Rebirth after waste

Chapter 128

As if suddenly falling from the scorching sun of June into an ice cellar, the chill came quickly and violently.

The bone-chilling snowy day flashed again in Gu Yunxian's mind, and heavy snow poured into her room, opening a big hole in her heart.The wind and snow rushed in, and the inside never warmed up again.

She couldn't help shivering, with fear in her eyes.

The emperor stared at her expression for a moment, his pupils shrank slightly, and a trace of despair slowly appeared in his eyes.

"Sure enough..." He laughed miserably.

Her reaction had told him the answer.

Unexpectedly, it is true.

In the past few days, he kept telling himself not to think too much.He said to himself, how could there be such a thing as dreaming back to the previous life in this world?It's just too ridiculous.

He was afraid of the truth, so he avoided her hastily and did not come to see her for several days.

But now, he still knows.

That terrible nightmare was not his hallucination, not his cranky imagination after being sick, but something that really happened.

At least, it actually happened in their memory.

He remembered the dream he had earlier, the plum blossoms were scorching and the shadows were slanting, she fell into his arms with blood on her lips, and told him in a trembling voice that he killed her.He remembered that she had used her last breath just to tell him that she hated him.

It turned out to be the case.

Seeing the emperor's expression from nervousness to understanding and finally to despair, Gu Yunxian felt his heart tremble.

What did he mean by what he said just now?
Could it be that he knew about those things?

But it is impossible!

He has no reason to know!How could he know!

Liu Shanggong's voice suddenly sounded next to his ears, "...on the day of the conferment of the Empress Dowager, His Majesty suddenly had a headache, which frightened everyone. Later, Lord Lu sent He to ask for an imperial doctor, but His Majesty was leaning on the soft couch, lost in thought." He seemed to be asleep. When he woke up, he said that he had a dream and that he was haunted by a nightmare. Not only that, he also suddenly asked Mr. Lu, what time is it now, and who is the queen he wants to confer? ...It's like, like he suddenly doesn't remember anything...."

As if someone had poured a bucket of ice water from head to toe, her mind was clear.

Unexpectedly, that is the case.

The reason for his recent temperamental change is not because of repeated headaches and confusion, but because he was also haunted by nightmares and knew about the past.

Knowing that he had given her to death in the past.

"Do you remember that night? I woke up from a nightmare, and you asked me what I dreamed of. I didn't dare to tell you at that time." His voice couldn't be softer, as if he was afraid that something would be frightened if he was a little louder, "Now I tell you You. That night, I dreamed that you were gone in my arms. Before you died, you told me that I killed you..." The voice trembled, "You said, you hate me..."

Gu Yunxian's complexion was snow-white, and his lips trembled uncontrollably.

"How could this be..." She looked at him fixedly and murmured.

"How did this happen?" He smiled wryly, "I also want to know, how did this happen. How did you live again, how did I dream about this. More importantly, how did we believe it." The voice was hoarse, "It's obviously just a dream..."

She was speechless.

He held her shoulder and asked word by word: "tell me, you've been lying to me, haven't you?"

She wanted to deny it, she wanted to tell him it wasn't like that, even if it was for the sake of the child in her womb, she had to find a way to stop it from happening.

But his lips were weakly opened, but those deceitful words could not be uttered.

The flattery was originally a decision she made against her heart in order to protect herself.If she was given another choice, she didn't want to please him at all, and she didn't want to say those insincere words.

In the last life, she suffered too much grievance and neglect from him, and now thinking about it, she still feels terrible.Although he understands that these things cannot be entirely blamed on him, and he also has his helplessness in many things, it is impossible to say that she has no grudges at all.

Even sometimes, she would ask herself in her heart, if he could have respected and trusted her a little more in the last life, would she not be so insecure, would she not be framed to death by Jing Fushu and the others? up?

Taking a step back, even if the final result is still irreversible, at least she won't be so desperate for him.

After she was reborn, except for hating him at the beginning, she kept telling herself that those things happened in her previous life, and there was no reason for the emperor to take responsibility for things he didn't even remember.

But now he remembered.Those bloody past events were no longer her unilateral imagination, but something that existed between them that could not be ignored.

Her dissatisfaction and pain also came up together.

At this moment, the biggest lie between them was exposed, across life and death, tearing off the disguise, what she saw was the truest appearance of the two of them.

It's not the high-ranking emperor and empress, but a pair of men and women who are tormented by absurd dreams and are about to go crazy.

