Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 218 You Are Another Abyss

Immediately, a smell of smoke slowly lingered throughout the living room.

Su Lingling went to open the window, and the fresh wind finally purified the unpleasant smell in the house.

Si Zhengting smoked and exhaled muffledly. After a long time, he said hoarsely, "After so many years, you still can't let go of the news of your grandma's death?"

Hearing the word grandma, her hands clenched into fists suddenly, and the end of her eyes blushed silently. She tried to calm herself down, but found that she couldn't calm down at all, trembling slightly every word: "What right do you have to be here?" What about grandma before me?"

With her back to the light, her eyes were full of hatred.

"Actually... I didn't mean to."

She subconsciously looked sideways at him, her vision was not clear amidst the clouds and mist, his facial features were blurred by wisps of white smoke, but the line of his jawbone was exceptionally clear, "I swear, I really didn't know that at that time Your grandma is already sick..."

"But so what if we know?" Su Lingling slowly walked towards him step by step, bent down again, and raised his chin provocatively, "Will you let me go?"

The distance is close, the breath is close to the ear.

Si Zhengting was so obsessed with her eyes. They were beautiful, bright, and full of charm. There was a smile in the bright eyes, but the smile couldn't reach the bottom of the eyes. It was so cold that it made people fall into the deep sea. , only endless darkness.

But he just fell in love with this woman.

Love her face, love her eyes.

Love her hypocrisy.

I love her indifference and cold-bloodedness.

They are the most suitable people in this world.

Suddenly, he held her arm with one hand, pulled her down, let her sit on his lap, and leaned closer to her, kissed her on the lips, panting slightly, "No."

His nose was filled with the smell of his smoke.

He kept asking for her kiss.

The thick and smoky smoke straight into the throat, Su Lingling resisted very much.

But her struggle aroused his excitement even more.

Finally unable to bear it any longer, she slapped him across the face: "Are you awake?"

Si Zhengting, who was slapped, was obviously not annoyed.

Half of the smoke between the fingers was extinguished in the wind, and the remaining half was faintly sparkling with sparks.

Finally, he extinguished the cigarette and threw it into the ashtray.

Taking advantage of his slight distraction, she pushed him away forcefully, and fanned the burning smell lingering around her with her hand in disgust, and said with a sneer: "You can't let go if you ask me." The news of grandma's death? Then you tell me, how can I let go of it? Since childhood, my father didn't love my mother, I was isolated by my classmates, I was scolded by the neighbors in the neighborhood, the people in the school called the most nasty and nasty swear words, and I was abused by my biological father. Abused and beaten, abandoned by my biological mother... Growing up in such an environment, my grandma was my only safe haven. However, when my grandma was suffering from illness, I played and sang every night. Before she died, my grandma held tightly I was looking at my photo, but I was not able to accompany her. I didn’t even see her for the last time. She just passed away alone, on that old and narrow bed...Grandma Love me so much, but I have failed her sincerity to me, how can you let me let go?"

Talking about the past, Su Lingling choked up several times, even on the verge of collapse, "It's not that I want to sing every night, you forced me to do all of this! You forced me to receive those guests, and you acquiesced to those wretched people The men wantonly touched me and let their dirty eyes fall on me. I even remember the first time I met you, it was on a moonless night, my father owed The huge debt was hiding everywhere, so the creditor came to me, but I had no money to pay back, so they wanted to charge me to pay off the debt. Fortunately, you appeared in the end and rescued me. You are like a god descended from the sky. I thought you were It will be the second light that shines into my dark world besides grandma, but I was wrong, too wrong, you are another abyss."

"My mother killed your mother. In order to get revenge, you have to make the enemy's daughter equally unfortunate. So you use grandma to trap me firmly in the game you control, and let me fall step by step In the end. But I, Su Lingling, was born to be an unfortunate person. After my father owed a huge debt, I dropped out of high school before I even finished high school. Others were studying and looking forward to the future, but I was selling flowers under the overpass Small toys, working part-time in a milk tea shop... I haven't done any work, I am almost overwhelmed by this terrible life, I am so tired, I desperately want to have a shoulder to rely on, to replace I was sheltered from the wind and rain, so I made a boyfriend at that time, but later I found out that this man was uneducated and only dreamed of making a fortune. I couldn't stand it, and broke up with him, which coincided with the time I My father was released from prison after serving five years in prison, but I never thought that the life I had worked so hard to maintain would be shattered so easily, and it was broken glass all over the floor."

Su Lingling held her chest in pain, her emotions were too strong one after another, "It's ridiculous to say it, my biological father who just got out of prison actually sold me to an old man together with my ex-boyfriend. Since I lost my virginity From the moment I was born, I no longer had any hope for this world. I had the idea of ​​committing suicide, but I was always worried about my grandma, and in the end I always let it go."

"I don't want to be a charming and coquettish woman. I also want to be a pure and innocent girl in a white dress, but I can't. I can only degenerate myself into the most disgusting appearance, and force myself to become a woman with all kinds of amorous feelings." I can only live if I have a beautiful woman, and I can't live so much as to die! But do you think I won't be sad? Am I really invincible? "

"The group of men looked at my body with obscene eyes, and touched my thigh with their dirty and rough hands... I am absolutely disgusted."

She would never show any timidity in front of Si Zhengting, let alone show any compromise. She was always so fearless and indifferent, and always had such a superior attitude, as if nothing could really move her.

But after he got drunk, she finally took off her disguise.

Who can I talk to about these things in daily life.

He could only vent his grievances while he was drunk.

After all.

At the age of 30, it is neither too old nor too young.

But after living for 30 years, there are 25 years of living in pain.

No matter how strong a person is, he will eventually have his weakest side.

Su Lingling gently wiped away her tears, got up and went to close the window.

The wind rushed towards my face, blowing my eyes dry and painful.

After closing the window, the wind stopped, and the house was quiet.

　Boys, more will be added in the next few days~

　　
　
(End of this chapter)