Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 127 Thorn

The day after discharge from the hospital.

Song Xiaolin finally waited for a call from Lu Jingyan.

But it's strange, obviously she's been thinking about it, in order to wait for this call, she stays by the phone almost every day, can't even sleep soundly, for fear of missing any news from him, but when he really called, she There was a moment of hesitation.

Hesitant to accept it.

She is mad at him.

very angry.

But in the end it was reluctance, and in the end I could only pick it up resentfully.

She really is a spineless person.

She also wants to have backbone.

But in the end, the backbone is still not enough to miss the sickness.

On the phone, there were a few footsteps of people passing by, mixed with the roaring vehicles, Lu Jingyan spoke in a slightly hoarse voice, the voice was so soft that it was almost blown away by the wind, "Son, I'm sorry, I missed the appointment gone."

A wisp of warm breath from him seemed to slip into her ear slowly through the phone.

Suddenly, Song Xiaolin's heart thumped and slowly tightened. This long-lost and familiar voice was like a flood that submerged her in an instant.

She was undoubtedly heartbroken, but after the heartbeat, she was endlessly sad.

He also knew that he missed the appointment.

"Yes, you missed the appointment."

Despite her efforts to stabilize her emotions, her voice still trembled slightly, and her tone was full of disappointment that could not be concealed. He probably didn't know how much courage she needed to bear this matter.

Her voice just fell.

On the other side, suddenly there was no sound of him, no sound of wind, nothing but silence, like a cassette, except for blankness, it was still blank.

After a long time, Lu Jingyan sighed deeply, but he was speechless after all, "I'm sorry."

All he could say was sorry.

But the three words I'm sorry, can't play any role in this matter, it doesn't even have a comforting effect, and it will only aggravate the pain in her heart, like a scabbed scar, being torn again and again Open, it will not heal, it will only hurt more.

"Why did you miss the appointment?"

So far, Song Xiaolin only wants to know the reason.

As far as she is concerned, anyone can miss the appointment, except Lu Jingyan.

"I..." He paused, rarely flustered, as if he was looking for a reason that sounded perfect, but it was useless. After a long while, he replied concisely, "I have very important things at the moment." The last few syllables gradually dropped down.

She chased after her step by step, but she seemed a little aggressive: "Didn't you say that you pushed back all the itineraries?"

"Yes," he admitted, but remained silent.

But she couldn't calm down anymore, she just wanted to hear an explanation from him, but he kept blurring the question, and he couldn't answer the real reason at all.

This brought Song Xiaolin to the brink of collapse: "So, for you..."

It's not really that important, is it?
But she never had the courage to ask this sentence.

He is her everything.

But she can't be self-righteous and think that she is also his everything.

She wanted to endure all the bad emotions, but she felt too wronged, too depressed, too helpless, and too uncomfortable. She really couldn't be calm, let alone not care. This is not just crushing the camel The last straw was also the despair that could destroy her entire world, lingering in the ruins, longing for his light to shine into the boundless darkness, and lead her out of the abyss: "Lu Jingyan, I almost..." Suddenly, Song Xiaolin choked up, and the words "dead" suddenly stopped in his throat, which was more painful than a fishbone being caught.

What's the point of saying it's dead or not dead?

At least, for her, it doesn't mean much anymore.

Hearing her desolate voice in vain, Lu Jingyan felt extremely distressed, but he had nothing to say. Some truths are more suitable to be forgotten in the long years. As time slowly passes away like quicksand, these pains make people feel sad. It is enough for him to suffer alone, so why bother to suffer together, there is no need to be too obsessed with the so-called truth for things that are not worth sad, "Child, you..."

"The exchange meeting is about to start, so I'll get busy first."

After finishing speaking, she hung up the phone in a hurry, and the next second, she couldn't bear the sadness anymore, and burst into tears.

Just one more step at night, and he could hear her cry.

But the reason why Song Xiaolin collapsed like this was not because of his missed appointment, nor because of his vague answer, but because he realized that he might not be that important in Lu Jingyan's heart.

This is the real reason for her collapse.

It was also the reason she cared most from the beginning to the end.

On the first day, a bouquet of roses placed on the window sill bloomed to the extreme. On the second and third days, the petals began to fall off. On the last day, they all withered, but although the roses withered, but The thorn remained in her heart forever.

At the age of 17, Song Xiaolin thought that she must confess her love to Lu Jingyan for many years on the day of her 20th birthday, but because of this thorn, she finally waited for the day of her 20th birthday Stay away.

At that time, he spent her birthdays with her every year.

A full 12 years.

She also went from being an older brother to calling his name.

She thought they could really be together forever.

But since his 19th birthday last year, everything has changed.

He missed her birthday for the first time.

But he never thought that this year's 20th birthday would be the same for him.

He began to formally take over the huge family business of the Lu family, and dressed up to attend various occasions where celebrities gathered, while she was still learning different medical knowledge every day in a small world in Nantah University.

Even, in the past six months, they met very few times.

I don’t know when, the distance between him and her, from Nantah University to Nanzhong, is only a few miles, a few trees, and a street away, and now it is crowded with people. He will not go all the way to buy one for her. Tang, for her sake, will no longer spend a lot of time teaching her to do physics problems that she is not good at at all, let alone for her, turn down all the trips just to accompany her.

She never thought that people who were close to her would suddenly become so far away.

So... out of reach.

She is still trapped in Beicheng, and he is no longer in Beicheng.

Or maybe, she was the only person trapped in Beicheng from beginning to end.

This situation made her not very panic.

But she couldn't stop all of this, she couldn't stop him from becoming better and better, just like she couldn't stop the rotation of the seasons, the replacement of the sun and the moon, and the rising tide of the sea, she could even just stand there helplessly, watching him It seems that the kite with a broken string is gradually getting farther and farther away from me.

Seabirds can only fly up, not swim into the water.

How can the fish fly into the sky?
Seabirds have their way, and fish have their way.

Between the two, there will never be a third ending.

She should have understood this truth long ago, but she has been unwilling to admit it.

(End of this chapter)