refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 15 Games?what game

"Concubine An is pregnant and will give birth in one month."

My eyes widened. This is a secret that no one knows. How could the queen know?

"If Concubine An gives birth to a dragon son, it will inevitably lead to a dispute for the prince. In order to prevent problems before they happen, the queen will act first." Tang Yu said coldly.

"Why... why do you strike first?" The coldness of the palace has long been felt, but I still feel chilling.

"The practice of killing two people is not unheard of."

One dead and two dead?I was shocked, "Could it be that the empress is going to kill Concubine An?"

Tang Yu nodded.

"No, how could the queen do it? That's two lives."

"If it were any other concubine, she might still be able to save her life. Only Concubine An, the queen's determination to kill her, no one can change. Back then, Concubine An also murdered the empress who was pregnant with Liujia. The month-old child was stillborn."

I stared at him blankly, feeling as if I had fallen into a bottomless pit, and my heart kept sinking.

"The imperial palace is a place of vicious circles. However, what worries the Empress the most is that Concubine An will not be able to hide it so seamlessly by herself. Someone is helping her, and this person is the Empress' greatest enemy."

"Why, why are you so cold when you say this? Don't you think it's cruel? How can you stand such a thing?" With a few strides, I tugged on Tang Yu's sleeve, listening to these words It makes people feel cold from head to toe, and trying to grab a little warmth is simply a dream.I had no choice but to grab Tang Yu in front of me, someone I had always trusted, hoping to get some warmth from him.

But disappointed, he looked down at me, Han Xing's eyes were full of sadness, "I have already lost myself, why is your enthusiasm, your persistence, not for me?" After finishing speaking, he gently pushed me away.

When he walked out of the side room, he stopped and looked at my hands, "I told you, although the pain can be felt, at least it is more reassuring than calculating, don't try to stop the queen, what the queen is giving you now is only flesh and blood You have not really attacked you yet, if she uses her scheming, you will be very dangerous."

Staring openly at his leaving back, I touched my heart, what's wrong?Why does the heart hurt?The talented Tang Yu gave people a very lonely and lonely feeling.

The back image is that of an abandoned child.

There is an urge to hug him, talk to him, erase the coldness in his eyes, and warm his lonely back.

Yes, I used to think how could there be such a cold person in this world?
Never thought about why he is always cold?

No one is born like this, right?
Another sleepless night.

A person huddled in the corner of the bed, his mind was in chaos.

The burnt hand no longer hurts, the lubricating ointment is very effective, in just an hour, the fingers can stretch freely, although the redness and swelling didn't recede so quickly, but it doesn't look as bluffing as before.

Can I sit idly by?

Can you pretend you didn't hear anything?

Still, what to do?
I got out of bed, put on embroidered shoes, and rushed out of the side room.

The breeze blows from a distance, blows through the ears, and the blue hair is flying.

The red lanterns retreated one by one, and I ran fast.

It can't be done, it can't be ignored.

It is a cowardly act to protect one's life wisely, and it is an act of discrediting one's conscience.

The moment I made a decision, what came to my mind was not the fear that Concubine An would kill me at that time, nor the heaviness that this cold palace brought to me.

In any case, she must be reminded.

I didn't notice that when I left the Queen's Palace, a person came out from the corner, it turned out to be Tang Yu.

With deep eyes, he murmured: "That day at the laundry bureau, if she didn't smile at me, would I have noticed her?"

I can't go directly to Anfei Palace, because being seen will arouse suspicion.

I found the little maid in the sewing room, gave her some broken silver, and asked her to send a message to Xiaoling, saying that I was waiting for her at the fish pond in the imperial garden.

The imperial garden is quiet, and the bright moon casts a cold brilliance.

I anxiously paced under the camphor tree, looking towards the bright place across the pool, but no one came.

The place where I stood was the corner of the fish pond, and the huge camphor tree leaves covered this place tightly, even if I looked carefully from the opposite side, I couldn't see anyone there.

While I was waiting anxiously, Xiao Ling's cold voice sounded from behind, "What do you want me for?"

"Little Ling?" I was overjoyed.

Xiaoling stood under the tree indifferently, looking at me defensively.

"Xiaoling," I didn't have much time, so I directly explained my purpose, "The empress already knows about Concubine An's imminent delivery, you have to tell..."

Before she finished speaking, Xiaoling's indifferent eyes turned into hatred and anger, and she stared at me, "You really told the empress?"

"No, I didn't, I'm here to tell you to make Concubine An be careful."

"Don't pretend to be a good person here. If you knew this, you should be blinded to death."

"I didn't. It's really not what I said. If I told the queen, why did I ask you to come here overnight?"

Xiao Ling didn't believe it at all, the hatred in her eyes was even stronger, and she even had a vague killing intent, she approached me step by step, "Are you so kind? Hmph, when we are three-year-olds lying to me?"

"I'm really here to tell you to be careful, Concubine An, without any other malicious intentions." Faced with her approaching, I took a few steps back.

Xiaoling snorted coldly, leaned closer to me, and there was a trace of cruelty in her squinted eyes, "Do you think my wife and I will believe you? The emperor saved you last time, but this time you asked for it, Concubine An The empress told me to do it cleanly."

