refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 14 Your Majesty, Are You Jealous?

I looked at him and went out for a walk with him?Yes, of course I do.

But no, I should keep a distance from him, a very, very long distance, the Hundred Flowers Club with him last time made me very happy.

I shouldn't have any more contact with him, I'm afraid I won't be able to restrain the squirming in my heart.

"The Empress will not allow it." Facing his shining gaze, I turned my head with difficulty.

"One hour is enough, let's go." Without any explanation, he pulled me away.

I struggled, but failed. In fact, I struggled with only a little bit of strength. Even if he didn't hold me tightly, he couldn't break free.

My heart is so conflicted.

A few gasps came from not far away.

I woke up from the contradiction in an instant, this is the palace, there are many people, but I am holding hands with the dignified Master Shangshu, and we are leaving the palace in a fair manner.

If the queen finds out about this, a trace of fear flashed in my heart, and I said, "Jing Lin, there are many people here, let me go."

"As long as your heart is open, what are you afraid of?"

"That's what it says, but it's not like that."

"Then let it be."

I am stunned.

He turned his head and looked at me with a smile, "Give me this chance, Enen."

"Jing...Jing Lin?" I stammered.

"You are a good girl. I don't want to miss it. I will regret it if I miss it." His eyes and expression were serious, "Or, are you despising my past?"

"No." I waved my hand hastily, feeling confused, "It's me... I don't deserve it."

He smiled, and said in a low voice, which was extremely pleasant, "That is the promise."

"I..." I stared at his back with wide eyes, but felt as if I was being tormented.

It should be a happy thing, it should be a secret joy.

Such an excellent person like him would actually fall in love with an ordinary court lady like me.

This is the blessing I have cultivated for several lifetimes.

But I, I don't deserve him at all.

How do those pasts tell me to export?
He dragged me through the crowded street with a faint smile on his lips.

"Got home."

"Shangshu Mansion?" Looking at the big golden lacquered characters above my head, I didn't expect that he took me to his house to relax.

With two fingers shaking in front of me, he looked mysterious, "Guess is wrong."

"what?"

"Aren't you talking about how to bring you to my house to relax?"

"How do you know?" I asked in surprise.

"This is the thinking of ordinary people." He smiled and narrowed his eyes into a line, curved and very beautiful.

I was suddenly surprised, and asked seriously: "What does that extraordinary person think?"

"It's very human, I haven't met it yet."

I smile.

I finally know how he let me relax.

Entered Shangshu Mansion, passed through the round gate, came to the garden, and bypassed several small bridges and rockery.

Just wondering if the layout of the garden had not changed, he led me to stand in front of an old pagoda tree in the corner.

The tree is so thick that even seven or eight people may not be able to close it with open arms. The luxuriant branches and leaves can overwhelm a small building.

Standing under the tree, it is cool, even if there is no wind, it is extremely comfortable.

Just as he was about to ask how old the tree was, he saw that Jing Lin looked at the big tree with extremely melancholy eyes, with a touch of sadness emanating from him.

"Jinglin, what's wrong?"

"Nothing, let's go."

It turned out that there was a small hole on the other side of the tree, but it was extremely difficult to find because it was covered by the branches growing horizontally.

To my surprise, when I entered the hole, there was a tree hole the size of a person on the side.

Jing Lin dragged me into the tree hole.

Out of the hole, it suddenly became clear.

The fragrant grass is delicious, the fallen petals are colorful, the flowers are in full bloom, the trees are lush, the running water is jingling, the melodious birdsong, and occasionally a few rabbits jump happily among the flowers, it is really a paradise.

"What a beautiful place." I was stunned, this should be the other side of the wall, right?

"This is my other home." He said this with deep emotion, "Only three people in this world, including you, know this place.

three people?The other person is naturally the empress.

"It's really beautiful." I can't help but walk among the flowers and plants. If a beauty is used as a metaphor, the imperial garden is a delicate and beautiful princess, and here is a fresh and elegant lady.

"Like it?"

Nod your head, I like this kind of beauty, which is so plain that people can see and feel it.

"Are you feeling better?"

"Yes." I replied seriously, smiled, and asked, "This place must have spent a lot of hard work, right?"

"Ten years, it took me ten years to build it." He looked at them one by one, his eyes filled with affection, "I'll take you to the house to have a look."

"Is there still a house?"

I didn't expect this place to be so big, I always thought it was just a small garden.

He thought that the house Jing Lin mentioned was just a place where people could shelter, but he didn't expect it to be a big courtyard, which was even worse than the Shangshu Mansion.

The furnishings inside the house are extremely simple, with strong Jiangnan colors, landscape ink paintings, bamboo and bead curtains, and the shapes of children and old men carved on the eaves. Everything is based on nature, simple yet graceful, exquisite and decent with generosity.

I really like this place, but at the same time, doubts surfaced in my mind.

"It's a pity that there is no tea, do you mind?" He said apologetically.

"It's okay, I like it here."

"I will often bring you to play in the future."

"That's great." I was full of joy, "Why did you build such a house? Isn't the Shangshu Mansion not good?"

Melancholy climbed into his clear eyes again, he said very lightly, but the sadness was still very obvious, "It was built for her. Unfortunately, she doesn't like this place. Every time I come, I force her to come here of."

