just passing by you

Chapter 38 Secret love and acne stay together gently (2)

Only she can understand this kind of warmth, because she is going upstream step by step, and the warmth is also slapping the back of her hand, splashing small waves.She knew that he studied engineering and came to this university a year earlier than her.She knew that in the last class every Wednesday morning, he must have learned English; and on Friday afternoon, he would go to the court to play.He is still on campus, working for a bookstore.Sometimes through the door of the cafeteria, she would see him galloping past on a bicycle, and she knew that it must be him on his way to class.She has always felt that he has the same taste as those various dishes.In her heart, he is like a cool and delicious salad, or a plate of green rapeseed, or a plate of refreshing kimchi.She likes such a simple taste, better than those delicacies that she can't extravagantly ask for.That is the taste of homely happiness, not everyone can taste it.Unless, she is in love.

Yes, she has been in love for a long time.And he, perhaps, just regarded her as an ordinary working girl.He just habitually went to her counter to order the special dishes that were already warm and cold.Or in sight, when meeting her, smile warmly at her.Or, when walking past her counter, she didn't stop, but just glanced at the vegetable price list on the window.She didn't know if he had noticed those secrets that only she knew.She would deliberately put one or two pieces of fish in the corner of the specials, just waiting for him to come, pretending to be inadvertently, and spooning them into his plate.As for the rice, she always gave him one or two extra bowls.She knew he liked to eat fish balls, but because of the price, she only kept her eyes on them for a few seconds and then quickly moved away, but she always remembered to hide a small fish ball in the rice for him. Fish Ball.And the portion of the dishes must have come out of the spoon, they are in the spoon, like the love in her heart, overflowing.

But she knew that even if her love flowed past him like a thawed brook, she would be careful not to splash his feet.She knew how humble she was, even though she occasionally heard that he was studying on loan.However, she can come in through the gate of the school, but she will never be able to cross the 200-meter distance from the cafeteria to the classroom, unless she can stand outside the counter with him, even if it is just to order a most delicious meal. Simple potatoes.

No one knew how intense her yearning was.It was like a fire in her heart, burning blazingly.Almost every night, when others were lying down, she would take an English book and go to the corridor. With the dim light, she would see Oneiroi and call her gently.The fatigue of the day, because of this happy and fulfilling time that no one knows, dissipated like green smoke.She met him in the first month after coming to this school, but for this, she spent eleven months chasing him day and night.Those difficult exercises, awkward words, and passages that she could never remember from the past are all in her heart, like the silhouette of a vine falling on the window, and it will come to life immediately when blown by his warm wind.

One day a year later, she met him again in the cafeteria.Facing the girl who was cooking for him, he asked in bewilderment: Why is there less food and rice in your cafeteria than in the past?The girl in front of the counter glanced at him casually, then threw the plate of rice on the scale, and the needle of the scale pointed to the number 2 accurately.He stood there in a daze for a long time before reaching out to the plate and turning his head towards the opposite table.And she was sitting at the same dining table, waiting for his arrival.

It took her a whole year to go from the cafeteria to the classroom.Now, she finally has the opportunity to tell him personally the secret of the extra rice, and how deeply she fell in love with him.

Walked ten years to love you.

They have been together for many ten years and have a lot of children.Life has changed many things, but it is difficult to change the way they walk, holding hands, shoulder to shoulder; when they stand still, their heads are slightly leaning together, like a full and gentle flower.

You are my little girl.

He and her have almost become the scenery of this community.They grow more tenaciously than any other flowers and plants on the cement. The branches of each other, like conjoined babies, blend together, and the branches grow intertwined; if you hurt, I will hurt too, and if you hurt , that scar also remained in my heart. The elderly who have not left this community for more than 20 years often say that the trees here are lush and the environment is good, and even the people love each other and do not distinguish each other.

Yes, as long as you see him, you will definitely be by his side and see her in a wheelchair.She couldn't speak, and her expression was a little stupid and dull, but almost all the women said that she was lucky, and God let her be born into this world to enjoy blessings.And the indifference and calmness in his eyes made all the men admire: in such a broken marriage, it really takes a great state for a man to be so open-minded and calm.People in this community lived in a mixed manner, and many people came and left in a hurry. They soon forgot this ordinary community and the feelings they had for him and her.But he and she have never forgotten each other.In fact, their eyes, after removing all sighs, sympathy, and envious sights like sand, only each other is left.