"What?" In my astonishment, I saw Xiaoling stretch out her hands, with a ruthless smile on her lips, pushing towards me forcefully.

Behind is the fish pond.

Bang—splash of water.

I fell into the water, and Xiaoling actually... wanted to kill me.

I struggled hard, but my body gradually floated and sank. The more I moved my feet, the more I felt my body sink.

Fear spread all over my body, I can't swim.

Isn't this a fish pond?Why is it so deep that you can't step on it.

Xiaoling sneered on the shore, looked at me struggling in the water, without the slightest pity, said: "You deserve it, since you can't swim, I will save trouble." After finishing speaking, she turned around and left.

"Xiao, Xiaoling..." The water began to flood her mouth.

Fear and dread wrapped around me like two snakes.

At this time, the water has covered my nose, eyes, ears, and soon my head.

The body sank more and more.

At this time, I should have been terrified, but for some reason, the story told by the old doctor in the dilapidated house suddenly flashed in my mind. The young man was bitten by a snake, and after eating the wild fruit next to the snake's nest, he was cured of the poison.

Snake venom?

The antidote is next to the snake's nest.

There seemed to be a flash of inspiration in my mind, yes, why does Xiao Ru have happy fans?Of course, it couldn't be created by her, that is to say, it was given to Xiaoru by someone.

Those who give Xiaoru Huanxi fans must know the antidote, and even if they don't know, someone in the palace must know.

Why didn't I think of it in the first place?

Just when I was about to open my mouth to breathe, I heard a clatter, and the next moment, a pair of strong hands grabbed my hair and pulled it up vigorously.

Someone came to my rescue?who is it?
Is there anyone else in a place like this?

When you open your mouth, what comes in is not water, but air.

Panting for breath, I opened my eyes, and my panicked eyes met a pair of cold eyes.

I stared at him blankly, the water droplets fell from my hair and flowed through my eyes, but I didn't blink.

"Don't recognize me?" He was soaked all over, but he still stood proudly, looking down at me with an air of aloofness.

"The emperor... why is the emperor here?"

"I've always been here."

I was startled, "Did the emperor hear what the servants said just now?"

I was relieved, the emperor knew that Concubine An should not be in danger.

He looked at me, enigmatic.

The deep gaze made me extremely uncomfortable, as if he was spying on me from an invisible place.Just listen to him say: "I will not get involved."

I froze for a moment, "Why? Hasn't the emperor been helping Concubine An all the time?"

"My woman must have the ability to endure and deal with the palace, otherwise I will not pity her." He glanced coldly, "I will not help one of them, the matter of Concubine An just happened to happen. .”

Tang Yu's words suddenly imprinted in his heart, "Concubine An can't hide it so seamlessly by herself, someone is helping her, and this person is the queen's biggest enemy."

Isn't this man the emperor?

I waved away the doubts in my mind, and faced the man in front of me, my heart shivered endlessly.

The so-called Gong Dou is fighting against the person next to him, his flesh and blood.

How could he be so cold, almost cruel.

I have always hated such people in my heart, deep people, irresponsible people, people who are not kind to their wives and children, and people who are cold-hearted. The man in front of me, the majestic emperor, actually took all of them.

My concerns, feel ridiculous.

"My servant thanked the emperor for saving my life, and I will take my leave." I got up, and I was about to leave after saluting.

"You almost died just now, shouldn't you be the first to cry to me?" He raised his eyebrows and asked.

"If the slaves cry and complain, will the emperor punish the crimes of Concubine An and Xiao Ling for the slaves?"

"will not."

The expected answer.

"Su En, should I say you are stupid or stupid? Concubine An wanted to kill you last time, yet you still care about her so much?"

stupid?stupid?
So what?
This is the way I want to go, what I can do, I don't want to stay out of it, I don't want to stand on the sidelines, I don't want to pretend I didn't hear or see.

I have been afraid, hesitated, hesitated, and finally chose to face it bravely. I still have fear, fear, but I will work hard to overcome it.

Looking at the sarcasm in the emperor's eyes, without a trace of warmth, I puffed up my chest and looked back at him firmly, "Your Majesty, I don't want to be someone who only has cold eyes. Such coldness makes people feel cold when I look at you. He likes to laugh, smiles gently at people, gets along with others kindly, and will do his best to help him when he can help."

His eyes changed a little bit, but the words he said were even more mocking, "A person who doesn't even have the ability to protect himself, still wants to help others? It's ridiculous."

I bit my lower lip lightly, unable to refute.

"If you want to help others, you must first make yourself stronger." When leaving, he said, "Otherwise, you will be oversatisfied. If this happens again, you will ask for it. No one will save you next time."

Looking at his leaving back, my eye sockets suddenly became sore and heavy.

Squatting down, I wrapped myself tightly, as if the heaviness would disappear.

I'm so tired.

Although my mother's life was poor, she was not tired at all and was very happy.

Now, I am exhausted physically and mentally.

He was right, I can't protect myself, and I don't have any ability, but I want to save others.

Tang Yu also once said that I was overestimated, but he didn't make it so clear that it made me feel at a loss and made me hate myself now.

