refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 16 Please, I'll Let You Go
"As long as it's over tonight, you'll be fine."

"why?"

"Because he wants to see a good show." After speaking, Tang Yu suddenly blew out the lights.

The room suddenly darkened.

"Tang Yu, you..." The next words were replaced by exclamation, he hugged me by the waist, and put a soft thing on the back, I reached out and touched it, it was the bed.

He actually put me on the bed.

"What are you going to do?" In the light of night, looking at Tang Yu who was pressing on him, I couldn't help becoming nervous. I believed him, but I was still somewhat uneasy in the face of this situation.

"He's watching from the window." Tang Yu's beautiful eyes became brighter, and his voice was deep and hoarse.

"You mean Mr. Lu?"

Tang Yu nodded, "We still have to do something."

"Do, do something?"

"What do you say?"

I opened my mouth, so nervous that I couldn't speak. I don't know why I was nervous, but I just stared blankly at this handsome face right in front of me, and my heart was beating so hard.

With a low sigh, with deep pity, Tang Yu said helplessly: "Tonight, I'm very happy. I didn't know what to do before, but I didn't expect to solve it tonight."

"What, what?"

His face was lowered a bit, the tips of his noses were almost touching, his breathing, his heartbeat, his temperature, my body and his were so close to each other, even the body was strange...

Strange?There is something pressing against my lower abdomen, it feels very hot.

When I realized what it was, my whole body was on fire and my face was flushed red.

"Let me go." I tried hard to push him away, but his hands were clasped by his side, and my fingers were forced to intertwine with him.

"Just a little while, just a little while."

"No, let me go."

"Enen." His voice was infinitely gentle, "Trust me, I will not hurt you."

I stared blankly at him.

Hear him say, "I will not do any Passover without your consent."

"But this is so embarrassing." I have always trusted him and believed that he would not hurt me. I don't understand why I am so sure in my heart, I just think that he will never hurt me.

"Let's wait a while, I don't think he will have the cheek to watch the whole process."

I blushed, "Why aren't you afraid that I will tell your secret?" Talking about it can relieve this discomfort.

"You're not that kind of person."

"That's why you trust me?"

He smiled, "What about you, trust me?"

Tang Yu's smile is beautiful, the kind that can make people stupefied, he smiled a lot tonight, a lot, but I can still feel the faint sadness in his smile, as if he has a lot of thoughts on his mind.

"letter."

"why?"

I thought about it, "You are usually very silent, and you look quite stable, and you can trust your intuition."

"That's it?" He was a little disappointed.

"You are as good to me as Aunt Suyan."

"Is there nothing else?"

other?I thought about it, but I couldn't get my mind out of the scene in front of me.

His forehead was thumped violently, and his body lightened. He suddenly got up and pulled me up, "He's gone."

I breathed a sigh of relief, "Then can I go back to the palace?"

"Although he's gone, there are still people hiding in the dark watching here."

"Why does he keep urging you to get married and have children?" I don't understand, Tang Yu is so young, he has plenty of time.

"If you want to know, you can only become my woman, and share the joys and sorrows with me, advance and retreat together." He said this very seriously, but his eyes were extremely gentle.

Seeing me stunned, he turned his head slightly disappointed, looked at the grilled womb window, and said, "It won't do you any good to know too much, it's fine now."

I didn't ask any more questions.

He didn't say anything more.

The atmosphere became a little weird.

This night, I have more questions, especially Mr. Lu, who is Tang Yu?

Eunuch Lu is a fan of Xiaoru Huanxi, and has a close relationship with Tang Yu.

The heir to the great cause?What kind of great cause?
In summer, the coolness in the morning is especially comfortable.

Just when I stepped into the queen's palace, I saw Xiaoru combing the queen's hair.

Xiao Ru, why is she here?

"Your Majesty, do you like this hairstyle?" Xiao Ru asked cautiously.

"It's quite novel, and it's comfortable to look at. I never expected that you'd learn a new skill after not seeing you for a few days." The queen looked left and right in the mirror, extremely satisfied.

"If the empress likes it, the servants can make up for the empress every day."

"Even if you are so courteous, I still won't forgive you for sneaking the prince out of the palace."

"Xiaoru already knew he was wrong." Xiaoru knelt down, with tears in his eyes, "Xiaoru entered the palace at the age of two, and was brought into the Queen's Palace by the empress since she was four years old. It was the empress who taught Xiaoru everything. In Xiaoru's heart, the empress Since you are both master and relative, I beg your mother to let Xiaoru come back to you."

The queen raised her eyes indifferently, and said decisively: "No."

"Ma'am, I beg you, Xiaoru."

"Although it's not possible, you can still come here every day to comb my hair." The queen looked at the mirror again, and at this time, she saw me.

"Your servant has seen your mother." I saluted, my eyes met Xiaoru who was kneeling, and I saw the sneer on the corner of her mouth.

"Today, I invited Zhao Yuefu to the palace to enjoy the flowers, you go and prepare." The queen took a sip of the tea cup and said as she glanced at me in the mirror with her proud eyes.

"Yes."

"Also, take the string of seven-colored emerald jade bracelets in Bengong's cabinet as well. This is what Bengong wants to give to Yuefu."

"Yes." I was puzzled, the seven-colored emerald jade bracelet is the most cherished accessory among all the queen's jewelry, and I have never seen her wear it before, so why did it give it to Zhao Yuefu for no reason?

