Surgeon

Chapter 1
1. Snow

It was neither windy nor cold that day.The lonely snow is like dead rain, rustling and falling all over the sky, like a thick fog enveloping flames, swirling and rising.This is a spring snow, it comforts the land, comforts me, and comforts the dead Satsuki with its tranquility, whiteness, and tricks that can make the world blurred and chaotic, like a dream... everything between heaven and earth No sound was heard, only the funeral procession for Xiaoyue followed behind me, carrying the scarlet coffin.The suona was played sadly on the country road. I had never heard such a sad and sad tune in my life. It was like snowflakes falling from the sky, falling on my face but melting in my heart.

Carrying Xiaoyue's body on my back, I walked with heavy and sad steps, wanting to cry without tears.People kept throwing paper money into the air, and the paper money and snowflakes fell on people's faces, heads and shoulders together.I walked forward numbly, in the heavy snow, only a bit of scarlet on the coffin seemed to be Xiaoyue's soul, echoing in the sky and the earth with the sad suona sound.

Xiaoyue's five elder brothers followed me fiercely, wishing they could kill me immediately so that they could be buried with Xiaoyue.It's a long way, Xiaoyue's body is stiff, as if she wants to press me into the soil.

Finally arrived at the cemetery, which is the last treasured land of geomantic omen in Beitantou village, with the Xiaoqing River in front and the old forest in the back. The pit was dug by Xiaoyue’s five brothers yesterday, and now the pit is covered with snow.Xiaoyue's eldest brother is also the deputy head of Miaotang Township. He grabbed the rooster on the coffin and carried it upside down to the pit. He cut off the head of the chicken with a knife, and the blood of the chicken dripped on the white snow at the bottom of the pit. This is called chicken spirit blood in Tangzi County.

I carried Xiaoyue's body into the coffin, her face was livid, as if she had a huge grievance and had nowhere to confide in, the red cotton jacket and red cotton trousers all over her body were like coagulated blood, which made my heart twitch and tremble.The coffin was hoisted by two thick ropes, and slowly lowered into the pit according to the north foot and south position of the head.Xiaoyue's mother cried to death, and my heart was pierced like a knife.

"Bastard, hurry up and bury it. Don't use a shovel, use your hands. If you dare to use a shovel, I'll bury you together." Xiaoyue and her fifth brother roared angrily.

The funeral folks pointed and poked my back.I was powerless to defend myself, so I had to let Xiaoyue's five older brothers manipulate me.

At this time, Xiaoyue's second elder brother kicked me on the hind leg, and I knelt down deeply, half of my body buried in the snowflakes and paper money all over the ground, and I buried them in the grave by handfuls, each handful The soil represents my confession to Xiaoyue. All ten of my fingers were bleeding, soaked in the soil drop by drop, and filled the grave with handfuls. , How do you feel when you see me kneeling in front of the grave so miserable to see her off?Maybe Xiaoyue will pity me, maybe she will love me, but what I need is not pity, not distress, but understanding.

However, everything is too late, maybe Xiaoyue will hate me forever, I will never have a chance to resolve this hatred, this is a kind of hatred that loves to the extreme, this kind of hatred is beyond the ability of a heart that once loved, Otherwise, she wouldn't prove it with death!

I kept filling the soil with my hands, and my hands were bloody.The sky and the earth are very still.Old Linzi, who was usually quite tempered, looked like a widower who had lost his companion, staring at the cemetery, silent.

"Damn it, I never dreamed that such a bad thing would happen!" I cursed secretly, with no place to express the pain in my heart.

People in the village only know that I killed Xiaoyue, but no one knows that I was wronged.Because people believe that Xiaoyue and I are a natural couple, and many people even think that we have been engaged for a long time.

What's even more hateful is that Xiaoyue's five elder brothers all thought that Xiaoyue and I were "that", otherwise Xiaoyue would not commit suicide.People in the village would rather believe it than believe it. They pointed and scolded my grandparents so much that they dare not go out.

My parents knew what was going on and didn't come to the funeral at all!This angered Xiaoyue's five elder brothers even more.Xiaoyue died for loving me, what else can I say, I can only endure silently, and use silence to atone for Xiaoyue's death.

It was getting dark, and I finally filled the soil.Xiaoyue's eldest brother put the spirit head flag on the grave, and Xiaoyue's mother cremated some of Xiaoyue's clothes before she was alive. After crying for a while, she reluctantly left. Before leaving, Xiaoyue's second brother kicked I kick.

The mourners swearing and leaving one after another, there is no sound in the world, everything is silent, only the rustling of the heavy snow falling and the creaking of the dead branches of the trees in the old forest being crushed by the snow , I knelt alone in front of the grave and shouted hoarsely:
"Xiaoyue, why are you doing this? Why?"

2. First kiss
My family is near the county high school in Tangzi County. My father is the manager of the county construction company and has been away from home for many years. My mother owns a tavern.Xiaoyue and I are classmates in the county high school. Xiaoyue is from Beitantou Village, Miaotang Township. Not only is my grandparents in the same village, but the two families are separated by a wall. During holidays, I often go to my grandparents’ house to help with some farm work. , Xiaoyue also often helped me, after a long time, Xiaoyue fell in love with me, and I also had a good impression of Xiaoyue.

Xiaoyue’s parents like me very much, and they often visit my grandparents’ house. Every time they see me, they say to my grandparents: “Uncle and aunt, let’s be in-laws!” mouth.I was very happy when I heard it, but Xiaoyue hid in the corner and fiddled with her braids in shame.

After graduating from high school, I was admitted to a national key medical university and went to school in the provincial capital, but Xiaoyue was not admitted to a university.Several girls in the village who are about the same age as Xiaoyue who have not been admitted to university have "spoken out" several times, but Xiaoyue is not in a hurry to find her husband's family. Good luck, I will marry a college student in the future." Xiaoyue was certainly happy to hear such words, because everyone in the village believed that Xiaoyue would definitely marry me.But after all without my promise, the joy in Xiaoyue's heart would inevitably be empty, a bit like a bamboo basket under the water, once the water surface is raised, it will be full of holes.

I went to my grandparents' house during the summer vacation in my third year of college.One day after dinner, Xiaoyue invited me to watch the moon on the firewood stack in her yard. I told her that I was going to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and she asked me what is a postgraduate student?When I explained it to her, she was both happy and scared.I know that she hopes that I will get better every day, but she is afraid that I will look down on her.At that time, I just felt that I was a childhood sweetheart with Xiaoyue and liked her innocence, but I didn't know how far my relationship with Xiaoyue would go.In college, many classmates in the class fell in love with each other. I was not in a hurry because I had high ambitions since I was a child.