I have been talking about what I can do, and I don't want to stay out of it, but now it seems that nothing is done well, and I am powerless to the extreme.

I really want to cry.

This night, sleepless until dawn.

At dawn, just as I fell asleep in a daze, the maid rushed in and shook me awake, "Sister Enen, why are you still asleep? Get up quickly, the Empress is going to visit Empress An, and I ordered you to prepare some Waiting for supplements."

I woke up all of a sudden, and I grabbed the maid's hand, "What did you say? The empress is going to see Concubine An right now?"

The maid was taken aback by my actions, and nodded in a daze.

The queen's dress today is bright and charming, a light blue silk-studded cloud goose dress, wearing a thin emerald green veil, three thousand blue silk tied up with an exquisitely carved plum hairpin, her muscles are like fat, her breath is like orchid, charming tender and beautiful.

She smiled and looked at Concubine An, who was sitting beside her with the same kind face, and said affectionately: "I'm going to give birth soon, it will be easier to give birth to a child by eating some thousand-year-old ginseng, so I brought all the old ginseng from the palace." , my sister picks and eats."

"Thank you for the reward, Xiaoling, do you still want to accept it?" Concubine An's eyes were full of gratitude.

Regarding what happened before, the two of them seemed to have no memory of it, and they spoke their own words without saying a word.

When Xiaoling came to get the ginseng, I kept my eyes fixed on her. She trembled, looked at Concubine An quietly, and took the old ginseng calmly.

I heard the queen say: "It's such a joyous event to have an heir, so why should my sister hide it? If Enen hadn't found out and told me, I wouldn't know until my sister gave birth."

Three eyes shot at me in unison.

At this time the queen didn't notice me at all, but Concubine An and Xiao Ling's gazes were extremely resentful, even though they just glanced at me quickly, it was enough to make the queen suspicious.

The Queen's unintentional words, I know that this injustice has been pinned on me.

"I didn't hide my identity, but since I was pregnant, my body was very uncomfortable and I seldom walked outside. Therefore, it was my fault that the empress misunderstood me."

The queen pursed her lips and smiled, "What are you talking about? It's not too late for me to be happy. Xu'er will have another younger brother. What a wonderful thing."

My eyes have been looking at Xiao Ling as if there is nothing, and there is no longer the kindness in the eyes, but more solemn and cold.

Xiao Ling glared at me at first, then she was a little afraid to look at me, and finally she gritted her teeth and glared at me again.

After leaving the Concubine An Palace, there were palace people kneeling on both sides of the official road.

They didn't dare to get up and do their own things until the queen was gone.

"Did you see it? This is power and glory. When they see this palace, they have to kneel and worship." The queen said proudly, "What about you? What do you have?"

"I don't have anything." I was a little lonely. After last night, my heart was always empty and I felt powerless.

"Yo, you have self-knowledge, know that you are no different from them?" The queen sneered, paused, and said, "Bengong and you come to play a game."

game?

"Tonight, I will ask Jing Lin to enter the palace. If you can prevent him from seeing me, then you have won. I will grant you a request; otherwise, you will play a game with me."

Before I could say it, the queen looked at me coldly, "Whether you agree or not, you have to bet on this game."

Night fell quickly.

I was walking on the palace corridor in a daze, and yesterday I swore to Tang Yu that I would stop Jing Lin, but now I am not so sure.

My will is shaken.

Have I been doing something wrong all this time?

Kindly trying to stop Xiaoru, her resentful eyes seemed to tear me apart.

Go and tell Xiaoling sincerely that the queen already knows that Concubine An is about to give birth, and she wants to kill me.

Kindness is not rewarded.

I'm a little lost.

Suddenly, I realized that all good intentions would be wiped out at the moment of being killed, and replaced by a kind of anger.

"Where is this?" Looking around in confusion, it turned out to be Xiaoru's residence. Yes, I have something important to ask her.

I raised my hand and was about to knock on the door, but hesitated for a moment. The crown prince is the queen's son, and the queen wanted to kill me, but I was saving her son.

Shaking his head, what are he thinking.

I knocked on the door several times, but no one answered.

Obviously, Xiao Ru was not there.

At this time in the past, when she was going to sleep, where would she go?

Are you looking for the prince again?

She was shaking all over, wouldn't she give the prince that happy powder again?
I'm going to go to the palace too.

Unexpectedly, as soon as he left the yard, he saw Xiao Ru coming out of a path not far away.

She obviously saw me, turned around and left bitterly.But soon I caught up.

"Xiao Ru, I have something to ask you." I stood in front of her directly.

"What do you want to do again?"

"Who gave you the happy powder?"

Xiao Ru pursed her lips, "Ancestral."

"Zuchuan, didn't you say that you entered the palace at the age of two? Where did you come from?"

"I want you to take care of it?"

"Xiao Ru, do you really want to kill the prince?"

"How can I kill the prince? If I kill the prince, I don't even deserve to be the princess?"

I was stunned, "Don't you know the consequences of eating happy powder?"

"Of course I know, I just grew up early."

I shook my head, "People who eat happy powder, apart from being an early adult, will not live to be 30 years old."

"Make it up, I won't believe you."