"Xiao Ru, you please me very much today, so let's go with me to enjoy the flowers together."

"Thank you, Empress, for your gift." Xiaoru's voice was extremely excited, and when she stood up, she gave me a deliberate look, which was very provocative.

I turned a blind eye and politely stepped back to prepare refreshments for viewing the flowers.

Spring flowers are fresh and tender with shyness, while summer flowers are bright red with enchanting charm.

Just like what Zhao Yuefu is wearing today, the skirt and collar are embroidered with rich and noble peony flowers, with the proud plum petals as the background, charming yet elegant.

The queen is also compared.

Although the empress didn't show it on her face, her eyes showed displeasure.

"Your Majesty is really interested, why did you think of inviting Yuefu into the palace to enjoy the flowers?" Zhao Yuefu had a very cool fragrance on her body, which made people feel refreshed immediately.

"I haven't seen my sister for some days. I don't want my sister anymore. In addition, during this time, the flowers sent by the foreign tributes are in full bloom. My sister is a person who loves flowers." The queen smiled brightly, " How can I lose my sister?"

"It's just that it's too hot," Zhao Yuefu fanned herself with a handkerchief, and then took a deep breath into her sleeve after a while, "Fortunately, brother Jinglin gave me this clear lotus water dew, which smells delicious when rubbed on my body. Liang, it's really a good thing. Brother Jing Lin must have sent such a good thing to the empress, right?" Zhao Yuefu sniffed at the empress, and said, "Why didn't your empress wipe it?"

The queen's face froze, and she had to force a smile, "I don't have any lotus fragrance in this palace."

Zhao Yuefu looked very surprised, and suddenly smiled and said: "Brother Jinglin is true, you are his sister, no matter what, I should send you off first. I will tell him when I get back."

"No need." The queen said coldly, "There are many such things around this palace. If my sister likes it, she can pick some and go home."

"Thank you, Ma'am, but Yue Fu only likes the things that Brother Jing Lin gives to her, so the courtesy is light and the affection is heavy."

Zhao Yuefu never left Jinglin's words. Obviously, these words were intended for the empress, even the clothes she wore today were intentional.

I sighed, it didn't do her any good to do so.

At this time, the palace lady came over and whispered something in my ear, I nodded, went to the empress and said: "Your Majesty, the refreshments are ready, please go into the pavilion and rest."

I took the tea from the hand of the palace maid and entered the pavilion, Xiaoru kept staring at me and the teapot in my hand coldly.

Making tea used to be her job.

"This is the top-quality Tieguanyin, sister, try it." When the queen said this, I had already brewed hot tea and served it to Zhao Yuefu.

Just as I put down the tea, I suddenly tripped.

Followed by Zhao Yuefu's cry of pain.

Hot tea splashed on Zhao Yuefu's chest, it's summer now, and the clothes are thin, I screamed inwardly, and hurried forward to wipe it off.

Pushed away by Zhao Yuefu's backhand, she glared and pointed at my nose, "Did you do it on purpose?"

I shook my head in panic, "I didn't do it on purpose."

"Clumsy." The queen gave me a cold look, but her tone was not harsh, she looked at Zhao Yuefu with concern, "Is it burning? I will send the imperial doctor to you."

"No need." Zhao Yuefu wiped vigorously the place where the tea was splashed with a handkerchief, her fingers trembling with anger.

"Hurry up and take Yuefu down to change clothes, just take the gorgeous clothes I just made in the cabinet of the palace." The queen ordered me.

"Yes." When I walked out of the pavilion uneasily, I looked at Xiaoru in the pavilion, and saw her smiling at me triumphantly.

It was her stretched out foot just now, and she did it on purpose.

Just after I led Zhao Yuefu out of everyone's sight, the queen sipped her tea lightly and said to the maid beside her, "Master Shangshu should go down now, go and tell him that Miss Yuefu is scalded." , let him come and take her back to the palace."

As soon as the maid left, the queen said to Xiaoru again: "Do you know what to say?"

"Your Majesty, don't worry." Xiao Ru raised her eyebrows.

When I led Zhao Yuefu back to the pavilion, it was already time for a cup of tea.

"The clothes seem to be custom-made for my younger sister. They look much better than this palace." The queen looked at the displeased Zhao Yuefu, and smiled, "Is the burn all right? Why don't you ask the imperial doctor to look at it?"

"Thank you, Madam, for your concern, no need."

The queen lowered her eyes slightly and said, "Take it here."

The court lady presented a box and opened it. The queen caressed the colorful emerald bracelet in the box. Under the sunlight, the golden bracelet was dazzling, exuding a unique azure light. The combination of gold and blue, under the sunlight The lower part shoots out a hazy and coquettish color, instantly taking away all the flowers in the garden.

"It's so beautiful." Zhao Yuefu exclaimed involuntarily.

"This chain is a family heirloom of our Jing family. When my father passed away, I handed it over to Ben Gong for safekeeping. I said that I would put it on the Jing family's daughter-in-law in person on the day of Jing Lin's marriage." The queen looked at it with a smile, "Although, you I haven't passed the door yet, but it will be a matter of time, this chain will be handed over to you sooner, and this palace will also settle a worry."

"Empress?" Zhao Yuefu couldn't believe how kind the queen was to her.

