Homecoming from Space Missions

Chapter 47

I simply closed my eyes, but in the last corner of my eye I saw Jin Huadong's shocked eyes at my behavior, as well as his hesitation and struggle in his movements.

It was such an instant thing, no matter how fast Jin Huadong moved, he couldn't be as fast as his brother.My brother had the upper hand, and I closed my eyes to hear the sound of dangerous weapons, and then the splash of hot blood on my face.

Slowly opening my eyes, I saw Jin Huadong lying on the ground, his hands were still pointing towards me, as if he was trying to grab something, but in the end he got nothing.

I knelt down next to Jin Huadong's body in silence, dumbly, and didn't take the next step for a long time. This sudden result shocked me so much that my mind stopped thinking.

Until my brother took my arm and dragged me up, he reached out to wipe the blood on my face, and said softly, "You shouldn't be with him, he wants to kill you."

Shouldn't!no!cannot!No!Is my brother always only saying these words to me? !
"Mu Jun, get out of here - get out of here! I don't want to see you in my life!" I suddenly pushed my brother away, crying and screaming at him, the pain in my heart made me hard to breathe , I could feel my face flushed, but I still stared at him bitterly.

His complexion was not necessarily good-looking either. For the first time, I felt the dangerous and oppressive aura emanating from his body at close range, as if it was a dense black mist that was about to swallow everything.

Seeing my brother take a step forward, my resentment surpassed everything else, and I screamed at him: "Why are you looking at me so fiercely, do you want to kill me? It's like killing him, come on!" Ah, anyway, my life is yours, you take it, I don't care! I don't care! I wish I could go with him now, if he wants my life, I'll give it to him, why do you care about me! "

"Pa——" I slapped my brother hard on the face, and seeing my regretful expression after he slapped me, I raised my head and laughed.

"I'm very angry. I don't understand your kindness and kindness after raising me such a white-eyed wolf. I'm sorry, I can't understand and don't want to understand! Do you think that you are the best after doing everything? Why are you so self-righteous! Just because I don't have a father or a mother, so I should be controlled by you and be a fool with no brains or thinking ability?"

The older brother tried to defend himself: "I didn't...."

"Don't say you didn't?!" I didn't know what I was talking about at the time, so I could only crackle in one breath, "You are not at home all day, I live alone for a long time, Jiang Bo has Jiang Bo's job , Grandpa Dongfang left us a long time ago. I spend all my time alone. In this way, I can follow your food preferences, life rules, knowledge to learn, everything about me, and everything. , Why, how much time do you spend with me? You are so sure that what you want is what I want!"

Some bloody taste came out of my mouth, and my vision became blurred, but I was still talking, I just covered my chest like that and said: "You always ask me what I like and what I want, but I haven't touched it at all Passing through the outside world, the ones on TV are like things in the mirror to me, so strange, I don’t feel it at all, I can’t tell what I want, I don’t understand—the only one , everything I wanted for the first time was directly taken away by you..."

In the end, I collapsed due to exhaustion. I have been in poor health since I was a child. I was so excited that I wanted to die, but I have never felt so happy in my heart. At least death is my choice, right?
But my brother won't let me leave so easily, and I know that too.

When I woke up from the coma, I didn't know when it was, I groped and walked to my room, then looked at the light from the crack in the door, and stopped.

I just hugged my knees and sat curled up by the door. I didn't want to go in because I knew there were people inside that I didn't want to see.

Occasionally there was a muffled sound of something falling in the room, followed by a long silence.

Until my brother asked questions.

His voice is very low, it may be from the relationship that has not slept for too long, it is heavy and hoarse: "Uncle Jiang, did I do something wrong...."

It was clearly a question, but what he said was in a declarative tone.

I hid outside and avoided him. With his vigilance, he must know that I was there, but he didn't come to look for me. I thought if he opened the door at this time, I would definitely run away.I heard the sound of his things falling on the ground, and I thought that I must have dug out the gifts I hid and didn't want.

Probably I am really a cruel person. In this situation, I can imagine his gap and disappointment, but I actually felt a sense of revenge at that time. Comparing the scene of Jin Huadong’s death in my mind with the scene of my brother’s disappointment, I just think it’s retribution.

