed her identity. If I did, Yun Jinyan...would never let her go...

Miss actually begged Yun Jinyan for me, she said she wanted an antidote.

My whole body started to ache, I ignored it deliberately, and continued to curl up in the young lady's arms, trying to absorb the last trace of warmth, watching helplessly as a long arrow flew towards my back.

My body, which was already weak, was able to run towards Yun Jinyan faster than my consciousness. My body told my consciousness that I don't want him to die.

With an arrow on his back, a palm on his chest, and being poisoned, I think he will definitely die this time...

But I was scared again, so scared that I opened my eyes desperately and saw the tears on the young lady's face, but I couldn't wipe them away.

My strength is slowly drifting away, and my consciousness is also gradually withdrawn. I am still afraid, afraid that Miss will know...knowing that I am in love with Yun Jinyan, the former Third Highness...

Almost with all my strength, I want to tell him that the person I love is the young master...

In the past, the young master always asked me to call him by his name, saying that he was not allowed to call him the young master, otherwise, brother Qu would do too...

I dare not, there is a difference between honor and inferiority.

But the last sentence, I think, it’s okay to shout, so I asked the lady to believe me, the person I love... is Brother Qu...

After saying this, my whole body relaxed. At the last moment, I looked at Yun Jinyan and smiled, look, the person I love is Brother Qu, I am not in love with you.

(End of this chapter)