refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 27

Before I could say anything, the palace servants who came in pulled me out of the Anqing Palace.

Sure enough, the emperor changed all the people in the palace.

Even in the Queen's Palace, except for Xiaoru and Aunt Lian, no one I know is an acquaintance.

The palace man threw me to the ground, and suddenly there was a burning pain in my elbow.

"Su En, you are so lucky." The queen sat down, stopped acting, and looked at me with a gloomy face.

"The servant also feels that his fate is great." I dealt with it calmly.

"Oh? I really want to know, what kind of Dafa is your life tonight?"

"What the queen wants is nothing more than the life of the servant girl."

"Yes, only the dead keep secrets."

"Your Majesty, do you think this servant is really so stupid that she entered the palace without preparation?"

"What do you mean?" The queen clenched her fingers and looked aggressively.

"The servant has written the secrets of the empress, including the fact that the empress does not love Mr. Jing, but uses her feelings to restrain Mr. Jing, all written on a veil, and put it in a black box. When entering the palace, she told Mr. Jing , Open this box if something happens to the servant.” When the queen was about to speak, I said, “Your Majesty, you don’t need to send someone to steal it, I’m afraid you can’t steal it all. The servant wrote ten handkerchiefs and put them in ten pieces. Only Mr. Jing knows about the different places."

"Su En, you are getting smarter and smarter."

"If people are bullied a lot, they will always learn a lesson."

"Don't worry, I won't let you die so early, you can enjoy the pain I brought you, and bring the things up." As soon as the Queen's voice fell, two palace servants held water basins Walked up with Sipa.

When I saw these two things, I suddenly became nervous.

"I will be careful, I won't kill you, just let you feel the pain of not being able to breathe. Heh." The queen's laughter was soft, but it sounded extremely piercing.

The two palace servants immediately grabbed me, and the other palace servant soaked the silk handkerchief in water and walked towards me.

I struggled, and just as Sipa was about to apply it to my face, Xiaoru ran in in a panic, "Mother, Master Jing is here."

The queen was taken aback, "What is he doing here? Why are you still standing there, let's leave first." Then she said to Xiaoru, "You go down too."

Doubt flashed in Xiaoru's eyes before she said "yes" and stepped back.

Just as the palace servants left, Jing Lin walked in, glanced at me who was sitting on the ground, and then saluted the queen, "My brother has seen the queen."

The queen put on a dignified and delicate look again, "It's so late, what are you doing in the palace?"

"I missed you, so I entered the palace." Jing Lin smiled, "Isn't Enen by Qingrou's side? Why did you come here today?"

Why did Jing Lin enter the palace at this time?Even if he wanted to be a queen, he could go there, but he would never enter the palace without a hint from the queen.

The thought just flashed by, and I said: "Help, my lord. The empress wrongly accused this servant of stealing the token of the East Palace from His Highness the Crown Prince. The servant did not steal it. The token on his body was given to this servant by His Highness the Crown Prince. My lord must save this servant." .”

"Why did the prince give the token of the East Palace to a court lady like you?" The queen snorted coldly.

"East Palace Token?" Jing Lin thought for a while, "Is it the jade token with the East character engraved on the jade surface?"

"Yes." I nodded.

Jing Lin smiled, and said to the queen: "The empress really wronged Su En. A few days ago, the crown prince also mentioned this to his younger brother, saying that he gave Su En a piece of jade token."

If so, did Jing Lin come to rescue me?

But how did he know that the queen wanted to kill me?

"What a coincidence." The queen seemed to bite out every word.

"Doesn't the empress believe what my brother said?"

"Xin," the queen said reluctantly, "Su En, you can go back."

I quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

The night is cold as water.

The two walked on the palace corridor.

Facing Jing Lin's face full of loneliness, I didn't know what to comfort for a while.

How could he not notice the empress' indifference towards him.

"Jing Lin, you came here to save me tonight, didn't you?" I broke the silence.

"Yes."

It really made me guess right, "Then how did you know that I was captured by the queen?"

"Who else is there? Naturally, Qingrou sent someone to say it."

"Qingrou?" No matter how I guess, I can't guess this. When it comes to Qingrou, I don't know how she was tortured by those old palace people. I have to go back soon.

"She's fine." Jing Lin said, "Money can make ghosts turn the clock. She used the money to bribe the old palace man. It was the old palace man who came to report to me, so that I can enter the palace in time to save you."

This also works ah?I couldn't help but feel sad when I thought about it.

"It's really unexpected." Jing Lin smiled mockingly, "Yue Fu was really right."

"what?"

"I have always opposed Qingrou's entry into the palace before. I always felt that she was too simple, and she always spoke directly, which could easily hurt people. But Yuefu said that the light emitted by money can illuminate people's ugly hearts. Qingrou It's that light."

money light?If it was before, I would definitely not agree with Zhao Yuefu's statement, but now I think it is not unreasonable.

Back at Anqing Palace, there was only one candle burning faintly.

After entering the inner hall, Xia Qingrou had already fallen asleep, and slept soundly.

Can't help but smile, she is really innocent, such a dangerous thing like tonight is just a trivial matter to her.

Everyone has their own blessings.

The next day, the spring was bright, the sun was shining brightly, and the weather was rare.

Xia Qingrou woke up very late, when she saw me, she ran over and said happily: "Enen, when did you come back?"

"I came back last night and saw that the young lady was sleeping soundly. The servant thanked the young lady for saving her life." I saluted her and said gratefully.