"Come on, I'll put it on for you." Just as the queen took out the chain, the perfect bracelet suddenly broke and fell to the ground with a crisp landing sound.

For a moment, everyone's heart sank.

"How did this happen? Which of you has ever worn a colorful emerald jade bracelet?" The queen's face was suddenly as cold as ice, and her eyes were like arrows, and she glanced at the maids.

The palace people and I knelt down in panic.

A court lady said tremblingly: "Madam, sister Enen took out the colorful emerald jade bracelet from the cabinet. She kept it for the whole journey, and only gave it to the servant girl when she led Miss Zhao to change clothes. , but the servant has always been with the empress."

The queen's sharp gaze has swept towards me.

I looked at the queen and said calmly: "Your Majesty, this servant has never touched the colorful emerald bracelet, and I haven't even opened the box."

"Who is it?" The queen clapped the case, causing all the teacups on the table to overturn, and the tea flowed all over the table.

All the ladies in the court did not dare to vent their anger.

"Why is the queen so angry?" A cold voice suddenly sounded outside the pavilion.

I saw the emperor standing outside the pavilion, his cold eyes glancing over everyone one by one.

Jing Lin was standing beside him, wearing a blue-patterned Shangshu suit, showing a refined and elegant demeanor.

Seeing that the emperor was also coming, the empress cast a sharp glance at the maid leading the emperor, who lowered her head in panic.

I knew that there was an extremely gloomy gaze roving over me, it was Eunuch Lu's eagle eye.

A salute.

The emperor takes his seat.

When the queen explained everything, the emperor whispered, and his eyes fell on me.

When he looked like this, everyone's eyes stopped on me.

As if to say, my suspicion is the heaviest, and I broke the colorful emerald bracelet.

"Your servant has something to report." At this moment, Xiao Ru spoke.

"Say."

"Su En is lying, she said that she has never touched the seven-color jade bracelet, and she has not even opened the box, but when the servant was in the outer hall, she clearly saw her secretly taking out the seven-color emerald bracelet, looking left and right, and even wearing it for a while Just put it in the box. But after a while, she took out the bracelet again, seeing no one around, pulled it hard before putting it in the box."

"What? You spitting blood." I looked at Xiao Ru in shock.

Xiao Ru seemed to be taken aback, but shrank back, and said cowardly: "Sister En En, don't stare at me, what Xiao Ru said is the truth."

I didn't stare at her, but seeing her aggrieved look, I clenched my hands.

"Greedy thoughts are human nature. As long as it is a woman, no one will feel possessive after seeing this colorful emerald jade bracelet. Enen, I have always liked you. I only wear it once. I won't blame you, but you And why break her?"

"No maidservant." I straightened my back and insisted.

"He said no, Xiaoru has seen it."

"The servant girl is telling the truth. She has not touched the box since she took it out of the cabinet."

Xiaoru said aggrievedly: "Your Majesty, the servant really saw that Su En moved the box and broke the chain."

"Bengong believes in what Xiao Ru said." The queen stood in front of me and looked at me with a sharp light in her phoenix eyes, "Bengong once told you that this seven-color jade bracelet is a family heirloom of the Jing family. Daughter-in-law of the Jing family, you like Jing Lin, and you have been obsessed with it many times in private, when you heard that Ben Gong was going to give this chain to Yue Fu, you felt jealous, so you broke it, is Ben Gong right?"

The queen never told me that this seven-colored emerald bracelet is an heirloom of the Jing family, she and Xiaoru were lying.

I suddenly realized that the queen and Xiaoru were in collusion, why?Why do you want to frame me like this?
I looked towards Jing Lin, but the gaze in midair was blocked by the tall man, forcing me to turn my head.

"What else do you have to say?" the queen asked sharply.

"The servant did not peek at the box, nor did he break the chain." I raised my head and looked directly into Queen Ling Rui's eyes.

"Diao Nu. Come here, drag me down and hit me with thirty sticks." The queen gave an order, and immediately three father-in-laws came up and wanted to drag me away.

I looked straight at Jinglin, expecting something in my heart, but he smiled at me at this moment, stopped in front of the father-in-law who was dragging me, and said to the queen: "My lady, please calm down, you will give the heirloom to Yuefu." Well, Enen naturally wants to be jealous, all because I promised her to marry her."

As soon as these words came out, the faces of the Queen and Zhao Yuefu changed drastically.

Even the emperor who had been sitting in the upper seat narrowed his eyes, and a trace of anger flashed in his eyes.

"Jing, brother Jinglin, what are you talking about?" Zhao Yuefu's voice trembled slightly.

Jing Lin pulled me over who was stunned, knelt down in front of the emperor, and said lightly: "Your Majesty, I don't know how to explain it, I just ask His Majesty to help me."

"It's impossible, how is it possible?" The queen suddenly pulled my shoulders, pushed me away forcefully, and stared at Jing Lin who was smiling gently, "Are you talking nonsense? Are you trying to annoy me on purpose?"

"Sister." Jing Lin stood up and said gently, "Is it my brother's fault that I didn't tell you about this, but this is in the Royal Garden, and you are the respected mother of the country, so it's better to pay attention to your manners."

When the sister reminded the queen, she was stunned, and forced a smile to look at the emperor who was looking at her deeply, "Your Majesty, this concubine is too surprised and lost her composure."

