Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 141 Is It Wrong to Love Someone?

All her secrets, everything about her has been emptied, she has nothing left, she really has nothing but love for him, Lu Jingyan may have been moved, but so what?There was no result between them, because this fiery love came too late, too late, and too inappropriate.

He closed his eyes in some pain, for a long time, when he opened them again, the dark color as black as lacquer was full of indifference, and deserted, with a hoarse voice, like the weakness and distress hidden under the hopeless situation that no one wanted to hide , "My child, I'm sorry, I can't respond to your feelings."

This so-called inability to respond is tantamount to rejecting her love in disguise.

It turns out that the winter wind, no matter how gentle it is, is biting.

got rejected.

As expected...

But Song Xiaolin still felt the pain, it really hurt, her whole heart throbbed so painfully that she was about to suffocate, and it penetrated into her bones and blood inch by inch, as if thousands of ants were gnawing on her. She couldn't describe the pain of being tortured. , like a dense fog, it struck violently over and over again, with the damage of the violent storm everywhere, and it was impossible to escape.

The tears had already burst, she broke down crying again and again, and smiled bitterly again and again, in the end, no matter how many words she said, she seemed extremely pale, and she could only helplessly and helplessly shook her head, not daring to look up at him , because she could no longer bear this whirlpool of heartbeat, and if she fell into it again, she would not be able to survive, so she could only stare at her pair of white shoes stained with a little dust, mixed with the sudden falling drop by drop. blood stains.

At this moment, he suddenly found that the fist she had been clenching tightly, with blood oozing from the fingers, the whole hand was already stained red.

Lu Jingyan pulled her hand, opened his fingers, and then a piece of broken glass stained with blood fell to the ground with a bang, which was especially crisp in the silent night.

This piece of broken glass is what she brought out of the fraternity.

There was a dark look between his brows for a moment, "Are you crazy?"

Song Xiaolin's hand was bloody and bloody. Just looking at it made her feel unbearable pain, but she looked indifferent. To her, her heart was dead, so why should she care about the hand? A little hurt, she smiled and muttered to herself, feeling a little dazed: "It's okay, you can't respond to my feelings, so what can I do? I can't force you to be with me, it's not two-way Love, no matter how persistent you are, it's useless, what can I do..."

He also felt very uncomfortable seeing her lost soul, "Child, be more sober."

"Sober?" She frowned in pain, her eyes were red and swollen from crying, Lihua looked at him with rain, she was extremely wronged, "Aren't I sober enough, Lu Jingyan? I even pricked the glass handle and bled. Still not sober? I have been blowing cold wind all night, and the wind has blown my mind soberly, and I have been using pain to maintain the most basic rationality."

He couldn't believe that his child would hurt himself in such a self-harming way, "You tell me, why are you doing this?"

Why do this?
Lu Jingyan, you still don't understand after all.

Suddenly, Song Xiaolin chuckled nonchalantly, and said mockingly: "Only in this way, my heart will not hurt so much. I thought it would relieve my pain, but I was wrong, heartache will never be gone." Boundary, there is no most painful, only more painful. You say I am drunk, then I have to prove that I am not drunk, I love you soberly."

Who can completely resist such a hot and strong love?

But killing one thousand enemies will only hurt eight hundred.

But upon hearing this, Lu Jingyan's eyes were full of shock and disappointment, perhaps not disappointment, but an unspeakable heartache, "Child, how did you become so extreme, why did you become like this?"

In his memory, his child had excellent grades, was quiet and sensible, although he was easily shy, and sometimes his face would turn red when he said a few words, but in the end he behaved properly.

But it wasn't until today that he discovered that he didn't know his little one at all.

It turned out that in the beginning, her noisy temper became quiet because of him, just because of a word he said casually, she was going to do her best to become what he liked.

She doesn't like physics, and she doesn't like studying medicine.

But she spent a lot of time studying physics, which she was not good at at all, and gave up her favorite literature major to study medicine.

Everything about her is centered around him.

His name written in black and white ink on the white paper, the withered rose on the window sill, the envelope locked in the cabinet, and the photos he secretly took one after another...every scene and scene hides her deep-seated love.

His children kept too many secrets from him.

Behind every secret, there is a bloody wound.

But his child shouldn't be such a child who fell in love and lost what he loved.

She shouldn't live for him.

She shouldn't have hurt herself in such an extreme way with self-harm.

She should be shining in her own field, not hiding behind him in a corner and desperately trying to catch up with him.

All of this should not be developing in this direction.

Since it is a wrong thing, then the loss should be stopped in time.

In fact, sometimes, unfeeling is just another expression of love.

Short pain is definitely worth long pain.

Lu Jingyan bent down and picked up the piece of broken glass that was stained with her blood and dried up on the ground. The broken glass shone in the moonlight in his hands. The next second, he suddenly held the broken glass hard, just like her. , blood slowly oozed from between his fingers, instantly staining his fair and slender fingers red, with a suffocation that penetrated the soul.

Song Xiaolin was stunned for a moment, and after realizing it, her psychological defense finally slowly collapsed, and she carefully reached out to touch his hand, stained with his cold blood, but felt scalding hot, she couldn't help crying Crying loudly: "Lu Jingyan, don't do this, why do you do this..."

She didn't feel her wound hurt, but she felt his wound hurt.

He didn't stop, the blood was still bubbling, his brows were lowered, and every word was very cold, "From today onwards, if you say one more word of love to me, then I will cut myself with a knife."

Hearing his words, she widened her beautiful eyes for a moment. She couldn't understand the words at all, and was shocked why he would say such crazy and indifferent words. She was heartbroken to the extreme, repeating and repeating, no different from death: "Why? Why are you so cruel to me, Lu Jingyan? I just love you. What did I do wrong? Did I do something wrong? Is it wrong to love someone? Wrong, then you can kill me..."

(End of this chapter)