"Xiao Ru, I didn't make it up, I even kept it from the queen, so why did I lie to you?"

She stared at me, as if thinking about the credibility of my words, "Is what you said true?"

I nodded heavily.

"Why do you help the prince like this?" She suddenly asked, looking at me suspiciously, "What's the purpose?"

"Do you have to have a purpose to help the prince?" I asked back.

"I don't believe that there are kind people in this world. I want to verify what you said first." After speaking, Xiaoru quickly walked into the room and closed the door with a bang.

Confirm, to whom?
An idea came out of my mind.

Do you not believe that there are good people in this world?Why not?
Does it mean that this person has done something bad, so you can easily believe it?
People's thinking is so strange.

I looked up at the bright moon in the sky. At this time, Jing Lin should have met the queen.

I didn't try to stop him, and overnight, I lost confidence in myself.

Walk back to the Queen's Palace step by step, very slowly.

I don't want to bump into Jing Lin, I don't know what to say.

Thinking of the righteous words in the past, I feel very powerless at this moment.

But they still bumped into each other. On the corridor of the palace, Jing Lin stood alone in the night wind, lonely and desolate. The night was very dark, which deepened the loneliness all over him.

Approaching him, I saw the sadness in his eyes, as thick as night.

"Enn," he said softly, with a hollow voice, "why don't you stop me from seeing her?"

I froze.

He smiled lightly, and the gentle smile in the past was pale and lonely at this moment, "Can you make me like you a little more? As long as I like you a little more, I will love her less, right?"

"Jinglin?"

"Why can't you make me like you a little more?" He was endlessly lost, walking past me like a wandering ghost and disappearing into the depths of the night.

"Is it my fault too?" I bit my lower lip tightly, biting too hard, and the pain went straight to the bottom of my heart, "Good is wrong, evil is wrong, even liking is wrong? Then what did I do right?"

I was confused, and felt that it was so difficult to be a human being.

I always wanted to stick to my own path, but I was either misunderstood or scolded.

Everything I do, why does no one want to believe me?Does wanting to help others really seem fake?

Is it because I did something bad that people think that is the real Sun?
And Jinglin...

The night wind blew the hair fluttering around my ears, I stood numbly, and what he said kept circling in my mind.

"Can I like you more? As long as I like you more, I will love her less?"

"Why can't you make me like you a little more?"

Could it be that everything Jing Lin did to me was just to escape his feelings for the Queen?
What am I in this?
I walked under a tree and squatted down.

Sitting here, I can clearly see the people passing by the palace corridor, and at the same time, the path leading to Xiaoru's yard is also under my eyes, and Xiaoru came back from this path just now .

Staring at these two roads without blinking, I felt that I had entered a dead end, and I couldn't get out no matter how I walked.

Just when I was in a daze, I saw Xiaorumao appearing in the path, looking around cautiously, and seeing no one around, I quickly turned a corner and walked north.

Suppressing my messy thoughts, I quietly followed behind her.

After about half a stick of incense.

Xiao Ru unexpectedly came to the Imperial Study Room, and took out something from his sleeve for the eunuch on duty, judging by the bright eyes of the eunuch, Xiao Ru probably took out a lot of money.

When I saw Eunuch Lu coming out of the imperial study room, looked back and forth nervously, and pulled Xiaoru over to the dark place in a hurry, I widened my eyes. Could it be that Eunuch Lu was the one who gave Xiaoru a happy fan?
I want to get closer to hear what they have to say, but there are so many lanterns here, I'm afraid I'll be spotted before I make a move.

Had to wait patiently.

Indistinctly, I could see Xiaoru and Eunuch Lu arguing, and after a while, Xiaoru came out from the shadows and said something, her appearance was extremely strong.

Eunuch Lu also came out, his face was covered with frost, and his eyes were full of cruelty, and he entered the imperial study after speaking.

Xiaoru's expression was a little strange, her body was extremely stiff as she was walking back, her steps were a little flimsy, as if she had been frightened.

What did they say?
"Xiao Ru." When Xiao Ru walked by, I called softly.

Xiaoru's complexion was extremely pale, and the moment she saw me, she became even paler, "You, are you following me?"

"Is it Mr. Lu?" I asked.

She nodded first, then shook her head, looking distraught.

"Did Eunuch Lu give you Happy Fan?" I asked again.

"No." She answered quickly, then gave me a guilty look, and hurried back.

"Xiao Ru." I held her back, "Where's the antidote?"

It doesn't matter who is behind it, but the antidote is a top priority.

"No." Xiaoru's voice trembled violently, "There is no antidote, there is no cure."

"what?"

The panic in Xiaoru's eyes was even worse, "What, what should I do? What should I do? I really didn't know that this would happen, I really didn't know that this would happen."

"Why is there no antidote? Have you asked clearly?"

Xiao Ru nodded, her face full of helplessness.

"It's the happy fan that Eunuch Lu gave you, isn't it?" I said with absolute certainty.

"No, it's not him." Xiao Ru waved her hand in denial.

"What did he tell you? Why do you look so scared?" I don't understand, she was fine when she came, why it took so little time, she seemed to be a completely different person.

"He didn't say anything, no." Xiaoru broke away from my hand, turned around and ran away.

