wolf pet

Chapter 183

Li Yan looked at him without blinking, with a faint smile on his face all the time.Waiting patiently for him to finish speaking, he opened his mouth slowly. "I believe what you said is true, no matter it was at the beginning or now. But a relationship is like a mirror. When it breaks, it breaks. Even if such a big crack is repaired, it will never go back to the beginning. I can't treat it as a wrong Existence. I know, you can’t understand my feelings. Perhaps, many women can’t understand. Because they always try their best to snatch him back from the hands of a third party when facing their cheating husbands, instead of thinking Divorce made that shameless woman cheaper. Perhaps it was because my past life was too smooth, and what I had and what I got prompted me to demand perfection and not tolerate any flaws. So when there is such a big discrepancy in our marriage A stain, no matter how hard I try, I still can't ignore its existence. In fact, it's not that I haven't thought about tearing Tang Xianshu's face, or pushing her in front of the public so that she can get a third party. The contempt and reviled I got. But I know too well that no matter what I do, our marriage will never go back to the beginning. Even if you live with me wholeheartedly from now on, no matter how long time passes, I will never forget it It happened. I'm sorry I can't work with you."

Turn around with a smile and take a step.Straighten your waist, and walk firmly step by step, even though your legs are already weak.

"Isn't it for the sake of Linlin? Don't you love children the most? Don't you want to do it for the sake of children?"

"I am willing, but I can't do it. Isn't everything I do now just for the sake of my children? If it weren't for Linlin, even if you put a knife on my neck, I would still leave. That day Linlin got sick and went into the operating room , When I was standing outside the door, my legs were so frightened that I almost forgot to breathe. At that time, I knew that I would never tolerate my child growing up where I couldn't see it. I also know that you will not easily Give me the custody of Linlin, so I can only continue to bear it until Linlin is old enough..."

"And then?" Then she can leave regardless?Lei Chu felt powerless again, and hated Li Yan's stubbornness in his heart.Obviously, things don't have to be like this, but she was persistent and refused to let go.

Li Yan smiled, opened the door and walked out without answering.and then?In fact, she didn't know, she didn't even know if she could last until then.

Lei Chu understood from her words that their marriage really cannot be saved.If she is still willing to cry and make a scene, it means she still cares.Now that she can talk to him about this calmly, it means that her heart is really dead.The Yan'er who accepted him to marry him despite everyone's dissuasion is no longer here.

Lei Chu took out a cigarette, lit it, and smoked vigorously.

And Li Yan returned to the room, lying on the bed, still sleepless all night.The pain in the left chest was still severe.It was like a huge wound, scabbed and torn apart, then scabbed, and then torn apart.Repeatedly, always so painful.Can't bear it, but can't stop it.

Another weekend, the child was picked up by his grandparents, who said they were going to play in the park.

It was rare for Lei Chu to be at home, so he read the newspaper on the sofa.

Li Yan went online with her computer, and no one who could talk was online.In fact, even if they are really online, she is not willing to talk about the misfortune of marriage.It takes a lot of courage to open up your own pain or darkness to others.

I accidentally saw a friend's personalized signature, which wrote a line of lyrics: Some people can't tell what is good, but no one can replace it.

I couldn't help wondering if this friend, like me, had suffered emotional ups and downs.Couldn't help but click into her space.Sure enough, the recent diary is all sad.The longing that hurts the liver and intestines but cannot be cut off makes people so painful.

She thought for a long time, and left a word of encouragement below.I know it doesn't make sense, but I just wanted to say something.Perhaps in the bottom of her heart, she also longed for someone to cheer her up like this.She can't get it, so she gives it to others.

Get out of that friend's space, and look at everyone's signatures and spaces one by one, as if to understand their current situation.When the word "Liancheng" appeared under the mouse button, Li Yan was stunned for a moment.The past has flowed with the wind, and now it is reappearing in front of my eyes.That clean-cut but artistically talented boy in a white shirt.That boy who is obviously a nobleman but blushes when he sees her.

Since graduation, it seems that he is rarely seen.It is said that he is unwilling to take over his father's company, but he likes to travel all over the mountains and rivers with his luggage on his back, drawing every picture he likes.I don't know if he is still the same as before.

Lian Sheng's personality signature is: If life is only like seeing it for the first time, no matter whether it is red cherry or green plantain, you are still an angel under the hazy setting sun.

