refuse to be a concubine

Chapter 28 Your Majesty, Please Allow Me to Leave the Palace
"No." I got up and chased out.

"Su En." The Queen suddenly turned around and looked at me, "Stop making useless struggles. Tomorrow, I will issue an order to formally designate you as Zhaoyi. Go prepare."

"No, you can't, you can't do this, you can't." Watching the queen leave coldly, I fell to the ground, full of helplessness and fear.

Empress?It means that you will spend your whole life in the palace.

I will be involved with that man all my life.

No, I don't want to do this, stand up, I want to chase out, but Xiaoru blocks her, she sarcastically said: "Su Zhaoyi, will my servant take you back to your room?"

"Step aside."

"Why are you pretending to be noble? Zhaoyi? Which court lady wouldn't ask for it? Such hypocrisy is really disgusting." After speaking, Xiaoru left with a cold snort.

My ten fingers turned white, my lips were bitten so that blood flowed out, resentment and hatred burst out from the bottom of my heart, breaking through the blockades that were suppressed by layers of force, and I couldn't hold back anymore, I rushed out of the queen's palace.

I hate that man, I hate this palace, and everything in the palace.

Why am I forced to suffer?

I am helpless and without any power, why can I only be the one being bullied?
Why does he have to like the humble me?

Unable to protect himself, he fought back weakly, and became the bullied party under this dark palace.

Does it deserve it?
Hate, hate so much.

"Stop, Zhaoyang Palace is not the place for maids of honor." With the hand in front of me, my father-in-law's high-pitched voice woke me up.

Slowly looking up at the three blue and black characters on the top, I moved my cold fingertips, and I smiled, a deep smile.

What are you doing here?Why must there be a result?
Killed, isn't it a one-and-done one?

Right now, it's not self-inflicted.

Just die, I've been alone for a long time, after Tang Yu's death, all I have left is to live my life in ignorance.

Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing.

"I want to see the emperor." At this hour, he should still be here.

The father-in-law who stood in my way seemed to be shocked by the hatred in my eyes, and said in a daze, "Your Majesty, you can see him whenever you want?"

"Please tell me that Su En is asking to see you." I took out the money bag from my pocket and handed it all into his hands.

Weighing the weight of the purse, the father-in-law looked me up and down, reluctantly: "Okay. Wait a while."

After a while, the father-in-law came out, shook his head and said, "Go, the emperor won't see you."

I sneered and said, "Did you really report it?"

The father-in-law's face sank, "What do you mean? Could it be possible to lie to you?"

"You know it in your heart."

"So what if you don't report it? You want to see the emperor with your little money?" My father-in-law threw the money bag on my face.

The pain on the bridge of my nose made me dizzy for a moment.

I picked it up slowly, and the weight of the purse became lighter. Obviously, he took some.

Holding it tightly, I really want to throw it back in his face like this.

"Why are you standing still, why don't you leave soon?"

The father-in-law at the side was moved with compassion, and he came up and said kindly: "Let's go, the emperor has just gone to Xia Zhaoyi's place, even if you go in, you will not see the emperor."

"Isn't it just to please the emperor? I don't know how many palace maids send this and that to our inner court affairs every year. You are still a little tender. Go and ask for advice before you come." The father-in-law just waved his hand impatiently. , "It's not too soon..." The word "leave" stuck in his throat, the father-in-law's face suddenly turned pale, and the father-in-law's expression on the side also became flustered.

Turning around, I saw a pair of eyes that were darker than the darkness of the night. That bright yellow body exuded supreme nobility and the aura of an emperor that cannot be looked up to. Even in such a dark night, it still looked shining Brilliant, burning my sight.

"Come in." With Qinghan's words, he walked into Zhaoyang Hall.

Zhaoyang Hall, next to the Feior Hall of the Shang Dynasty, is a small imperial study and sleeping hall.

As long as the court is busy, the emperor will spend the night here.

There has never been a concubine serving in this bedroom.

In the quiet hall, he was sitting high, under the shining candlelight, looking at me without saying a word, with an unpredictable expression.

"Your Majesty, please let this servant leave the palace." I knelt, my voice panicked, "This servant has already married Tang Yu, so how can she become Zhaoyi? I beg the emperor to let this servant leave the palace."

He didn't speak.

I don't know what kind of expression he has at the moment, but this kind of silence made my heart drop to the bottom, I clenched my fists, and the hatred sprouted again, and I suppressed the burst of hatred, "If the emperor disagrees, let the servant Be a court lady, even a maid in the laundry bureau, or a court lady who cleans toilets."

The surrounding air is getting colder and colder, but I still said to myself: "I hope the emperor will help me, this slave only wants to..."

"Su En, what do you think of the palace? What do you think of me?" An angry voice was close to my ears.

He walked down, stood in front of me coldly, looked down at me, that gaze made people tremble.

For a moment, I was stunned.

"I have already fulfilled you, but you didn't cherish it. You should know that my woman can only die in the palace."

In the palace of death?

"Women, apart from pleasing me, give birth to children for me. As long as I do these two things, I will not treat them badly."

"Your Majesty, this servant would rather die in the palace than be a Zhaoyi." The ten fingers were turning white, and the palm was even more painful from the fingertips.

He narrowed his eyes, the arrogance in his eyes was covered by anger, "You are forcing me to kill you."