"Compared to the time you saved me, this is nothing."

"If it wasn't for Miss, I don't know what kind of suffering I am suffering right now."

"What are you afraid of? Soldiers are here to stop you."

Infected by Xia Qingrou's simplicity, I couldn't help smiling happily.

At this time, a high-pitched voice came from the next door, "Yang Zhaoyi, you need to dress up well, the emperor will be lucky for you today, don't mess it up."

Leaning on the window and looking, I saw Yang Qing'er gave the father-in-law some money, and said with a smile: "Thank you for taking care of the father-in-law."

I thought Xia Qingrou would look melancholy upon hearing all this, but she was relieved and patted her chest with a look of joy.

When Yang Qing'er who turned around saw us, her brows raised slightly, she walked over gracefully, looked at Xia Qingrou proudly, didn't speak, just left with a cold snort.

A trace of displeasure flashed across Xia Qingrou's face, she was about to step forward, but I pulled her over, and said flatly, "Miss, don't bother with her."

"Too deceiving."

"This is the imperial palace. After staying for a long time, the young lady will know."

"What does that expression mean? I'm not reconciled." Xia Qingrou casually swung the teacup on the table to the ground, sulking angrily.

I picked up the pieces one by one and wrapped them in a handkerchief to keep my hands from being cut.

"Aren't you angry?" Seeing that I didn't speak, Xia Qingrou asked angrily.

"What are you angry about?"

"Didn't you see that contemptuous look in her eyes? How remarkable."

"Serving the bed, in the eyes of all concubines, is something to be proud of."

"You still speak for her."

"Slaves tell the truth, don't you want to serve the bed?" Isn't the reason for fighting in the harem to gain the emperor's favor?Like a moth to a flame, just for that little light.

Xia Qingrou rested her chin with one hand, seemed to be thinking about something, then suddenly bullied me and asked, "Who is that man?"

"Who?" She didn't understand why she asked such a sentence suddenly.

"It's the one who took you away that day."

I was stunned, and hurriedly said: "I don't even know this servant. After he took me away, he left me in front of a pile of ruins and left."

"But he seems to know you."

"The servant really doesn't know, if not, how could he leave the servant in such a place and let me fend for myself?"

"That's right." Xia Qingrou's small face lost all energy, and she leaned softly on the table.

She stopped asking, and I breathed a sigh of relief, but the emperor's cold eyes flashed in my mind...

After a shiver, the emperor became more and more unpredictable, and he had to be more cautious in doing things and thinking about things in the future.

"Enn," Xia Qingrou said suddenly, "I don't want to be the emperor's concubine anymore."

"Miss, what did you say?" The shards of the wrapped teacup almost fell to the ground again.

"I fell in love with the man who left you in the ruins." Xia Qingrou smirked.

"Miss, you can't talk nonsense."

"I didn't talk nonsense."

I had a headache, "Miss, you are already the emperor's Zhaoyi, how can you fall in love with another man?"

"I don't care, I must find out who that man is?" Xia Qingrou immediately became full of energy.

I don't understand, how can a person change so quickly?

When she entered the palace, she was still so infatuated with the emperor, but after meeting Bai Xuan...

Can the mood of liking someone change at any time?
No, that's not the point.

Although she didn't go to bed, she was already the emperor's servant.

It's night again, full of stars.

At this time, the hall next door was brightly lit.

Through the gap in the window, Xia Qingrou sat on the stool and looked at the other side with displeasure.

It must be that thinking of Yang Qing'er's contempt for her during the day made her extremely unhappy.

"Miss, go to sleep." After finishing the bedding, I will call her.

"Enn," Xia Qingrou's clear eyes flickered, "Is there any way to make the emperor leave in anger?"

"what?"

"Thinking of her flaunting her power during the day, I can't sleep because of anger. In Changle Province, who would dare to suffer such anger for me."

"Miss, this is in the palace. The palace is different from when you are at home."

"No matter how different it is, it shouldn't be this kind of person who made me angry, and she didn't settle with her for pushing me into the mud pit that day."

I didn't know what to say, so I just said: "Miss, forget it, live under the same roof, peace is the most important thing."

Xia Qingrou is an innocent and straightforward person, but in some respects, Master Xia spoils her so much, how can the palace compare to the family?
Just as he was talking, there was a knock on the door.

When he opened the door, he saw Yang Qing'er's personal girl, Xia'er, outside.

"Is something wrong?" I asked.

Xia'er didn't look at me, she just walked up to Xia Qingrou, Shi Li said coldly: "My family Zhaoyi is short of staff tonight, so I want to borrow Su En from Xia Zhaoyi for one night, I wonder if Xia Zhaoyi is willing?"

Thinking that Xia Qingrou would definitely refuse and glared at each other, she smiled slightly and said very kindly: "Okay, Enen, you can go there, but take good care of Yang Zhaoyi, and don't forget what I told you."

My heart suddenly became heavy, I don't know if it's because of Xia Qingrou's promise or because I'm about to meet the man I don't want to see the most.

The Qingning Hall was full of fragrance.

After taking a bath, Yang Qing'er sat gracefully in front of the dressing table, dressed alluringly and charmingly, and her body was full of fragrance.

"My servant has seen Yang Zhaoyi." I saluted.

Yang Qing'er let out a coquettish smile, teased her slender and beautiful fingers, and looked at me, "She's a wit."

"What does Yang Zhaoyi want the servant to do?" I asked calmly.