20 years ago, because of poverty, he came to her home to do her professional nursing.Since she was a child, she was mentally handicapped and unable to take care of herself. Her parents and siblings were too busy with their own affairs to take care of her.She lives alone in her own world, forgotten by the world, and because of this, she alienates the whole world, until she sees strangers, she will feel fear.It was his arrival that changed everything.He is a very patient man, and he takes care of her carefully as a teenage girl.He took her out to know flowers and plants, distinguish birds, insects and fish; he taught her to say hello to people and politely reply to other people's questions; he even tried his best to teach her to write her own name and write down her home address.Strangely, in front of strangers, she dodges, cries, and scares others away with weird behaviors; but only in front of him, she quietly follows him around like a docile lamb.Many times, her eyes are full of attachment to him, such emotion is rarely seen even in front of her parents.The pure trust in her eyes even made outsiders believe that even if he took her to the most dangerous place, she would not have the slightest doubt.Because, she has already regarded him as a tall and straight tree in her life, leaning on him firmly and fearlessly.

His care of her lasted 4 years.Her brothers and sisters got married and had children one after another, and they had their own families, and her parents, because of their old age, needed their children to take care of them.She became a problem that the family didn't know how to deal with.At first, everyone wanted to send her to the center for the mentally handicapped, and let her live there for the rest of her life; but in just one day, she ran out of it crazily, and almost got lost.Later, everyone said that several brothers and sisters would take turns to take care of her, but after a round, the brothers and sisters kept silent; because her arrival made their marriages a little hairy. If things go on like this, perhaps they may even divorce for her.In the end, everyone said, spend a lot of money and hire a nurse who is willing to take care of her for a long time.

This time, he was the one who recruited.He went back to go on a blind date because it was difficult to disobey his parents' orders.But the kiss was not over, but he suddenly thought of her who had no one to take care of her.He wondered if she was in the garden again, being bullied and covered in sand?Could it be that she wanted to eat an apple, but her family handed her the orange by mistake in her vague and indecipherable gestures?Did the whole family go to work, but she was locked in the room alone, and she couldn't even hear the birdsong?In this way, amidst the anxiety and worry, he broke through numerous obstacles and returned to her side.

But there are still an endless stream of people proposing marriage for him.Almost everyone he knew persuaded him that it was time to start a family. Although she could make you a lot of money, she wouldn't even delay your own happiness.Even her family members said that no matter how attached she is to you, you still have to solve your personal problems. Even so, we will fall into distress again.He shook his head with a smile and said, the point is, she can't leave me, and I'm not willing to lose such a sister who is actually very clear about good and bad.

Yes, he regarded her as his younger sister, a younger sister who couldn't let go of his emotions at any time.And she also regards him as a spiritual pillar that no one can replace.Their fate is thus dominated by unpredictable life, sliding to an isolated island that cannot be visited or rescued by outsiders.

After another two years like this, her parents finally hesitated and said, you can't take care of her like this for the rest of your life, son, you need a family.They thought he would be lost in thought, but they never thought, he raised his head, looked at them, and replied without any hesitation: I think if possible, I will take care of her for the rest of my life.

In this way, amidst the discussion of the world, he married her.Some people said that he married her for money. After all, he couldn't even find a job in this strange city.Some people also said that maybe he himself had some physical or psychological obstacles, otherwise, how could he do such incredible things.But more people said, just wait, in a few years, when he got all the things he wanted, such as a house, urban household registration and money, he would divorce her of his own accord.

Such discussions have never stopped in the following 20 years.But he and she, like all happy families, raised a healthy son and sent him to college.When she was 35 years old, her lower limbs became numb until she could not stand up and walk.And he still appeared regularly with her in the central garden of the community at dusk, where there were many children, old people, and sweet couples.She was sitting in a wheelchair, looking at him innocently, while he, like a father, lovingly helped her remove the sweat from her forehead and her clothes that were blown by the wind.Like many couples, they form harmonious and beautiful notes in this community.

Over the years, everyone passing through this community will cast a curious glance at them.They are used to this kind of attention, just like she is used to his undisguised care in front of outsiders, and he is also used to her complete trust and dependence on himself.

Life with them, like any couple, flows slowly.They have walked hand in hand for more than 20 years, and they will continue to walk without hesitation.They already had gray hair, but she was still living in her teenage years, and he still regarded her as the little girl who was deeply attached to him.And this mutual attachment and concern constitute the time they spent together.

(End of this chapter)