Kangxi Harem Ⅰ: Green Years

Chapter 378 (External Episode 3) Xuan Ye's Confessions ([-])
Regarding Ronger's feelings, I often wonder how to deal with them. The enthusiasm when I was young made me have the urge to make her a concubine. It was the emperor's grandmother who told me the story of the emperor's grandfather and Huang Ama with tears in her eyes. Tell me word by word: If I really love Rong'er, then don't harm her.Maybe I didn't understand the reason when I was still young, but I couldn't bear the sadness of the most respected grandmother, I promised my grandmother to hide this love, love someone, but I can't give her the best. It is a very painful thing, I admire Huang Ama's courage, he can deal with his feelings frankly... But I can't... No. 12 years after I ascended the throne, the third year of the pro-government, Wu Sangui rebelled Yes, I am still young, I still have to use all the political bargaining chips in my hands, the harem is one of the ways, this is politics, although I don't like this feeling very much, but I can't help it, the emperor's feelings towards the harem It is difficult to have pure feelings, it is always mixed with some factors above the court, and I already understood this truth at that time.

The eight-year war also quickly enriched my harem. I began to have many women. Some of them I can't even remember their faces, and some I don't see each other for a whole year. But, the only one The one thing that hasn’t changed is Rong’er. She is by my side silently as before. Of course, there have been misunderstandings and conflicts between her and me. The conflict between me and Rong’er was not caused by each other’s problems. It was born because of Wang Jingzhi. In fact, the existence of this woman is not particularly important to my harem, but I cannot accept betrayal. I will never tolerate any form of betrayal. However, I do not want to lose my honor. Son, so I chose to give in, I thought that I would not give in to anyone in this palace except the imperial grandmother, but I was wrong, I gave in, I rubbed a grain of sand in my eyes, but because Rong Er I am happy, but I don't feel uncomfortable in my eyes.

Chaos people are not allowed in my harem, this is what I have always been determined to do. As an ordinary mortal, I am sympathetic, but as an emperor, I am ruthless.Zhang Leqi once gave birth to two princesses for me, and she also gave me warmth when I was at my lowest point, and Li Anzhu and her family have made great contributions, and her lively personality has also brought me joy, but they are all I can't forgive those who put knives in my chest when my country was unstable and my throne was not secure. I absolutely can't... This kind of heart-wrenching hatred is like hating Wu Sangui, Shang Zhixin, Geng Jingzhong, Abu Nai... So They got what they deserved.

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