We were thinking about each other, the night sky was blue and shining, and there was still a hazy light in the deep, which made the moon look very textured.Xiaoyue's body was fragrant, and the smell made me feel an inexplicable restlessness in my heart.

Suddenly Xiaoyue held my hand, not holding it, but touching it, touching my hand, I felt like an electric shock.It was obvious that Xiaoyue had premeditated, she had a sense of satisfaction on her face, but her fingers were stiff.We looked at each other quietly, and couldn't help hugging each other, or it was Xiaoyue who hugged me suddenly.

I don't know who kissed who first, but our lips were pressed together anyway.Although Xiaoyue's lips were pressed against each other, they were tightly pressed together. It seemed that my body was electrified, and my figure seemed to float up, rippling for no reason.

Looking at Xiaoyue's appearance, she also seemed to have lost weight, because her tightly pressed lips lost their strength, and opened a gap, cold, and couldn't help shaking.Her shaking was also passed on to me, we shook together, the more we kissed, the more we felt that the kiss was not in the right place, so we had to look for it with our heads depressed, as if our mouth was no longer our own.

This kiss seemed to have no end, until Xiaoyue's mother shouted from the yard: "Xiaoyue, boil some water!" Xiaoyue agreed, and the kiss stopped.

We were stunned for a long while, and Xiaoyue shyly said: "Qingtang, I am yours. From now on, I will live and die for you!" After Xiaoyue finished speaking, she turned her head and ran away happily and resolutely. But I became afraid as if I had done something wrong.

As soon as I graduated from university, I was admitted to the graduate student of Mr. Cai Hengwu, a famous professor of neurosurgery in our school. This is the luckiest thing in my life.If my grand ambition was still hazy during college, it became very clear after I was admitted to Professor Cai's master's degree. This is to aspire to be an excellent neurosurgery expert.

I will never forget the scene when Professor Cai Hengwu led the teachers and students of the school to take the oath in front of the medical student oath monument at the entrance ceremony of the new students when I was just admitted to the medical university.

On that day, colorful flags fluttered everywhere on the campus, flowers were in full bloom, and all the teachers and students of the school stood in front of the oath monument for medical students.That was the first time I stood in front of the oath monument for medical students and witnessed its elegance, and I was very excited!
The oath monument for medical students leans against a bamboo forest and is generally in the shape of a book, consisting of three parts.On the page facing the blue sky, there is a golden oath of medical students engraved; on the red marble base, there are several golden characters of "Medical Student Oath Monument"; the base is in the shape of a red cross.The book is made of white marble, which symbolizes the whiteness and holiness of the medical career; the base is made of red granite, which means that the medical career is like surging blood, which is endless; the snake pattern wrapped around the cane on both sides represents the medical career is the world An integral part of the medical cause; the red cross on the base is the general symbol of the medical and health cause all over the world.Every new medical student and medical graduate who is about to enter the workplace must solemnly take an oath in front of this oath monument to maintain the sanctity and honor of medical skills.

Entrusted by the principal, Professor Cai Hengwu, a highly respected neurosurgery expert, led all the medical students in the school to solemnly swear by the oath monument:
"Health depends on life. When I step into the sacred medical school, I solemnly swear: I will devote myself to medicine, love the motherland, be loyal to the people, abide by medical ethics, respect teachers and discipline, study hard, work tirelessly, strive for perfection, and develop in an all-round way. .I am determined to do my best to eradicate the sufferings of human beings, to help the perfection of health, and to maintain the sanctity and honor of medical skills. To save lives and heal the wounded, I will spare no effort to pursue persistently, and strive for the development of the medical and health cause of the motherland and the physical and mental health of all mankind for the rest of my life!"

From that day on, the oath has often lingered in my ears, and I firmly believe that I am destined to fight for medicine all my life.But where to start?After I was admitted to Professor Cai Hengwu's postgraduate program, I became clear that I would spend my whole life occupying the highest peak of neurosurgery!

At the same time as me, Jiang Yezhen, two years younger than me, was admitted to Mr. Cai's graduate school. She was admitted from a medical university in another province.This is a girl as beautiful as a flower, born beautiful, noble and elegant, and her gentle curves make people desire.

When I first met her, I was deeply attracted by her unique temperament.However, I am a somewhat introverted person. When I first met her, I was both ashamed and secretly happy. In addition, I am a person from a small place with a natural inferiority complex. I didn't even have the courage to see her face to face.Professor Cai only has us two graduate students, and Jiang Yezhen and I have become veritable brothers and sisters.

Jiang Yezhen is an extremely active person who likes to participate in social activities. She became the vice-chairman of the graduate student union within one year of graduate school.I'm a person who doesn't like to be lively, and I just want to mix my personal appearance professionally.Because Jiang Yezhen is keen to participate in social activities, she often throws homework that I can't finish to me to do for her. In this way, our contact has deepened.

To be honest, Jiang Ye really admired my strength in scientific research. She said that I must be a good doctor in the future.Professional strength is my only confidence when facing Jiang Yezhen.

Professor Cai is often dissatisfied that Jiang Ye is really not doing his job properly. He puts all his efforts in training me alone, and he has great hopes for me.I love my major and devote myself wholeheartedly to my major study.

Jiang Yezhen saw that I was stuck in the dissection room, laboratory, and library all day long, and dragged me to the school auditorium to dance on weekends. I declined several times for the experiment, and one day she insisted on dragging me.

"Qingtang, if you don't come out for activities, you will soon become an antique!" Jiang Yezhen said angrily. "Ye Zhen, I'm good at dissecting corpses, but dancing can catch ducks on the shelves!"

I deliberately teased Jiang Yezhen, trying to shock her, don't think that I am Snow White and everyone else is a bumpkin.To be honest, I am also a good-looking talent, 1.8 meters tall, with a standard manly face, thick eyebrows and big eyes behind a pair of glasses.When I was an undergraduate student, the student union of the school organized everyone to learn ballroom dancing in order to activate the cultural life of the students. Then there were competitions between classes. The class leader took a fancy to my figure and mobilized me to learn ballroom dancing. Because of the tacit cooperation with a female student in the same class, With outstanding dancing skills, he won the No.1 trophy for the class in the end.