Yang Qing'er got up and walked over, the fragrance became more and more intense, "You don't need to do anything, just watch, and then go back and tell your master how the emperor dotes on me."

that's all?I smile wryly.

Is this necessary?

At this time, Xia'er, who was guarding the gate of the hall, hurried back and said, "Miss, the emperor is here."

Yang Qing'er was overjoyed, and after looking left and right in the mirror, she excitedly went to greet her.

As soon as Ming Huang's figure came in, the whole hall suddenly felt a little more solemn.

A salute.

"Your Majesty, my concubine specially prepared tremella soup, Xia'er, bring it here soon." Yang Qing'er's voice was softer and more flattering.

He walked past me, and the breath on his body rushed into my nose.

"Your Majesty, would you like some food?"

"Alright, I'm really hungry." He gave a light "um".

I didn't look sideways, and stood aside politely, but I heard Yang Qing'er say: "Su En, what are you still doing? Take it out."

"Yes." Approaching him, I opened the copper pot, took the spoon, calmly put it into the bowl little by little, and brought it to him, "Your Majesty, please use it."

He glanced at me coldly.

"Your Majesty, let me serve you." Yang Qing'er took the soup and was about to feed the spoon.

He said coldly: "Yang Zhaoyi smells very good on her body."

Yang Qing'er was very embarrassed immediately, "If the emperor likes this fragrance, I will spend every day..." She didn't finish her sentence.

I suddenly exclaimed, he actually hugged me, his cold eyes locked on my face which was calm but shocked at the moment, "But I like the smell of this court lady better, Yang Zhaoyi should take care of it." Ask her what fragrance is on her body, lest I will smell the pungent smell again when I come next time."

I saw Yang Qing'er's pale face, with a look of extreme shame and anger, "Emperor, Your Majesty, I am a concubine..."

"Tonight, let her serve the bed, go out."

No one expected things to suddenly turn out like this.

My face is paler than Yang Qinger's.

Yang Qing'er stood aside at a loss, obviously not knowing what to do, and even doubting whether she had heard it wrong.

"Do you want me to say it a second time?" The voice was obviously angry.

Yang Qing'er trembled, "Yes, yes." When he came out of the hall, he suddenly turned around and looked at me with venomous eyes.

"What? Are you scared?" The hands tied around my waist were tightened suddenly, and I was even more close to him.

"Your Majesty, please let go of your servant." His chest was heaving in shock. What he did tonight undoubtedly pushed me to the forefront.

"I told you, you will serve me tonight." He picked me up and walked towards the bed.

"Let me go." Panicked, I struggled.

The body was thrown to the bed, and the pain spread from all directions.

Ignoring the pain, I hurriedly got up and got out of bed, and he was already on top of me.

"Let go of me, let me go."

The waving hands were tightly pressed by him, and the lips were plundered fiercely. There was no affection, only domineering conquest.

no, do not want--

But I couldn't move my body.

I bit down hard, and the smell of blood began to permeate between my lips and teeth.

His closed eyes suddenly opened, and a murderous look flashed in his eyes.

At this moment, my heart shrank and I felt a bit of fear, but I still looked back at him stubbornly, letting him see the hatred and disgust in my eyes.

"You," he moved away from my lips, his cold pool-like pupils became complicated, and there was even more imperceptible deep pain.

"The emperor wants a slave, but the slave can't refuse. I just ask the emperor to let the slave have dignity at this time. The slave doesn't want to be raped." I said coldly.

"Did you always think that I was raping you?" He left me, leaving only one color in his eyes, endless coldness.

"Isn't it?" I sneered, I was so humble in front of him, well-behaved and dutiful, why did he always come to provoke me?
The last thing I want is a relationship with him.

I slowly took off the clothes on my body, untied the rope of my belly, and stood naked in front of him.

"Very good, very good." His voice was hoarse, and he leaned over.

He didn't even take off his clothes, just unbuttoned the inner lining underneath, and pushed in hard.

The dry pain down there stiffened me, and every deep thrust he made was painful.

Everything is just for venting.

Holding the quilts on both sides tightly with both hands, I closed my eyes tightly and gritted my teeth to bear it.

Finally, he stopped, I thought it was over, but no, he was still strong in my body.

What does he want to do?
I opened my eyes, and what I met was a pair of injured pupils, so heavy and so painful.

"Zhen, what should I do with you?" He suddenly hugged me tightly, buried his head deep into my neck, his voice was hoarse as if he was running over sand, "You always don't care about anything , I walk in front of you, you are still so calm and breezy, I take a step closer to you, you take a step back, I want to get close to you, but you always look at me with disgust and hatred, what should you do? will like me."

My eyes widened, what was he talking about?
The coolness in the voice was replaced by pain, is this man really the emperor I know?

"I don't want to hurt you, but you always make me angry every time, tell me, what should I do so that you will like me?" He hugged me tighter, every word was suppressed and painful, "I don't want to see you again, But you always appear in front of me, and when I see you, I want you so badly that my heart hurts."

I stared blankly at the top of the tent, every word he said was in my ear, so clear.

"I like you, you should have known it long ago, I like you very much, now I put down all my pride and dignity, and talk."

Say what?What should I say?
Only shock, disbelief.

He didn't move at all, he and I seemed to be still, no one moved at all.

I don't know how long it took, but my arms loosened.

He stood up silently, with the familiar indifference still in his eyes, as if the pain just now was just an illusion, "Is this the answer you gave me?"