"I like it here." Is that the right thing to say?Is it decent?I don't know, I just want to drive away the sadness in his eyes.

He smiled at me far-fetchedly, "I have made up my mind to forget her, but it is really difficult. She has been integrated into me for too many years. Enen, just now I was talking about making things happen, but now... you will Do you blame me?"

"How could it be?" As soon as I mentioned this topic, I felt bitterness in my mouth, "I am not worthy of your lord."

"There is no distinction between high and low. The only thing that is high or low is the coat. And I don't want to wear that coat in front of you, so don't say whether you deserve it or not."

"Does your lord really think so?"

"Yes, life is equal. No one in this world can live a long life. In front of life, you are just a simple person."

A touch of emotion lingered in my heart, so the honorable Master Shangshu would say such words, and I felt so at ease hearing these words in my heart, without the feeling of being suppressed, forced, or distinguished, as if we were stand on the same platform.

I really like this feeling, it feels like my heart is filled with something.

"Jing Lin, I..." I am really unworthy, my body has long been unclean... How can I say it?It takes a decisive refusal, but the restlessness is like a bud, breaking through the love that was suppressed by me layer by layer, and I can't say the words of rejection.

"Don't reject me. Let's take our time. From now on, let's get to know each other's hearts. Okay?" He spoke softly, and every word moved me.

"I, let me think about it, think about it." Not refusing means that I have to confess the past to him.

Can you speak it?
Can you tell?

Will he dislike me?
No man would put up with such a thing.

but……

I think, I want to give it a try, even if I am cast aside, I, I want to give it a try.

"Let's think about it until tomorrow. I said I would take you to relax. Let's go and visit my private garden." His voice became very cheerful again.

Well, save everything until tomorrow.

This hour, I had a great time.

Jing Lin was also very happy, leaving his laughter everywhere.

The two of us were like children who couldn't grow up. We played in the water, made garlands, picked lotuses in the pond, and caught a few red lobsters to amuse each other. We had a great time.

I love the feeling of being unable to extricate myself, watching him soaked in happiness.

I'm deeply in it.

When the setting sun spread over the earth, I walked out of Shangshu Mansion.

"I'm back to the palace."

"I'll see you off." His bright eyes were still shining with the joy just now.

I shook my head, "No need."

"I really don't know how to act like a baby. You should pester me to take you back at this time."

"Isn't it just two streets?"

"You." He tapped my forehead suddenly.

The gesture of intimacy made me blush.

"Be careful on the road."

"Yes."

When we turned the corner, he was still standing at the gate looking at me, and I waved to him.

At this place, a gorgeous carriage stopped in front of Shangshu's mansion, and the next person was Zhao Yuefu.

Happiness disappears, and heaviness emerges again. Yes, besides the empress level, there is also Zhao Yuefu.

"Why doesn't Jinglin like Miss Zhao but likes me?"

I said I would try it even if I was cast aside, and I will face it bravely.

In the evening, there are many fewer people on the street, but it is still very lively. Most of the people playing are children, jostling and pushing, playing games and sweating profusely.

Standing by the roadside, looking at these innocent children, I suddenly thought, yes, I still have one thing to do, I must do it.

"Master, is there a medical center here?" I asked the old man who was shopping for vegetables.

The old man was very enthusiastic, pointing to the sidewalk on the side of the street, and said in an old and loving voice: "There is one house here, and two more over there. They are all good. Miss, are you sick?"

"No, it's my younger brother who is sick and wants to grab some medicine. Thank you, uncle."

I trotted into the side road, and sure enough there was a medical center inside.

Once inside, a strong smell of medicine came to the nostrils, probably because of the evening, only a few guys were giving people medicine.

There is no time for me to hesitate, the time of the palace ban is coming soon.

"Excuse me, is the doctor there?" I asked loudly.

"I am." The old man who was arranging the medicinal materials looked at me with kind eyes and a light gray robe, "Is the girl seeing a doctor?"

"It's not me, it's my brother."

"Come here, please, and sit down."

After sitting down, the doctor asked, "Where is your brother?"

"He can't come, doctor, have you heard of Happy Fan?" I asked anxiously, quietly, and full of expectation.

Tang Yu said that there is no way to solve it. I don't believe it. Since Happy Powder is made by people, there must be an antidote to be found.

The doctor was quite surprised, "Happy powder? How could your brother eat happy powder?"

"I ate it by mistake."

"The girl is not telling the truth. Although the old man is not talented, this happy fan is something that can only be used if you are born in an emperor's family or a huge family. Judging by the girl's dress, she is from the palace, right?"

I was at a loss for words, and I didn't expect the doctor to see through it at a glance.

This is a big secret, and of course I can't tell it.

Just when I didn't know what to do, the doctor sighed, "Don't worry, the old man won't tell, but there is no cure for happy powder, and the old man just heard about it from the deceased master, and didn't really meet it." Pass."

I was relieved, but after hearing what the doctor said, my heart rose to my throat again, "Is there nothing I can do?"

The doctor shook his head, "Why don't you go to another house and ask?"

After leaving the hospital, I ran to the other two.