The resentment was too deep, and I even laughed, "The emperor can kill if he wants to."

"Really? I won't kill you," he sneered, and each word was cold, "On the contrary, I will spoil you. The more you reject me, the more I will spoil you until I get tired of you. At that time, I would rather ban you than let you out of the palace."

Pass me, and he will come out of the temple.

"This servant does not love the emperor, and will never love the emperor in this life." Kneeling and turning around, I shouted hoarsely.

"Love?" He turned around slowly, his eyes became more and more serious, as if the wind was blowing, and the sharp edge of the sword, "I have never been in love, and I will never fall in love with any concubine in my life."

"Does the emperor like to use power to oppress people so much? What is the difference between doing this and a bully?"

"Bully? In your heart, I am a bully, right?"

"Yes, if it weren't for you, my mother wouldn't have died, I wouldn't have entered the palace, I wouldn't have been bullied everywhere, let alone those things." All the hatred finally burst out, I hate this man, in front of him, everywhere Help, weak everywhere, oppressed everywhere, can't even stand upright.

"So what if you are an emperor? You are nothing but an emperor, not even a poor man. No one will like you, everyone will only hate you and reject you. You don't know how to love, don't know how to respect. Taking it by force will only oppress people, such a person is the most annoying." I can no longer hide my hatred, I can no longer calm down, all self-control collapsed at this moment, I shouted at him.

"So what? What I want is the status of emperor. I don't need anyone's obedience. I just need them to fear and respect me." His aura was just like his words, with a domineering air Breathless oppression.

I rushed in front of him, looking straight at him with bloodshot eyes, "For a person like you, no one will love you, no one will treat you sincerely, you can only stand alone on the top of the mountain, blowing the wind and snow, alone A person tastes the pain of loneliness."

His eyes became colder, as if he had built a wall of ice that would not melt for thousands of years, layer upon layer of ice, "I am the emperor, I have long been used to the pain of loneliness, if there are more, why should I be afraid?" , disappeared from sight.

I was dazed for a long time.

There is a vast expanse of whiteness in front of my eyes.

After a long time, the numbness in my leg brought me back to my senses.

Those words drifted past my ears one by one.

"You should know that my woman can only grow old and die in the palace."

"I will spoil you. The more you reject me, the more I will spoil you until I get tired of you. At that time, I would rather ban you than let you out of the palace."

Really, really can't leave the palace anymore?

Every day intrigues, life and death, are you going to live like this for the rest of your life?

Why is everything, even if it's just an easy thing, so difficult.

The emperor's woman, huh!I laughed, what an honor.

Finally, I fell to the ground and cried bitterly.

I don't know how I got out of the Zhaoyang Palace, but when I felt the coolness of the night wind, I was already standing on the palace corridor.

My heart is empty and heavy.

Is this fate?

I never believed in fate, but now I do.

Otherwise, why do you still have to live in the palace for the rest of your life after making such a big circle?

The most hated place, can no longer escape.

Heart, lifeless.

"Bai Xuan?" Looking at the man who suddenly appeared in front of him.Qingguoqingcheng's face has been sharpened a lot, and his face is slightly pale, but he is still energetic.

Taking a step back, I looked at him warily, has he been released from the ice prison?

"Thank you." He spoke, his voice was slightly weak, and as soon as he finished speaking, he disappeared again.

Come and go without a trace, in the blink of an eye, everything seems to be just my illusion.

I really hope that everything is just an illusion. When I open my eyes, I am not in the palace, but chatting with my mother about homework.

Tears fell again.

Wipe away the tears, but the tears fell more and more fiercely, and I couldn't control it anymore.

It is my weakness and kindness that brought about today's ending. The principles I have always insisted on are useless here.

In the end, it's me who suffers.

In this place, before the emperor, I am doomed to be the oppressed party.

I knew it a long time ago, what are you resisting?

What am I fighting against?

It was so ignorant, so stupid, so stupid.

It's time to change yourself. If you don't change, you will be bullied, unable to protect yourself, and don't even know how to die.

Yeah, change yourself, stop insisting.

The next day, the situation changed suddenly, and a torrential rain came.

I was not conferred the title of Zhaoyi, but I was conferred as a noble concubine of the third rank, second only to the fourth concubine.The Liuyi Hall in the Queen's Palace.

Everyone was amazed, even the queen had a smile on her face.

Today's Liuyi Hall is very lively.

The Empress, Concubine An, Concubine Liu, Xia Qingrou, and Yang Qinger all came.

One by one I saluted, and when Su and Liu saluted me, their smiles were stiff.

I secretly observed everyone's expressions.

"Sister Enen was conferred the title of noble concubine from an ordinary court lady, which has never happened in the history of our dynasty," Concubine Liu smiled sweetly, "It shows the emperor's love for my sister."

"So, Concubine Liu is jealous?" the queen said casually.

"I'm jealous." Concubine Liu sighed, "It also reminds me of the empress's look on the day when the emperor ascended the throne and I entered the palace and was conferred the title of Concubine Liu."

"I don't know what kind of expression the Empress has that makes Sister Concubine Liu miss you so much?" Concubine An interjected.

Concubine Liu just laughed without saying a word, as if it was really funny, she laughed for a while before stopping.