My mind was in a mess, I didn't know what to do other than stare blankly.

He laughed sarcastically and left coldly.

The back is proud but lonely.

I propped up my sore body, picked up the clothes one by one, and put them on.

"I like you, you should have known that, I like you very much."

like?I laughed, very bitterly.

Does he know that all the pain I'm suffering now is given to me, without him, my mother will not die, and I will not enter the palace.

won't suffer so much.

He actually said he likes me?
How does he want me to answer?

How to respond?

The palace door was pushed open heavily, and Yang Qing'er walked in with an angry face.

When I looked up, a slap came over me.

Caught off guard, I took the palm abruptly.

Still puzzled, she waved her other hand.

The slap didn't fall, I was caught.

"Let go of me, you are so brave, you dare to fight back." Yang Qing'er was furious.

"Yang Zhaoyi," I looked at her coldly, "The maidservant has just served her bed, and the emperor hasn't gone far yet."

"You? You are just a court lady, do you think you can fly up a branch and become a phoenix?"

"Yang Zhaoyi, you are the one who called your servant over tonight, thank you Zhaoyi for your fulfillment." I saluted with a smile, and when I looked up, I saw that she was too angry to speak.

"Your maidservant is retiring." After exiting Qingning Hall, I slightly loosened my clenched hands and looked at the bright moon above my head, feeling a sense of desolation spontaneously.

When I returned to Anqing Hall, I saw Xia Qingrou happily drinking tea. Seeing me coming in, she said happily: "I didn't expect the emperor to leave so soon. Well done, how did you do it?"

I was extremely bitter, and said lightly: "The person serving the bed tonight is a servant girl, not Yang Qing'er."

Even if you don't tell her now, she will know tomorrow.

Even if her heart is not with the emperor, such a thing is still a little different.

Xia Qingrou was taken aback for a moment, and it took him a while to come back to his senses, "You mean, you and the emperor..."

"Yes."

Xia Qingrou looked at me with a different gaze, lowered her head and took a sip of her tea, as if she was casually saying: "There are many ways to make the emperor leave, aren't there?"

"Miss?"

"That's right," Xia Qingrou smiled, her pure eyes took on a strange color, "You should make plans for your future."

I was taken aback, could it be that she thought I had seduced the emperor?
"People really don't care about their appearance. It's late at night, go to sleep." Xia Qingrou finished speaking with a smile, yawned gracefully, and entered behind the screen.

He swallowed the words of explanation.

In this world, who really understands me and treats me well?

Who should I trust?Who can make me believe it?
All court ladies who served the emperor must be recorded.

If the emperor is happy, he will seal a Zhaoyi, otherwise, he will remain a court lady.

And me, obviously the latter.

I quietly breathed a sigh of relief.

The news about Qingning Hall spread throughout the palace.

Two days later, Zhao Yuefu appeared in Anqing Hall.

She looked at me coldly, her face extremely ugly.

"No matter what, the person who should be favored should be Yang Zhaoyi or Qingrou, how could it be you?" Zhao Yuefu was extremely angry.

Xia Qingrou was eating some fruit, and said with a smile: "The emperor's concubine, who doesn't like to be a concubine, if there is such an opportunity, she will naturally seize it."

Zhao Yuefu looked at me thoughtfully, "Su En, have you really changed your mind?"

"Change of heart?" Xia Qingrou turned her suspicious eyes on Zhao Yuefu and me.

"If the slave says that everything is not voluntary, will Madam believe it?" I asked back.

"Ahem..." Xia Qingrou accidentally slipped the whole fruit down her throat, and slapped her chest desperately. It took a long time to catch her breath, and said slightly sarcastically, "Could it be that the emperor is still using force on you?"

Yes, who would believe it?No one will believe it.

A strange light flashed in Zhao Yuefu's eyes, and soon disappeared, "Anyway, since you are Qingrou's personal girl, you should think about Qingrou, what should you do to make the emperor summon her and be favored?" .”

"Cousin, I'm looking for you." Xia Qingrou's eyes flashed eagerly.

"what's up."

"I want you to check someone."

"people?"

"A man who looks like a country and a city, and walks like a man."

With a thought, Xia Qingrou asked Zhao Yuefu to find Bai Xuan. Could it be that what she said was true?
"A man? Don't forget, you are now the Emperor's Zhaoyi." Zhao Yuefu frowned, looking at her cousin dissatisfied.

"Cousin, haven't you always wanted my jade phoenix? As long as you help me find him, it will be yours."

"Okay, I will find him within ten days." Zhao Yuefu was extremely dissatisfied at first, but now she readily agreed.

Sending Zhao Yuefu out of the palace, the two walked on the long palace corridor without speaking.

Zhao Yuefu seemed to be thinking about something, and finally said after a long while: "Qing Rou will have an accident sooner or later, until now she is so ignorant, ignorant of self-knowledge, regardless of interests, and treats the palace as something."

"Miss Qingrou is just relatively simple." I said lightly.

"Her innocence comes from her ignorance." Zhao Yuefu stopped and looked at me with a deep smile.

"Ma'am, what's wrong?"

"I think you shouldn't have forgotten Tang Yu so quickly." She asked with a smile.

Tang Yu, the pain in his heart once again appeared in front of him.

Zhao Yuefu walked up the stairs slowly, and said again: "If you want to seduce the emperor, you will do it when you are with the empress."

"What does Ma'am want to say?"

