cut love silk

Chapter 83
Chapter 68 Bloody War (Part 1) ([-])
Miss let me go, I didn't.

If Yun Jinyan refuses to let me go, if he wants to kill or cut me up, let him go.

The confidantes of the Jifu in the palace have either been transferred or defected unknowingly. Even if I want to leave, I have nowhere to go.I knelt and sat in front of the Hongluan Hall, looking at the ruins, my heart was dead silent.

Yun Jinyan came, and after everything turned into ashes, he looked at the clothes in my hand with a pale face, his eyes were empty, and he asked me why I set the fire.

I laughed, my laughter was numb, and I answered with a hoarse voice after crying all night, the emperor didn't want to see the empress, and the slaves were set on fire to make the emperor happy.

I stayed and became a special existence in the palace, neither a court lady nor a concubine.

Grandpa Feng successfully got Yun Jinyan to agree to put Miss's ashes in the cold palace. We tried our best to hide them one by one, and we used the excuse of watching "Miss" every month to see them one by one. Yun Jinyan rarely asked, but I never Don't dare to act rashly.

People are always afraid of the unknown.The matter of Ji's mansion made me realize that Yun Jinyan, whom I thought I was familiar with, had never been seen through by anyone. It made me start to be afraid, afraid that he would be found by unknown forces, and that he would treat him like he did to Ji's family. one.

Grandpa Feng didn't think so. He said that Yun Jinyan was the one who watched him grow up, so he should...wouldn't do anything to each other...

Faintly, Grandpa Feng still had a glimmer of hope for him, but he was not sure of his own thoughts. I argued with him, and I was determined not to let Yun Jinyan know about Yiyi's existence, and the plan to let Yiyi leave the palace was also Twists and turns.

Yun Jinyan asked me for the phoenix seal, but I said that the young lady took it away, but I didn't see it when I came back. I don't know how much he believed it, but I didn't ask any more questions.Actually, I gave the phoenix seal to Grandpa Feng.

I guessed that there were many diehard loyalists in the Ji family back then, even though they were suppressed by Yun Jinyan in one fell swoop, there were always some remnants, if they were found with the Phoenix seal, they would definitely be willing to do their last bit for the Ji family.I don't ask them to do much, I just hope to use their strength to rescue and take care of Yiyi.After all, Yiyi can sneak out of the palace, but for me, going out will only hurt Yiyi.

In order to dare not resign from his official position one by one, Grandpa Feng has to go to the imperial hospital during the day, and he must not be blatant in looking for the old department of the Ji family. Every time this matter is mentioned, Grandpa Feng frowns, and I can only comfort him softly.

After the fire in Hongluan Palace, my eyes seemed to be burned. When I looked at the world, there was no color, only gray and white.Except for the bright red, the bright red that has been floating in front of my eyes for more than ten years, after that night, I can hardly take my eyes off for a moment.

One by one is in the cold palace and needs things to survive. Even though Eunuch Hao said to leave everything to him, I know it will not be easy. What I am most afraid of is that people will find out one by one.

Countless nights, repeated nightmares, I dreamed that I was holding the young master's hand, and said to him, I will go with you, and the young master smiled at me warmly, just like the days before, when suddenly, his head fell off, bringing Rolling on the ground laughing, soundlessly, my face was blood red.

I dreamed that the lady ran to me like a bird, pulled me and said angrily, Yaoer, Yaoer, I want the handkerchief you embroidered.I nodded repeatedly, and dragged the young lady to the room, but she didn't move. When I turned my head, I saw her limp on the ground, her lower abdomen was empty, her internal organs bleed all over the floor, and my hands were suddenly covered with blood.

I dreamed——sleeping peacefully in my arms, smiling lightly like a dream from time to time, the sun just shone on my face, the pear dimple on my left face was very gratifying, suddenly, the sun was blocked, I raised my head, and touched the cloud Jin Yan's cold eyes and empty hands were taken away by him one by one, he lifted them up high, and smashed them hard on the ground, spattering my whole body with blood.

I regret that I didn't leave with the young master three years ago. Perhaps that way, I escaped this bloody catastrophe. I blame myself for killing the young lady with my own hands, making her lose her last hope of living in this world. I hate that I have no ability to send After leaving the palace one by one, instead of using poison on him, let him live in a coffin...

But I dare not reveal all these emotions.

I remember that it was the year after Miss passed away. In summer, the sun was scorching, and at night, there was a gust of cool wind.I just watched one by one, and when I came out of the cold palace, I saw Yun Jinyan leaning on the door of the cold palace alone, his legs softened a little, and he forced himself to show a mocking smile: "How dare the emperor come to the cold palace?" ?”