This time, I was careful and bought a gorgeous dress to wear. Didn't the doctor say that?Happy powder is something that can only be used if you are born in an emperor's family or a huge family. If you can't reveal that you are in an emperor's family, let others think it is a wealthy family.

After entering the second hospital, the doctor looked very young.

When I mentioned Happy Fan, he was confused for a moment, but soon, he pretended to understand and said: "This is easy to understand. Let me tell you about your brother's illness first. What are the symptoms?"

"Doesn't the doctor know about happy powder? Why don't you know its symptoms?" My heart was half cold.

"The general symptoms are the same, but it depends on different people."

It sounds reasonable, but his expression reminded me of those half-immortals on the side of the road. They always have to get familiar with people's situation before fortune-telling, and the calculations are more accurate.

But he is a doctor after all, I still had some hope, "There are no symptoms, but he will grow up very quickly. It usually takes five years to become an adult, but after taking this medicine, he will be able to become an adult in one year."

"Ridiculous, how could there be such a medicine in this world? Are you out of your mind?" The doctor looked at me as if you were sick.

I was kicked out of this hospital.

Don't give up, there is another family.

This medical center is very large, there are five or six doctors in it, and there are many people coming in and out, and there are more than ten people who take medicine.

I suddenly felt hopeful.

"Happy fan?" The doctor stroked his white beard and shook his head, "I don't know very well."

I asked several other doctors, but they couldn't explain clearly.

I still don't give up, the capital is so big, there are so many doctors, there must be a doctor who knows the medicine clearly.

I went to the street to look for it, and after walking a few streets, I didn't see any medical clinics.

Dragging my sore feet, I walked on another larger street.

"Sister-in-law, do you know where the largest medical center in Beijing is?" I wearily asked the woman on the side of the road who was chatting with a child in her arms.

"It's there," the sister-in-law said, pointing to the north, "it's just beyond the cross road. It's called Franciscan Hall. It's the largest and most famous medical center in the whole capital."

Franciscan Church?Isn't that the one I just came out of?
"Sister-in-law, is there another home besides Franciscan Hall?"

The woman thought for a while, "No more, good doctors are all in the Franciscan Church, oh, there are two more."

The woman said the names of the two families.

I gradually became discouraged, and these two houses were the same two houses I had been to in the first place.

The sunset is fading, and the night is coming.

As a last resort, I had to go back to the palace first.

But I still believe that there must be an antidote for Happy Powder. Since it is something made by people, there must be an antidote. As long as you work hard, you will be able to find it.

Go out of the palace tomorrow and ask.

The red lanterns illuminated the entire imperial palace. Looking from a distance, the lights from the flames merged into a long dragon, baring its teeth and claws.

Close the window, separated by a long queue.

"Ma'am, it's late, it's time to go to bed." I said to the queen who was still reading.

The queen yawned gracefully, still looking at the book in her hand.

In fact, as long as you don't meet the queen's eyes, the queen will feel very kind quietly.

Seeing that she didn't speak, I stood aside and followed her.

"This palace has been waiting for you to speak." The queen said lightly, her eyes never leaving the page.

"What does the empress want the servant to say?"

"The people in the palace are always lonely, and spreading the word has become their only entertainment. What do you think the palace wants you to say?"

I suddenly understood in my heart that Jing Lin and I had blatantly left the palace, and the empress had heard it, "I don't know what to say."

The queen chuckled, and stared at me sharply, "Jing Lin has always liked to play this kind of game. He wanted to get rid of me and find someone to replace me, but no one can."

"Slaves understand." Years of feelings, years of nostalgia, how could it be possible to just replace it?

"Just understand. Do you like him?"

I was shocked.

The queen snorted coldly and said, "As expected, I thought you were different from other palace maids. It seems that this palace thinks highly of you. Let's take a look and see what will happen to you."

"End?"

"Well," the queen smiled coquettishly, "The fate of being abandoned by Jing Lin is very miserable. I never fly a grain of sand into my eyes."

"Then, what if Jing Lin hadn't...abandoned it?" Before I knew it, I said this sentence.

Snapped--

The queen stood up suddenly and waved her hand towards me.

Solidly, I got a slap in the face.

The burning pain spread from the face to the whole body.

"With your appearance and identity, is it possible? Are you worthy?" The queen's voice became cold, and there was anger in the cold, "Go down."

"The emperor is here—" Eunuch Lu's high-pitched voice suddenly came.

Both the queen and I were stunned.

Didn't the emperor flip the brand of Concubine An tonight?How did you come to the Queen's Palace?

The pain on my face made me unable to think much, when Ming Huang's figure came in, I hurriedly knelt down to greet him.

"The concubine has met the emperor." The queen's voice could not hide her joy.

"Get up."

I stood up humbly, looked at the ground plainly with both eyes, bowed and exited the inner bed.

I closed the door, and when I turned around, I saw Tang Yu standing behind him coldly, his eyes cast on my slapped face.

"Does it hurt?" He asked, very softly.

I nodded.

"You know it's the palace, but you are so bold to leave the palace holding hands with him? Have you thought about the consequences?"

as a result of?I nod again.

I didn't expect the news from the palace to spread so quickly.

"He is not an ordinary minister. You are very clear about his relationship with the queen, and you still do this?"