No one in the pavilion was surprised, and my mood was so complicated that I couldn't express it.

Jing Lin wants to marry me?In front of so many people, you actually said you want to marry me?
"I'm also very surprised. How could Master Shang Shu have his heart set on a court lady? Want to marry her?" The emperor's words were cool.

When he said this, he stared at me, probably everyone in the pavilion was staring at me, like thorns, I just felt my scalp go numb, wishing I could escape from here.

"Enen has many advantages, and I like it very much." Jing Lin's voice was still soft, as if he didn't notice the tense atmosphere here.

"What about Miss Zhao?" The emperor said, and everyone's eyes were on Zhao Yuefu again.

Zhao Yuefu's delicate face was bloodless, she looked at Jing Lin and then at me, her lips were trembling, her fingers were trembling, and her whole body was trembling.

"Brother Jinglin, you are joking with everyone, aren't you?" she asked.

"Yuefu, I have always regarded you as my younger sister. I will talk to your father, sorry."

When Jing Lin said I was sorry, Zhao Yuefu's eyes filled with tears, but she stubbornly held back the tears.The next moment, she blessed the queen and the emperor, and said: "The daughter of the people is not feeling well, so I will take my leave first." Turning around, she straightened her stiff body and left.

"This is the queen's family business. I still have papers to review, so I'm leaving first." The emperor didn't look at anyone in the pavilion, but he clenched his hands tightly when he left.

The queen raised her hand, Xiaoru and all the palace people exited the pavilion, for a while, only the three of us were left.

"Is this your choice? If you marry her, you can run away from me, right?" The queen's voice was angry and agitated, losing her usual calmness, "But why her, why did you choose her?"

"I said that I like her, and she is worthy of my liking, that's all. I also hope that my sister will be successful."

"Sister? Sister? This is the first time you call me sister. You said that you don't want me to be your sister, but you call me sister because of her? You clearly know that I don't want to be your sister."

"Then who does the queen want to be a minister?"

Jing Lin looked at the queen lonely, the queen's eyes were full of sadness, but she couldn't answer.

They have each other in their eyes, and everyone can see that kind of affection.

I got up slowly and saluted: "Your maidservant will leave first."

When walking past him, his hand was held by him, "Don't go, you should be here."

"My lord, I have something to do, so I will leave first." I broke away from his hand, feeling extremely lost and sad.

That night he said, "Can I like you more? As long as I like you more, I will love her less?" "Why can't you make me like you more?", I suddenly I understand that his kindness to me is just to let me get rid of my feelings for the queen.

In the end, it wasn't what he wanted, I couldn't attract him, I couldn't make him like me, or even fall in love with me.

So, he went to meet the queen.

I can forgive and forgive what others have done to me, but in terms of feelings, my heart is small and narrow.

Will be angry, impulsive, and resentful.

I hate being used even more.

He didn't want to get involved between him and the queen, nor did he want to be used.

There is a feeling of sadness running around in the body.

That's fine, it's just that I'm overthinking myself.

It is time to take back the heart that has been released.

Smile wryly, why do people have to wait until they get hurt before giving up?
"Enn." A soft voice called out.

I stopped suddenly, Jing Lin, he came after me?

"Enen, I'm telling the truth." He stood in front of me, under the scorching sun, with his sleeves folded and his eyes full of sincerity, "Perhaps in the past, I really wanted to use you to forget her, because you are a good girl, you There are many advantages in her body, and I think I will like you. But that night, I found it was useless, she only said that she was in danger, and I ran here. I also said things I shouldn't have said to you. "

"grown ups?"

"Listen to me. I still can't forget her, but I really want to be with you. I am very happy and relaxed with you. Give me more days, and I will definitely like you."

To put it bluntly.

I bit my lower lip, feeling angry that he was really just using me to forget about the queen.

It's just that he didn't expect that he would chase after him, and he didn't choose to stay with the queen.

Is he telling me how determined he is to marry me?

Gritting my teeth, I became cruel and heartless, and I said: "The servant is retiring."

His body was suddenly embraced by him, and through the thin clothes, every time he said a word, he could feel the vibration in his chest, "Those couples who got married because of the orders of their parents and the words of the matchmaker, did not see each other. After meeting, we can still love each other after we get married. We live a very happy life. At least we have met and got along. I know you like me. Why don’t you want to marry me? Believe me, I will I like you, for sure."

Knowing that he doesn't love me, maybe he has a slight affection for me, but every word he said is extremely sincere.

I can't refuse.

It's really spineless, but I still pushed him away, I don't want to go on like this anymore.

I don't want to be emotionally sloppy.

When it's time to break, it's time to break, no matter how unwilling or reluctant to give up, it's time to make a decision.

And I, if I'm going to take this step, I have to tell him this secret.

Having made up my mind, I gently pushed him away, met his expectant eyes, and said quietly: "My lord, this servant is not perfect and is not worthy of your lord. Please, my lord, choose another good wife."

Jing Linxuan looked at me openly, as if he didn't understand what I said.

"Before entering the palace, the slave was insulted by a bully." I clenched my fists, and every time I said a word, my heart ached even more.

Lowering my head, I dare not look into his gentle eyes again, I am afraid that no one can accept such a thing.

With him, if it hasn't started, there can't be an end.

My heart hurts.

When you fall in love with someone for the first time, there is as much pain as there is pressure.