Yun Jinyan drank a lot of wine, and it was rare that when he was unconscious, he saw my eyes light up, and he rushed to me in a fit of anger, and hugged me tightly: "You are here... you are indeed here..."

I immediately understood that in this red dress, he recognized me as a young lady.

I didn't struggle, I didn't argue.Yiyi grew up slowly and needed more and more things. If Grandpa Feng couldn't find the old department of Ji's family, how could he send Yiyi out of the palace with his history and me as a court lady?I hate Gu Yanlin, Yin Qi, Yun Jinyan, the enemies who are in front of me every day.

Leaning in Yun Jinyan's arms, I imitated the young lady's voice and called him, Jin Yan.

That night my red dress was torn clean by him, that night I learned to laugh hypocritically, that night Zhu Yaoer who had lived for 15 years no longer existed.

On the second day, Yun Jinyan looked at me with disdain and said nothing.After he left, I slapped myself twice, my eyes that hadn't shed tears for a long time were sore.

I became a woman in the harem, the only surviving member of the Ji family.Since then, there have been constant rumors in the palace. Some people say that I was favored because of the young lady, and the emperor loves the house. Some people say that I was favored because of my great contributions to the Ji family.

In fact, the so-called holy grace is just a joke.

I asked Yun Jinyan to rebuild the Hongluan Hall, and he agreed, changing the name to Taoyao Hall.In front of people, I am very affectionate with him, and he dotes on me very much. After people, I talk coldly to him, but he doesn't care about me.

He spent a lot of time in Taoyao Temple, but he never touched me. When he woke up suddenly from a nightmare, he would find him on the low couch beside him, looking at me with blank eyes.

I know that he doesn't like Gu Yanlin and made her his concubine. The reason for this, the lady and I have analyzed, he made the appearance of pampering me, and he was just using me.

Gu Yanlin is very smart, but she never guessed the relationship between me and Yun Jinyan. She tentatively approached me step by step, and occasionally tried to make things difficult for me. I pretended to be stupid and endured it, and let her provoke me The relationship between me and the few concubines, until one time, I realized that she wanted to kill me.

The emotions that had been suppressed for a long time seemed to erupt overnight. I became the tyrannical Concubine Yao, targeting the weak and docile Concubine Yan everywhere.

I don't know if Yun Jinyan will let Gu Yanlin kill me, but I don't want to take the risk. If everyone knows that I am at odds with Concubine Yan, and if something happens to me, I will be inseparable from Concubine Yan. Gu Yanlin will act immediately There will be scruples.

In fact, I am very useless. I have been in the palace for six years, but I have not been able to hurt Yun Jinyan even a single bit. He is surrounded by hidden guards.Gu Yanlin, Yin Qi, and Yun Jinyan had no intention of getting rid of them. All I could do was humiliate them a few times like a domineering clown. Many times, I felt that my life was meaningless.

Only at Yiyi, seeing his clear eyes and holding him in my arms, can I feel my heartbeat and know that I am still alive.

Grandpa Feng said that he finally found some clues from the old department. As long as one of those people is found, the others will be easy.

Every day in the palace there is a scene of Concubine Yao bullying people with her "favor", and I am indeed becoming more and more manic. Every time after venting like crazy, I think of the young master saying that I am as quiet as water, and an unknown feeling rushes to my heart , Those, seem to be things from the previous life...

There are nine out of ten rumors in the palace that are false, but the truth makes me tremble with fear.

They said that every thunderstorm in the Taoyao Palace, there would be people crying like ghosts, and only when the emperor came up could they be overwhelmed.I didn't pay attention to these words at first, but after a long time, I observed them unconsciously, but I gradually discovered that I don't have the memory of thunderstorms, and there are often inexplicable injuries on my body, which are getting worse each time.

When I asked Yueer, she vaguely said that I had too many worries and forgot.

Yue'er is Eunuch Hao's niece, she knows almost all my secrets, and even she is evasive, so the matter is really not simple.

I intentionally pay attention to thunderstorms, force myself to stay awake at all times, and discover another me.

Crying cowardly, screaming in fear, masturbating like crazy, the whole process of cutting the young lady's stomach slipped before her eyes again and again, the guilt, terror, and despair that were usually suppressed poured out, thinking that only the third highness can save the young lady, when Yun Jinyan came over Pulling him and refusing to let go, begging him to save Miss, what he didn't dare to do that night, what he never did, the other one did it by himself...

(End of this chapter)