I chased after her, pulled her shoulders, looked into her frightened eyes, and said in a gentle voice as much as possible: "Xiao Ru, didn't you say that you want to be the princess? An empty shell, when the time comes, you will still have nothing.”

"He's too powerful, I can't beat him, I have to think about it, I have to think about it, don't force me." Shaking off my hand, Xiaoru quickly ran into the night.

Looking at the Imperial Study Room, I was extremely puzzled in my mind.

Is Eunuch Lu the one who gives Xiaoru Huanxi fans?

Is it really him?

Otherwise, why did Xiao Ru come to find Eunuch Lu?
But, how could it be Mr. Lu?He is the emperor's close personal, how could he harm the prince?

The unresolved knots are one after another, and there is one more unresolved doubt.

It was extremely difficult to breathe.

Why do these problems bother me?
I'm just an ordinary court lady.

"Sister Enen, you are back, the empress is looking for you." A court lady hurried over.

Before I knew it, I returned to the Queen's Palace.

"What do you want me to do?" I asked casually.

"I don't know, you go quickly."

I nodded, and when I stepped into the inner hall, my footsteps stopped suddenly. The queen came to me because of Jinglin.

Shocked violently, could it be that Jing Lin has promised the Queen...

No, no, even if he couldn't sever his relationship with the queen, he wouldn't do anything that would hurt the world.

After entering the inner hall, the empress was combing her hair carefully. When she saw me coming in, she waved away the maids in the hall.

"The servant has seen the empress."

Through the mirror, the queen looked at me with a full smile. The exaggerated smile made people feel extremely uncomfortable, and she heard her soft voice: "Su En, you lost, you didn't stop Jing Lin from coming to see me .”

I sadly said: "Yes."

"Then the game begins."

"Game?" What game, I wondered in my heart, what is the queen going to do?
"Serve me to take a bath." The queen raised her eyebrows and sneered, got up and walked towards the Water Spirit Hall.

Since leaving the Laundry Bureau, I haven't been back.

Looking at the busy figures of the court ladies in the bureau, the scene when I first entered the palace was played back in front of my eyes.

Especially when I saw Aunt Suyan scolding the court lady under an old locust tree, I couldn't help laughing.

The aunt is still the aunt at the beginning, with a little coldness in the blandness, which will make people's enthusiasm restrained a lot.

When Aunt Su saw me, she was taken aback for a moment, then she also smiled, said a few words to the reprimanded maid, and then walked towards me.

"Why are you free to go to the laundry bureau today?" She took my hand and sat under the shade of a tree.

The weather was extremely hot, and the maids of the laundry bureau had to be exposed to the sun all day to do laundry. Our ancestors planted many big pagoda trees in the bureau. After hundreds of years, the locust trees grew bigger and bigger, and the lush branches and leaves almost covered the entire laundry bureau. Covering up, sitting under the tree now, I feel extremely cool and refreshing.

"I came here because I wanted to chat with my aunt. Will I disturb my aunt?"

I have a very cordial feeling towards Aunt Suyan, she is a trustworthy person.

"I wish you could come to chat with me every day."

Smiling slightly, I looked at the ladies in front of me who were doing laundry, and I said, "Auntie, it's really quiet here. Back then, did you invite yourself to the laundry bureau because it was quiet here?"

"Yeah. Why are you asking this all of a sudden?"

"Have you ever regretted it?" A decision may be the decision of a lifetime, and it cannot be sloppy.

"I made that decision after thinking about it for two months. I have made enough mental preparations, so I don't have any regrets." Aunt Su looked at me softly, "Are you in trouble?"

I nodded. "I'm confused."

"Is it convenient to talk to my aunt? My aunt has no other skills. She just stays in the palace for a long time and sees more things. Maybe she can explain it to you."

"My aunt is the most trustworthy person in Enen. In Enen's heart, she has always regarded her as a relative, and she is someone who can say anything."

Aunt Su patted my hand and smiled slightly.

"A lot of things have happened. For a long time, I felt that what I did was right and I should do it, but the results were quite different from what I thought. Auntie, there are many things that Eun-en can't do, and I can't bear to watch They are in pain, if they don’t do something,” I stroked my chest, “I will blame myself and be sad. I know it’s a hurtful thing, I know who will be hurt, if I don’t stop it… I always feel that I should Do something right."

Aunt Su listened to me quietly, listening very carefully, holding my hand from time to time.

And I, without any concealment, told about the Queen and Concubine An one by one.

After a stick of incense time.

"Auntie, did I do something wrong?"

Aunt Su looked at the ground for a long time before she sighed, "It's not wrong, it's just that all this is beyond your power and beyond your control."

"Enen knows, but when I knew what kind of tragedy would happen and didn't stop it, I couldn't get past the hurdle of conscience." Even Aunt Su said the same, I was extremely disappointed, and couldn't help turning my head to look away.

"Well?"

"Auntie, I can't figure it out. When a child falls, an adult who doesn't know him will take the initiative to help him up and comfort him not to cry. When he sees an old man who is sick by the roadside, a stranger will take the initiative to send her to see a doctor. Why is it not within the scope of my control to take the initiative to report when I know someone is going to harm someone else? Even if I don’t have this ability, I still want to have a clear conscience. Enen doesn’t understand, is there any difference between all these things? It’s just the matter It’s all about the severity, isn’t it all driven by conscience?”