"Qingtang, let's go, I won't teach you." Jiang Yezhen said confidently. "When the time comes, don't worry about your feet hurting!" I know that a beautiful girl like Jiang Yezhen must be the queen of the dance hall, and I don't know how many prince charmings are waiting!
"Qingtang, you can definitely learn it with one-tenth of the energy you use to dissect a corpse." "Ye Zhen, I'm not afraid that your princes on white horses will be jealous!" "Qingtang, not only princes ride white horses, but also Tang monks. "

I love to hear these words, but I didn't expect my junior sister to be quite humorous.

In the ballroom, as soon as the waltz played, those so-called "Prince Charming" invited Jiang Yezhen to dance one after another.I have been sitting without moving, I thought to myself, I have to understand the level of these "Prince Charming", if you don't dance, it's enough, jumping will impress you all!

After a few pieces, Jiang Yezhen invited me to dance together.I think it's time to make a move when it's time to make a move.When the waltz sounded, I danced with Jiang Yezhen, and Jiang Yezhen was stunned by my dancing skills.She didn't expect that a nerd like me could dance so well and disguised so deeply!Soon the audience was attracted by our dancing posture, and they all stopped to appreciate our dancing skills.The so-called Prince Charmings stand aside jealously.

"Okay, Qingtang, you big liar, why did you lie to me?" Jiang Yezhen blamed. "In order not to let you down!" I said with a smile. "Well, you Lin Qingtang, you hide so deeply!" "This is not called hiding, this is called concealing but not revealing!"

"Poor mouth, I always thought you were not good at words, so you are a glib guy!"

I knew she was secretly in love with me from the very first dance.Since then, we have been secretly in love with each other, but I never expected to get Jiang Yezhen, because I never forgot that compared with her, I came from a poor family after all, from a small remote county town.And Jiang Yezhen's father is the political commissar of the Dongzhou Military Division, a member of the Standing Committee of the Dongzhou Municipal Party Committee, and a senior colonel; his mother is the head nurse of the political department of the Dongzhou Military Division, and a colonel.Such a family is beyond my reach.

However, my true love for Jiang Ye has already hit my heart, and I even made love to her many times in my dreams, so that every time I dreamed of such a scene, I wet the bed.During those days, I kept a pair of underwear under my pillow at all times, because I would dream about Jiang Yezhen every now and then.I even suffer for my crush.

Compared with me, Jiang Yezhen seemed more active. Apart from asking me to dance on weekends, she would invite me to take a walk on campus every day after dinner.Jiang Ye really has a kind of gentle sharpness, which can touch my most sensitive nerves.The shaded campus is an excellent place to fall in love, and lovers are everywhere.Except that we didn't pierce the window paper, we already regarded each other as lovers.

We sat on the stone bench among the flowers. May is the season of lilacs blooming. The fragrance of flowers accompanied by Jiang Yezhen's body fragrance made me intoxicated.That night, I was very good at talking. I talked about "The Sorrows of Young Werther" and "The Red and Black".

"Ye Zhen", I said emotionally, "My background is the same as Julien's, but I don't have the desire to join the upper class. I remember Sun Yat-sen said that people should not think about being a high-ranking official, but about doing great things. My The ideal is to one day stand at the pinnacle of neurosurgery."

"Qingtang, there are many peaks in neurosurgery, have you selected a target?"

"No, I just want to lay a good foundation and practice the scalpel well first. Ye Zhen, what is your ideal? I think you are not safe to be a good doctor. Do you have a bigger goal?"

"Qingtang, I'm not as persevering and aggressive as you. Instead of being a second-rate doctor, I'd rather do some management work. After graduation, I want to go to the provincial health department." I knew that Jiang Yezhen's parents' status It is not a problem for her to go to the provincial health department after graduation.

"Ye Zhen, don't you want to be the director of the provincial health department!" I said jokingly. "What's so great about the director of the Provincial Department of Health is all done by people. At that time, I will support you no matter what peak you want to climb!" Jiang Yezhen said confidently.

"Thank you Mr. Director!" "Hate!" We sang the English song together, Tommy Page's "I'm falling in love": I have been looking for it all my life.people like you.

I don't believe in love at first sight, but this feeling really happened.Because when we're together, I want time to stand still.I pray for you, I fall in love and my dreams are about to come true.Singing and singing, Jiang Yezhen threw herself into my arms and said softly: "Qingtang, I love you!" I couldn't hold back anymore, we hugged and kissed passionately.Since then, among the flowers, on the bluestone slabs, under the moonlight, and in the midnight garden, we have left our kissing figures everywhere.For some reason, every time I kiss Ye Zhen, I always think of the scene of stealing a kiss with Xiaoyue on the firewood pile, but the feelings of the two kisses are completely different.Xiaoyue's mouth is a small cherry mouth. When we kissed her that day, her mouth was tightly squeezed. Although it was soft, it was cold; Ye Zhen's mouth was much larger than Xiaoyue's, tender and soft, full of spirituality, smiling When kissing, it looks even more charming and charming, and when kissing, it seems to be able to communicate with all the senses of my body.

3. Teaching
After the first kiss, Jiang Yezhen and I made our relationship public.Jiang Yezhen is still keen on the social activities of the school. He organizes speech contests for college students, engages in environmental protection volunteer activities, and participates in the dialogue with the governor sponsored by the school youth league committee-providing skills and suggestions for the revitalization of the province's economy; while I only participate in one activity in school, It's expert lectures.I must go to every lecture, and I will gain something if I go.

Once, I learned from a lecture given by a foreign scholar that direct surgery on the cavernous sinus cannot be carried out in my country. The main reason is that there is no microsurgical anatomy data of the cavernous sinus in China.So I plunged into the library to search for information. After a few days and nights, I couldn't calm down for a long time.I think I have found the first peak in my career.

The cavernous sinus is the only sinus in the body that has both arteries and nerves passing through it.Because of its complex structure and its central location at the base of the skull, many diseases affect this area.The direct surgery on the cavernous sinus has always been considered as a forbidden area for neurosurgery because of its extremely high morbidity and mortality. However, there is only less than one page of records about the cavernous sinus in domestic classic textbooks. Dou's reports are rare, and all the data cited are from foreigners.It can be said that the level of direct surgery on the cavernous sinus represents the level of microneurosurgery in this country.So I secretly made up my mind to overcome this scientific problem.

I went to Professor Cai's home with excitement. Since I read his postgraduate, I often go to his home to improve my life.I love to eat fish, and every time I go to my teacher's wife, she cooks fish for me in different ways.The son and daughter of the old couple are all in the United States.They treat me like their own children.

Professor Cai’s home is very simple: besides the books, what impresses me the most is a banner hanging on the wall, which was written by Professor Cai himself and framed in a frame.These four words are: "Great doctors are sincere."