"Yes." My voice was weak.

"You are making an enemy of the queen by doing this."

"I don't want to be an enemy of the queen."

"But the queen is already going to put you to death." Tang Yu frowned.

"What?" I was stunned.

"Do you know why the former maid didn't stay with the queen long?"

I shook my head.

"They all fell in love with Jing Lin, and desperately wanted to marry him, even if they were concubines."

I stared at him with wide eyes, and heard him say in an extremely indifferent and even cold voice: "The queen didn't kill them right away, but tortured them little by little, using various methods until she had had enough."

I shivered, only to feel the coldness coming frequently.

"You are too impulsive."

"I don't regret it." My face should be pale, and even my hands are trembling slightly, but I said this with absolute certainty.

Tang Yu looked at me deeply, his ice-like eyes were indescribably complicated, and his voice became hoarse, "Why?"

Why?I don't know why, I don't think I'm an emotional person, I'm just afraid, afraid that I won't know how to die, afraid of dying in fear, afraid of sudden suspicion, others suspect me, I suspect others.

From the moment he entered the palace, this road has not been smooth. When he entered the empress palace, he always stumbled, poisoned, seduced, aborted, deceived, and murdered. It is no longer clear which is true and which is false.

If you want to stick to the principles you think, be innocent, and be a down-to-earth person, you will never be able to do so.

Inexplicably, some disasters will be caused, and even life is almost lost in Anfei Palace.

I also ran into Xiao Ru drugging the crown prince, such a small person, he was still a child, how could he be so cruel?
I have changed, become suspicious, become suspicious, and even more afraid.

When I first entered the palace, I only wanted food and clothing, and only wanted stability.

Now, I just want to get out of here, no matter what.

I fixedly looked at Tang Yu, unable to tell him what I was thinking one by one, I just said: "I like him, no matter what, I will try, work hard, try hard."

It's true that I like Jing Lin, but when I say this sentence, I always mix a few falsehoods, and I feel guilty about Jing Lin.

I didn't really like him, trying hard, mixed with the idea of ​​leaving the palace.

Tang Yu pursed his lips tightly, with a cold expression, he couldn't see what he was thinking, and felt that he was angry.

In the end, he only said indifferently: "The queen ordered you to take out the sign."

brand?I touched my waist.

"In the future, you will no longer be able to leave the palace."

My body trembled and I couldn't leave the palace anymore?The matter of the prince...
There are many advantages to being a concubine's close maid, but what I like the most is that you don't need to use the palace waist card, as long as you say a few words, the guards will let you go for the sake of the concubine, and for me, the queen's close Maid, it's too late for them to curry favor.

This is an unwritten rule of the palace, and the queen knows it.

"I'll take your badge." While I was struggling in a daze, Tang Yu took out a waist badge that was exactly the same as mine and put it in his sleeve.

"Tang Yu?" A mist suddenly appeared in my eye sockets.

"I'm going to get the emperor's soup." Tang Yu turned and left, and when he walked to the gate of the hall, he looked back at me, the depths of his eyes became darker as night, and said softly, "Although I think you are overwhelmed , but since you're going to try hard, go ahead and do it."

"Why?" I asked, my voice trembling with gratitude. "Why do you help me like this?"

"No reason, I just want to do this." He left, and when he left the palace, his eyes were full of loneliness and loneliness.

I didn't see it, but I felt that his back blended perfectly with the night, and when he disappeared, there was a distressing feeling.

Sitting on the stool, my hands on my knees are clasped nervously.

Thoughts cannot be understood.

In the past, after being beaten and scolded a few times, I would still argue with others and still smile.

Now, I just feel that it doesn’t matter if I get beaten or scolded a few times. I just think that no matter what, I must stick to my own principles and be worthy of what my parents taught me since I was a child.

But my heart was full of helplessness, hesitation, and fear.

Subtle, slowly changing.

The wind is blowing and the grass is turbulent, and the feeling of the grass and trees is like a war, which makes people feel scared and overwhelmed.

The heart is shaking.

At this moment, I have to go to Xiaoru's place, and this trip should be tonight anyway.

Otherwise, she will drug the prince again tomorrow.

But what should I say?What should I say?

Is it possible to solve the problem just like this?
If Xiaoru knew that I ran into her putting happy powder in the tea of ​​His Highness the Crown Prince, would she kill me too?

I shook my head intuitively, she is so small, she won't.

But would a child do such a thing?
The matter of Anfei Palace is just around the corner.

I was extremely hesitant and struggling.

It shouldn't be like this. It is right to understand the truth and what to do, and to make a decisive choice.

I hesitated.

In fear, what is afraid is not Xiao Ru, but the right and wrong in it.

Is it wise to protect yourself, or get involved and face it bravely?
Do I have the ability to face it?

It's really contradictory. I want to save the prince, but I'm afraid that I will get into trouble and lose my life.

I feel like I've fallen into an abyss I can't climb out of.

Thinking of Tang Yu saying that the queen wanted my life, I became even more hesitant.

I sat in a daze, and my thoughts became even more chaotic, as if I was looking at a pile of messy weapons. I didn't know where to start, and each one would have my fingers cut and even my chest pierced.

