Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 212 I Have Always Been Trapped in Beicheng

In the temples of Tianxiang Mountain, there is an endless stream of believers coming and going.

When I just climbed up the steps, I saw the smoke from the incense burner covering the whole mountain.

Like being immersed in the fairy world.

Under the tall oak trees, strips of yellow prayer belts sway in the wind.

Song Xiaopurn wrote on the prayer tape - May God bless my young man with no disease or disaster.

After that, gently hang the prayer belt on the treetop.

She lit three incense sticks and prayed as devoutly as the believers.

When we left the temple, it was getting late.

In the nose, there is a faint scent of sweet-scented osmanthus.

"Little Purlin." Suddenly heard a familiar voice...

Subconsciously, she turned her head and saw Steward Chen standing in the crowd.

He also saw Lu Jingyan next to Steward Chen.

At that time, the spring breeze woke up the red clouds in the sky, and she was in a deep dream, and her eyes were full of him holding a blessing belt in the twilight.

"Lu Jingyan—"

His eyes suddenly brightened like a deer, and Song Xiaolin ran towards him ecstatically, "Are you okay?"

He said softly, "Well, I'm fine."

In the black lens, her face as delicate as a cherry blossom was reflected.

But why is he wearing sunglasses?

He never wears sunglasses.

How could Lu Jingyan, who is so cold, noble and omnipotent, be blind?

She still couldn't believe that he was blind.

So, she carefully took off his sunglasses.

Lu Jingyan's eyes were still deep and gloomy, but different from before, they were like a pool of stagnant water, without any light or any expression, like mountains and rivers turning to ashes, everything withered and decayed, desolate and extremely lost.

She tentatively stretched out her hand and shook it in front of his eyes.

It's a pity that he doesn't see her in his eyes.

With such beautiful eyes, why couldn't he see her?

In an instant, all the turbulent and unquenchable emotions surged up, tears welled up in her eyes, Song Xiaolin threw herself into his arms, crying wantonly, she wanted to say too much, but when it came to her mouth, she could only choke "Lu Jingyan".

"Lu Jingyan, Lu Jingyan." One after another, full of inseparable and deep love.

"Well, I'm here."

His hand touched her head along her shoulder, and rubbed it lightly in his palm, "I think, I should come to see you, tomorrow I will go abroad to heal my eyes."

Therefore, they only have the last few hours left.

As soon as she thought that Beicheng would be without him tomorrow, she leaned even more indulgently in his arms, unwilling to get up for a long time, letting the strong and slightly bitter smell of Chinese medicine on his shirt fill her nostrils: "Lu Jingyan , why don't you tell me all the truth? Why do you have to bear this in silence?"

So far, there is really nothing to hide.

"Child, the moment you know the truth, are you sad? Will you blame yourself? Will you feel guilty?"

She nodded without hesitation: "Sadness, self-blame, and guilt."

"So, I can't do it." Lu Jingyan said in a low voice, "I can't make you sad, I can't make you blame yourself, and I can't make you feel guilty, it's better than me alone It makes me more painful. When you misunderstood me, in fact, countless times I wanted to tell you the truth desperately, but if I told you, if it still made you sad in the end, made you blame yourself, and made you feel guilty, Then what will we use to make up for the five years we missed? Do we want us to miss these five years forever?"

"But... I'd rather know the whole truth."

"Child, you don't understand, not only for this reason."

He held her shoulder with his hand, and gently pulled her away, "I also have my own reasons."

Butler Chen helped him up in time: "Little Purlin, it's getting late, get in the car first."

"it is good."

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Song Xiaolin lowered the window of the car and had a panoramic view of the afterglow of the setting sun on the edge of Tianxiang Mountain.

She turned her head to look at Lu Jingyan.

He seemed to be looking out the window too, but only the breeze ruffled his hair.

At that time, she suddenly remembered a sentence Su Lingling once said——

Lu Jingyan must love you far more than you imagined.

Now, she seems to... understand a little bit.

She approached him quietly, and poked his sleeve lightly with her fingertips: "What's the relationship between you and Su Lingling?"

Hearing this, his expression didn't change, he was still cold, but for a long time, he seemed to laugh in a low voice, or maybe he didn't, but he didn't hide it any more, "After graduating from Nanzhong, I never contacted Su Lingling again. I only dated her for half a year in the first semester of high school, but to be precise, although it was a relationship, it was only a relationship between classmates. What's more, she dropped out of school early. The encounter five years ago was a After seven years of reunion, it was also the day when she said that she wanted to chat with me again, about the reason we broke up in the first place. Our relationship began with Su Lingling's confession, but it ended with her. At that time, her reason for breaking up was that no matter how hard she tried, the distance between me and me seemed to be separated by an invisible mountain. It seemed very close, but in reality it was far away. Close. She felt tired, and she also said that she always felt that when I looked at her, I was not looking at her, but looking at another person and thinking about another person through her eyebrows and eyes."

Very familiar sentence...

Song Xiaolin remembered that she had questioned him like this before.

Ask him, when looking at her, is he thinking about another woman through her eyebrows and eyes?
He also asked him, at that time, was he thinking that the child who had been with him year after year had finally grown up, or was he thinking about how Su Lingling, who was far away from Beicheng, was doing well these years?

But why... Su Lingling also feels this way?

Is it...

Lu Jingyan lowered his voice, "Later, at the reunion seven years later, Su Lingling lit a cigarette and told me with a smile that she finally knew who the person I was thinking through her eyebrows was. .”

With his heart beating, Song Xiaolin asked in a low voice with joy, "Who is that person...?"

He didn't answer, and he didn't seem to plan to answer. He still said in a calm tone, "Actually, it's not just you who are trapped in that theater, but also me, kid. I was always trapped in Beicheng. At that time, I liked to stay in When I read a book in the theater, I always feel that listening to the songs in my ears is really fascinating. I read the book with great interest, and I can even stay there for a whole afternoon. But often when I read the book to the extreme, I simply ignore the things outside the window. But it just so happened that the weather was so hot that day, accompanied by the bell-like cry of a little girl, it actually startled me who was sitting in the corner reading a book. So, I followed the crying sound, and I was surrounded by several adults In the movie, I found out that it was a girl who was frightened by a man singing a buffoon and burst into tears."

(End of this chapter)