Homecoming from Space Missions

Chapter 46

What kind of creature is my brother, I really don't understand.

As long as I can remember, I have been dragged by my elder brother to run from southeast to northwest, no matter what the weather is or what season, we often stay in small and hidden places, he will give me a small amount of food, and then carry more Most of them were eaten behind my back.I blamed him when I was young, until later I realized that he didn't have the so-called "more food" at all, and when he just lied to me, I blamed him even more, because since I was a child, he would never let me face any problems with him. thing.

I hate this feeling of being locked in a small circle, whether it's where I live, or my social circle.

When Grandpa Dongfang took us in, my elder brother was lucky enough to start learning all kinds of knowledge, while I, like a useless pustule, stared at a bunch of TV programs all day long, slept after eating, and ate when I slept, as the saying goes Drunken, dreaming and dying is probably my state, I don't even know why I am alive, it seems that I am alive because of his request.

I used to be very afraid of loneliness, afraid that he would leave me alone, because I don't know how long I will be away, and even afraid that he would leave me because I was too troublesome.

But gradually, I hated him coming back.

It may be heartless to say this, but who will tell me that there are only three people I have known since I was a child, my brother, Grandpa Dongfang and Jiang Bo!Am I living for them?What am I doing alive, what can I do? !

I started to hate my brother, hated seeing him, hated him warning me in that commanding tone not to talk to strangers!
That's right, maybe he has great difficulties, maybe I have some kind of shady identity.

But, I am a person, not a little pet kept at home!I also hope to be like other girls, in groups of three or four, chatting about things I like, looking shyly at handsome boys and so on.Like them, they can cry, laugh and get angry, instead of the only few words they say to their brothers every day.

"Going out?" I asked.

He replied, "Come back soon."

"Oh." I nodded.

Then he would smile and ask me what I wanted, I looked into his eyes and wanted to say to be free, but couldn't say it, he always looked so tired, although I hated him because I was so tired, I didn't even Know what he did for me!
"I want to eat lion cold cake." In the end, I only chose this answer.

"Okay." He promised me, and then left without looking back.

I know that he will definitely bring it back to me, but he doesn’t care if I really eat it or not. I have a whole box of these cold cakes stuffed under my bed. If I don’t throw them away, they will almost rot. I don’t like them at all. As a result, after accidentally mentioning it once, my brother kept thinking about it, but I couldn't say no to it.

Because I was afraid that if I didn't have this thing, he would ask me again, what exactly do I want.

How should I explain to him then?

How annoying!

What do I want, why can't I fight for it myself, why do I have to ask him to give it to me? !
Is this the responsibility of being a brother?Give me the best of everything, but does he know what I want?

However, maybe I didn't know it myself until I met Jin Huadong when I was 11 years old.

The pain that will never be erased in my life is all because of him, the boy who suddenly appeared in my life and ended in tragedy.

I've never been picky about a man's appearance. After all, with such a handsome brother in front of me, I came to the conclusion that all good-looking men are bad-tempered and unreliable guys.

Therefore, when the ordinary-looking, even slightly fat Jin Huadong appeared in front of me, I didn't reject him.

That day, I climbed onto the steel frame outside the clinic, dangling my legs and looking into the distance.There are many people coming and going on the winding streets, everyone is so strange, but they are concentrating on doing their own things. I am very envious of people living with pursuit, so I often stare at them in a daze, thinking that if What would it be like to be busy with something yourself?
Jin Huadong's appearance was very sudden. He climbed up slowly, hid behind me, and lowered his voice: "Help me, keep me out."

I followed his line of sight and looked down, and saw many men in black looking for him in this direction.

So I rushed down and shouted: "Brother——Brother!"

The voice contained deliberate fear and impatience, but I knew that I wasn't afraid at all.

As I thought, my brother would not let anyone approach me, especially those menacing unknown guys.

Seeing those guys being beaten into the air and turning around in embarrassment, I clapped my hands and laughed, while Jin Huadong behind me hid silently, watching me being called back to the house by my brother below.When I stood still on the ground, I smiled at the top, my brother asked me what I was looking at, and I said the sky.He doesn't understand what's so good about a sky that never sees light, but I don't explain it.

At least, I did one thing on my own today, although the process still inevitably uses my brother's protection.

"You seem to like to be in a daze recently?" When my brother was preparing the medicine in his hand, he could still distract me and ask me.