Professor Cai is very kind.Behind the light gold-rimmed glasses are a pair of piercing eyes, which are eyes that no tumor can escape.The straight dark suit looked gentle and elegant, and his movements were never in a hurry.

I told Professor Cai my thoughts and got strong support from his elders.He was very pleased to have such a potential student as me.He suggested that I take this topic as my master's thesis and concentrate on studying it, and strive to fill the gap in the domestic data first.

Professor Cai said earnestly while smoking his pipe: "Qingtang, the development of microneurosurgery technology has reduced the surgical mortality rate to [-]%, and has made breakthroughs in neurosurgery operations on the brainstem, spinal cord, thalamus, and even the skull base. But the cavernous sinus is located in the center of the skull base, which is the forbidden area of ​​the restricted area. If you can attack this area, it means that you have the courage to overcome the restricted area. Even people who are less than one millimeter in dealing with people must be sure and rigorous in what they say and do!"

"Teacher Cai, can you tell me the meaning of 'great medical sincerity'?"

"Qingtang, every great doctor who cures a disease must calm the mind, have no desires or desires, first show great compassion and compassion, and vow to save the suffering of the soul. Doctors, it is both bitterness and joy! When the patient is the hope of life When entrusting it to a doctor, we bear the weight of a life; when we successfully treat a patient, we give him a continuation of life. A doctor must have a benevolent heart, be kind to life, and carry forward The humanitarian spirit extends a friendly hand when people need it most. This requires us to treat diseases, conduct reasonable examinations, rationally use medicines, maintain the sanctity of medicine, and protect the professional dignity of doctors. "

After listening to Professor Cai's words, I feel that I have stood at a new height to look at my future career - in addition to superb medical skills, a qualified doctor should have a benevolent heart and a broad mind.I suddenly discovered that the pronunciation of "life" and "doctor" are similar. It seems that I am destined to defend the dignity of doctors all my life.

"Ms. Cai, what is the most difficult operation you have performed in your life?" "I have performed more than 8000 operations in my life. I don't think there is the most difficult operation, but there is one operation that took the longest time to perform." long time?"

"I once performed a 24-hour operation and saved a patient. The patient was on the operating table, and you couldn't rest. At that time, I was very energetic on the operating table, and I didn't feel much. When I was on the sofa, I couldn’t get up, and I didn’t urinate for 24 hours. According to medicine, more than 24 milliliters of urine must be excreted in [-] hours to detoxify. , I was sweating all over my body, and I was very nervous, so I didn’t urinate, and I was sweating. It took a month of rest before I recovered. I was lying in bed every day, and my whole body was weak.”

I finally understood the meaning of what Professor Cai said, "the doctor is both bitter and fun".

When I left Professor Cai’s house that night and went back to the dormitory, I thought a lot. I knew that choosing a neurosurgeon was destined to be an extraordinary life, and I was excited for the extraordinary future.

The night is gradually falling, the breeze is blowing warm, the campus is quiet, only the romantic couples by the lake are making promises for tomorrow.The light of street lamps is always dim and yellow, but when you stare at the street lamps, you will be dazzled again.I stood and lingered under the street lamp, the silky and dim light was wrapped in a hazy crescent moon.

Suddenly someone shouted: "Qingtang, what are you thinking alone?" I looked up, and it turned out to be Jiang Yezhen.She was coming from the library with a book in her hand. "Ye Zhen, where have you been?" I asked curiously. "I went to the library to borrow a book."

I secretly sighed, my junior sister also knows how to read books. "What book?" "The former Soviet novel "Doctor Zhivago." "Why read this book?"

"No reason, I wanted to find a novel about doctors, and after searching for a long time, I chose this one."

"Sholokhov, the author of "Quiet River Don", which was widely rumored in the former Soviet Union, was the most likely to win the Nobel Prize in Literature in [-], but the Swedish Academy unexpectedly awarded it to Pasternak."

"Have you read this book?" Jiang Yezhen asked curiously. "I like the line that the heroine Lala said the most." "What words?"

"If I know that what I do is not in vain and can achieve a certain purpose, then I will work hard and find happiness from it." "Qingtang, do you know? You are such a person, because That's how I like you."

Jiang Yezhen's eyes were full of love and compassion. She thought that I could only read professional books, but she didn't expect that I could also read novels.In fact, my taste is contained in the thought.Because all human dignity lies in thought, and thought comes from the brain. I study the brain, so of course I want to study thought.

During those days, my life had only two contents, scientific research projects and Jiang Yezhen.Working with corpses in the dissection room every day, I know that life is short, and it is precisely because it is short that I have to love and be loved while I am young.

Jiang Ye's true love made me release the inferiority complex in my inner world and aroused my passion for humanity. Several times we even kissed passionately in the dissection room, next to the broken corpses covered with white cloth and used in large and small jars. Formalin-soaked brains.

With no body around us, the fire of love spread like wildfire.I have long forgotten that in my hometown, in a remote place, there is a simple and kind girl waiting for me.

As a kind of blessing, "Forever and Everlasting" is the goal of every couple who make vows forever. However, life is not long-lasting and incomplete as usual, especially love.Because human nature is dynamic, it is influenced by emotions and desires.At this time and at that time, different moonlight inspires different moods.

4. Big Liar

Since I was admitted to graduate school, not only did I not go home during the winter and summer vacations, but even during the Spring Festival, I only went back to my grandparents’ house once during the first semester.In this way, I gradually forgot about Xiaoyue, and forgot without a trace.In my opinion, there is also a reason for this kind of forgetting, because Xiaoyue still stays in the dream I had when I was in high school in the county seat. , and I am a person who keeps dreaming.My dream is bigger and bigger, fuller and more bizarre.

At first, I didn't want to forget Xiaoyue. I kept thinking about my first kiss. Every time I thought about it, I would be diluted by Jiang Yezhen's sweet smile and charming body fragrance. Just like this, every time I went left and right, it gradually became weaker and weaker. Don't think about it anymore, and don't want to think about it anymore.

I am obsessed with the subject research every day. The scientific research equipment is very simple and scarce, and the funds are also very tight, but I am not intimidated by the difficulties. I ask the relevant professors in the hospital for advice on how to make specimens, and concentrate on studying blood vessel perfusion techniques. Every day Eat instant noodles in the lab.

Since Jiang Yezhen has also entered the preparation stage of her graduation thesis, she and I can only meet each other during meal time every two or three days. We turned our love into the motivation for our work.But once a woman unleashes her love, it can't be reciprocated, and we still have to kiss each other in the lab or dissecting room every week.

