Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 126 My Sunflower

This time, Duan Yicheng's eyes became hotter and hotter, like the affection that could melt the ice and snow in winter. He wanted to imprint her image firmly in his heart, and he would never forget it in his life. With reluctance to look back, the voice was mixed into the hustle and bustle of the crowd in the corridor, almost invisible, "I should go."

After speaking, without any nostalgia, he lifted his foot and turned to leave.

Not without nostalgia.

But dare not have the slightest nostalgia.

Even, he couldn't even say goodbye.

Because goodbye is hard.

So, they... don't see each other again.

The figure of him limping away slowly was reflected in Song Xiaolin's black and white pupils, and she suddenly stopped him: "Duan Yicheng, what's wrong with your leg? Are you injured?"

Hearing this, Duan Yicheng stopped, looked down at his legs, and replied calmly, "It's nothing, it's just that I got sprained from playing basketball last week, and it will be fine in a few days."

"Then be careful, don't get hurt again."

"Ah."

By the way, he said, he joined Huada's basketball team and usually plays games.

She suddenly remembered an unfair basketball game in high school.

The glory he earned with all his efforts was just a joke.

"Duan Yicheng, you must win the game."

She wants him to get better and better.

She hoped that he could win real glory on a fair battlefield, forget all the bad things in the past in the long past, and welcome a new future.

It's just that she doesn't know that he has no future.

Duan Yicheng didn't look back. After standing there for a long while, he shook his head with a wry smile. His eyes were suddenly sore and sore, and even slightly moist. , "No chance." Slipped into the wind in the aisle, pale and desolate, like a piece of land where all things grew up, withered overnight, lost life, and lost the belief to live.

Finally, he resolutely left.

When he rushed out the door, the tear that fell was enough to prove how unwilling he was.

If that day, their encounter could have been a little more beautiful, perhaps it would not have ended like it is now.

The ending is irreversible.

In fact, he knew that she would not throw the glass bracelet into the trash can, maybe she would not wear it on her hand, but she would definitely keep it well.

Just because she is Song Xiaolin.

He wants her to see this string of glazed bracelets by chance in every ordinary and shining day, and she will suddenly think of the three words "Duan Yicheng".

He wants her to remember him forever.

For this reason, even if it is going to hell, or going up the mountain of swords and down into the sea of ​​fire, there is no turning back.

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time does not wait.

Another year.

Heavy snow fell, covering the tomb, like a thin layer of quilt.

Duan Yicheng was dressed in black. He stood in front of the grave for a long, long time.

It turned out that his mother had been away from him for more than a year.

His mother went from a wheelchair to a field and was finally buried with his father.

Since then, she will sleep forever, and he often misses her.

"Mom, I'm back to see you."

He slowly bent his knees and knelt on the ground. The snow accumulated in the soil was so thick that he even sank into it. The slightest bit of cold penetrated into his bones through a layer of clothing in an instant, making him ache from the cold.

He couldn't help shivering, but straightened his back, "Mom, today... I'm here to say goodbye to you, forgive me for not being able to visit you often in the future, and not being able to talk with you. I’m worried that next spring will come, and weeds will grow in front of your grave. Then I thought, sister-in-law will help you get rid of the weeds, so I’m relieved. Mom, you’ll probably blame me, blame me You are an unfilial son, you have worked so hard to bring me up, for me and for this dilapidated family, you have done all kinds of hard work, you have been working day and night to seek a future for me, but I always make you angry, it is a pity that I have always failed Your intentions are good, I am really a deviant and unfilial son, if you hadn’t given birth to me, then you wouldn’t be so tired, maybe you wouldn’t be in a car accident, and you wouldn’t be taken away Legs, but what's the point of talking about all this now, if there is a next life, you will be my daughter, I will love you well, you can treat me as much as you want, treat me like I did to you, in the next life Give back all the suffering you have suffered in this life, give it back to me, and let me be your cow or horse."

The snow has been falling without stopping.

The snowflakes all over the sky gently fell on Duan Yicheng's shoulders, it seemed that even the snow was moved by it, and it was not willing to let him get wet, it was also like dyed white hair for him, mixed with light and inaudible whispers, intertwined into this winter One of the most poignant paintings ever.

His eyes were red and watery, but he did not shed tears easily.

"Mom, I'm sorry, please forgive my selfish choice." His brows were still unruly, unwilling to compromise, and even resisted the whole world with his own strength, "Because I am Duan Yicheng, so no matter how many times I do it again, I will still do it again." Stand by your choice today."

In the end, the unruly boy finally had tears in his eyes.

With a hoarse voice, he choked up every word, "Mom, I like her so much, I really like her so much, I like her so much, I like her so much, I like her so much, I'm going crazy... Everyone Let me fend for myself, but she alone wants me to be born facing the sun."

But this time, he couldn't face the sun.

Because there will no longer be light in his world, he is about to fall into the boundless darkness, and there will be no redemption.

He can only live to die.

Later, at the end of the story, he sent her a bouquet of sunflowers and an envelope.

Inside the envelope was a card with only two short lines:
In the countless days of not seeing each other in the future, you must always shine.

So don't wither in the dark, my sunflower.

~
Kneeling for a long time, the legs have long been numb.

Duan Yicheng gently brushed off the falling snow in front of the grave, just like stroking his mother's cheek.

He kowtowed heavily, and stood up slowly, "Mom, I'm leaving, and I don't know how many coming years before I can come to the grave to sweep the snow and weed for you, maybe there will be no next year, but please always remember , your son Duan Yicheng will always love you."

Finally, after taking a deep look at his mother's grave, he turned and staggered away, still limping, leaving a long row of footprints in the snow.

But after the next heavy snowfall, these footprints disappeared, as if he had never been here.

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The day after discharge from the hospital.

Song Xiaolin finally waited for a call from Lu Jingyan.

But it's strange, obviously she's been thinking about it, in order to wait for this call, she stays by the phone almost every day, can't even sleep soundly, for fear of missing any news from him, but when he really called, she There was a moment of hesitation.

Hesitant to accept it.

She is mad at him.

very angry.

But in the end it was reluctance, and in the end I could only pick it up resentfully.

She really is a spineless person.

She also wants to have backbone.

But in the end, the backbone is still not enough to miss the sickness.

(End of this chapter)