"It's nothing." Zhao Yuefu smiled even more happily, "I'm leaving the palace now, I'll talk to the Empress about something." After speaking, she walked out of the palace corridor and walked to the Crescent Moon Gate on the other side.

Looking at Zhao Yuefu's departure, I feel that she is very strange today.

But he didn't find that in another part of the palace corridor, Concubine Liu and Mingxiu were looking here.

"Niang Niang," Ming Xiu asked in a low voice, "that Xia Qingrou is protected by Mrs. Shang Shu, I'm afraid it won't be so easy to deal with."

"What are you going to do with her? Xia Qingrou has unknowingly offended the Empress, can she still live a good life?" Concubine Liu stared at me, thinking.

"But she should not be underestimated. She actually managed to get her girl to serve Yang Zhaoyi's bed."

"That's not more stupid, let her girl take advantage of this."

"How could a girl catch the emperor's eyes, and besides, Su En is not very attractive, so it is impossible for the emperor to look at her twice."

Concubine Liu raised her eyebrows, "Who do you think the emperor is? A person who is at the mercy of others?"

Ming Xiu was taken aback.

"I don't care about the women in this palace, except her." Concubine Liu stared at me more and more fiercely, "I really care about it, but now is not the time."

"Who is the lady referring to?"

Concubine Liu smiled charmingly, and said: "Xia Qingrou, I don't mind pushing her, Mingxiu, you go tell Eunuch Fu and find a way to get the emperor to go to her place tonight."

"Isn't it cheap for her to do this?"

Concubine Liu pursed her lips, and said indifferently: "The higher you stand, the harder you fall."

I didn't expect to meet Aunt Suyan outside Mingfei Palace.

After looking at each other for a while, there was a smile on my face, just like before, but there was no smile in my eyes, "Auntie, how are you lately?"

Aunt Suyan was a bit haggard, and tried to smile, "You have entered the palace, why didn't you tell me?"

"Didn't my aunt always hope that Enen was in the palace? I didn't tell my aunt because I wanted to give my aunt a surprise when I met him suddenly."

"Yeah, a big surprise."

"Enen will talk to my aunt another day. It's getting late, and Enen is going to serve Xia Zhaoyi." After finishing speaking, I entered the round door.

"Enn," Aunt Suyan said in a lonely voice, "Why didn't you ask?"

Turning around, I smiled and asked, "What are you asking?"

"I, I—" Aunt Su bit her lower lip tightly, her eyes full of guilt, but she was speechless.

"What's the matter, aunt? She's hesitating, not like the Suyan aunt that Enen knew."

"fine."

"Eunen will talk to my aunt someday. Auntie, go slowly." When I turned around, I felt an indescribable pain in my heart. It was Aunt Su's lip service that prevented me from going out of the palace, and I have everything I have now.

How can I forgive her?
I have always believed that she is my relative and the person I can trust the most.

I never wanted to doubt her, but she was the one who hurt me the most.

Without looking back, I stepped into the Anqing Hall.

As soon as he entered the palace, he heard a father-in-law say flatteringly: "Xia Zhaoyi, with your beauty, you will definitely be favored by the emperor. You must seize the opportunity when you go to bed tonight."

"Qing Rou, thank you, Eunuch Fu, for your care."

"Heh, before Zhaoyi entered the palace, Master Xia came to take care of her. This is the only thing I can do. In the evening, Zhaoyi should take care of it herself."

"You keep this, it's only worth a thousand taels, and you need to pay more attention to it in the future."

Walking into the inner hall, I saw Eunuch Fu, the head of the Ministry of Internal Affairs, took a piece of fine jadeite and put it into his arms, his whole face was disfigured with a smile.

"Taking care of Zhaoyi is the job of this old slave, so this old slave will step down first." Withdrew, Eunuch Fu gave me a special look.

Xia Qingrou, who was doing her makeup in front of the mirror, put down her wooden comb, turned around and looked at me, and said with a happy face: "Tonight, the emperor turned over my brand name."

"The maidservant just heard it outside, so I'm going to prepare hot water."

"Wait," Xia Qingrou put her hair behind her ears, and smiled innocently, "Just now I asked Eunuch Fu for a palace lady, I don't need you here tonight, go down and rest."

I was a little surprised, but after a while I understood, "Yes."

But I was relieved in my heart, I don't have to see that man again, I was still worried just now, "The servant has retired."

"Enen." Xia Qingrou walked over with a smile, held my hand, and smiled, "Forget what I said back then."

"What?"

"That man who looks like a country and a city."

Bai Xuan?That's right, Xia Qingrou said that she likes Baixuan and doesn't want to be the emperor's concubine anymore. I thought about it and said: "I don't remember any man who is so powerful."

Xia Qingrou smiled even more innocently, "You are really my good maid, go down."

After returning to my small room, I suddenly felt that I didn't understand Xia Qingrou's thoughts.

How could her mind change so quickly?
Sometimes naive, sometimes sophisticated, sometimes deep.

But what does it matter to me?
I opened the window and looked at the bright moon above my head, feeling extremely heavy in my heart.

There is too much repression and too much resentment.

And I can't do anything but endure it.

Unknowingly, I watched like this for an hour.

Exhausted all over, I close the window, it's time to rest.

When I fell asleep, my hand accidentally touched the sachet under the pillow.

The faint fragrance of plum blossoms immediately filled the nose.

This sachet was embroidered when I was in the Shangshu Mansion. At that time, Zhao Yuefu asked me if I gave it to Jinglin.