His hand holding her shoulder was trembling. After all these years of acquaintance, she had never seen him like this. "Those sweet words are just to coax me, right? You never forgave me, you never not love me……

"You're just using me...

"right?"

"Yes." She didn't expect such a cold and ruthless voice to come from her mouth, "I've been lying to you. Since I drank that glass of poisoned wine, I haven't loved you again. Not for a moment. "

She felt that the string that had restrained herself for a long time was broken, and she seemed to lose control all of a sudden.Even the day when Jiang Yuechang publicly revealed that she couldn't conceive, she never got out of control like this.

Of course she knew why.

Resurrection, this is her biggest trump card, and her deepest secret.Because of this, she was able to fight back in a Jedi way, all the way to where she is today.She used to feel that this was God's only pity for her after years of tormenting her.

But it seems that God has withdrawn his pity.

God gave her a second life, but made him dream of these things.From the moment he knew the past, she seemed transparent in front of him.No matter how scheming she plays and how she tries to please her, he will never believe her again.

That being the case, she didn't want to pretend anymore.

"Now that you have remembered those things, you should remember how you allowed me to be plotted against by Jing Fushu and Bo Jinrou and charged with murdering the royal descendants; then you should remember how you refused to listen I made an excuse and locked me in the Jingsheng Pavilion without any explanation; then you should remember how you gave me that glass of poisoned wine, and you refused to see me even for the last time." She said these words word by word The words, as if to express the grievances of the two lifetimes completely, "Do you remember?"

He staggered back, his face pale like a ghost, unable to bear it.And she supported the bed board with one hand, tears rolling down her cheeks.

"In the past, I know that I have a lot of mistakes, so I didn't let myself think about it before. But how can you accuse me of lying to you in such a tone?" She smiled sadly, "When I treat you sincerely , How did you repay me? If I hadn’t lied to you, I wouldn’t be alive today. It’s your own ignorance that caused all of this, and you can’t blame others.”

After these words, there was a long silence in the hall.

Incense wafted from the gilded cauldron, and it was the Anzhi Tinglan that Gu Yunxian was used to.The emperor fell in love with this fragrance for a time, and ordered the Liushang Bureau to prepare it for her at any time.But now, that elegant fragrance could not soothe his mind, it only brought him a throbbing pain.

"You're right, I don't know people well, I'm the one to blame." The emperor nodded, with a cold smile on his lips, "I deserve it for being cheated by Jing Fushu, and I deserve it for being cheated by you. I can't Strange."

This was said indifferently, but the last tone still revealed a trace of weakness in his emotions.

Gu Yunxian turned his head away, not to look at the tears flickering in his red eyes.

But he didn't let her go, approached the couch, grabbed her chin, and forced her to look at him, "According to what you said, Miss Yun, I owe you so much, how are you going to retaliate against me?"

Her chin was pinched, and she had to follow his strength to raise her head slightly.Hearing this, he smiled, and a tear fell from his eye socket, "I never thought of revenge on you."

Her answer obviously surprised him, "Why?" He asked, "You hate me so much, why don't you take revenge on me?"

"Hate is too complicated and tiring. I only hated you at the beginning, but later, it's gone." She said, "I can't forgive you, but I don't hate you."

Even though his face was already as pale as paper, he still turned pale again when he heard her words.

"What do you mean by that?" His voice almost gritted his teeth.

Gu Yunxian looked at him quietly, the grief from a moment ago slowly faded away, and only the joy after being released was left in her heart.

It's just a pity in a corner.

I thought I could live a peaceful life from now on, but unfortunately when things came to an end, I realized it was just another silly dream. Life is really helpless.

Under her gaze, the emperor's originally gleaming eyes dimmed inch by inch, and in the end, there was only a faint gleam left in those black eyes.

It's like fear, like anticipation, like a drowning person, weakly grabbing the last piece of driftwood, hoping to be rescued
She suddenly understood God's arrangement.Once she loved him wholeheartedly, but was abandoned by him like a shoe; now that he really fell in love with her, the lake in her heart no longer stirred up waves for him.

This is true tit for tat.

"For me now, you are neither an enemy nor a lover. I neither hate you nor love you." Her voice was as calm as the water in an ancient well. No matter how the outside world is turbulent, the inside will always be like that, " In my heart, you're just an unworthy person. A stranger."

(End of this chapter)