"Enen." Aunt Su held down my excited body, looked at me seriously, her eyes became softer, and said indifferently, "Very well done, Enen."

I froze.

"Isn't it hard to stick to your own path?" Aunt Su's eyes were full of approval and appreciation.

I looked at Aunt Su for a while, nodded, thought for a while, then shook my head, "It's not hard, as long as I do it myself, I will feel very relaxed, at least I will be open-minded."

Aunt Su smiled and lowered her head, thinking about something.

"Aunt, is what Enen did really good?"

"Yeah, well done."

I am a little happy, no, it is a great joy, I have been denied all the time, but Aunt Su affirms me so much, I am really happy.

However, Aunt Su lowered her head and thought about something, her expression was somewhat solemn.

I didn't bother her and sat quietly.

After a long time, Aunt Su raised her head and looked at me with a smile, "Just now, I've been thinking about how to tell you. After much deliberation, it's better to just say it directly."

"Auntie can say whatever she wants, Enen won't take it to heart."

Aunt Su held my hand and said, "There is nothing wrong with helping others, but if you are too weak, not only can people not believe that you are helping her, but you can't even save your own life. After all, you are just a Maid, you have to become strong."

powerful?That man also said, "If you want to help others, you must first strengthen yourself."

"I don't know what to do to make myself stronger." I said sadly.

"What kind of person do you think Aunt Lian is?"

I don't understand why Aunt Su suddenly mentioned Aunt Lian. After thinking about it, I said, "Aunt Lian is very serious. As soon as she appears, the frolicking palace people immediately become silent."

"What about me?" Aunt Su asked with a smile.

"When En En saw Auntie for the first time, she thought that Auntie was a very lonely person who was not kind to others. She was always afraid, but after getting in touch with her a lot, she realized that it was a mask of Auntie. In fact, Auntie is a warm-hearted person." I said slowly. Slow down.

Aunt Su didn't speak, just looked at me with a smile.

"Auntie, what's the matter?" I looked at Aunt Su in puzzlement.

"Enen, ever since I met you, you always smile when you meet people. A friendly smile makes people feel very close, but a smile is not suitable for the palace. There is a word that hides a knife in a smile. People here are always on the edge of a knife." Even if you are sincerely saying hello to them, they will think it is fake."

I suddenly woke up.

"Understood?" Aunt Su's smile deepened.

Nodding my head, I was still a little dazed.

"To get along with people, the necessary means are indispensable, and what can make people feel the most directly or shock others is the expression of people, happiness, anger, sorrow, joy, it is clear at a glance, indifference, seriousness , arrogant, you can tell that you are not easy to mess with at first glance, smiling, gentle, easy-going, you can tell that you are easy to get along with at first glance, and you are also easy to bully, isn't it? In the palace, you might as well use these more There will be a lot of gains." Aunt Su said earnestly.

The faces of many people flashed across my mind, the emperor, the empress, Tang Yu, Jing Lin...

Each of them has a different look on their faces, and the palace people have different attitudes towards them.

It was as if a ray of light entered my mind, and it became much clearer in an instant.

"Enen, pay more attention to the people and things around you, they have a lot to learn from them, even the Queen and Concubine An."

"Learn? Learn from Empress Empress and Concubine An?"

Aunt Su nodded, "Gong Dou, it looks like you are fighting the other party to the death, so why not a way to protect yourself? Conspiracies and schemes sound chilling, but as long as they are used correctly, they can also help others. At least, if you can see through it, you can save your life in time."

Looking at my aunt in confusion, I never thought about this.

Queen, I am afraid of her, and I am on guard against her.

Concubine An, I was full of guilt and sympathy for her at first, but later, after escaping from death, I became afraid of her and even more guarded against her.

Learn from them?
"Threesomes must have my teacher. You have to watch more and learn more, watch how they survive and how to protect themselves, and then form your own way of life after absorbing them. The road is for you to walk out, right or wrong. , and it’s up to you to choose.”

What Aunt Su said was another level that I had never thought of.

Thinking about these words carefully, there is a feeling of indescribability.

For some reason, I suddenly felt that the sky in front of me was so wide, and those confusions and worries seemed to be released in an instant.

My heart seems to have come into contact with a new thing, slowly absorbing its nutrients, which made me suddenly enlightened.

"The reason why you are confused and distressed is because you think the palace is ugly, which runs counter to what you insist on. It is a dirty palace. In fact, people in the world are living like this, even if they are selling a steamed bun. Well, the shopkeepers are also trying to change their ways to sell more. This is also the so-called means and scheming. It depends on which angle you look at it from. The palace just enlarged these schemings, and you always hit them. You Adapt to it, not reject it."

If I didn't encounter those things that confused me, I would just listen to Aunt Su's words.

Now, I can feel that my heart is slowly changing. These words combined with those things, this kind of experience is like a mark that has penetrated into the bottom of my heart at full speed. My transformation is not superficial, even the things in my bones are slowly changing. Was changed.

