Ex-wife: Wife, go home

Chapter 200 Delight
In short, Huo Nanxiao didn't look very happy.That way, it's like a long-awaited gift. After experiencing disappointment again and again, I don't have the original joy.

Anything is valuable when you get it when you want it.If you don't want it that much, or don't want it at all, then it's impossible to rejoice.

Shi Junyi just looked at Huo Nanxiao in silence, he was looking forward to Huo Nanxiao's next words, although he felt that he might have guessed it. .A bad premonition appeared in Shi Junyi's mind, maybe Huo Nanxiao had already been hurt by himself?

"Extreme things will be reversed, and prosperity will decline. The master just feels that his life is complete. He is not open-minded but does not want to lose it. That's why he chooses to become a monk in such an extreme way. Maybe some people will not understand why they go Go after those things."

Huo Nanxiao lowered his eyelids, looking unhappy.Yes, this is unhappy, no one understands her at all, no one understands and considers her at all.And Shi Junyi is just creating various obstacles for his life.Just obstacles and nothing else.

"What are you pursuing? Nan Xiao, I know I hurt you deeply, but I don't want you to lose the joy and hope of life because of this. I..."

Shi Junyi hurriedly explained, for fear that Huo Nanxiao would be overwhelmed, because he was too excited, Shi Junyi pulled the infusion tube.There was a tingling feeling from the needle tube in his hand, but Shi Junyi didn't care at all, these were not problems, the problem was what Huo Nanxiao thought.

"Pursue love, pursue career success, pursue everything that seems to be shining. But no one knows why they pursue those things, and no one knows what they really want. Why..."

Huo Nanxiao talked about the doubts in his heart a series of times. Maybe these should be said in front of the master, but the master said that Huo Nanxiao's relationship with the world is not over.

Since it is not finished, it is not a predestined person.If you are not a predestined person, you will naturally not become a Buddha in your heart.If you can't become a Buddha, even if you become a monk, you are just pretending to see through the world of mortals.

How could Huo Nanxiao see through the world of mortals? Would people who see through the world of mortals still feel wronged?
"Stop, Nan Xiao, I don't know what you were thinking after the divorce, but I just want to tell you. No matter what you choose, I will respect you. I was not good before, and I always hoped that you would live according to my thinking. , ignoring your feelings."

Shi Jun was also full of guilt, if he hadn't been so arbitrary, today's situation would not be like this.It won't be completely impossible to close the field, and it won't be so tangled.

"I haven't lost the joy of life, I just feel that everything has lost its meaning. I don't know why, since I will lose it in the end, why do I still have to work hard to pursue it?"

Huo Nanxiao seems to have fallen into an endless loop. She wasn't so pessimistic before, but now her optimism has been wiped out by Shi Junyi himself.

It's not just obliteration, it's lore. Now Huo Nanxiao won't have any hope.It's not just muddling along, but just doing whatever you want.Isn't that what life is all about anyway?
The more Shi Junyi listened, the more he felt that Huo Nanxiao's words were wrong, but there was nothing he could do.

"I think you should see a psychiatrist, Nan Xiao. I'll take you to see a psychiatrist when I'm discharged from the hospital and the company's affairs temporarily slow down. OK?"

Shi Jun also asked cautiously, when would he be so careful to please Huo Nanxiao, for fear that Huo Nanxiao would be angry.

He really didn't expect that Huo Nanxiao's current thoughts would be like this.

"No, I'm not sick. Why do you need to see a psychiatrist?" Huo Nanxiao looked at Shi Junyi defensively, and felt that he had a psychological problem after a few words.

Huo Nanxiao looked terrified, did he know what he was talking about?

"I... didn't mean that, I meant that you need psychological counseling. Maybe you have been under too much psychological pressure from your life for so long." Shi Jun also frowned, Huo Nanxiao's psychological pressure was simply horrifying, Almost like a mental illness.

"There is a saying in Zhou Xingchi's movie: People laugh at me too crazy, I laugh at others can't see through. Tang Yin is right." Huo Nanxiao smiled to himself, until she laughed, Shi Junyi felt lost.

It was the first time he felt that he couldn't understand Huo Nanxiao after being together for four years and having loved him for so long.Maybe it's because they've been separated for too long, maybe it's his life, which doesn't need other people's pointers.

For the first time, Shi Jun also felt that Huo Nanxiao's thoughts were actually terrifyingly independent.In the past, I was always entangled by things from the outside world, making it difficult for people to see clearly.It wasn't until I finally saw it clearly that I felt that it was so.

"I understand. You still refuse to forgive me." Shi Junyi lowered his head in frustration, never feeling so frustrated.I never felt that asking someone to forgive is such a difficult thing.

Yes, there are so many things in life, and everything will be forgiven.

"Even if I forgive you, it's useless. My heart is different from before, you know? What's the difference? Before, if you said a bad word, I would suffer all day. Now, I'm almost [-] Poison does not invade."

Huo Nanxiao smiled wryly, obviously wanting to tell these things as a joke, but it was still so bitter.What a bitter joke.

"Nan Xiao, I know. It's not something that can be changed with an apology. I will give you a reasonable explanation for all previous misunderstandings. I will do my best to compensate you for any harm. As long as you are happy, I am satisfied gone."

Shi Jun also coaxed Huo Nanxiao like an ignorant boy with first love, but Huo Nanxiao didn't like this anymore.This makes Shi Jun also very frustrated.

"It's up to you, I am no longer looking forward to it." Huo Nanxiao replied casually, and finally said what was in his heart, but the loss in his heart was far greater than the emptiness. ,

Huo Nanxiao knew how hurt Shi Junyi was by expressing his feelings during today's conversation.But Huo Nanxiao still wanted to say it.Because he has never had the opportunity to express his feelings, does Shi Jun also think that he has no heart?
No, it's not that he doesn't have a heart, but that his original heart has been crushed by Shi Junyi.

From a young girl who doesn't know much about the world, to grow into this is really thanks to Shi Junyi.

Originally it was such a beautiful time for the two of them to get along alone, Shi Jun also said his true words, but he also got Huo Nanxiao's true words.It's just that this truth made Shi Jun feel extremely uncomfortable.

It's almost as uncomfortable as a big rock is hanging. The most difficult thing for a person to control is another person's thoughts.But the easiest thing for a person to change is another person's opinion. Shi Junyi had already changed Huo Nanxiao's opinion, but he pretended that nothing had changed.

The two fell into a long silence, and night fell.

The next day, Shi Junyi was going to be discharged from the hospital regardless of everything. Although Huo Nanxiao kept persuading him, Shi Junyi was still discharged from the hospital.

Back at the company, Shi Jun could hardly concentrate on his work.If Huo Nanxiao's attitude has always been like this, then all his efforts are really meaningless.

When you conquer the country, no one will accompany you to appreciate it.When you build a feat, no one will accompany you to win that honor.When you have everything, there is no lover to accompany you to feel it.

Then, the meaning of life can be imagined.There are always a lot of people who discard the basics and chase after the last. Everything they have originally is the best, but they always feel that the best is yet to come.It's like a monkey breaking corn, breaking one and throwing one.The best has long since been discarded, but it is only finally realized.

(End of this chapter)