The difference between cloud and mud, the boundary line that is too clear, is doomed to have no results.

Blessed, I left with infinite loss.

Unexpectedly, when he turned around the flower garden, his steps were not steady, and his body was startled as if struck by lightning.

"Emperor, Your Majesty?" The emperor actually stood here.

Didn't he say he was going to review the papers?Why are you here?

Did he hear the conversation with Jing Lin just now?

Sure enough, he lowered his head and bullied him, narrowing his cold eyes with a dangerous light, "Before entering the palace, were you bullied by a bully?"

I couldn't help but take a step back.

All of a sudden, he grabbed my hand and walked away with such force that I was in great pain.

The bully is him. He ruined my innocence and made me suffer so far, but the instigator has forgotten, completely forgotten, and always does some inexplicable actions in front of me.

Trying to shake him off, but he's pulling too hard, and no matter how hard I try, I just end up hurting myself.

"Let me go." Seeing him dragging me to the shaded path, I panicked.

What is he going to do.

I was afraid of him, really afraid of him.

"Let go of me." I wanted to yell, but I didn't dare to really yell. If the palace people were attracted, it would be an inexplicable matter.

"Please."

beg him?Why does he always ask me to beg him?

He likes to play tricks on people wantonly, just because he is the emperor?
He can always easily provoke my stubbornness.

"Please, I will let you go."

"Why does the emperor make things difficult for the servants?"

"Slave? Since you are a slave, it is not difficult to ask me, right?"

I bit my lower lip lightly, and simply stopped talking, and was dragged away by him.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he stopped.

His eyes were gloomy like the weather before the rain, "Could it be that my woman is not as good as a mere concubine's room?"

I don't understand why he said this suddenly, since he let me go, I hurriedly took a step back, panting slightly after confirming that it was impossible for him to touch me easily: "I don't understand what the emperor is talking about?"

"Don't understand? You really know how to act."

"What acting?"

"Don't you have any unreasonable thoughts? Are you so disdainful of being my woman?" His voice was so cold that it made people frightened, and a trace of frustration seemed to flash in those sharp eyes.

He approached me step by step.

I stepped back and looked at him warily, "Your Majesty, what's wrong with you?"

"Damn it, no woman has ever troubled me so much. And you, how dare you tell me that you have no intention of admiration, let alone any means to attract my attention. Your eyes are so affirmative and pure, Turned around, but entangled Jing Lin again." His expression was very gloomy and gloomy.

Fear arose in my heart, and my guard grew stronger.

"You let me..." He pursed his lips and stretched out his hand suddenly.

The speed was so fast that I didn't even move a bit, and my shoulders were tightly clasped by his hands.

"It hurts." There was pain in the shoulder, his ten fingers seemed to be caught in the flesh, the pain made me pale.

"Does it hurt? Please."

Beads of sweat fell from my forehead, and I gritted my teeth.

"Very good." He sneered, and the strength in his hands became heavier.

The pain was so painful that I couldn't even stand still. With a stubborn will, I forced myself to support myself, and even clenched my teeth.

"Damn it, please."

"Your servant did nothing wrong, please let the emperor release you." Every word trembled, and the moment he opened his mouth, the pain became more severe, and he almost thought he was about to die.

"Please."

His face was pale, his lips were pale, his whole body was so painful that he couldn't bear it anymore, and he would never beg him no matter what, and his voice was extremely weak, "Does the emperor like to be begged so much? Is it true that slaves don't beg?" Yes, the servant did nothing wrong."

"Very good, very good." The strength in his hand loosened.

Just when I was about to slip and fall to the ground, he hugged me again.

I can feel the anger coming from him, the monstrous anger, and I feel that the surrounding green branches and leaves are also withered under his anger.

"Slave..."

I suddenly opened my eyes wide, looking at the cool eyes that were so close, so close that I could clearly see the color of his eyes.

Just for a split second, a split second, I realized he was kissing me.

I started to struggle.

It's just that the pain is so painful that I have no strength, and the struggle is also weak.

His lips were as cool as his own.

Didn't move, just stuck to me like this.

He was looking at me, locking my panicked and frightened eyes tightly, like a cheetah trying to eat up the food in one bite after struggling with it.

I pushed him with all the strength I had left.

He remained motionless.

The strength on his lips became heavier, and his gaze deepened, as deep as a starless night sky, like dark clouds raging before a storm.

The lips began to move, tossing and sucking.

I panicked, is the emperor really kissing me?

I noticed that the pain in my shoulder was no longer so painful, and my strength was recovering little by little.

I struggled harder and my feet started kicking.

Facing his sucking, I gritted my teeth even more.

At this time, my jaw was in pain, and he clasped me with one hand, with great strength.

The teeth were forced loose, allowing him to drive straight.

The force on his lips became heavier, and he pressed my body tightly.

No longer able to struggle, no longer able to kick and beat, his body was tightly locked in his arms.

Forced to bear his kiss.

All I can move are my eyes and tongue.

He is entangled with me, there is no way to escape, but wherever he goes, he can always be caught and wrestle with my tongue.

There is no pity, no love, only violence, violation, and conquest.

He kissed so deeply, so thoroughly, that he even forced me to respond.

Escape is in vain, no matter where he hides, his tongue is always with me.

I burst into tears.