"Isn't this obvious? Bengong was annoyed, angry and shocked at the time. At that time, Concubine Liu's identity was not ordinary. This is a well-known fact. Naturally, after getting along with each other for these years, Bengong also got to know sister Concubine Liu and those brothels. Women are different."

I pretended to have a sip of tea, but from the corner of my eye I aimed at the Queen, Concubine Liu, and Concubine An. Although all of them were smiling, they were all very deliberate.

"Then I can't blame my concubine. Who would make the emperor love me? If I insist on placing a concubine on my concubine, I will refuse again and again, so I have to accept it." Concubine Liu smiled charmingly and complacently.

"Look at what we are talking about. Today is the concubine's new congratulations. No matter who the emperor favored in the past, from now on, En'en will be the one who is favored. My palace and En'en are like masters and servants." love, and I am happy in my heart." The empress's smile is not inferior to that of Concubine Liu, and the more she smiles, the happier she is, because Concubine Liu's charming smile has become a little stiff.

"How can Enen compare to the emperor's love for all the ladies." I said in awe.

"As soon as you enter the palace gate, it's as deep as the sea," Concubine Liu stood up, and slowly walked in front of me, smiling faintly, "The concubines who are most often by the emperor's side belong to us, and we have enough time in this life." Let's chat, I'll go first," After finishing speaking, he bowed to the queen again, "I will leave as a concubine."

As soon as Concubine Liu left, Concubine An, Xia Qingrou, and Yang Qing'er also got up to leave.

Only me and the queen are left in Liuyi hall.

"It's really unexpected that the emperor will make you a noble concubine." The queen raised her eyebrows, narrowed her almond eyes slightly, and the smile just disappeared from her eyes.

"Isn't this what the queen wants?" I responded calmly.

The queen pursed her lips and looked at me sharply.

I smiled slightly, "Is this tea good? But Enen brewed it for the empress herself."

"You should keep it for yourself." The queen stood up suddenly.

"Your Majesty, haven't you already achieved your goal?" I called the Empress who was about to leave, and said calmly, "The Empress Concubine Liu has a very bad face just now. I will always remember my empress's teachings, and with this After half a year with my life and character, I fulfilled my mother's wish."

"Oh? Very good." The queen smiled instead of anger, and approached me, "Su En, although I didn't expect the emperor to make you your concubine, I still want to warn you, be honest, you can't beat me palace."

"My concubine never thought of fighting the queen." How could I hurt the person Tang Yu was protecting with all his strength?
"That's the best." After finishing speaking, the queen solemnly left.

I sat quietly, looking at the potted plants by the window for a long time.

This is the day I'm going to live.

wry smile.

"Your concubine, the crown prince is here." The maid hurried in to report.

His Royal Highness?Have you returned from the Qingshan Festival?I froze for a moment, "Please hurry up."

I haven't seen him for a few days, and the prince has grown taller again, only the proud expression is the same as when he was a child, with flying and domineering.

"Your Highness, why are you here?"

Now that the crown prince has grown up, he has given him a mansion, and if he enters the concubine's residence, he will definitely be criticized by others.

"I heard that the queen mother made things difficult for you while I was away?" The prince's handsome face was full of confusion, "Aren't you the most favored maid of the mother mother? Why does the mother mother make things difficult for you?"

"Your Highness handed over such a precious Eastern Palace order to Enen, how can the queen not ask questions?" I said indifferently, the prince didn't know anything, and it wouldn't do any good to know.

"Is that so?"

"Otherwise, what does His Highness think it is?"

The prince turned his head coldly, changed the subject, and there was faint anger in his voice, "Why did you become the imperial concubine of the father? Everyone in the palace is saying that you seduced the emperor, is that true?"

"What do you think, my lord?" I asked.

"How does this prince know? There are too many vain maids in the palace."

"The prince should leave here earlier. People's words are scary. Enen is no longer the maid of honor. It will be of no benefit to anyone if the prince stays here for a moment longer."

"You haven't answered the prince's words yet."

"Didn't the prince once say that he and Enen should be the most trustworthy confidants who can confide in each other and share both happy and sad things? Doesn't the prince know anything about his friends?" I asked indifferently, and didn't take the prince's words about being friends to heart, but I didn't know how to answer now, so I just thought of using it casually.

The prince was stunned for a while, his face was a little uncomfortable, and after a while, he recovered his arrogant look, and said: "I came to see you today."

"Prince, please tell me."

"Are you short of a maid?"

I was stunned, not understanding the meaning of the prince's words for a moment.

The prince's face was a little blushing. Seeing me looking at him puzzled, he turned his head, "On the way back from Jitian, I rescued a girl. Seeing her lonely and helpless, I took her back to the palace."

Suddenly, it turned out... I couldn't help laughing, "It just so happens that I also lack a personal maid..."

Before I finished speaking, the prince said: "Okay, it's settled, I'll go and bring her in."

Everyone has already brought it?
At this time, the crown prince turned around again, staring at me for a moment with bright black eyes, and said: "The crown prince believes that you are not that kind of woman, but since you are already the royal concubine of the father, you should be brave enough to accept the change of the environment and stop clinging to the past." , You should think about how to make your life more comfortable."

"Enen, I don't know what Your Highness is talking about." My smile was a little stiff.

The prince's dark eyes darkened a little, "Don't treat me like a child, do you really think I don't know anything?"