Because of conquering Jiang Yezhen, the inferiority complex in my heart disappeared.I'm even a little proud. It turns out that I am a man who can make such a noble woman submit.

In Jiang Yezhen, my desire for love has been fully released.I became a man who is loved, a prince charming who loves Snow White, a man who is confident, a man who is not only confident but also ambitious.Moreover, my graduation thesis is coming to an end, and the weight of this graduation thesis is enough to lay a solid foundation for my future career.

On a weekend just after the winter vacation, the other three students in the dormitory led their girlfriends to go shopping and watch movies, while Jiang Yezhen and I hid in the dormitory and made love to each other.

Although we have been in love for a long time, we still haven't crossed the line. Although Jiang Yezhen is very proactive, I still don't have the courage to cross the threshold. It's not that I don't want to, but that I am too conservative in my bones.Jiang Ye really knows that if I don't like her, I don't want to be friends with her. If I like her, I don't just want to be friends with her. I have the determination to make her feel that I am a person worthy of entrustment.

"Qingtang, you will be graduating in half a year. What are your plans for work?" Jiang Yezhen asked seriously and gently. "Teacher Cai appreciates me very much and plans to let me stay in school as his assistant." I said proudly.

"Great, with your dedication to scientific research, you will soon become an associate professor or professor." Jiang Yezhen said excitedly.

"Ye Zhen, it's been a long time, and you still don't know me well. I only care about hard work and don't care about the harvest. Next, I want to get a doctorate degree from Professor Cai. Ye Zhen, have you found a job yet?"

"I found it. My father asked someone to arrange me to the Provincial Health Department. People from the Personnel Department of the Provincial Health Department will soon come to the Graduate School to assess me." After hearing this, I felt a strange feeling in my heart.

To be honest, I don't like Jiang Yezhen's enthusiasm for politics, but now there are more and more women with master's degrees like Jiang Yezhen who want to pursue a career in politics, but it's good to have the pursuit, but I'm still happy that Jiang Yezhen has found a satisfactory job.

Ye Zhen dressed up deliberately today, she was already very charming, with a slim figure, slender eyes, thin chin, plus the curvaceous beauty set off by the cashmere sweater with sweetheart neckline and blue jeans, it made me sigh inwardly : What is misty circulation, what is Gu Pansheng brilliance, what is looking back and smiling at Bai Meisheng, Liugong Fendai is colorless, I stared at Ye Zhen obsessively, and my heart was constantly surging with desire.

"Why are you looking at me like that? I've never seen a beautiful woman!" "I want to see it!" I said with a smile. "Qingtang, do you love me?" Jiang Yezhen asked very seriously.

I didn't answer, but hugged Ye Zhen in my arms, and savored the breath of her hair with my nose. A seductive fragrance of flowers emanated from her hair. My heart began to agitate, and my lower body began to react. And her red lips have already kissed my face.

Just when our blood was steaming and we couldn't control ourselves, there was a knock on the door, "Bang bang bang".I thought to myself, who is so annoying, knocking on the door at this time. "Who is it?" I asked angrily, and got up to open the door.

As soon as the door opened, I was stunned. It turned out that the people standing at the door were none other than Xiaoyue and her fifth brother. "Xiaoyue, fifth brother! Why are you here!?" I blurted out and asked.

Xiaoyue and Fifth Brother saw a beautiful woman in my dormitory, and she was arranging her hair, and they were stunned. I also felt an embarrassment that I had never felt before, and the air froze instantly.

I suddenly remembered that Xiaoyue wrote me a letter last year, and there were only a few words in the letter: "Cousin Qing: My love, my relatives, in the spring, my fifth brother and I went to the provincial capital to sell mountain products. look at you!"

At that time, Ye Zhen and I were just in love, so we didn't take that letter seriously at all. I didn't expect them to really come.At this time, Xiaoyue was almost knocked down by the scene in front of her, but she gritted her teeth and stood firmly, her chest bulging out desperately.

I saw an ominous sign in Xiaoyue's eyes, but because they came so suddenly, I didn't prepare for it at all. I just felt that Xiaoyue's eyes were very bright and hard, and coupled with the idiot on his face, there was a kind of determination. , is the kind of determination that can go to death at any time.

"Lin Qingtang," Fifth Brother scolded angrily, "I said Xiaoyue wrote you a letter, but you didn't even reply to the letter, so you have become Chen Shimei! Thanks to Xiaoyue's heart, I have waited so hard for you for so many years!"

As soon as Fifth Brother finished scolding, Xiaoyue burst into tears with a "wow", turned around and ran away.Fifth Brother was stunned for a moment, "Xiaoyue, Xiaoyue!" shouted while turning around and chasing after him.

I also hurriedly chased her out, and stopped as soon as I ran out of the dormitory, because I didn't know what to say to Xiaoyue when I caught up with her.Jiang Yezhen also chased after her, and she understood everything. "Qingtang, who is that girl?" Jiang Yezhen questioned.

"My classmate in high school." I faltered. "Just a classmate? Couldn't it be a baby kiss from childhood!" Jiang Yezhen teased.I have a feeling that jumping into the Yellow River can't be washed away.

"Ye Zhen, listen to me, it's not what you imagined!" I said in shame. "Lin Qingtang, you bastard, I didn't expect you to be a big liar?" Jiang Yezhen suddenly roared with extreme aggrievedness, and turned around and ran away after speaking.

I stood blankly in front of the dormitory, at a loss, when a teacher from the graduate department just passed by, and she asked in a sarcastic tone: "Lin Qingtang, a man and a woman came to the office of the graduate department to look for you just now, the girl said, she It's your fiancée! Lin Qingtang, isn't your fiancée Jiang Yezhen? Why is there another village girl?"

"It's not a fiancee at all, it's just a high school classmate, you guys are mistaken." I explained.The female teacher said "oh" with a questioning look and left.

I know this matter is difficult, because Xiaoyue understands everything when she sees Jiang Yezhen, and any woman who loves a man deeply will understand, so Jiang Yezhen also understands everything.

Jiang Yezhen didn't look for me again for several days, and I didn't dare to look for her. I knew that Jiang Yezhen was really angry, so it's better to calm down.What makes me sad is that I don't know what to do with Xiaoyue?I want to write a letter to her, explain the situation, and let her stop waiting for me, but I don't know where to start.

I still mustered up the courage to write a letter to Xiaoyue.I want her to know that love cannot be forced. True love must have a common language, must understand each other, and must complement each other, and Xiaoyue and I have none of these three aspects.Xiaoyue is kind and simple, I tried my best to be tactful and not hurt her, but my actions have already hurt her deeply, thinking of this, I hesitated to speak.