The kiss between each other is as sacred as the night of the bridal chamber. For many days, I have been telling myself that if there is a man in this world who likes me, I can't give him a clean body, at least I can give him a pure kiss.

Now there is nothing.

Everything was destroyed in the hands of this man in front of him.

The kiss is finally over.

He looked at me coldly, without any emotion.

Tears welled up, and the hatred in his eyes was as cold as his.

"Hate, that's a good word." He looked at me rather mockingly, "It tastes good, go back to your business."

In this life, I have never hated him like this. I stared at him, staring at him.

"Do you want to hate me even more?" He stood with his hands behind his back, so noble that no one dared to look up, "Although the taste of your lips is good, what I like more is the smell of your body. As long as you do it twice, it will be solved, and the rest is just that I want you."

What does it feel like to have a knife stabbing slowly into your body?
Is that all?
I pressed my chest with one hand, and felt that my heart was so painful that I couldn't breathe. No, my whole body was hurting.

"You, you haven't forgotten?" It hurts even to speak, a heart-piercing pain.

"How could I forget such a thing?"

"Then why pretend to forget?"

"Pretend? To you?" He stared at my bloodless face, only indifferent, "I just ignore a mere maid, even though your body pleases me, but women, I want as many as I want."

Even breathing felt painful to the marrow, I stared at him, ignoring?Please?
He, this man actually said that I pleased him?

My pain, my struggle, what has become of it?
In his eyes, what was my heart-piercing pain and fearful struggle that night?
The tears flowed uncontrollably, and I couldn't stop them no matter what.

I hate it so much, I hate it so much, every time he says a word, I hate him more.

Can a majestic emperor bully people like this?

Does he know that he ruined my life?
But I can't do anything, I can't do anything.

I am too weak and humble.

He is the emperor, so he can ignore it without even a bit of guilt, and he can forget it so naturally.

Stomach ache, want to vomit.

Covering my mouth, I rushed aside and started vomiting.

I vomited out everything I ate in the morning, but my stomach was still uncomfortable.

I held onto the tree and gasped for breath.

"What's wrong with you?" He frowned impatiently.

As soon as I heard this voice, my chest felt uncomfortable again. I suppressed the feeling of wanting to vomit, and I walked away step by step with difficulty.

His hand suddenly pressed on my shoulder.

I closed my eyes, thinking that the pain was coming again.

No, he pulled me gently, and when he saw my pale face, there was a flash of concern in his eyes.

The feeling of vomiting came again, I swung his hand away suddenly, and rushed to the side to vomit.

This time, even the bitter water was spit out.

"you?"

"Don't come over." My voice was very weak, and I looked at him weakly, my breath was disordered.

Sure enough, he stood still and looked at me complicatedly.

"Your servant is leaving." I vomited too much, feeling a little exhausted, resisting the feeling of dizziness, I left the imperial garden step by step.

Since my father passed away, I have been trying to live.

After my mother fell ill, my belief in trying to live became stronger.

I don't believe in fate, fate is in my own hands.

Willing to endure hardship, willing to work hard, and be optimistic when encountering troubles.

Human nature is kind, treat others kindly, and be willing to help others, and others will definitely give you the same return.

I've always been that way.

But the imperial palace, this sacred place in the hearts of the people, is it sacred?It's simply hell.

that man...

My stomach began to feel uncomfortable again, and I vomited while leaning against the crescent door.

My stomach was already empty and I didn't vomit anything, but I still couldn't help but feel like vomiting.

A pair of warm hands caressed the back, stroking lightly back and forth.But it made me jump like thunder, and I looked behind me defensively.

In an instant, my tears fell down, "Tang Yu, is it you?"

I don't know why, I really want to cry, I want to cry loudly.

Tang Yu's gaze was soft, not that kind of tenderness, but a kind of warmth, a warmth that wouldn't scare anyone if he fell into it.

He said softly, "Can you walk?"

With a very comfortable voice, the stomach was strangely relieved, and the tense nerves were instantly relaxed.

I shook my head, very tired.

"It would be bad if someone found out holding you." Having said that, he still hugged me gently.

A feeling of being cared for arises spontaneously.

It seems that this is not the first time I was hugged by him like this. That time, I went to see Xiaoru who was beaten by the queen's stick. On the way back, I was too tired to walk. He also picked me up like this and walked slowly.

I remember his chest was broad and warm.

"Take a good rest, we will be there in a while."

I leaned against his chest, it was really warm.

Listening to his steady heartbeat and feeling the temperature of his body, my uneasy heart became so at ease, I really wanted to lie in this warm embrace for the rest of my life.

Don't think about anything anymore, let your mind go blank, and just let this warmth flow into your heart.

Closing my eyes, I slowly fell asleep.

When I woke up, I was in my small side room, and it was completely dark.

I sat on the bed and stared blankly for a while before my mind gradually cleared up.

Was Tang Yu the one who carried me back?
He is really bold.

Aren't you afraid of being seen?

There is a warm current flowing through my heart, and there is a sweet feeling.

The window was opened, and the night wind blew through, lifting the loose hair.

I'm too lazy to organize and distribute, just staring at the starry sky in a daze.

Deliberately don't think about anything, deliberately want to forget something, but everything is in vain.

The more you deliberately forget, the more hatred in your eyes will overflow, and the chest will be full of resentment.

The hatred that wanted to explode came like a tide, and I couldn't restrain it.