"This is your method?" The cool voice was full of sarcasm and high-pitched.

"Emperor, Your Majesty?" Looking at the handsome face that suddenly appeared in front of me, I forgot to breathe for a moment, and met his sarcasm in astonishment. The struggle, hesitation, fear, helplessness, and hesitation that I couldn't hide in my eyes were all nakedly displayed. in front of him.

His eyes became deeper and his pupils narrowed, "How does it feel to hold Master Shangshu's hand?"

He also knows?
"Which do you prefer, my woman or Lord Shangshu's concubine?"

"what?"

The corners of his mouth curled up, and the bottom of his eyes were cold, "Your scheming really impresses me."

"The servant does not understand what the emperor is talking about?"

"I don't understand? Ming Concubine Palace, you deliberately attracted my attention. In the imperial garden, you hid behind a tree to peep at me. In the cave, you pretended to be noble and refused me. You used bitter tricks to attract me in the flower street. Now that I am indifferent, you turned your target to me." It's Jinglin."

"Wh... what? The servants don't have any."

"Do you think I will believe what you say?" His cold eyes were filled with anger, just like the dark clouds before the storm, under which there are stinging thunder and lightning.

"I really don't have any slaves, and I don't have any unreasonable thoughts." Why does he think so?
He seemed angrier.

I was eager to clarify, "The emperor please trust the servant, the servant is to the emperor..."

I couldn't find the right words, I just wanted to avoid him all this time, just repel him, so why would I want to attract him?

Bite the bullet, I said: "This servant has no intention of admiring the emperor, let alone using tricks to attract the emperor."

"Not at all?" He asked in a tight voice.

"Yes." I am absolutely sure.

His anger was gone, but he looked down at me condescendingly, his eyes were cold and cold, but not as sharp as before, as if he had been sawed away by someone.

I was apprehensive, looked at him carefully, then hurriedly looked away, and bowed in front of him even more humbly.

"Your Majesty, the soup is here." I was relieved when Tang Yu's cold voice appeared at the right time.

I hurriedly brought the tonic soup, took off the lid, poured some into a bowl, and presented it respectfully, "Your Majesty, please drink."

"Down." He walked away with a flick of his sleeves.

It's still dark at night, I exchanged glances with Tang Yu, and I hurried to catch up, "Your Majesty, where are you going?"

After chasing out of the palace, I saw Eunuch Lu was also surprised, "Your Majesty, why..."

"Shangyu Study Room."

"Yes."

Eunuch Lu glanced at Tang Yu behind me with his small eyes, and quickly ordered the little eunuch to hold the lamp in front, while he followed the emperor and left.

It was very dark.

The wind blows in waves.

It wasn't until the emperor's figure disappeared from sight that my heart settled down.

The emperor tonight is very abnormal.

"Go and rest, I'll talk to the queen." After Tang Yu finished speaking, he went straight into the hall without asking me to say a word or even look at me.

is he madAngry at my overreach?
Thank him anyway, really thank him.

I didn't say thank you just now, and I don't say thank you now.

In the future, I will definitely thank him.

Looking up at the bright moon, I took a deep breath and walked towards Xiaoru's wing.

My father once said to me that everyone has to face a choice, and once they make a choice, they must go on bravely and firmly.

For me, taking a step back is an abyss, and taking a step forward is full of thorns and difficulties.

My firmness is weak, and my choice is hesitant. Although I know that the path I choose is the reason I stick to, the fear and fear in my heart are insurmountable.

There is no time, I am not allowed to hesitate like this, procrastination will only make the prince more and more dangerous.

I have to choose.

This section of the road is not long, but I walked for nearly half an hour.

When I raised my hand to knock on the door, I hesitated again.

In the end, as soon as I gritted my teeth, I told myself: No matter how difficult or scary it is, never shrink back and try my best to complete everything.

"What are you doing here?" Xiaoru yawned and opened the door for me. Seeing me, she immediately widened her eyes and looked at me like an enemy.

"I have something to tell you."

"Go ahead."

"Let me in."

"I'm going to sleep."

I looked at her expression seriously, ignored her words, went into the room, and closed the door.

"Hey you……"

"Why do you put happy powder in the prince's tea?" I asked straight to the point.

Xiaoru opened her mouth halfway, staring at me in shock, and soon, her eyes flustered, "Wh...what happy fans?"

"I've seen it all. Why did you do that?"

"I do not understand what you are saying."

I took out a silk pasai from my bosom and held it in her hand, "Open it."

Xiao Ru turned pale when she saw the powder on the silk handkerchief.

"What more can you say?"

"What does this mean? Don't blame me."

"Really? Well, I will send this veil to the empress. If the empress finds out, she will definitely see clearly." I turned and left, Xiaoru stopped in front of me with red eyes and stared at me resentfully , as if looking at an enemy.

"what do you want?"

"You admit it?"

"I haven't done it."

Past her, and I'm directly on the verge of opening the door.

Xiao Ru eagerly shouted behind him: "I let it go, so what?"

"What did you play?" The voice was very soft, but I felt very depressed.

Xiaoru's lips trembled, and her beautiful apricot eyes were filled with tears, and she hated every word, "I put happy powder in the tea for His Highness the Crown Prince."