The letter was written and torn up like this, and finally it was finalized, but I got a letter from home.The letter was written by my mother. When I opened the letter, I was shocked.

The letter stated that after Xiaoyue returned from medical school, she locked herself in the room for a whole week without eating or drinking, which made her parents very anxious. Later, her fifth brother kicked open the door and found that Xiaoyue had Pesticides kill themselves.

I sat down on the chair, my heart was about to spit out of my mouth, my mind was blank, the matter was too important, I don't know why it happened?
My mother said in the letter that after Xiaoyue's death, her five elder brothers were relentless and came to the county town several times to make trouble, almost every day at the grandparents' house, and told me to hurry back to Beitantou Village. Give others an explanation.

Just when I was about to leave, the school party committee received a letter of complaint from Xiaoyue's elder brother.The letter described me as a morally corrupt hypocrite, contemporary Chen Shimei, unworthy of being a university teacher or an angel in white.The incident was full of ups and downs in the school, and it was out of control.

That night, Professor Cai called me home and listened carefully to what happened between me, Xiaoyue and Jiang Yezhen.I felt wronged, and wept bitterly as I spoke.

"Qingtang, you are my most proud student," Professor Cai said regretfully, "I didn't expect that you would not be able to deal with your personal life problems and cause such a big incident. I don't know how to punish you. You are still young!"

"Teacher, I actually have nothing with Xiaoyue, who knew she would do such a stupid thing!" I argued aggrievedly.

"Qingtang, you haven't reflected on your behavior until now, at least you have sent her the wrong message." Professor Cai said seriously. "Didn't you just kiss her once, why are you so serious?" I muttered.

"Look at your attitude. Why don't you kiss people if you don't like them?" Professor Cai asked, taking a deep breath from his pipe. "It's just a spur of the moment." I said indifferently.

"It doesn't matter if you are impulsive at the moment, you killed someone's life! Qingtang, I told you a long time ago that you can't be a doctor without virtue. To be a qualified doctor, you must first learn to be a human being. Your life has just begun, I hope You should learn from your lessons and seriously think about what is career? What is love? These two questions are questions that every aspiring young man must think about, and it will take him his whole life to answer them! You go home first and let Xiaoyue deal with it later. It’s okay, I’m here at the school. I believe this incident will make you remember forever.”

Professor Cai's words were so earnest, which warmed my heart.I forgot Xiaoyue's stubborn character. It seems that she must have thought more than once: Everyone in the village knows that the person she will marry in the future is Lin Qingtang. If Lin Qingtang doesn't want her, she will die. She can't afford to lose this. people.I should have gone back to North Beach sooner and cleared things up.It was my selfishness and indifference that hurt Xiaoyue.

I know that Satsuki's death will have an immeasurable impact on my life and career.I had no choice but to take one step at a time.My heart is as cold as the ice balls in the late winter and early spring.

5. Decisive
I boarded the train home the day after I left Professor Tsai.Along the way, I thought about the complicated situation after returning home. Xiaoyue's five older brothers would definitely not let her go. I had no choice but to deal with them with forbearance.

I went back to Tangzi County first, and my father hurried back from other places after receiving a call from my mother, and was waiting for me at home.After I got home and explained the whole story, my father didn't blame me too much, because he knew that his son was not an irresponsible person.

Mom and Dad are going to North Beach with me.I firmly disagree, Xiaoyue's family members are angry, and the villagers don't know the truth, gossiping all over the world, I don't want my parents to be insulted.

At first my father disagreed, he was afraid that I would suffer, and wanted to bring a few people from the construction company with him.I disagree even more. My father has a violent personality. If he really goes to reason, he is afraid that something bigger will happen. You must know that Xiaoyue has five older brothers, and no one in the village dares to provoke his family easily.The disaster is caused by me, at worst I will be buried with Xiaoyue!

My mother felt sorry for me and wiped her tears from the sidelines.

"Why are you crying!" the father said impatiently, "I don't believe they dared to eat my son. When did we talk about this marriage with their family? We just made a few jokes and took it seriously? They Jia Xiaoyue pretends to be sentimental, and it's too irresponsible, if you die, let Qingtang behave, isn't it intentional to harm others?"

"Xiaoyue's child is quite violent, how can he die if he dies!" the mother said while wiping her tears with her head down. "Dad, Mom, don't worry, I can handle this well!" I said calmly.

"In the past few days, Xiaoyue's family has made your grandparents suffer. You go and say good things, and cooperate with their family to send the funeral quickly. Just bear with it after a few beats and scolding!" I burst into tears.

Father moaned and smoked a stuffy cigarette.I made up my mind that I would never let my parents follow me, and I wanted to keep watch for Xiaoyue alone.

The mourning hall is set up in the yard of the grandparents' house, which is a shed built with wooden poles.Our family has been passed down through three generations, and we are lonely in Beitantou. Fortunately, my father works in the county, so he is considered a respectable person in the village.However, Xiaoyue's elder brother is the deputy head of the village, no one in the village dares to provoke Xiaoyue's family, even the village head's family has to give way.

This time Xiaoyue's elder brother wrote a letter to the school, just to make me ruin my reputation. This trick has hurt me. I don't know what the road ahead of me will be like?Maybe there is no way.

As soon as I entered the village, a group of children shouted: "Chen Shimei is back! Chen Shimei is back!"

From afar, I saw a lot of people around my grandparents' house, like men, women and children from the whole village came. I heard that the women and Taoists who were at odds with Xiaoyue's family were gloating behind their backs. "Climbing a high branch and failing to climb it, committing short-sightedness, isn't that harmful!"

"Even if she didn't seek short-sightedness and was dumped by Lin Qingtang, she would be insane." "People, you have to live honestly according to the conditions God gave you. Isn't that Lin Qingtang? This kid really has the guts to come back!" "This There will be a good show to watch!"

Xiaoyue's five sister-in-laws were gathering in front of the mourning hall and yelling: "Old Lintou, what kind of shitty grandson you raised, he is a fucking rascal."

At this moment, I stepped into the door of my grandparents' house, and Xiaoyue's five sisters-in-law immediately surrounded her, using the usual tricks of women, spitting and staring all over the sky, scolding whatever was ugly.I stood there like a log, my ears were buzzing, but I didn't hear anything.

Accompanied by my grandpa with a sad face, my grandma is pouring tea for Xiaoyue's elder brother.As soon as the five brothers saw me coming back, they shouted away all the sisters-in-law and rushed towards me together. The one who pulled my hair, the one who stuck my neck, and the one who twisted my arm, five of them held me down in front of the coffin.