Li Yan knew that the "you" in this sentence refers to herself.A good saying is that life is only like meeting for the first time!

Lian Sheng is a boy from the art academy of their school. He is very good at drawing and is quite famous in school, but he is very shy.Just make a joke, and he can blush all over his face.He accidentally saw Li Yan on a summer evening, wearing a fluttering white dress, bathed in the soft and hazy light of the setting sun, like an angel who had fallen into the mortal world by mistake.Later, Lian Sheng drew that scene:
The setting sun slantly dotted the sky, and the orange light swayed like a paintbrush, splashing a layer of dreamlike color between the world and everything.In the quiet campus alleyway, a woman as elegant as a chrysanthemum came slowly, her skirt fluttering in the breeze made her look elegant and moving.She stopped and stared at the sunset in the sky, smiling lightly, as if she was looking forward to a beautiful dream...

This work called "Dream" won an award in a college competition. When it was displayed as the winning work, many people recognized the woman in the painting.At that time, Li Yan was also curious and known by more people.

And that shy boy often appeared where she was, watching silently.I don't know when to come, and I don't know when to go.Every time they found out, they would blushed and hurried away.

Unable to bear it, Li Yan clicked on his space.In the photo album is Lian Sheng who has traveled all over the country.Still a little shy, but so sunny, so pure.Each photo is described below with text: where it is, local characteristics, his mood and so on.

Click on the diary, there are travel notes of every place, but there are more articles similar to love poems.The writing is delicate and the thought is delicate.The hints between the lines, you can see the shadow of yourself at the beginning.

Li Yan looked at it, feeling a little moved in her heart.A person who has never walked into his heart, but has been so persistently fond of himself for so many years.His liking is pure, silently liking, not disturbing her life, not thinking of doing things that hurt others in name.

Those days about her, the illustrations are all his own drawings.The protagonist of the painting is always a woman, her face is not clear, but her posture and charm are just like her back then.When Li Yan saw the message in the diary, Lian Sheng's classmates directly pointed out her name.

A man who has never received any response from her has persisted like this for so many years. The latest diary about her was just two days ago in the middle of the night.However, Lei Chu, who has received all her love and dedication, hooked up with another woman and hurt her deeply.Is it always like this, when you get something, you no longer cherish it?If you can't get it, you will always miss it?

Li Yan really wanted to leave a message under the article, but after typing a few words, she deleted it.Since you can't respond to others, why bother to provoke him?Living in her own fantasy may be happy, but if she leaves a message but can't get any response, isn't she deliberately torturing others?
Finally, with a soft sigh, he closed the message page.Click on the album again and stop on one of the photos.It was at the beach, and Lian Sheng was wearing a white shirt, black pants, and white shoes.Facing the wind, slightly long hair is flying in the wind, pure smile, clear eyes...

No wonder he is still reluctant to take over the family business, such a clean person should belong to art.Only those who simply love art can always stick to the original state of mind.

If she appeared in front of him now, would he still blush as before?Suddenly, Li Yan wanted to give it a try.However, he seems to be in XZ now, so I'm afraid he won't have this opportunity for the time being.And as long as the result is the same as before, so what?Li Yan smiled bitterly, and couldn't help laughing at herself in her heart.

"Why? I'm moved by him now, do you regret not choosing him at the beginning?" Lei Chu came behind her at some point and said this sarcasm.

Li Yan raised her head slowly and met his eyes. "Whether I regret not choosing him is not important. The important thing is that I now regret choosing you, Lei Chu. I was indeed moved by him. Compared with his purity and infatuation, your promiscuity is as good as yours without repentance." Outrageous."

A strong person should not regret any of his choices.Maybe she was really not strong enough, so she regretted it.Especially when she was lying on the bed alone in the middle of the night, holding her body with her own arms, she felt so regretful that her intestines turned green.I always thought that I had so many choices, but I chose Lei Chu.It's really sad.

"You—" Lei Chu was so angry that he threw the newspaper on the sofa and went upstairs. "You will never have a chance to be with him, so you should give up your heart! Hmph!"

"I never thought I could still be with him. With my current ghostly appearance, I am worthy of someone like you. Accompanying him, wouldn't that defile him, right?"

(End of this chapter)