"When did it start?"

"It's been a month."

"Why do this?"

"A month ago, I came to the sunflower water, which means that I have grown up and can have children, but the prince, the old lady said that men grow slower than women." Xiaoru's voice trembled even more, not because of fear, It's not because of fear, but because of my persecution and threats. From her expression, I can see how much she hates me and hates me.She added: "I want to be the princess, the first woman of the prince, and give birth to a prince for her."

Guessing is one thing, but telling it from her mouth is another, I just feel extremely sad, I asked: "You and the prince grew up together, and the relationship is extraordinary, how do you do such absurd and cruel things?" ?”

"Absurd? Cruel? What do you know?"

"What do I need to know about this matter?"

"People are not for themselves, heaven and earth are destroyed, haven't you heard of it?"

"If a person is only for himself, father and mother abandon him and have no relatives and friends, have you heard of it?"

"Don't pretend to be noble, you have only been in the palace for a long time, and you don't understand anything at all, why should you care about me?" Two lines of tears fell from Xiaoru's resentful eyes.

"Can I control you? You can't harm the prince, the prince is innocent."

With tears in her eyes, Xiaoru suddenly laughed again, coldly, "In the palace, there are only stupid people, no innocent people."

Looking at her like this, the shadows of the Queen, Concubine An, Concubine Ming, and Concubine Liu suddenly flashed in my mind.

"The prince treats you well."

"Really? I'm afraid the prince only thinks of me as a doll."

"How can you say that?"

"How do you think I got into the queen's palace? How did I become a so-called childhood sweetheart with the prince? I entered the palace when I was two years old. Everyone bullied me and spread their resentment on me. Beating and scolding is commonplace, sometimes even three years old. Four days without food, just when I thought I was going to starve to death, they gave me a bowl of rotten rice, and I ate it for a month, can you imagine that kind of life?" Xiao Ru clenched her fists, His teeth almost bit his lower lip to bleed, and he said after a while, "I hate them, I want to fight back. One day, I saw the prince playing with a dog, so I crawled up in front of him as a dog, barking. I was born, so I was left behind. Over the years, I have figured out the prince's preferences, and I have been close to him in every possible way, so I am today."

Xiaoru's hatred is too strong, it shouldn't be what she should have at her age.

Suppressing the pity in my heart, I said solemnly: "So what?"

"What did you say?"

"Because you were bullied and suffered, do you regard yourself as a character in a tragedy? Take your resentment to others, cause pain to others, how are you different from those who bully you?"

"If it doesn't happen to you, of course you can say these sarcastic remarks." Xiao Ru yelled at me.

Sarcasm?I may have said it too lightly.

If you haven't encountered such a thing, you can't really understand her.

Being bullied like this at such a young age, she became like this more for self-protection.

I feel pity for her and really want to hold her in my arms and pat her. I can't bear to face her childhood experience, but which is more important?
She shouldn't have drugged the next monarch of the Yan Dynasty. I took a deep breath, "The main reason I came today is to ask you, is there an antidote for Happy Powder?"

"No."

"Well, from now on, don't step into the uterus again."

"what?"

"I will watch you, as long as you make any movement like this, I will report to the empress."

"You won't, you won't, you are so kind, how could you report on me?"

"I will." I said with certainty and firmness.

This is the way I want to go, as long as I am still in this palace, do what I can, I don't want to stay out of it, I don't want to stand on the sidelines, I don't want to pretend that I didn't hear or see.

Suddenly understand that this is human beings, life is equal, but the environment has forced us to distinguish between priorities, when we have to choose, you can only protect the most important person.

"You can't treat me like this, it's hard for me to get here today." Xiaoru's anger disappeared in an instant, grabbed my sleeve, and pleaded, "I will change, sister Enen, I will change of."

"How can you tell me to believe you?"

"Believe me, there will never be a next time." Xiaoru cried again, and there was no hatred in her crying, but helplessness and pleading.

I closed my eyes and looked at her gently, "Xiao Ru, if you do something wrong, you will be punished. You have done a big wrong thing. If others find out, you will be beheaded, you know?"

"I know, sister Enen, don't drive me away from the prince, please, Xiaoru, as long as I don't leave the prince, I am willing to be a cow or a horse."

Such begging, why did he commit such a wrong thing in the first place?Childhood sweethearts, childhood sweethearts, look so warm, but in the end...

"I should go, Xiaoru, remember what I said." I withdrew my hand that was tightly grasped by her.

"Sister Enen?" Xiaoru chased after her, knelt down in front of me, tears streaming down her face, "Please, please, I dare not, I really dare not, please don't stop me from meeting the prince , my future and my hopes all rest on the crown prince."

"Xiaoru." I couldn't help but choked up, but I had made up my mind and I wouldn't change it.Helping her up, I said softly, "Resent and avenge your enemies. The only one who gets hurt is yourself. Don't be at war with everything. There is no absolute hatred in the world, only a heart that refuses to be happy."

Be hard-hearted and leave.

After that night, I was still the queen's personal maid, but walked on eggshells when getting along.

Obviously, chores that were not supposed to be done by me were also spread out on my body one by one, carrying water, washing feet, and going to the imperial dining room.