Grandma said distressedly and helplessly: "Good boy, we are wronged, bear with it."

I nodded vigorously, then knelt before the coffin.Xiaoyue's fifth elder brother kicked me while scolding me as a "smelly rascal, Chen Shimei", but was stopped by his elder brother.When Xiaoyue's mother saw me, tears burst out of her red and swollen eyes. Xiaoyue's father had many black marks on his head, which seemed to be due to excessive grief and illness.There are five sons in their family, just such a girl, the old man regards him as the apple of his eye, can they not be too sad?
"Qingtang, if you can come back, it means you have the guts. My sister has already died for you, so you have to explain it!" Xiaoyue and her elder brother said unhurriedly.

Obviously, because Xiaoyue's elder brother is the eldest and the deputy head of Miaotang Township, his words carry more weight than his father's words. "Brother, do whatever you say!" I said solemnly.

"Well, folks in the village, we won't make it too difficult for you. Tonight, you can watch for Xiaoyue. When the funeral is held tomorrow, you will carry Xiaoyue to the burial." Xiaoyue's elder brother gritted her teeth and said. "I agree!" I said deadpan.

Xiaoyue's elder brother didn't expect that I agreed to it very happily, so she didn't make things difficult for me anymore.I knelt numbly and let Xiaoyue's five elder brothers and sisters-in-law abuse and criticize me.

Kneeling in front of Xiao Yueling, my tears flowed down. These tears not only represented sadness, but also regret, grievance, annoyance and anger.I dare not accept the heavy love for me from this woman who died for me, let alone the fact that she died for love.Xiaoyue's pursuit of love is too naive, the tragedy is not caused by fate, but by Xiaoyue.

Our romance on the firewood pile back then, to me, was nothing more than a potential youth sprout. I didn’t expect Xiaoyue to be so serious. Don’t you know that we are already standing on different hills, which you thought you could touch with your hands? The distance, in fact, we have to walk together, there is an abyss under our feet, how can we come together?I thought Xiaoyue understood this truth, but I didn't expect her to be a person who ran all the way to the dark.Now you're hurting yourself and me.

It was getting dark, and the temporarily suspended light bulbs in front of the coffin dangled like will-o'-the-wisps, and the lights reflected the faces of Xiaoyue's five brothers like judges in hell.

I knelt in front of the coffin for a whole night, and the tears had long stopped, and I felt that it was not all my fault.It is inevitable and destined that Xiaoyue and I will not get together, it was decided from the day I walked out of Tangzi County.Unless I stay on this land.It's just that Xiaoyue doesn't want to admit this reality, it's just that I didn't do Xiaoyue's work earlier, it's just that I shouldn't kiss Xiaoyue on the firewood pile.

However, it is impossible for the folks to understand so much. They only look at the results. I know that I have caused a lot of trouble for my grandparents, parents, and I must leave this sad place, but my grandparents, parents still want to live here. go down.I made up my mind to endure all the humiliation, and let the people of Xiaoyue's family vent their grievances enough.

The snow started to fall in the middle of the night yesterday.When the funeral was held early the next morning, Xiaoyue's second elder brother said viciously, "Lin Qingtang, if you want to atone for your sins, you must carry my sister to the grave."

"It's cheap for you, you kid should go to be buried with me!" Xiaoyue's third brother poked my forehead with her finger and said. "You deserve to go to college even if you're such a bad guy?!" Xiaoyue and her fourth brother scolded.

"Lin Qingtang, if you don't carry my sister today, I will dispose of you!" Xiaoyue's fifth elder brother threatened, shaking her fist.The fifth child is a well-known gangster in our area, he can do this kind of thing.

Xiaoyue's elder brother ordered everyone to open the lid of the coffin, and Xiaoyue was lying inside with a livid face. Looking at Xiaoyue, my heart felt tense.I thought to myself, "Xiaoyue, you shouldn't! You shouldn't!" Tears flowed out involuntarily.

Xiaoyue's five elder brothers urged me to carry it quickly. I gritted my teeth and walked to the coffin. Everyone put Xiaoyue's body on my back, and Xiaoyue's face was pressed coldly on my neck.At this time, the mournful suona sounded, and the crowd followed behind me, the sky was covered with snow, as if they were seeing off Xiaoyue, and they seemed to be crying for me.

The nightmare finally passed, I knelt in front of Xiaoyue's grave alone, and burned the last piece of paper for her.I swore in my heart that I would never come back here again, and I would never go back to North Beachhead again.

The snow had stopped, and the night wind rattled the leaves overhead.Various memories of getting along with Xiaoyue flashed in my mind.

I said to myself: "Farewell, Yue, my poor sister, forget me, I am not a good man, you are not worth doing this for me. I am gone, and one day I may be with you on the road to hell Meet, when the time comes, when the time comes, I will confess to you, explain to you, and tell you.”

I left Beitantou overnight, and only bid farewell to my parents in a hurry when I returned to the county seat.The mother cried a lot, and the father was silent.I told my father that I was going to leave overnight, but my father didn't object, and my mother hoped that I would stay for a few more days, but I didn't agree, so I resolutely left.

6. Dilemma
Back at school, even bigger troubles are still waiting for me. The letter written by Xiaoyue’s elder brother caused extremely bad influence. The whole school’s teachers and students knew about me and Xiaoyue. The school party committee decided to expel me from my student status. .This made my tutor Cai Hengwu very anxious, and Professor Cai went to the principal angrily.Principal Li received Professor Cai very politely.

"Mr. Cai, please calm down. I understand your feelings very well, but as the head of the school, I can't ignore this kind of thing that corrupts the school spirit!" Principal Li said politely.

"Principal Li, we should seek truth from facts, learn from past mistakes and learn from future ones, and save people from illnesses just because we can't ignore them. How can we not understand this truth? You are also a student I have taught. In the field of neurosurgery, Lin Qingtang is a leader. He is a rare genius, if you ask about marriage, he is also an older youth. Young people have not dealt with personal life problems well, we should help enlighten them, can't they be beaten to death with a stick!" Professor Cai said excitedly.

"Mr. Cai," Principal Li continued to explain, "the school has school discipline, and the family has family rules. If you don't deal with it seriously, how can you warn other students?"

"Principal Li, as the director of the school's academic committee, I strongly urge the school's party committee to reconsider the punishment of Lin Qingtang. We can't let a medical genius who is about to graduate with a master's degree die. You know how many people he will save in the future when he picks up the scalpel." Is it life?" Professor Cai argued hard.