I looked at him blankly, and saw a scar slipping across his eyes.

What does he know?
"Su En." The prince lowered his head in deep thought, then raised his head, his eyes slightly uneasy, and asked, "Are you still the same Su En who silently helped me get rid of the fans without asking for credit?"

The prince actually knew about this?

I was very surprised in my heart, how did the prince know?
Thinking back to what he said about making friends that day, and sending me the order of the East Palace, it's no wonder he was so kind to me all of a sudden, that's how it is.

"Speak." He urged, extremely nervous and uneasy, was he afraid that what I said would disappoint him?
Does the prince really treat me as a good friend?

I am a little touched.

Laughed, I smiled sincerely, nodded again, "Yes."

The uneasiness in the prince's eyes was gradually replaced by a smile, "Do you know that since I was a child, I wish I had a sincere and open friend by my side." After speaking, he left happily.

Sincere and frank?mean me?
I was suddenly at a loss.

The girl sent by the crown prince was named San'er, she was a pretty, simple and honest girl, the same age as the crown prince, with a precocious and well-behaved face.

"It can be seen that the crown prince likes you very much." Faced with San'er's embarrassment, I tried to talk to get to know each other better.

San'er had a blush on his face, and said softly: "The prince is San'er's savior and a good person."

"Yeah, I'm a little thirsty."

"My maidservant, go get some tea right away." Soon, San'er poured a cup of boiling water and placed it in front of me.

"Don't be so nervous, if you don't mind, you can treat me as your sister." Looking at her tenderly, I patted her on the shoulder.

San'er looked at me with some confusion.

"What's wrong? Is there something on my face?" I asked with a smile.

Shaking his head, San'er muttered, "Your concubine is different from the rich people San'er has seen."

rich?I raised my eyebrows, "What's different?"

"Your concubine is approachable and can smile at San'er."

When I saw her say this, she showed a little fear from time to time. I must have suffered a lot from the so-called "rich people". Take this place as your own home, and I am your family."

San'er stared at me blankly, after a while, her eyes were a little wet, she turned around quietly and wiped away her tears, she was blessed, "Yes, San'er will definitely serve your concubine with all her heart."

"Concubine Su," the palace maid Xing hurried in, panting and excitedly said, "Just now, the messenger from Mr. Fu said that the emperor will come to Concubine Concubine tonight, so Concubine Gui can make preparations early."

My slightly relaxed heart suddenly sank, "Got it." What should come will always come.

The night wind is as cool as water, and with the windows open, I let the cool wind permeate my whole body.

What the crown prince said today sounded in my ears, "Since you are the royal concubine of the father, you should have the courage to accept the changes in the environment, stop clinging to the past, and think about how to make yourself live more comfortably."

Yeah, I do keep clinging to the past.

How could it be so easy to let go of the past?

The prince is half right, he should be brave enough to accept the changes in the environment, and he should think about how to live a more comfortable life instead of blindly remembering the past.

Smile wryly, but I can't do it.

It's one thing to know the truth, but it's another thing to actually do it.

A deep coat was draped over my body, and San'er's voice said from the side: "Your concubine, although it's almost summer, it's still strangely cold tonight, let the servants close the windows."

I turned my head and looked at her with a smile, "It's not been a day since the prince brought you into the palace, but you've learned the words well."

San'er smiled shyly, "I have been running around with my family since I was a child. I haven't learned other skills, but I still have a strong ability to adapt to the environment. Otherwise, I will suffer."

"A loss?" I murmured.

At this moment, a shrill voice sounded outside the hall, "The emperor is here—"

The body almost jumped up, and when I came back to my senses, I saw San'er staring at me blankly, as if taken aback by my excessive reaction.

At this moment, the figure of Ming Huang walked in.

After saluting, San'er quietly backed out.

The candlelight stretched his proud figure very long.

I didn't look at him, so I couldn't see his expression at the moment. I just lowered my head and asked calmly: "Is the emperor hungry? I will go to the imperial dining room to serve some snacks."

"No need, I'm very tired, I want to rest early and take off my clothes." The cool voice was a bit stern.

"Yes."

There was only one step away from him, but it was extremely difficult to take this step.

When his hand touched him, he couldn't untie the belt no matter what.

Too close, so close that you can feel each other's breathing.

Cold sweat broke out on his forehead, but no matter how he untied it, the strap still didn't move at all, and the more he untied it, the more it became knotted.

He was too tall, and I was unbuttoning the belt on tiptoe. After a long time, my feet ached.

My waist tightened, his hands clasped my waist, pulled it, and fell into his arms.

I suddenly raised my head and met his dark eyes, "If this continues, I won't have to sleep tonight."

It's also strange that after he said that, the belt was untied.

When it came time to untie the second strap, he let me go.

Only then did I realize that the reason why I was able to untie the first belt was because his hands on my waist held my body tightly, bearing most of my strength, so that I didn't have to put all my strength on my feet. The pain was relieved, and the whole body didn't have to be tense because of his high relationship to easily unbutton the clothes.

Finally, the outer shirt was taken off.

When all that was left of him was the thin bright yellow silk garment, my body was tense to the extreme.

At this moment, his hand suddenly touched me.

Instinctively pushed him away.

"You are already my concubine, do you still want to resist?" He approached me coldly.

I bit my lower lip tightly and didn't speak, but my face was extremely pale.