I have always wanted to give it to Tang Yu, but I have no chance.

My eye sockets were moist, and when I closed my eyes, tears slowly fell down.

Burying her face into the pillow, she cried bitterly.

Unable to resist, he can only be forced to bear everything humbly. He only wants to live an ordinary life, but he always fails to do so.

Where is the mistake, where is the mistake?
How can we return to the origin?
The cry is bleak, but it can't express my heart.

Shortly after falling asleep, I suddenly woke up.

Since entering the palace, I have never fallen asleep peacefully, as long as there is a little noise, I can wake up.

"Who?" I stood up abruptly, and reached for the dagger under the quilt. This dagger was prepared for the killer sent by the queen.

Beside the pillar, a man stood leaning against the pillar. In the darkness, his face could not be seen clearly, but his figure felt familiar.

I gripped the dagger tightly.

"It seems that you didn't sleep well." He walked out of the dark shadows.

"Qing Yi?" I didn't expect it to be him, I was surprised but full of guard, "What are you doing here?"

"I want you to save someone."

"Save people?" I was taken aback.

"It's Bai Xuan. He was punished by the Lord and locked in the ice prison for half a month. If this continues, he will freeze to death."

"I don't understand what you're talking about." Bai Xuan was imprisoned?Qing Yi came to ask me to save him?

"Baixuan lied to you that the lord was lost, causing you to be unconscious in the fake cave for two days. After the lord found out, he was locked up and tortured with ice. Now, only you can save him."

"Me? Save him? How is that possible?" Did that man punish Bai Xuan because of me?

"The lord likes you, as long as you say a word, the lord will definitely let Bai Xuan go." Qing Yi pleaded.

"You have found the wrong person. I don't want to have anything to do with him."

"Did you know that during the three days when you were rescued, the lord personally fed you the medicine, fed you rice porridge, and even took a bath. The lord personally came. It is too heartless for you to say that."

"What?" I have a vague impression that someone fed me medicine and rice porridge, so gentle, as if caring for the most precious thing.

"At that time, you couldn't eat anything, the only way my lord could do it was mouth to mouth..."

"Shut up." I snapped and clenched my fists.

"What I'm saying is the truth. If the lord hadn't forced you to take medicine and rice porridge in a mouth-to-mouth manner, you would have died of excessive weakness."

"Shut up, I don't want to hear it."

"Baixuan hates you just because you let the lord, who is the emperor, care about you so much. It's never happened before. Baixuan always believes that the lord should not have weaknesses. It's really wrong for Baixuan to do so. I just hope you Can forgive him this time, save him."

"What does it have to do with me?" I looked at him coldly, Baixuan almost killed me, since I did something wrong, I should be punished.

Qing Yi and I looked at each other for a while, then suddenly knelt down, "Qing Yi, I beg you."

"I said, it has nothing to do with me."

"Qing Yi, I beg you."

"Get out." Bai Xuan's deceit made me more involved with that man. Thinking of what happened in Qingning Palace yesterday, I almost bit my lips to bleed.

In front of him, I had no choice but to compromise and be forced to endure. All resistance seemed powerless and pale.

"Qing Yi, I beg you."

"I won't save Bai Xuan, why should I save him when he treats me like that?" I laughed and sneered.

Qingyi stood up, with a half-smile in his eyes, "I really don't understand, what does my lord like about you? You are no different from the women in the palace."

My body shook.

"I thought you would save Bai Xuan, but it seems that I was wrong." After Qing Yi finished speaking coldly, the door opened and disappeared under the night.

The night wind blew in through the open door and blew on his face, bringing a chill in the coolness.

Yes, what is the difference between me now and those people I despise and despise?
Don't you always want to stick to the principles of life?

When did you become so indifferent?

I hugged myself tightly and buried my face deeply in the bedding.

I don't want to be like this, I don't want to—

I am confused.

When did it start, my heart was cold?
It's like walking into a small area covered with white mist, trying to disperse the thick fog, wanting to leave here, but always involuntarily burrowing into the thick fog.

Ever since entering the palace, she has been in a daze, without thinking about what she said or what she did.

What's wrong with me?
Splitting headache.

not like this.

Entering the palace is not to confuse oneself, but to let everything have a result.

Make it all over.

But how can we end it?
Although there is no killer, it does not mean that the queen will let me go.

How can I convince the queen that I won't betray her?

It's not yet dawn.

I stood at the main entrance of Concubine Ming's Palace, pacing uneasily.

Bai Xuan, he lied to me and even almost killed me.

But I have nothing against him after all.

I don't know how severe the so-called ice torture is, but Qing Yi knelt down, it must be extremely painful.

I still can't bear it.

Take a deep breath.

At this time, Ming Huang's figure was seen coming out of the Anqing Hall, surrounded by palace officials and eunuchs, walking towards the main entrance.

Taking another deep breath, I stepped forward.

"Slave Su En kowtowed to the emperor."

"Bold slave, how dare you stop me and still not get out of the way?" Eunuch Fu hurried up to me and shouted.

"The servant girl came here specially to thank the emperor for saving his life." I kowtowed.

"Your majesty?" Eunuch Fu looked at the emperor, hoping for instructions from the emperor.

But he didn't say a word, just walked past me, out the main gate, and walked towards Feihe Hall.

Eunuch Fu quickly followed.