When I was alone, looking at the potted bamboo in front of the window, I began to struggle again.

I am determined to give it a try, but before that, I have to confess one thing to Jing Lin.

Every time I think of it, my palms are sweaty.

How should I tell him about the unspeakable past?

I wake up when the sky is slightly brighter.

In the past few days, there was no time to leave the palace at all.

I tried my best, but only in the morning, I have time.

At dawn, the queen was still asleep, and this time was also the busiest time on the street, and women came to buy vegetables for the day at this time.

Leaving the palace went smoothly, took out the waist card and said that the queen had to do something, and the guards let her go directly.

As I expected, the streets were extremely lively, with all kinds of fresh vegetables on the vegetable shops and small stalls, and there were endless shouts.

I went to the clothes shop first and changed into gorgeous clothes.

It was only then that I searched one after another, even the small horizontal road, but I couldn't find the medical center after searching.

"Girl, I see that you have been walking around here, are you looking for someone?" A kind-hearted old lady asked me kindly.

"Auntie, is there a medical center here?" I was in a hurry, I was jogging all the time, and now I stopped and felt a great pain in my calf.

"Medical clinic?" The old lady thought about it carefully, "Yes, yes."

"Where?"

"Just at the end of this street."

Looking in the direction that the aunt pointed, there are several houses at the end of the street, all of which are quite dilapidated. From the outside, they don't look like they can live in.

"Thank you ma'am."

Since the aunt said that there is a medical center here, I think there should be one.

I got closer, but I couldn't be sure.

Is there really a hospital here?

Weeds are overgrown, half of the courtyard wall is down, and the windows are not intact.

Walked in, bursts of stench came.

"Is anyone there?" I called.

No one answered.

"Is anyone there?" I called again.

Still no one answered, wondering if the aunt had made a mistake.

I saw a beggar rushing out of it suddenly, which shocked me a lot.

The beggar looked me up and down, grinning, showing yellow teeth, "Who is the girl looking for?"

"I... I went to the wrong place." I turned around and left. How could the doctor be in such a place?

"Is the girl looking for a doctor? The doctor is treating patients inside."

"Is there a doctor inside?" I was taken aback.

The beggar smiled and nodded, "Come in."

When I was about to take a step, I hesitated, not because I looked down on beggars, but as a girl, I must be cautious and cautious.

The beggar seemed to see my hesitation, and smiled honestly, "The girl is waiting here, I will call the doctor out."

Facing the beggar's enthusiasm, I seemed petty instead, and hurriedly said, "Thank you, let me go in."

Although his appearance is extremely sloppy, his eyes are clear and his smile is sincere. I think he is not a bad person.

Entering the house, the stench came like a gust of wind.

I can still bear it, but when I saw dozens of beggars lying in the house moaning in pain, I almost couldn't help vomiting.

Some beggars were sallow and emaciated and seriously ill, others had large abscesses on their faces, bleeding pus and blood, and some had large red spots on their skin that were rotting.

The scene is unsightly.

"That's the doctor." The beggar who came in together pointed to the hunchbacked figure in the dark corner.

Joy overwhelmed the stench, resisting the discomfort, I walked quickly to the doctor.

Although the corner is dark, the doctor can still be seen clearly. He is an old man with white hair.

"Doctor, I have something to ask you."

The doctor glanced at me, his old face was extremely cold, "Speak."

"Is it here?"

"If the girl can't bear the smell here, she can go out and wait, but the old man won't leave the house until the sun goes down."

"No." As a last resort, I had to say, "Have you ever heard of Happy Fan, Doctor?"

The doctor who was pressing the patient's chest was taken aback, and looked at me in surprise, "What powder?"

"Happy fans." My heart was tangled up, if he didn't know, it would be another day for the prince's body.

The doctor stared at me for a while, then suddenly sighed, "Has anyone eaten it?"

"It's my brother."

The doctor looked me up and down again, his eyes were filled with the wisdom of the years, and he pondered for a while, "This medicine is forbidden by doctors. I have been practicing medicine for 60 years, and I have seen a few people who have eaten happy powder. It has no antidote. of."

I walked out of the dilapidated house in frustration, the sky brightened quickly, and the sun had squeezed out a smiling face.

There is no harvest today, and I don't know when the next time I will leave the palace.

Just when I was extremely depressed, the doctor's voice sounded behind me, "Girl, once when I went to the mountain to collect medicine, my finger was accidentally stabbed by a poisonous tree. I suddenly thought of a folk story in my mind, saying that A young man who caught a snake was bitten by a poisonous snake. He thought that if he was going to die, he would die from eating too much, so he picked the wild fruits around the snake's nest and ate his fill. The strange thing is, after eating the wild fruits, he not only The snake was not dead, and the poison was removed. So, the old man followed suit, and there were no wild fruits under the poisonous tree, but purple grasses. Solved."

I didn't understand why the doctor came out to tell me such a story, so I nodded and said, "It's really lucky."

The doctor gave me a cold look and went back to the house.

It was dawn, and there were more pedestrians on the street.

I hurriedly changed back into my clothes and hurried back to the palace.

Just in time for the Queen to wake up.

"Empress, wash your face." I handed the slightly damp sweat towel to the queen.