His hand finally touched me, and he untied the belt of the skirt.

The coat took off slowly, and when only the obscene clothes remained, he picked up the cold me and walked towards the bed.

The bed was softer than I've ever slept on.

The man on the body is cold, the eyebrows, the eyes, the nose, and the thin lips, all of which reveal a coldness and fear that make life cold.

He kissed me, starting from the eyebrows, without any resistance from me, going down densely a little bit.

His lips were very cold, until they covered me and sucked on them, they gradually warmed up.

His body was extremely stiff, and he even had goosebumps.

Sensing my rejection, his kiss was deeper, lighter and softer, all the way down, from the neck to the chest, sucking gently, the warm feeling spread all over the body.

A strange tingling sensation, and a little itchiness.

His fingers were tightly intertwined with mine.

His stiff body softened, and the heat from his body seemed to infect me.

When his lips covered me again, my mind was lost, replaced by the world of senses.

Desperately trying to regain consciousness, but under his gentle kiss, it just became more and more hazy.

The two hot bodies were entwined, his kiss became deeper and deeper, and my consciousness became farther and farther away.

Until he pushed me deeply, a moan escaped from my mouth at the moment of union.

The eyes widened suddenly, and the pure sensory pleasure faded away like a tide.

He looked at me coldly, without the slightest hint of lust.

He clearly saw himself at this moment from his eyes like a cold pool, his face was flushed, and his brows and eyes were full of unfinished lust.

At this moment, shame and anger filled my whole body.

He is still moving, and every time he moves, the desire in his body moves again, and his reason has returned to his mind, but the reaction of his body makes me wish I could die at this moment.

During the last few times of his deep thrusts, his body trembled, which I restrained by gritting my teeth.

Finally, it's all over.

He got up and stood naked in front of me, with a slender and strong body, he said coolly, "Wait for me to take a bath."

In the bath, the maid has already prepared hot water.

He entered the pool, and just as I was about to help him wash, he suddenly said, "Take off your clothes and come in."

I was taken aback.

"Do you want me to say it a second time?"

I bit my lower lip tightly, took off my thin coat, and slowly stepped into the bath, approaching him.

He hugged me tightly, without tenderness, and pushed forward fiercely, piercing deeply into my body.

The lubrication of the water didn't make me feel pain, and with every advance he made, his body gradually stiffened.

But I breathed a sigh of relief, at least I didn't feel that way just now, it must be because of my abnormal body.

"That's true." A cold voice whispered in my ear.

While I was thinking about his words, he kissed me again.

I stood still and let him kiss me.

The kiss became lighter and softer, sucking and turning, lips and teeth touching each other, he led me to respond step by step.

His stiff body gradually softened under his gentle and caring kiss, and his thoughts were slowly taken away again.

Responded instinctively.

During the final sprint, I was knocked out by the strange emotion. I remember seeing him smiling when I passed out. A bright and warm smile seemed to glow from his eyes, so dazzling .

Will this man laugh like this?
When I awoke, it was broad daylight.

Looking at the peony pattern embroidered on the golden gauze on the top of the bed, my mind was confused for a moment.

Yes, I have been named your concubine.

When I got up, the coolness of my upper body made me subconsciously cover myself with the quilt, but when I saw the bruised and purple hickey marks on my body, all kinds of last night surfaced.

Is it shame, anger, anger or hatred?For a moment, I couldn't understand what I thought in my heart.

He just sat there with a pale face, but no matter how shameful and resentful he was, he couldn't cover up the honest reaction of his body last night.

"Your concubine?" San'er came in with water, saw that I looked wrong, and hurried over, "Are you feeling unwell? Do you want to call the imperial doctor?"

"I'm fine." I shook my head, wanting to shake off the memory of last night, but the more I shook, the clearer the memory became, and even his bright and warm smile when he passed out appeared.

What was he laughing at then?Why is he laughing?

For some reason, that smile made me flustered, and I felt that under his smile, even my heart was nakedly presented in front of him.

"Your concubine, are you really okay?" San'er's voice was obviously worried.

"Where are the clothes? I want to get dressed." Suppressing my panic, I gave her a calm smile.

"Servant waits for you to get dressed."

"No need, I can do it myself." I have always done everything by myself, and I don't like to send others to do it.

My whole body was extremely sore, as if I had been run over by a wheel. When I got up, San'er exclaimed: "Your concubine, what's wrong with your body?" After speaking, her face turned red again Yes, obviously understood what was going on, and hurriedly said, "Your maidservant, go get the ointment, the silt will disappear faster."

I was neatly dressed, and when I was dressing up in front of the mirror, I saw that the hickey marks on my neck were very obvious, which made people see clearly.

This season's clothes are half-collared, which can't cover the hickey marks at all. Fortunately, there are not many people coming to Liuyi Hall.

San'er has been gone for a long time, why not come?
I got up and wanted to take a look outside the door, but a court lady hurried in and almost bumped into me, "Your concubine, it's not good, Xiaoru is beating three sons."

"What? Where is it?" I frowned, as small as Da San'er?San'er has been here for less than two days, and Xiao Ru doesn't know her at all.

Is it because of the prince?
"It was just outside the hall. Just now San'er was taking the ointment for eliminating silt in the side room. When Xiaoru came, he couldn't help but drag her out of the hall."