"Your Majesty, this servant has something to say." I chased him out, shouting as I chased, "This servant went to the ruins voluntarily, and it has nothing to do with other people. Please don't punish others, Your Majesty."

He still didn't stop.

"Your Majesty, it's a servant girl..." My feet hurt violently, and I suddenly fell to the ground. When I raised my head, he was already gone.

Why did I forget that feet cannot run.

Looking at the empty palace, deep failure welled up in my heart, why didn't I do a single thing well?
The new maid in Anqing Palace turned out to be Xia'er, Yang Qing'er's personal maid.

When I saw Xia'er, the left side of her face was swollen, and the marks of five fingers were obvious.

"Did Xia Zhaoyi hit you?" I asked.

At this time, Xia'er no longer had the arrogance of the past, and she nodded timidly.

Hit someone?Ever since I met Xia Qingrou, I have never seen her beating anyone, even her temper is like a child's. Is this really the Xia Qingrou I know?
Is she changing too fast, or have I never gotten to know her at all?
"What made her mad at you?"

"I just said the words 'My Miss', and Xia Zhaoyi called." Xia'er choked on her sobs.

At that time, Yang Qing'er was only a little proud in front of Xia Qingrou because she was serving the bed, how could she hold a grudge so far?
"Xia'er?" Yang Qing'er's surprised voice sounded from behind, she didn't know when she came in, and saw her striding towards me, looking at Xia'er's hematomatous half of her face, and said distressedly, "Did she hit you?"

When she saw her old master, Xia'er cried aggrievedly.

"Xia Qingrou, I'll settle the score with her." Yang Qing'er said as she rushed into the hall.

I didn't even have a chance to stop it, so I hurried in.

I saw Yang Qing'er pointing at Xia Qingrou's nose and cursing: "What did Xia'er provoke you that you hit so hard?"

"She didn't offend me." Xia Qingrou sipped her tea gracefully, "I just hate her mentioning you."

"You, don't be too complacent."

"Of course I want to be proud, how can I not be proud in front of a fool?" Xia Qingrou smiled extremely happily.

Yang Qing'er was so angry that she stepped forward and overturned the cup on the table.

Xia Qingrou's face sank, she stepped forward and raised her hand to slap Yang Qing'er.

"You hit me?" When Yang Qing'er was about to fight back, Xia Qingrou stared at her arrogantly, "How dare you, the emperor said last night that you will come to my Anqing Hall today, if you leave any marks on me, I will let you I can't eat and walk around."

"It's just that I stayed in bed all night, and Xia Zhaoyi is so arrogant?" The queen's voice shocked everyone, and they saw the queen slowly entering the palace accompanied by the maids.

A hurried salute.

I was busy serving tea, and stepped aside respectfully.

As if nothing happened, Xia Qingrou asked the queen with a smile: "Is your empress here to see Qingrou?"

"Yeah, but I saw a scene that I didn't like."

Hearing what the queen said, Yang Qing'er knelt down in front of the queen and cried, "Your Majesty, forgive me, Qing'er just misses the maid who grew up together, and I don't want Xia Zhaoyi to slap my concubine when she sees her. Make the decision."

"Get up, you're a Zhaoyi anyway, why are you crying like this?" the queen said coldly.

Seeing the queen's face darken, Yang Qing'er really didn't dare to cry, and got up and stood aside aggrieved.

"She is talking nonsense, she is clearly jealous that I have been favored by the emperor and came to provoke trouble." Xia Qingrou was also wronged in every possible way, "Your Majesty, you have to make the decision for Qingrou."

"I'm not here today to take care of your matters." The queen glanced at me and said with a smile, "I'm here to ask Qingrou for someone."

Xia Qingrou was taken aback, and her eyes fell on me, "I don't know who the empress wants?"

"It's Su En, my former personal servant."

My heart was shocked, and I hurriedly knelt on the ground, my thoughts were chaotic, the queen wants me?Didn't she want to kill me?
"Personal maid?" Xia Qingrou was stunned.

"What? Didn't Yuefu tell you?" The Queen came over to help me, and took my hand kindly, "Enen used to be Bengong's personal maid, and Bengong valued her very much. If Yuefu hadn't spoken Yes, I really can't bear to let her leave the palace, now it's all right, as long as Enen returns to Bengong, Bengong will be able to relax a lot. Qingrou, you won't refuse, will you?"

Xia Qingrou hid her astonishment, and only smiled and said: "That's Enen's blessing, Qingrou is too late to be happy, but I feel uncomfortable after being wronged like this today."

Xia Qingrou's words were obviously an exchange of terms with the queen, so bold, it seems that she really knew too little about her before.

The queen lowered her eyes and gathered the corners of her clothes, displeasure flashed across her eyes, and she looked at Yang Qing'er calmly, "Yang Zhaoyi, do you know your mistake?"

Yang Qing'er made fists with both palms, made a fist, and still knelt down, "I know my mistake, I shouldn't have been dazzled by jealousy and come to Xia Zhaoyi's place to mess around, please punish the queen."

The queen said softly, "Since you know your mistake, you will be punished and not allowed to take a step out of Qingning Palace for three days."

"The concubine takes orders."

Yang Qing'er was obviously extremely dissatisfied with the queen's punishment, and frowned.

And I was brought to the Queen's Palace just like that, and became the Queen's personal servant again.

That night.

Serving the queen to bathe.

When I came to the queen's palace, the queen didn't say a word, she just looked at me with thoughtful eyes.

"Your Majesty, the water is cold, do you want to add some hot water?" I asked, without squinting, as I did my duty.