I want to say that you should concentrate on doing it, and don't blame me if anyone eats and damages his body.But when I think of Grandpa Dongfang's praise for my brother, I know that worrying about me is nothing but worrying. This man doesn't need anyone to worry about him. He can always do everything by himself. Anyway, I am superfluous.

So I replied to him: "If I have nothing to do, I will be in a daze. What else can I do?"

"You are not in good health and the wind is strong up there, so don't go there in the future." My brother put down his work and looked up at me, "What do you want to learn, I will teach you."

I suddenly felt sullen in my heart, shook my head and left: "I don't want to learn anything!"

The door was closed heavily by me, and the loud bang made my eardrums ache, and my nails sank into the flesh, but I didn't feel anything.No one knows how I feel. I have been like a puppet manipulated by him since I was a child. I have to live according to his orders. I am a sister without self. Life, communication, and even the things I like have to be chosen by him.

Even what I want to learn, he has to teach in person, just to prevent me from contacting the outside world, right?
I often wonder, when I grow up, whether a man will also choose him, or he will not give me to anyone at all, and will be tied to him forever.That being the case, let him occupy me, anyway, everything is his, and I will return my life and body to him, if he is willing to give me freedom.

Unknowingly, tears flowed out silently. I covered my face and slid to the ground leaning on the window sill. I was thinking so indifferently in my heart, but my body felt disgusted. I would feel that such a life was terrible.Actually, I want kisses and hugs from the person I like, not my brother.

"Are you crying?"

When I was in the worst mood, Jin Huadong broke into my field of vision again.

He was hanging upside down by the window sill, looking around carefully, looking into my eyes, full of jokes, I immediately felt ashamed, I didn't want him to see me with a snotty nose.

"Who's crying?" I pushed open the window violently, seeing him panicked when he was knocked out, I suddenly laughed again, feeling so inexplicably that the bad mood was swept away.

Anyway, not alone, right?
I don't know who started it, maybe it was him, anyway we quietly agreed to meet at a place, I would listen to him talk about a lot of messy things, and watch him perform beside me, I would laugh happily.Jin Huadong said, I look good when I smile. He just remembered the smile I looked up at him that day, and he came to me later because he still wanted to see it.

It's a pity that what he saw at that time was my tears, and he also swore to me for this, to protect my smile and keep me away from such cold things as tears.

I laughed at Jin Huadong disdainfully, calling him hypocritical, but I was very happy in my heart.

Jin Huadong once told me that the life of being controlled by others was very uncomfortable. I felt the same way, and asked him who was controlling him, but he didn't say anything, just smiled, pointed at the dark sky and said to me, It would be great if the sky had no borders. He really wanted to turn into a goshawk, break free from all constraints and rush out of this limited world.

Then I continued to laugh at him, although I agreed with him in my heart, but seeing his concentration, I wanted to play tricks on him.Especially twisting his chubby face, there is quite a sense of accomplishment.

In fact, the time I spent with him was not long, at least compared to my brother who has existed since I can remember, it was short and couldn't be shorter.

But during those days, I was very happy. This kind of satisfaction that someone was always by my side made me forget the grievances that I had been lonely for many years.

It's a pity that it was destroyed by my brother in the end.

I felt something was wrong that day. My brother seldom communicated with me about other things, but for the first time asked me about some things I had said to Jin Huadong. Dangerous, brother, the quieter he is, the more terrifying he is, and I have seen his murderous ruthlessness. During those years of fleeing, he was never merciless.

So I quietly changed the agreed place with Jin Huadong, and it was at home. I thought that if I didn't go out, I would definitely not arouse my brother's suspicion.

I have never regretted it so much. At that time, I should not have changed places. What I should have done was to cut off contact with Jinhuadong.

That scene happened so suddenly, I saw Jin Huadong entangled with his brother with a fierce skill that I had never seen before, both of them almost broke out at a certain point, fighting for their lives, but I didn't know where that point was .

Moreover, Jin Huadong at this time is different from what I usually see. His whole face seems to be a different person, as if he was just wearing a different shell when we got along with me during that time.I could barely recognize him except for those eyes.

I didn't expect Jin Huadong to turn around and point a gun at me. At that moment, I felt a sharp pain in my heart, but I immediately relaxed again. Do you want my life?If you want it, I'll give it to you.

(End of this chapter)