Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 213 Song Xiaolin is Lu Jingyan's White Moonlight
Lu Jingyan didn't answer, and he didn't seem to plan to answer. He still said in a calm tone, "Actually, it's not just you who are trapped in that theater, but also me, kid. I was always trapped in Beicheng. At that time, I liked to stay in When I read a book in the theater, I always feel that listening to the songs in my ears is really fascinating. I read the book with gusto, and I can even stay there for a whole afternoon. But often when I read the book to the extreme, I simply ignore what is going on outside the window. But it just so happened that the weather was so hot that day, and the clear and bell-like crying of a little girl actually startled me who was sitting in the corner reading a book. So, I followed the crying sound, and I was surrounded by several grown-ups In the movie, I found out that it was a girl who was frightened by a man singing a buffoon and burst into tears."

"You have an immature and powdery face, big watery eyes with big crystal teardrops, that is you at the age of six. I don't know why, at that moment, I suddenly felt that the book in my hand was so boring , I actually wanted to see what this girl looked like when she smiled, so I stood up from the corner, took out another chocolate candy in my pocket, and coaxed you not to cry, but I didn't expect you to stop crying .For so many years, I have never forgotten your crooked smile when you eat candy."

"I'm five years older than you. Although it doesn't sound like there's much difference, but I'm in high school and you're still in elementary school. The gap can be felt immediately." He recalled the past with a wry smile, "So, I always thought I was I only have the feelings of brother and sister for you, but it’s not true, until Su Lingling told me that the person I was thinking of when I looked at her was you, I thought about it all night without closing my eyes, and I couldn’t fall asleep , At that moment, I finally realized that my feelings for you were far more than my brother's feelings for my sister. It turns out that I have loved you deeply year after year without even knowing it. Because of Su Lingling's eyebrows You are [-]% or [-]% similar to you, so in order to escape the guilt about the age difference between you and me, I subconsciously regarded Su Lingling as the grown-up you, and it was justified I accepted her confession without hesitation, but she is not you after all, and my affection for her has always been beyond that of a classmate."

Under the off-white light, Lu Jingyan looked cool and peaceful.

He looked out the window, but his eyes couldn't tolerate anything in the world, "I am the light in your eyes, but why aren't you mine."

That moment.

Song Xiaolin only felt that the sky was dimming all of a sudden, and as far as he could see, there was a void of whiteness, a vast expanse of space, and tears fell silently and slowly, soaking his cheeks.

The past of so many years was suddenly uncovered, overturning all the things that had already been concluded, and her emotions were too complicated to express.

It looks like a cat's paws are wrapped in balls of wool, making a mess.

Even feel suffocated, difficult to calm down.

It turned out that 19 years were like quicksand, filling up the gully of time, but she always missed the boy reading in the corner, and he still missed the girl who was scared to cry by the man who sang clowns.

It turned out that he loved her too.

It is not the doting between adults and children, nor the affection between elder brothers and younger sisters, but liking, a love deeper than liking.

It turned out that Su Lingling was not his white moonlight.

Song Xiaolin is Lu Jingyan's white moonlight.

Misunderstood.

Everything is a misunderstanding.

"But I knew all of this too late, and I discovered this love too late, after all, it was out of season." Lu Jingyan secretly clenched his hands into fists, hard enough that his knuckles turned white, "During the fire, I was The sharp object severely injured my eyes, resulting in a temporary loss of visual function. Although I recovered my sight later, it left serious sequelae. For example, I can’t see things in the dark, and the sudden white light will make me fall into darkness, and I can’t use my eyes for a long time. , easily fatigued, and may even become blind again. The most serious thing is the long-term loss of visual function like now, and maybe I will be blind forever. It is really hard for me to accept that I may become a blind person from now on, but once Thinking that you are safe and sound, I will not complain again."

Song Xiaolin cried and asked: "Then you and Su Lingling's reunion and engagement were also to force me to leave?"

But he shook his head, "It's true that she and I have a fake reunion and a fake engagement. She just played a scene with me, but this is not to force you to leave, but to make you give up on me. But your departure, It was within my expectation. I knew you liked me, but I didn't know that you liked me much more than you liked me. You actually studied your tirelessly every day and night in order to have a common topic with me. I’m not interested in physics, and I gave up my favorite major for me, even at the expense of hurting myself... I don’t want you to become like this for me, my child should be shining, not for me. More What's more, sometimes I can't even see your appearance clearly. How can I love you like this? What should I use to love you? With full love? You are suitable for a man who is better and younger than me So, I had no choice but to push you away cruelly and make you give up on me. So, I asked Su Lingling to cooperate with me in a play. As for why it must be Su Lingling, because you care about Su Lingling very much, my child. Only with her can I successfully cooperate with me in this scene."

Lu Jingyan sighed lowly, laughing like self-deprecating, "The purpose of this scene has been achieved. I should be happy, but I can't be happy. I know that once you go abroad, it will take many years to leave. I I won’t look for you, but I will always wait for you in Beicheng. During the years of waiting for you, I have thought countless times, is it more painful for me to suffer everything silently without telling you and being misunderstood by you, or to keep it in the dark? It’s even more painful for you who didn’t know the truth and was hurt by me cruelly. In the end, I thought, lucky my eyes can recover, lucky you just returned to China, then I will love you again without hesitation.”

His brows and eyes were gentle, and he turned his head to look at her, but he couldn't see anything, he could only hear her deep breathing, "My child has finally become a big star admired by thousands of people."

That slightly proud tone really broke Song Xiaolin.

She was almost unable to suppress her feelings, and when she couldn't make a sound, she threw herself into his arms, buried her in his neck, and wailed happily and recklessly: "Lu Jingyan... why are you doing this like this?" Me, is it worth it?"

He is very forbearing and restrained, but he is extremely firm, "It's worth it."

Steward Chen was driving the car quietly, but after hearing the truth all the way, he finally couldn't help but wipe away his tears silently.

(End of this chapter)