The knot in my heart that was perplexing me in the past is slowly unraveling.

There are still some unclear and vague places, but a sudden understanding is enough to resolve these unclear and vague places, "Auntie, thank you."

Aunt Su smiled slightly and shook her head, "I took many detours back then, but in fact some things can be avoided. Now, I just hope you avoid detours."

"Auntie, it's so nice of you to treat Enen."

"I want to pay back."

"Yes."

Aunt Su held my hand tightly and smiled happily.

It's great, having my aunt Suyan by my side in the palace makes me feel like an elder is by my side, a kind of warmth rippling all over my body.

"Go back quickly, you have been out for so long, the queen is probably looking for you."

When I got up, I took out a silk handkerchief from my pocket and handed it to Aunt Su, "This was embroidered by Enen herself, and it was given to my aunt."

"What a delicate handkerchief, the flowers are embroidered like real ones, I didn't expect you to know how to do needlework." Aunt Su was very surprised, she looked left and right at the handkerchief, she liked it very much.

"It was taught by my mother who passed away. My mother and I used to make a living by needlework. If my aunt likes it, I will embroider a money bag for you next time."

Aunt Su nodded.

"Auntie." After hesitating for a moment, I decided to ask, "Do you know Happy Fan?"

"Happy fans?" Aunt Su narrowed her eyes slightly, looked around carefully, and saw that the palace people were working seriously, and said, "Why do you ask this?"

Seeing the expression on the aunt's face, she obviously knew it, and hope surged in her heart, "It's not that Enen doesn't want to tell aunt, it's just that it's not beneficial for aunt to know about it." On the contrary, it is harmful.

"Okay, I won't ask, then you..."

"I've been looking for an antidote to Happy Powder. I've been asking for a long time, but there is no result. Thinking about my aunt staying in the palace for such a long time, maybe I don't know." I looked at her hopefully.

Aunt Su's expression became solemn, she pondered for a long time, and said, "Go back first, I'll ask for you."

"Okay." My heart was full of disappointment, "Then I'll..." Before I could say "Let's go", Aunt Su's expression changed again. Following her gaze, I saw Mingxiu standing At the door of the laundry bureau, the indifferent face looked here, and I didn't know how long I stood there.

In the past few days, the queen has never mentioned what the game she was talking about was.

I didn't see Jing Lin entering the palace either.

It was as if nothing had happened that day.

And I didn't go anywhere, just stayed in my shell like a little turtle, thinking about things.

I've been thinking about Aunt Suyan's words.

Every time I encounter something, what appears in my mind is either right or wrong. It is wrong to do this, and we must do that. A gentleman is open-minded, walks straight and sits upright.

But in the end it always ends up in a dead end.

It's because my heart has never been integrated into the palace at all, so I feel powerless. I instinctively reject the behavior of the queen and Concubine An, and drive myself into a dead end.

Only by integrating into the imperial palace and understanding the imperial palace, once you get used to it, you will know how it works, and you will naturally understand the way to resolve the crisis invisibly.

It's like doing as Romans do.

This is a very shallow truth, and I only understand it now.

This night, it was very late to serve the queen to sleep.But for the palace people, it's still very early, they have a lot of things to deal with, especially the people in the Ministry of Internal Affairs.

Take out the embroidered brocade bag. This brocade bag was specially embroidered to thank Tang Yu for taking care of me when I had a fever. It’s been a while since I embroidered it, but I haven’t had a chance to send it out. The moonlight is good tonight, so I’ll give this to him tonight Bar.

The night wind is cool, and there is a faint fragrance of sweet-scented osmanthus in the wind.

Before I knew it, it was already August.

The days go by so fast.

Tang Yu's small courtyard has always been silent, and it is in the back corner. The whole small courtyard is as cold as him.

The cabin was lit, very dimly.

It appears he is back.

I held the kit in my hand, intending to dangle it in front of his eyes as soon as he opened the door.

Just as he was about to knock on the door, soft voices came from inside the house.

Hey, who would be in Tang Yu's room so late?
"Tang Yu, the time I gave you is up. If you wait any longer, you will be discovered sooner or later." The voice was deliberately suppressed, "You must choose a woman to give birth to an heir as soon as possible. No worse than the emperor's woman."

"No need." It was Tang Yu's voice that froze to death.

"What did you say?"

"I have my measure."

"Properity? If you had sensed it earlier, you would have even given birth to a child by now. Don't force me to use force."

Tang Yu was silent for a while.

The man sighed, "Son, I'm doing this for your own good."

"Is it really for my own good?"

"What is this? You are the heir to the great cause."

"Daye? Daye and me, you can only choose one, which one will you choose?"

For a long time, no one spoke.

"Tang Yu, you've changed a lot." When the man spoke again, he was clearly displeased, even angry.

I already knew Tang Yu's secret, and I only knew that he was not his father-in-law. The rest was confusing, and I didn't think about it carefully.

From what I heard now, and what I heard last time, I just feel that Tang Yu's identity is unusual and mysterious.

And that man also repeatedly emphasized on offspring, why did Tang Yu have to give birth to offspring?The heir to the great cause?What kind of great cause pretends to be a eunuch to enter the palace?