"No need, I'm sleepy too." When the queen got up, I surrounded her with dry silk and ordered Xiao Ru, who had been staring at me with resentful eyes, to get the clothes.

Until now, I still don't understand why the Queen suddenly wanted me from Xia Qingrou's side.

"Enen, what kind of person do you think Concubine Liu is?" the queen asked slowly.

"The slave does not know."

"I don't know? Bengong told you that she is a strong enemy of this palace. Concubine An asked the imperial doctor to deliberately say that she could not conceive a dragon heir, concealed the fact that she was pregnant, and even secretly let a pregnant woman enter the palace to pretend to be pregnant." Concubine An, it was all her idea, and that pot of charm, everything, was all done by Concubine Liu behind her back."

Startled, was Concubine Liu behind the scenes about Concubine An?
Indeed, it is very difficult to do this with An Fei's strength alone.

I just don't understand why the queen said these things to me.

"Obviously, Concubine An has formed an alliance with Concubine Liu, and the two of them are going to deal with me." The queen snorted coldly, "And beside me, I lack a helper."

"Isn't there Xiaoru by your side?" My heart felt inexplicably uneasy.

The queen's implication is obvious, she also wants to find an ally, but I'm just a mere court lady.

No matter how powerful a court lady is, she can't do much, she can only be an errand.

"Bengong has never believed her, and she doesn't have the conditions to help me." The queen looked at me with a smile, deep in her heart, "Only you, Su En."

"The servant girl is just a little maid, and she has no ability to help the queen. At most, she just runs errands." The uneasiness expanded, and she felt something faintly, but she didn't dare to think deeply.

"You have, you have always had, Ben Gong knows, Concubine An knows, Concubine Liu knows, and you should know too."

"The servant girl doesn't know what the empress is talking about."

"It's okay if you don't know, I can remind you."

"When Concubine Liu told me that you had slept outside the palace, no, you were forced by the emperor, I was surprised by the emperor's attitude. No matter how beautiful she was born, the emperor is extremely measured, or rather, it has reached the point of indifference, let alone pity and pamper the concubine."

What does the queen want to say?
The queen said slowly but sharply: "The medicine for you is because I don't want you to marry Jing Lin, and secondly, it is a bet that the emperor will not want you. The emperor is not a benevolent person. In front of him, as long as he doesn't want to, even if she dies in front of him, the emperor will never frown, but the emperor has cured the effect of the medicine for you."

"That's, that's..." I had nothing to say.

"And this time," the queen's voice was deliberately soft, "You replaced Yang Qing'er in bed, no matter what the reason is, it just shows that the emperor treats you differently from others."

"Your Majesty is thinking too much. This servant just wants to live an ordinary life. If it hadn't been for your Majesty to send someone to assassinate this servant, this servant would have returned to the countryside by now." I knelt in front of her, my eyes full of frankness, "My Lady, this servant will never Tell others about your empress, and beg your empress to release your servant."

The queen's eyebrows were slightly raised, she helped me up, and said with a smile: "What are you talking about, can I still not trust you? Besides, what's so good about the hard life in the countryside? There are fine clothes and jade food in the palace, and silk and satin are used for it." It’s endless, it’s hundreds of times better than outside.”

"Slaves and maids are not rare, I beg your mother to help you."

"The court ladies are not rare, what about the emperor's concubine?"

I looked at her in astonishment, "This servant doesn't understand what the Empress Empress means."

"I have already told the emperor that Su En is my personal maid, and I love her so much. Since I have served her bed, I should give her a title. The emperor didn't say anything, but these titles have always been handled by me. It's up to you."

My face turned white, almost transparent.

No, I can't be the emperor's concubine, I don't want to be out of the palace for the rest of my life, no way.

"Your Majesty," I knelt down in front of the queen again, "The servant girl and Tang Yu have already married outside, please let the servant girl go for Tang Yu's sake, the servant girl would rather be a humble maid for the rest of her life. I don't want to be a concubine."

The queen's voice became very soft, and she lowered her head slightly to look at me, "You married Tang Yu? Can anyone testify?"

"Yes, there is a simple inn next to Wangtian Lake. The owner of the inn is a very kind mother-in-law. She became a witness for me and Tang Yu." I said eagerly.

"Very well, I will send someone to kill her."

"what?"

The queen smiled happily, "Don't hate me, if you want to hate, go hate the emperor. Who told the emperor to treat you differently? Tonight, the emperor went to Xia Qingrou's place again. It must be Concubine Liu's fault. It's clear, but it's not as good as her wish." The queen patted me on the shoulder, her voice was deliberately gentle, which made people feel cold, "It's up to you, there is no need to do anything, what I want is Concubine Liu's. in a hurry."

"Your Majesty," at this moment, Xiao Ru walked in holding a clean long gown, "Please change."

"Your Majesty, you can't treat this servant like this. This servant has no intention of competing for favor. I beg you to spare this servant. Please forgive this servant." I knelt down in front of the queen and kowtowed in panic.

"Then who will spare me? Don't worry, the emperor's love is like a flash in the pan. Maybe the emperor will be bored with you in half a year. Half a year is enough for me to get rid of one person. I think that the emperor cares about you, which is your love." Let's have a good life and personality, keep it up, at least for the first half year. Hmm?" The corner of the queen's lips slowly evoked a sharp smile, showing a little hostility, and went straight out of the bathing pool.

(End of this chapter)