The door was opened at this time, and the wooden door made a loud sound when it hit the wall, and there was even a slight crack, which shows how hard the person pushed the door.

Turning his eyes slowly, he knew who this person was without looking, the empress who was the mother of the world.

She had already expected how angry she would be, but she never expected that she would be so angry that she would come to the small side room in person.

"Your Majesty." I saluted briefly.

"Baby maid, do you think you can marry into the Jing family just because Jing Lin wants to marry you? Don't think about it." The queen clenched her hands into fists in anger, her fingers turned white, her eyes were full of hatred and hatred, and she lost the dignity of the past. calm.

The palace maids looked at each other, they didn't understand what happened, only Xiao Ru, who was with the queen, looked at me with a sneer, gloating at my misfortune.

"Your Majesty, do you want to tell your slaves about Master Jing here?" I asked calmly.In the past, I would never be like this, no matter what, I will not lose the rules of being a court lady.

"Who told you that Bengong came here to talk about Jinglin?" The queen narrowed her eyes slightly, and said sharply, "Su En stole Bengong's jewelry, and according to the law, it should be handed over to the Ministry of Internal Affairs. Deposit."

"Your Majesty, you can't wrong someone without evidence."

"Certificate? Su En, you are still so naive," the corner of the Queen's mouth raised a cold arc, her sharp eyes swept over the ladies in the court, and then stopped on my face, "How many witnesses do you want, I can do it Here you are, Xiaoru."

"Yes." Xiaoru walked into the room majestically, fumbled on the bed, and exclaimed, "I found it."

She had a string of gold chains in her hand, and she waved it in front of me deliberately, and said in a serious manner: "I really didn't expect it, so you are the inner thief, so it's easy to find for your empress."

Hate is what it feels like.

Suddenly understand that hate is not aimed at others, but at oneself.

Hate myself for entering the palace, hate myself for helping others sincerely, and the result...

I hate myself even more for not having power, because if I have power, I won't be bullied like this by others.

"What are you standing there for? Press it down." As soon as the queen finished speaking, someone stepped forward and grabbed me.

Just as I was about to be dragged down, Tang Yu's voice came from behind, "Wait a minute."

He didn't look at me, but walked directly to the queen, whispering something in his ear.

The queen's face suddenly sank, "Concubine An gave birth? Didn't the imperial doctor say that there is still one and a half months before the delivery? Could it be that the imperial doctor is lying to me?"

"The imperial doctor's words are true, but the person examined by the imperial doctor is not Concubine An, but a woman secretly arranged by Concubine An to enter the palace. Obviously, Concubine An has long known that the empress will send the imperial doctor to take care of her. Prepare such a person."

"Is it a prince or a princess?"

"Prince, it weighs seven catties. The emperor has already gone to Anfei Palace." At this time, Tang Yu glanced at me coldly, and said softly, "Your Majesty, at this time, it is not easy to make extra troubles and provoke criticism from others. Besides, An Once the concubine has a prince, it will pose a great threat to you, and now is the time for you to employ someone."

The queen's face turned extremely ugly, she looked at me for a while, then waved to the palace man who was guarding me, and said: "Look at her carefully, without my palace's order, she is not allowed to go out for half a step."

"Your Majesty, this move is also extremely inappropriate," Tang Yu said.

"What's wrong?"

"Su En is your personal maid. She will always accompany you wherever you go. Now that she is suddenly missing by your side, and with Lord Jing's disturbance during the day, it's hard not to let people guess."

"Guess what?"

"It's not surprising that Mr. Jing wants to hire a palace man. Why did the queen stop it? Besides, there are already some rumors in the palace that are not good for you about the queen's abnormal behavior in the pavilion today."

Did Tang Yu know so soon?Sure enough, there are no secrets in the palace.

That's right, with so many people in the pavilion, I'm afraid this news has already spread throughout the palace.

For some reason, I was very concerned that Tang Yu didn't look at me when he came in.

"What?" The queen stared at me with more resentment, and finally said, "Su En, if you dare to do anything wrong to me, I don't know how I made you die."

After finishing speaking, the queen left angrily, and all the palace people hurried out behind her, and those palace people who walked the fastest and most hurriedly were the ones who usually had the best friendship with me.

Tang Yu saw the hatred in my eyes, hatred erupting like flames.

He walked out, and when he walked past me, he said softly: "Don't hate easily, at least I'm still by your side."

Such a light sentence, really very light, I almost thought it was my illusion.

I am alone in the room.

The burst of hatred was still there, but reason slowly returned to his heart.

"Tang Yu?" I murmured and smiled, at least there is one person who cares about me and won't make me sad or disappointed.

This is enough.

My head hurts and I don't know what to do next.

at a loss.

I don't know how long I stood there.

I heard a door opening.

A little palace lady came in quietly, and when she saw me standing expressionless, she was startled, and desperately patted her chest with her hands.

I've seen her before, she's the maid of the Laundry Bureau.

Sure enough, she trotted up to me, took out a piece of paper from her pocket and handed it to me, "This is from Aunt Suyan." After speaking, she left quietly and cautiously.

Spreading out the paper, I saw the word "antidote" written horizontally on the paper, and there was a line below it. I read softly, "Ginger seaweed tofu stew, once a day, eat for ten days."