The queen's icy gaze passed me, and when she took the sweat towel, she slammed it at me, and said sharply: "Such a hot sweat towel, do you want to burn my face?"

"Ma'am, this water is warm."

"Wen? Is this palace wronging you?"

"The slaves dare not."

The queen sneered.

"Slave maidservant go change immediately." I took the basin out of the inner hall, and saw Tang Yu standing in the outer hall, his cold and dark eyes swept me into the inner hall.

I fetched water again and came back, only to see the queen looking at Tang Yu with anger in her eyes, "Why didn't you notice such an important thing?"

Tang Yu's icy expression remained unchanged, and he said flatly, "My lady, people from the House of Internal Affairs are not allowed to enter the concubine's palace without authorization."

"You've always been careful, haven't you seen any clues?"

"Your Majesty has been hidden from her, hasn't she?"

The queen took the case and clenched her fists, "I won't let her go."

At this moment, I handed over the sweat towel, "Your Majesty, wipe your face."

Seeing me, the empress, who was already very angry, became even more angry. As soon as her finger touched the sweat towel, she said, "It's too cold, come here, bring some hot water."

A court lady quickly took hot water from the outside and poured it into the basin. The temperature in the originally cool hall suddenly rose a little due to the hot water.

The queen looked at me sharply, "What are you still doing?"

I was startled. If I put this sweat towel in a basin filled with hot water, my hands would definitely be scalded.

But if you don't...

Uncontrollably, I looked at Tang Yu.

And he didn't look at me directly, just stood there indifferently, as if saying that everything in front of him had nothing to do with him.

Gritting my teeth, I put my hands into the basin, and the burning pain spread from my fingertips to my whole body.

I gritted my teeth and endured, twisted the sweat towel and handed it to the queen.

"It's really hot. Look at you, you've got sweat on your forehead." The queen raised her eyebrows, smiled suddenly, and took out a silk towel from her sleeve to wipe my sweat.

I suppressed the urge to retreat, only to feel more cold sweat.

The next moment, there was pain on his face.

The queen exclaimed: "Look at my nails, they left such a wound on your face, and it's bleeding. Fortunately, it's not deep and won't leave scars. Go down and apply the medicine."

"Yes." No matter how painful it was, I still slowly exited the inner hall.

My hands are very painful, burning pain, even if I am immersed in cold water, this pain still makes me uncomfortable.

Fortunately, the scratches on the face were not deep, and after wiping off the little blood, nothing could be seen, only the slight red marks could be seen when looking closely.

His nose was sore, but not to the point where he wanted to cry.

If this is the price I have to pay, I will definitely bear it. The pain of flesh and blood is temporary after all.

An hour later.

I don't know how much cold water I've changed, but my hand is still swollen. When I touch it, it's extremely painful, and I can't hold it, and I can't stretch it out. It seems that I need to go to the Ministry of Internal Affairs to get some ointment.

At this moment, the door was pushed open.

Tang Yu walked in, looked at my hands soaked in water with cold eyes, without showing any thoughts, put the white bottle of gourd in his hand on the table, and said lightly: "This is a lubricating ointment for burns, three times a day, several times a day. The day will improve."

"Thank you." I thanked softly, dried my hands, and was about to apply the ointment, but my hand couldn't pick up the white bottle flexibly.

"Give me your hand."

Leng Leng, I stretched out my hand a little unnaturally.

He took the white bottle, poured out the lubricating ointment on the back of my hand, and dabbed it on me little by little, with extremely gentle movements, as if he was caring for an extremely precious thing.

Suddenly there was a strange feeling in my heart, like a feather scratching my heart, itching.

"Although the pain can be felt, at least it is more reassuring than calculating." He said.

"What do you mean?"

"In the past few days, the empress will ask Master Shangshu to come to the palace."

I was taken aback and shook my head, "He won't come." He said that he would end the relationship with the queen, and also said, "Give me this chance? Enen." "You are a good girl, I don't want to miss it, miss it I will regret it."

"This time he will definitely come."

"why?"

Tang Yu said quietly, "This is related to the status of the queen, the crown prince's position as the heir apparent, he can't just sit idly by." After finishing speaking, he looked at me, looked at my pale face, and said sharply, "You can't Stop him, because you don't have the weight in his heart yet."

It hurts, but it's the truth.

I was silent, indescribably lost.

He got up and walked outside, and when he turned around, he asked again: "Why did you choose him?"

"What?" When looking at him, he had already turned his head, looked at the potted bamboo in front of the window, and said coldly, "It's nothing."

"I will prevent him from entering the palace." I said, "Whether it is because I am overconfident or not, and I said I will try hard, I will definitely prevent him from entering the palace."

"Are you not afraid that the queen will deal with you?"

"Scared." I nodded, why not afraid?I was always anxious and uneasy, but I looked at him firmly, "Although I am afraid, I will not back down, and I will do my best to stop him."

The way Tang Yu looked at me changed, the layer of coldness was gradually melting away, but her voice was still cold, "Really?"

"Tang Yu." When he was about to walk out of the side room, I asked softly, "You said it so seriously just now, the status of the queen, the crown prince's position as the heir apparent? What happened?"

(End of this chapter)