Spread joy in the arms of the cold male god

Chapter 29

She closed the window, as if thinking about what to say, but hesitated, "Lu Jingyan, I..."

At some point, he had already walked up to her, and handed her the fragrant fried rice cakes, his words were as gentle as a boat rocking gently in the evening wind, "Child, I'm very angry, why are you at school?" I have suffered so many grievances but I don’t want to tell me, but I’m not angry with you, I’m angry with myself, angry that I didn’t discover your sadness and helplessness earlier.”

In a trance, Song Xiaolin was stunned, looking down at the fried rice cake in her hand, she just felt sore nose, she also wanted to cry unscrupulously in front of him, to be his child again, but she clearly understood, understood clearly It's very painful, he has someone by his side, he has someone he wants to protect and love, she can't be so willful anymore, she can only swallow all the thoughts and sorrows in her heart, it's so bitter.

"I am fine."

She said the three words easily and nonchalantly.

But for Lu Jingyan, it was the most fatal blow.

"Son, tell me, if you didn't call today because you had a fever and fainted from school, would you still want to keep this from me? How long would you want to keep it from me? Huh?" The last rising sound, Not heavy, but more frightening.

She bit her lower lip nervously, trying her best to look like she really didn't care, but the trembling voice still betrayed the anxiety and anxiety in her heart: "...Yes, I will keep it from you and keep it from you looking at you."

Suddenly, his heart throbbed a little. He pressed her shoulders with both hands, and his eyebrows and eyes showed pain, "Why? Are you angry with me? You wanted me to come pick you up the day before yesterday. I didn't mean not to go, I originally Would like to go, but..."

"That's enough, Lu Jingyan, stop talking." Song Xiaolin broke free from his arm and turned her gaze out of the window. The rain had not stopped, and the branches swayed in the wind. She learned the truth from his mouth that she didn't want to think about, and she didn't want to hear the names of other girls from his mouth. She is a person, and she also has selfish intentions, but she is also humble, like a clown, "All of this is gone. meaning."

She doesn't need his explanation.

But he needs it.

"Child, I don't want to see you being wronged. Don't you understand? Just tell me about these things today, even if you tell Butler Chen or Mrs. Wu, I will help you deal with them. It shouldn't have happened."

Xu was a little anxious, so his tone of voice seemed to be a little bit of blame.

For many days, Song Xiaolin's depressed mood also collapsed in this rainy season: "But they have already happened, it's too late to say anything, besides, I'm fine, I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me, my business I'll handle it myself."

She didn't look at him awkwardly, "You should be busy with other important things now, right? Don't waste your time here, I will take care of myself, you go, I also want to be alone for a while .”

She issued an evacuation order.

Lu Jingyan didn't say a word, only those eyes were low and deep, as if hiding a thousand helplessness and a thousand words, but in the end he didn't say anything, his lips were lightly pursed, showing no emotion, perhaps Because he caught cold on the road on a rainy day, he inadvertently coughed a few times, and in the quiet ward, he looked even more deserted.

Suddenly, her heart tightened.

After a long time, he seemed to sigh, "Son, take a good rest, I'm leaving first."

"land……"

When the words came to her mouth, Song Xiaolin swallowed them again, as if a long fishbone had been stuck in her throat, and the moment she opened her mouth, she felt a sharp pain, because she knew clearly that she was no longer qualified to keep him.

She kept reminding herself to be calm and sober.

However, this boundless sadness was about to engulf her. Looking at the fried rice cakes in her hands that had cooled, her tears burst like pearls with broken strings.

The rain seemed to have stopped.

At this time, it was just twilight outside the window.

The sunset fell into Zhaozhao Xingye, and the world was late, and the mountains and rivers were already autumn.

~

Lu Jingyan didn't look back, and left resolutely.

But this time, he wasn't angry, nor was he disappointed. He just felt a little tired all of a sudden.

She didn't know how anxious he was when he learned that she had fainted on the phone.

He who has always been calm and steady lost his composure in front of everyone for the first time.

He really wanted to be nice to her from the bottom of his heart, but his child was like a frightened hedgehog in front of him. When anyone approached, she kept alienating him intentionally or unintentionally. This made him, who rushed to the hospital non-stop as soon as he finished the physics experiment, not only exhausted, but also inexplicably melancholy. He was not happy, and even felt depressed. , irritability.

He has never smoked, let alone smoked, but at this moment, he is extremely fond of his friend who once said——

Smoke, you can forget all the troubles, just remember the happiness.

He couldn't forget that scene, the unrestrained, free and happy man in the clouds and mist.

He admitted that his heart was indeed moved, and his mind was indeed not clear enough, so he wanted to use something like cigarettes to numb this terrible feeling.

However, such thoughts are only for a moment.

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After eating the dinner brought by the nurse, Song Xiaolin went to bed early.

In the middle of the night, she woke up in a daze and heard a few thunderclaps that were not too loud.

It's raining heavily again.

The ward was very dark, only a dark yellow desk lamp by the bed was lit, and the air was extremely dull, except for the smell of disinfectant, it was almost stuffy.

She seemed to be having a nightmare, sweating profusely, falling into the darkness and panicking. After she calmed down a little, she lifted the quilt and got up and was about to open the window, but she suddenly caught a glimpse of the sofa in the corner, standing there. The figure of a man.

With the moonlight outside the window, she finally saw his face clearly.

Lu Jingyan.

When did he come?
All of a sudden, Song Xiaolin's uneasiness and panic settled down, and a warm feeling rose from his heart.

He knew she was afraid of the dark, and he always remembered that she was afraid of living in the hospital alone.

So, he silently accompanied her.

However, in the evening, she said such harsh words to him again, she must have made him angry again.

She blamed herself a little, and her mood was extremely contradictory.

After a while, instead of opening the window, she picked up her mobile phone and clicked on the forum of Nantah University.

In post after post and comment after post, try to find clues.

But apart from praise posts and confession posts, there is almost no article about him and Zhang Xiaonian being together.

Logically speaking, this is impossible.

Song Xiaolin didn't give up, and almost turned the entire forum upside down.

Finally, in the latest comments of a post, it seems that a big thing has been discovered.

(End of this chapter)