When the maid was speaking, I had already arrived at the main gate of the hall, and I saw San'er wrestling with Xiaoru at a distance of tens of meters.

As they got closer, the scene in front of them made people dumbfounded. According to the words of the maid, it was obviously Xiao Ru who was beating three sons, but in this scene, it was Xiao Ru who was crushed under her body.

There were already many court ladies around, pointing and pointing, but no one stepped forward to help, seeing Xiao Ru being pressed down by San'er, some even smiled gloatingly.

Seeing me coming, they all dispersed.

"Your concubine." San'er also saw me, hurriedly got up, wiped off the dust all over her body, and walked over anxiously.

I saw that her left cheek was very red and swollen, and her hair was messy. It seemed that Xiaoru had indeed hit her.

"My servant has seen Concubine Su Gui." Xiao Ru got up in a state of embarrassment, and only moved her lips.

"What's going on?" I asked San'er beside me.

"The servant girl was looking for ointment in the side hall. When she came in, she beat me without saying anything, and dragged me out of the hall by pulling my hair."

San'er muttered, obviously afraid that I would scold her.

"Is what San'er said true?" I asked Xiaoru who had been looking at me with disdain.

"good."

"Xiao Ru, your courage is getting bigger and bigger. San'er is my maid, even if you make a mistake, it's not your turn to teach me a lesson."

"So what?"

"Don't forget, my current identity is your concubine."

Xiaoru snorted coldly.

"Apologize to San'er."

"Apologize, how is that possible?" Xiaoru said loudly, "It's almost like she apologized to me, but I was the one who was pushed down just now."

Shen Chen looked at Xiao Ru for a moment, and I ordered sharply, "Come here, give me ten slaps."

The three maids belonging to my palace looked at each other in blank dismay, but no one stepped forward to make a move.

Xiao Ru was taken aback for a moment, but after seeing it, the sneer at the corner of his mouth became more and more obvious.

"Didn't you hear what I said?" I looked at the three of them sternly.

"Your concubine, Xiaoru is someone close to the empress, I, we dare not." A court lady muttered.

"What? Don't even listen to me?"

"Slave, servant girl." The three maids were in a dilemma.

"Very well, the three of you should go to the laundry bureau from now on, and you are not allowed to come back without my order." There was a touch of coldness in my voice, and even the maid in the palace ignored my words like this, and I didn't know whether it was sadness or Liang, no doubt, became angry.

In the palace, if even the maids are not submissive, they really only have to be beaten.

"Your Majesty, I know I'm wrong." The three maids had fear in their eyes, and without saying a word, they stepped forward and grabbed Xiaoru.

"How dare you? I am the queen's personal maid. Even if someone demotes you to the laundry bureau, as long as I say a few words in front of the queen, you can still come back. But if you hit me, your life will be over. "

Xiaoru's words made the three maids loosen their grip on her.

At this moment, San'er, who was standing beside her, suddenly rushed forward, kicked Xiaoru to the ground with a roundabout kick, and sat on her body. Before Xiaoru knew what happened, she lifted her The hand fanned down.

After the ten slaps were finished quickly, she stood up and stood beside me respectfully, "Your concubine, let's go back to the palace."

Everyone was dumbfounded.

Me too, but after only a moment, I gave a soft "um" and said coldly to the three fearful maids: "I'm going to work at the laundry bureau, and you are not allowed to come back without my order."

Then San'er and I went back to the hall.

As soon as I returned to the hall, San'er knelt down in front of me and said, "Please punish me, Your Majesty."

"What are you punishing? You defended me. It's too late for me to thank you." I helped her up, and I smiled, "I really didn't expect that you would be so fierce when you fight, but I have to look at you with admiration." .”

San'er's face flushed, "The servant girl has traveled around the world with the troupe since she was a child, and she knows some juggling skills. She can deal with ordinary people who don't know kung fu, but San'er was too angry just now." Then she said worriedly, " Your concubine, will the empress make trouble for you?"

Sitting on the stool, I rubbed my legs that hurt from walking, and said lightly: "No, no matter how dissatisfied the queen is with me, she won't come here to make trouble right now."

San'er hurriedly knelt down and rubbed my legs for me, and said while rubbing: "Then San'er can rest assured, I'm really worried that I will cause trouble for your concubine, but your concubine must have been a good person before."

"How to say?"

"If you are a bad person, these court ladies should be afraid of you."

I was taken aback, "In your mind, is this how you distinguish good people from bad people?"

"No, but at least you can tell from everyone's attitude whether your concubine is happy in the palace." Seeing me smiling and looking at her plainly, San'er blinked and became more courageous, "Your servant is wrong. ?"

"That's right, the palace people really don't care much about me as a noble concubine."

San'er scratched her head, her pretty little face was blushing very cutely, "San'er likes your concubine."

"Thank you. I like San'er too."

Looking at each other, we all laughed out loud, narrowing the spiritual distance between San'er and me.

Looking out of the window, the prince's words came to mind inadvertently, "Since you are the royal concubine of the father, you should have the courage to accept the changes in the environment, stop clinging to the past, and think about how to live a more comfortable life. ".

I have always wanted to change, but inadvertently returned to the past.

Do you really want to keep remembering the past?
Do you really want to let your body and mind despair in exhaustion?
Living an ordinary life outside the palace has become a luxury.