"Mr. Cai, you said that he is a medical genius. Where did he show it?" Obviously, Principal Li was somewhat persuaded.

"Lin Qingtang's graduation thesis is bold and innovative. It is the first time in China to conduct a large-scale, comprehensive and detailed microsurgical anatomy study on the cavernous sinus of Chinese people. The anatomical materials of cavernous sinus microsurgery. Lin Qingtang has worked hard for this. For the past six months, he has lived and lived in the dissecting room and laboratory. I think it is very inappropriate for us to expel such an outstanding talent without asking any questions. !” Professor Cai said earnestly.

Professor Cai's words deeply moved Principal Li, "Mr. Cai, don't worry. I will bring your opinion to the school party committee for serious study. You should go back first."

In this way, I escaped a catastrophe, and the school's punishment for me was changed from expulsion from student status to party probation, but my dream of staying in school to teach was shattered.

I was very depressed and didn't know how to go forward.Jiang Yezhen was also in great pain. Ever since his parents found out about me and Xiaoyue and I was placed under probation by the party, her parents firmly opposed her contacting me.Jiang Yezhen was also brooding about Xiaoyue's matter, thinking that I had been deceiving her feelings.

I have been wanting to talk to Jiang Yezhen, but she has been avoiding me.This added to my pain.I felt that Jiang Ye and I were really out of luck, so I had to toss around in the laboratory every day, trying to anesthetize myself with work.

One day, I was working in front of the computer in the laboratory, when Jiang Yezhen came, her face was a little haggard. "Qingtang, let's talk."

I didn't speak, and silently moved a chair for her and asked her to sit down.As soon as Jiang Yezhen sat down, tears flowed down his face.The two of us sat opposite each other, speechless.In the end, it was she who spoke first: "Qingtang, you have such a big accident, I know you must feel bad, but I am more sad than you. I have thought a lot these days, in fact, the two of us are not together Man, let's break up, we will still be good friends in the future." After she finished speaking, her eyes shining under the thick eyelashes were filled with tears.

As soon as Jiang Yezhen's words came out, I knew there was no point in saying anything.I'm a country bumpkin who broke out from a small county town, so I shouldn't be able to climb up to other people's ladies.A person like me is only worthy of marrying a village girl like Xiaoyue.But I am a man, and a man must learn to be tolerant.Since you think I can't give you happiness, then I have no choice but to give you freedom.

"Ye Zhen," I said with a forced smile, "I'm sorry, I hurt you. I agree to break up and wish you happiness in the future."

Jiang Yezhen didn't seem to expect that I would agree to break up so happily.She thought I would explain it hard, and knelt down and begged her forgiveness.She was very disappointed, she sat on a chair and wiped her tears for a while, then stood up abruptly, turned around and left.

I watched Jiang Yezhen's passing back silently, as if it was a dream and I just woke up.

The graduation defense went well, and my graduation research paper on cavernous sinus microsurgery anatomy was published in a national journal, but I could not stay in school to teach.Jiang Yezhen was assigned to the provincial health department smoothly, but I was hit by walls everywhere because of the punishment of party probation, and I couldn't find a job.

I moved out of school and rented a basement near the school. I had very little money left in my pocket, and I ate instant noodles for three meals a day.

I have traveled all over the large and small hospitals in the provincial capital. The big hospitals are unwilling to use people with corrupt morals like me, and the small hospitals can’t use people with my profession. I still gave up. When the director of the personnel department talked to me, he said, "We don't want to be playboys. I was so angry that I really wanted to punch him in the face, but thinking about my situation, I still endured it."I really fell into a predicament and confusion. Life has an end, but I can't find its direction.

Facing the confusion of the future, I can't help feeling: a person's life is like shitting, sometimes you have worked very hard, but what comes out is just a fart.

I don't look forward to the dawn, because the Big Dipper will always be found in the dark night; before I find the target, I don't want the sun to rise high, because every time the sun rises, it means another darkness comes.

There are as many debts as there are promises in life, and some debts can never be paid off.Life is a tear-jerking story in the details of various debts.A person spends his whole life paying off debts, because as long as he is alive, he owes favors, and it is simply demanding to thank others without sacrificing himself.

We are all accommodated in complex emotions, which makes life gradually gray.No one is not masochistic in the old tradition, it's just that people don't know it in the glitz.No individual can resist the attack of ideas and public opinion, and we all live under invisible pressure.

Just when I was in excruciating pain.At a moment of extreme confusion, my mentor Cai Hengwu and his wife found the basement where I rented after all the hard work.

At that time, I was eating instant noodles, when someone knocked on the door suddenly, I thought it was the landlord who came to press for the rent, and I shouted impatiently: "Didn't you agree yesterday that I would delay the payment in two days? Why did you come again today?"

When I opened the door angrily, I was stunned. I never dreamed that Professor Cai and his wife were standing at the door. "Why, don't you invite me and your teacher's wife to sit in?" Professor Cai said kindly.

"Teacher, teacher's wife, how did you find it?" I hurriedly let the two old people into the room and asked excitedly.

The two elders were stunned as soon as they entered the house. They looked at the hut where I lived. There was a bed, and a wooden box was placed next to the bed against the wall. The box was full of books, and there were washbasins and old shoes on the floor. , and two unpainted small stools.Other than that there was no other furniture.The windows are small, and the room is dimly dark, with only a single ray of sunlight cast on the small table made of boxes under the window sill.The second elder sighed again and again after watching it.

"To be honest, it was Ye Zhen who helped us find out that you live here. Qingtang, have you got a job yet?" Professor Cai asked while smoking a pipe.Seeing that my hut was in a mess, my teacher tidied it up without saying a word.

I shook my head dejectedly.

"Qingtang, don't worry, the work has been settled. Your teacher and I have tried hard to find you to tell you the good news. I will report your situation to Professor Mu Huaizhong, director of neurosurgery at the Affiliated Hospital of Northern Medical University. I made an introduction and recommended your graduation thesis on cavernous sinus microsurgery anatomy that was recently published in a national journal. I won’t miss the old friendship. Qingtang, don’t be discouraged, go to the Affiliated Hospital of Northern Medical University and work hard, the teacher hopes that you will become a well-known neurosurgery expert in the country soon.”

After listening to the teacher's words, I choked up at that time, I could hardly speak, and thousands of words could not repay the teacher's affection for my cultivation.

After seeing off the two elders, my inner world was overwhelmed and I was very excited. I really wanted to tell the good news to my favorite person to share with me, but who is my favorite among the vast crowd?

(End of this chapter)