What's the meaning?Antidote?Is it the antidote to happy powder?
It must be, only Aunt Suyan knows that I am looking for an antidote.

I really didn't expect that the antidote to the happy powder is a bowl of dishes, such as ginger and seaweed tofu stew, such an ordinary dish is the most common dish on the table of ordinary people.

These things should be in the imperial dining room.

My feet froze again when I stepped out of the threshold. Why did I work so hard to help that man and the queen's son find an antidote?One of them robbed me of my innocence, maliciously ignored my pain, and the other intentionally framed me to kill me.

Looking at the paper with the antidote in his hand, he shook his head, I can't do it, why should I help their son?
Is it necessary to be so noble?

Do good be rewarded?
Fake, all fake.

People in the palace, they take pleasure in deception, without any moral character at all.

I walked towards my little side room.

Concubine An gave birth to a son, who was named Yanxu by the emperor.

Anfei Palace is very lively.

No matter how annoyed the queen is, she still has to happily go to Anfei Palace to congratulate her, and even bring me with her.

"Xu'er is so cute. Look at this little nose, she looks like a younger sister." The queen gently teased the second prince who was sleeping in the cradle, fully playing the role of queen mother, "Enen, I want to give this palace to Xu'er." Bring me your pendant."

I handed the exquisite silver lock in my hand to the queen.

"My concubine thanked the empress for the gift on behalf of Xu'er." Concubine An hurriedly got up to thank the empress when she saw this, but was stopped by the empress lightly, and said, "Come on, I also want to thank you for giving birth to such a lovely girl for the emperor." Your heir, you have worked hard."

"Don't dare, this is a concubine's job."

I've been having a headache since yesterday, and now it's even worse.

Concubine An and the queen's mutual expressions and conversations, in the eyes of outsiders, how harmonious and friendly the wives and concubines are, but I understand that they are all acting for their own interests.

Do it for everyone, and maybe even deceive themselves.

When I looked sideways, I saw Xiao Ling staring at me coldly, it was the eyes of an enemy.

I pursed my lips, and looked back at her coldly, as much as I hated the palace, I looked at her with deep eyes.

Xiaoling hesitated for a moment, and quickly looked away.

"The Emperor is here—"

The sharp and long words made my heart contract suddenly, and my body became extremely stiff for a moment.

Stomach is faintly uncomfortable again.

Retreating to the corner, I lowered my head, but I still saw the pair of bright yellow dragon boots that only he could wear.

"I have met the emperor myself."

"The servant has seen the emperor."

"Get up." The cool voice seemed very deep today.

"Your Majesty, look at how cute Xu'er is. Her facial features are very much like the Emperor's. She will definitely look better than the Emperor in the future." The Queen praised.

I didn't hear what the emperor was saying, or I didn't want to hear it. I just stared blankly at the clean and bright floor tiles like the surface of water.

Until I noticed that there was also his figure on the bright floor tiles, and I met those desolate eyes. Although the appearance was unclear, I couldn't calm down anymore, and I clenched my fists.

Can't do anything to him?

Can you just endure this humiliation?
Is that so?
I took three steps forward, stepped on that noble figure, firmly stepped on it, and said softly: "Your Majesty, the ginseng soup for Concubine An should be stewed, and this servant will bring it now."

"Go."

"Yes." When I turned around, I lifted my foot and stomped again without any trace, and then I left Anfei Palace.

What else is there to worry about?
What else is scary?

What is the difference between a majestic emperor and a local ruffian?No, he is not even as good as a local ruffian.

Without any moral qualities, they only rely on power to oppress others, and they don't know propriety, justice and shame.

I took a deep breath and hated such people.

The imperial dining room is very busy.

"Miss Enen, here is the ginseng soup you want." The maid carefully handed the plate with ginseng soup to my hand.

As soon as he took it, he seemed to hear someone talking about Aunt Suyan, looking around, it was a few maids from the imperial dining room whispering.

As I approached without any trace, I heard them say: "Aunt Suyan was beaten by Concubine Chen, it's so pitiful, her skin was torn apart."

"Aunt Suyan is an old court lady, why is Concubine Chen beating her?"

"I don't know, but it must be related to Aunt Mingxiu. The two aunts have always been at odds."

"I heard that Aunt Mingxiu framed Aunt Suyan, and Aunt Suyan was beaten by Concubine Chen."

"This can't be said nonsense."

"I also listened to what others said."

Aunt Suyan was beaten by Concubine Chen?When did this happen?I was faintly worried, how was the injury?
Just as she was about to walk away, she heard a court lady exclaiming: "Oh, my medicine is ruined, it's all dried up, what should I do, this is medicine for the crown prince."

"That can't be done, you have to decoct it again, is the prince sick?"

"Yeah, there are a lot of little red spots on my body."

I took the ginseng soup out of the imperial dining room, feeling very confused along the way, thinking of the crown prince, guilt gnawed at my heart like ants.

He clearly knew the antidote to Happy Powder, but he didn't take it out for his own selfishness.

Should it?
The prince is innocent.

I struggled in my heart.

I don't want to bother with it anymore, I don't want to participate in everything, even if I am condemned by my conscience, so what?
Only by watching from the sidelines can we protect ourselves. What do other people's affairs have to do with me?Whether it is life or death, just watch with cold eyes.

Doing good deeds is not being judged by others and not recognized?
(End of this chapter)