Your concubine, an identity that can no longer be changed.

Yes, you should think about how to live more comfortably in such a situation.

Until night fell, all was peaceful.

As I expected, the queen did not show up. At this time, it is impossible for her to turn against me because of Xiaoru.

As the night grew darker, my hanging heart was relieved.

At this time, without the father-in-law coming to pass the message, it seems that the man will not come.

San'er walked in with a depressed face.

"What's wrong?" I asked with a smile.

"The father-in-law at the orfei hall said that the emperor has a lot of books today, and he will spend the night in Zhaoyang hall." San'er was even more depressed.

"I thought what did you do? Don't ask about such things in the future. When the emperor wants to come, his father-in-law will naturally report to him." Taking the scissors from the cabinet, I cut the bonsai by the window in a good mood.

"How can I do that? As long as the emperor often comes to Liuyi Palace, no palace official will dare not to listen to your concubine." San'er's eyes were full of precocity and stability that did not belong to her age, and she looked at me curiously for a while, Ask, "Your concubine, what are you happy about?"

I put the cut branches into San'er's hands, thought for a while, and said, "It's not a good thing to be favored by the emperor. Once you become the target of public criticism, the situation will be even worse than it is now."

San'er seems to understand but not understand.

"It's getting late, go down and rest."

"Servant waits for you to take a bath."

"No need, I can do this kind of trivial matter myself."

"Is that okay? The slave is your personal maid, isn't that what she does?"

"Do it yourself so that you can have enough food and clothing, wouldn't it be better?" I laughed.

San'er was full of confusion, "Your concubine can have enough food and clothing without doing anything."

"Once you get used to being served, what should you do when there is no one to serve you?" The world is so cold, especially in this palace, people value self-knowledge.

San'er was even more confused and couldn't understand, so he had to say: "Your concubine also rested earlier, and the maidservant has retired." When leaving, he did not forget to close the door.

Putting back the scissors, I went into the shower room, took off my clothes, and when I saw the traces of love left on my body, the bits and pieces of last night came to my mind again.

In my impression, he would only bring me pain and torture that was almost insulting, but last night...

Get into the warm water, let the water soak up your neck, and close your eyes.

In any case, I shouldn't be indulging in that feeling.

The prince's words rang in his ears again.

Can you really let go of everything in the past, let go of Tang Yu?
Thinking of Tang Yu, the pain was released again.

The whole heart is sour.

After blowing out three candles, only one was left dimly lit.

Maybe it was too tired, and he fell into a deep sleep as soon as he landed on the bed.

I don't know how long I slept, but when I turned over, I felt that the bed became narrow and small.

I couldn't help but open my eyes, a handsome face was close at hand, like a god, for a moment, I felt as if I was stunned.

I have always known that the emperor is a rare and beautiful man, but I have never seen him so closely. The bright and dark lights in the room outline his finely carved silhouette, and his brows have been furrowed in a deep sleep, as if There is something bothering, the eyelashes are long and thick, the nose is strong, and the lips are tightly pressed, looking extremely unhappy.

This man, even in his sleep, exudes an aura of isolation that strangers should not get close to.

When he realized that he was actually sleeping in his arms, he was very uncomfortable.

Even if I am already a noble concubine, even if I want to make changes to live a good life in the palace, even if I want to have a relationship with him, it shouldn't be an intimate relationship with him.

Unexpectedly, he only moved slightly, and he opened his eyes suddenly, a trace of guard and killing intent flashed in his eyes.

The killing intent was so obvious, like a knife piercing straight into my eyes, the moment he opened his eyes, I actually felt that he really wanted to kill.

His body stiffened, and there was a chill behind his back.

However, the moment he saw me, his gaze changed and softened a lot, but he just said lightly: "Go to sleep." He hugged me again, buried his face deeply into my neck, and the sound of even breathing followed. Come on.

But I couldn't sleep no matter what, my mind was full of the feeling of fear just now, and I didn't dare to move again.

There was a numbness in the neck, and something was lightly touching.

The next moment, the lips were covered.

Isn't he asleep?

Wanting to push him away, but putting him back helplessly, is because he has clearly recognized the facts before him.

I don't want to repeat the regret of last night, and warn myself to be sober.

However, as he kissed deeply, my thoughts gradually became hazy.

The remaining sanity was buried deep when his hand slipped into his chest to tease him.

The thin silk shirt was slowly taken off, and as the gentle caress went down little by little, the hotness coming from the depths of the lower abdomen became more and more intense.

When the clothes were all off, he gently entered me, his movements were extremely gentle, like a treasure being cared for.

The moment his body was filled, he whispered softly in his ear: "Enen, I should have treated you like this long ago."

A word of "Zhen" brought back the rationality that I had withdrawn, and I felt ashamed, hated and helpless for a moment.

The moment his eyes met, when I was about to speak, he suddenly closed his eyes, kissed me again, and pushed forward deeply.

I can no longer tell whether I am being forced to bear it, or whether I am also ups and downs in the sea of ​​desire.

When I opened my eyes again, it was still dark, and I was still sleeping in his arms, with his steady breathing next to my ears.

The difference from just now is that his frowning eyebrows have smoothed out, and his crimson lips are no longer pursed, as if he has let go of all his troubles, and his expression is as soft as a child's.