The next day, he left the house and never came back.

I didn't ask where he went, nor did I want to know.For so many years, he has rarely stayed at home, he just comes back at regular times, the only change now is that I don't have to see him again, isn't it great?I know that when he left, he directly knocked down a ten-story steel frame, and he was full of resentment, and it was so stiff, we don't need to wrong each other to endure that anger, we can do whatever we want, Distancing is also a great way to vent.

So far, I have obtained the freedom I want. I can make friends and get in touch with the world by myself. Everything is so new to me. The future is obviously bright, but I still feel a faint pain in my heart.Does Jin Huadong really want to kill me?He is dead, and the boy who laughed and sneaked with me will never come back.

How many nights, I often wake up, and then cry alone, as I grow older, I know that I may not be called "love" for Jin Huadong, but he has the dream I bet on at that time, and he represents my life. Broken dreams, regrets that cannot be repaired, and cannot be retrieved.

Occasionally, I would think of my brother, but after all, I couldn't figure out how he felt about me, so I didn't bother to think about it in the end.

Sometimes, I would receive a message from my brother, but I never read it once. Sometimes I was so anxious by Uncle Jiang, I just threw something on the video, watching the debris splashed on it hahaha laugh.I really want to have no contact with my brother from now on. If I really have to contact him again one day, I hope I will be dead by then.

Simple, I don't want to see him, my mind has never been as deep and complicated as my brother's, one is one, two is two, I can say what I have, so I don't want to hide my dislike for him.

Sometimes I think, if we didn't meet in the family relationship like brother and sister, but got along with another identity, would I get along well with him, but thinking of his personality, I don't think there is anyone in this world A person can stand his strong desire to control and possess, even if he uses another method, the result will be the same.

Although I am useless, I also hope to be able to decide my own life.

Time is a wonderful thing. As I grew up and got to know a lot of people, my angular temper also restrained a lot.Getting along with people is not as scary as my brother said, and it is not as pleasant as I imagined. There are troublesome things and happy things, but I really feel that I am still alive.

Once, when I was a little drunk, I thought of replying a message to my brother, telling him that I was doing well, and wanted to have a good talk with him about what happened in East Jinhua back then, but in the end I put my hand on the button, and after all, I didn’t fall.

I haven't heard from him for several years, and I suddenly feel that he has gradually become a stranger in my life, and I don't know how to say anything anymore.

But he is still my only family member, my elder brother, I hate him for what happened back then, he used extreme means to take away my dream, until now this feeling has not disappeared, it just faded away.

At least his starting point is good, he just wants to protect me.

Bai Fei in the band said that it is the happiest thing to have someone who treats you wholeheartedly.

Han Feng told me that men are seeds who like to monopolize everything but show mercy everywhere.

I thought, when I became a real adult at the age of 16, what I saw and thought would be the same as what they said.I was suddenly a little dazed and flinched. If it was my fault, how should I make up for the harm I did to my brother.

Fortunately, I didn't have a chance to think about it. When the lightning in the sky hit me, my consciousness gradually dissipated, as if some powerful spirit was gradually invading my body.

I think, probably this is the so-called being bent over?
From then on in this world, there is no such entangled soul as mine. I can freely go to the place I want to belong to. I don't know if there is another Jinhuadong waiting for me there.

Brother, I know that I owe you a lot, your protection and your hard work are not malicious, but I don't like being so incompetent and doing nothing, and being cared for by others, so in this life, I don't I will change my mind again, and I will leave my body to make up for what I owe you.

When Mu Jun came back after four years, when he saw the girl he cared about again, his first reaction was that he was a stranger.

His eyes and demeanor were so different from his impression that he couldn't call her by her name with certainty: "Mayue?"

Unexpectedly, what she greeted him was a big hug, and that gentle body made his floating heart suddenly find a harbor to dock, but the lessons of the past are still there, because May has deceived him and has always pretended not to care. , has been concealing her true thoughts, so that the two quarreled to an irreparable point.

So when his heart warmed for a moment, he was on guard, perhaps afraid deep in his heart, when he would see the facts that did not match his imagination.

But he didn't know at that time that everything was indeed different, far from what he had imagined, whether it was May's personality or real identity.

(End of this chapter)