Since it is in the palace, is it related to the palace?
Just when I was engrossed in my thoughts, I heard the person in the room say coldly: "Who is outside?"

I was startled, I didn't have time to do anything, the door was opened, my shoulder hurt, a pair of big hands grabbed my shoulder and dragged me into the room.

When I staggered to my feet, I met a pair of gloomy eyes and exclaimed, "Grandpa Lu?"

The man who deliberately lowered his voice turned out to be Eunuch Lu.

No matter how I thought about it, I never thought it would be him.

Eunuch Lu was obviously also a little surprised, and the gloomy eyes were even more gloomy.

I looked at Tang Yu, and saw Tang Yu's face suddenly turned pale, and he suddenly shot at me.

I felt a bright white flash in front of my eyes, and when I came back to my senses, I was in Tang Yu's arms, and Lu Gonggong in front of me was holding a sharp dagger.

I realized that Lu Gonggong was going to kill me just now, but Tang Yu saved me.

My chest was heaving and gasping, and it happened so quickly that I didn't have time to think about it.

"Tang Yu, she heard our conversation, so we can't keep her." Eunuch Lu's expression became more gloomy.

"You can't kill her." Tang Yu said unhurriedly.

My face was pressed tightly against Tang Yu's chest. Although his voice was still cold, his heart was beating extremely fast. It was obvious that he was also extremely nervous just now.

The hands holding me were tight again, and my whole body was almost attached to him.

"She must die if she hears it, or it will ruin our plan."

"will not."

"Why are you so sure?" Eunuch Lu's narrowed eyes glanced at me eeriely.

"Because she's the woman I'm talking about, my wife, the mother of my future child, and she should know these things."

I suddenly looked up at him, what was he talking about?
"It's her?" Eunuch Lu was so surprised that he forgot to lower his voice, and even his narrow eyes widened.

Both eyes were on him.

Tang Yu looked down at me, looked at my surprised appearance, and smiled, with a deep smile in his eyes, so bright and sunny that people almost dare not look directly at it.

For no reason, my heart skipped a beat.

"No, she is the queen's side." Eunuch Lu stared at me closely.

"You said that I can choose freely."

"She can't."

"I'm going to make a decision." Tang Yu looked at Eunuch Lu coldly.

Eunuch Lu pursed his lips tightly, staring at me with burning, cannibalistic anger, but he suppressed his anger, looking helpless towards Tang Yu, and said, "How can you guarantee that she won't betray us? "

"She's mine already."

As soon as I said this, I was stiff all over, but I was still hugged by him obediently, and I only looked at Eunuch Lu with fearful eyes.

The matter is basically clear, I heard something I shouldn't have heard, and Lu Gonggong would kill me without saying a word, Tang Yu was desperately protecting me, and I could only pretend to be afraid, relying on Tang Yu, and cooperating with him everything of.

Otherwise, I'm really going to die here.

But Eunuch Lu didn't really believe this, he looked us up and down, and said coldly: "Very well, since it's true, let's hold the wedding ceremony tonight."

Wedding ceremony?I was stunned.

Eunuch Lu glanced at me, sneered, and sat at the top, "Tonight will be simpler, I am your elder, all you need to do is salute me, let's begin."

In this situation, I didn't know what to do at all, and was held by Tang Yu and moved freely.

"Worship heaven and earth."

"Two thanks to the high hall."

"Happy husband and wife."

Eunuch Lu's voice was extremely soft, but it was extraordinarily loud in the silent room, and his hawk-like eyes never left me from the beginning to the end.

After the worship, Eunuch Lu said coldly: "Within a year and a half, you must have a child. The longer the time is delayed, the more unfavorable it is for you, understand?" He looked at me again, "Tell me immediately if you have a child, and I will give birth to you." Arrange for you to leave the palace."

With a bang, the door was slammed shut.

Eunuch Lu finally left.

I was relieved.

"We are husband and wife." Tang Yu looked at me, the coldness in his eyes was not strong, he was smiling, and said to himself "Because she is the woman I mentioned, my wife, the mother of the future child , she should know these things." After the words, until Baitang, he kept smiling, looking very happy.

"Aren't you afraid that I will tell your secret?" I don't understand why when I was dragged in by Lu Gonggong, his eyes were surprised, but he seemed to be relieved for a moment. Instead of being nervous, he seemed extremely happy of.

"It's good to know, I'm not the real father-in-law."

He looked at me with deep, quiet, bright, and soft eyes, as if he would be addicted to it, and his heart was beating very fast for some reason.

I looked away in a panic, and said softly: "I knew it a long time ago. At that time, I was going to the imperial dining room, and I happened to see you entering the forest and talking to someone."

"Really?" He smiled lowly, not surprised at all.

"What are you laughing at?" Why doesn't he care at all?I suddenly felt constrained, and I didn’t know where to put my hands and feet, and I didn’t dare to look directly at him. His eyes were too bright, like the sun, and he said in a hurry, “I’m leaving, thank you for saving me.” I."

"I'm afraid that once you leave this room, you won't be able to see the sun tomorrow." He took my hand.

"what?"

"He didn't believe me, once you go out is his chance to attack."

"Why... But he's not... I always want to go out."

(End of this chapter)