But I didn't dare to move anymore, for fear of waking him up and seeing the murderous eyes again.

As a result, I can no longer sleep.

An hour later, my body was sore from not moving, so I had to move my heart slightly, but he just frowned, but hugged me even tighter, and buried his whole face in my hair , sleep more peacefully.

When I woke up again, it was already dawn.

I inadvertently touched the place beside me, there was still warmth left, and I was stunned, did he just leave?
San'er was cleaning up in the hall, saw me get up, and hurriedly raised the golden curtain, "Why don't your concubine sleep more?"

"It's dawn, so how can I sleep?" I was dressed neatly, but I saw a pot of bamboo by the window. When I looked closer, I thought it was very familiar. After thinking about it, this is not the pot he bought at the Hundred Flowers Festival last year. Is it wild bamboo?
"Your concubine, this kind of wild bamboo can be seen everywhere, and it's not precious, why put it in the bedroom?"

Glancing at San'er, it wasn't San'er who let it go, could it be him who let it go?

This pot of wild bamboo has been kept in the small side room of the Queen's Palace. Once I leave, it must be thrown away randomly. Could it be that he took it away?
Does he like bamboo so much?
"Your concubine? What's the matter?"

"It's nothing, just put it here. Although it is not precious, green always gives people a sense of vitality, doesn't it?"

San'er nodded, brought a basin, and helped me wash it.

"Now there are only you and me in Liuyi Palace, you will be very tired." The three palace maids were demoted to the laundry bureau by me, and I didn't want to call them back within three months.

"The slaves are used to doing rough work outside the palace, these things are nothing." San'er said with a grin, "The weather is so good today, would your concubine want to take a walk in the imperial garden?"

"That's good." I nodded, even if Xijing, I can't keep myself locked in Liuyi Hall.

In addition to the courtyard of their own palace, the imperial garden is the place where all concubines spend their time.

I thought I would meet someone, but I didn't know that the imperial garden was empty, not to mention the concubine, not even the palace maid.

"Wow, these flowers are so beautiful, I have never seen them outside the palace before." Since entering the imperial garden, San'er's little mouth kept yelling, looking at the flowers for a while and touching the leaves for a while.

"It's very quiet today." Doubts arose in my heart, did something happen in the palace?

"That's right, it seems strange that there are only the two of us in such a big imperial garden." San'er looked left and right, but he didn't see anyone.

At this time, only San'er shouted happily: "His Royal Highness."

On the other side of the Crescent Gate, the prince came lightly, and after seeing San'er, his indifferent expression turned into a smile.

After a ceremony.

"Your Highness just came out of the Queen's Palace?" I asked with a smile.

"Every day at this time, I have to pay my respects to the queen mother." Although the prince was talking to me, his eyes sneaked to San'er who was playing with flowers from time to time.

"I have seen the prince, I have seen your concubine." Jing Lin's elegant voice sounded behind me, and when I turned around, I saw him standing behind smiling, with warm eyes.

"Jing Lin?" I was very happy to meet him, but now the queen rarely asks him to enter the palace, but every time he enters the palace, the queen must call him, what's the matter with the queen?

"Uncle, are you coming to see the queen mother?" the prince asked.

"Yes," Jing Lin looked at me again, with concern in his eyes, "How are you lately?"

"Well, how are you and madam?"

Speaking of Zhao Yuefu, Jing Lin's face became more lonely, and he said lightly: "It's still like that."

At this time, from the corner of the eye, he saw the prince walking up to San'er, talking softly, San'er looked confused, and stepped back a few steps away.

"Enen, is he treating you well?" Seeing that I was a little distracted, Jing Lin's voice became more and more lonely, and Ruyu's face was extremely disappointed.

I was a little surprised that Jinglin would talk about the emperor at this moment, "In the harem, what does it matter if he is good or not? With so many concubines, he can't be good?"

"As long as you have the ability, his kindness will last forever."

"It's a pity that I don't have such skills."

"You have, as long as you are willing."

I am silent, he has never cared about his kindness, and never believed in it. Emperor's love, from ancient times to the present, has not lasted for a long time.

And for him, I have all kinds of pasts that cannot be erased in my heart.

The fact that being a noble concubine cannot be changed does not mean that one must accept what he cannot guess.

"Enen, in the palace, you must know how to protect yourself wisely, and don't get involved in the struggle between the empress and concubine Liu." Jing Lin said suddenly.

Queen and Concubine Liu?That's right, the Empress and Concubine Liu are already on the same page, "I'm just a little noble concubine, how can I intervene between them?"

"I hope I am worrying too much. There are powerful forces behind them that cannot be underestimated. You have to take precautions. The death of the maid may be the fuse."

"A palace maid died?" I was taken aback.

Jing Lin nodded, "An old maid named Mingxiu died next to Concubine Liu, you don't know about it?"

Myung Soo is dead?I opened my eyes wide.

At this time, a court lady hurried over and said with blessings: "Master Jing, the empress is looking for you in a hurry."

"Understood, I'll go right now."

The maid hurried away again.

"Jing Lin, you still... to the queen..." The rest of the words disappeared in Jing Lin's smiling eyes, a little melancholy, a little sad, but more reassuring, "It's all over, I will enter the palace today because She is my elder sister, although she is not related by blood, but she is my only relative in this world."

(End of this chapter)