Alternative Telling of Dream of Red Mansions: Cherishing Spring

Chapter 17
Ruhua stared at her face, Xichun, who had just woken up, had a baby-like scar on her face, white and fragile.Xichun frowned and repeated it calmly.How to explain, here is too hard, there is no temperature, even the sunlight, and now the sunlight is infected by the severe cold, even if it is soft, it is ice silk.Her skin cannot be in contact with the outside world, and will be damaged to varying degrees due to the amount of exposure.The body shuddered.The voice in my heart can't make a sound.

Ruhua didn't answer her, stood up and twisted a hot towel for her, poured a cup of tea, and came over to help her up to drink.After a pause, she said, "Are you really going? But, besides your ancestors, where can you go?"

"I'm not sure if I'm dreaming or real, I heard the voices of fear, some people screamed, some people laughed wildly, and then a large black shadow covered me, and I was buried. When I died, it was still ringing in my ears The roar of the wild beast was too terrible. Then someone came and grabbed my hand, and the surrounding gradually became quiet." Xichun frowned and described a dream.

After entering the painting, he took the cup and towel and put them aside, feeling worried.

Xichun smiled slightly, she fell down on the pillow and looked at her panic-stricken maid.After a serious illness, she saw the sunshine outside the window, and the subtle furnishings in this room, as well as the people around her, were all new and strange.At this moment, the sky has become lighter and more transparent, and the sunlight has become more wanton. In a short period of time, it has expanded to the entire room.All of a sudden, Xichun found that her emotion towards the painting was as fresh and abundant as sunshine, and her gratitude, like the sudden drop of nectar, moistened her heart.She remembered that when her life and death were at stake, it was Ru Hua who was by her side.There are too many relationships between life and death that can be distant or close, like standing on the bow of a boat waving goodbye or getting closer to the other shore.Compared with the eternal and stable stillness of life, all kinds of relationships are relative and constantly changing dynamics.

Xichun stretched out her hand and slowly held Ruhua's hand and said, "Thank you. I know that person is you." This was the first time she took the initiative to shake someone's hand.Xichun's fingers were moist and soft, and her heart seemed to be entangled and tightened by countless soft threads when she entered the painting. In an instant, she had the illusion that what she was facing was a bunch of enchanting vines that were still sickly, and there were tiny flowers hidden in a cluster of dark green branches and leaves. It is Xichun's origin, not her.

The delicate and lingering pain made her have a long-lasting feeling of pity for Xichun.She was vigilant, but she still couldn't open her mouth, and she made many mistakes.If Xichun misunderstood that she was the person last night, then it was her.Feng Ziying was originally just a cameo, so there was no need for sparks and sadness.

In the intimate touch, their lips touch together, like two blind fishes meeting on the dark seabed.That blind and flustered throbbing, like a flower in nature, blooms softly.

Xichun kissed her.

stunned!The tenderness and strangeness in her heart made Ruhua feel weird and awkward. She stared at Xichun, pushed her away vigorously, jumped up and shouted: "You kiss me! You—"

"That's all." Xichun coughed softly, with a faint smile on her pale face, "I don't have any intentions for you, it's just that I couldn't find any other way to express my affection just now. Entering the painting, my heart There is nowhere to vent my emotions, I am getting more and more lonely, my heart is getting heavier, and I am falling every day, and I have less and less strength to suppress them."

Into the painting speechless.The kiss just now made her dizzy and at a loss.

A long time ago, people met each other naked, not only the body, but also the soul.Xichun feels lonely.Once she made the most frank move, it was an abrupt move in the eyes of others.Even she seemed absurd and elusive.

She got out of bed slowly and stood on the ground as if stepping on cotton balls.She stood firm, swayed to put on her clothes, and then waved to Hua Hua who stood aside and regarded her as a monster: "Come here, help me comb my bun. I want to see my ancestors." She raised her hands innocently, showing a sly look Smiling, "Hands are soft, with no strength at all."

She sat in front of the mirror, quietly.Into the painting in the mirror, hesitantly walked over slowly.

"Girl, I love my cousin. Even if you are lonely, I can't accompany you."

"I understand." Xichun nodded.Same-sex love and opposite-sex love are as ethereal in her heart, like the light and shadow in the clouds, and the Sanskrit sounds in the sky, which are also far away and untouchable.The direction of emotion is like the two ends of the road. Many people are ambiguous. They just follow the environment and choose the side that seems relatively real to them.

"I also know where those nightmares come from..." she said.He lowered his head and buried his face in the air, his cheeks were cold.This feeling is called loneliness?No, it was already a feeling that was more empty than this feeling.It was... whatever it was, she was determined to get rid of them.After the serious illness, she felt more empty in her heart, and she also felt more clearly that at certain moments, her need for emotions had reached the level that she could not hold back, like a person crossing a river with chains, regardless of the rapids and dangers of the river under his feet. to the other side.

Suddenly, Xichun felt a great pain in her heart, and she couldn't help but shed tears.With tears in her eyes, she urged to enter the painting: "Hurry up and help me comb my hair. My ancestor... I have a hunch that she is leaving soon."

Hearing this, Ruhua became even more flustered, the comb in his hand fell to the ground and snapped into two pieces.Xichun looked at the broken comb, pursed her lips and ran towards the door.

Outside, the sun makes the branches look broken.

Xichun ran wildly along the corridor, the chill crawled up the soles of her feet.She lowered her head and found that she was only wearing silk socks, which were so thin that it seemed she hadn't worn them.There was no sound in the yard, and occasionally passing by a few maids and servants, seeing her disheveled, lowered her head and covered her mouth, she was quite frightened.Xichun stopped suddenly, and stopped a servant: "Help me call Lai Yier to prepare the car, I'm going to the old lady's."

"Go back to the girl, the uncle is going to pick up someone!" The young man waited on him with his hands down, and hurriedly retreated to the bottom of the wall.

damn it!She gritted her teeth, turned her head and ran towards the gate, her feet hurt from the stones, she couldn't care less!When death comes like a tide, when life retreats, it is decisive and will not stay for a moment.Even in this embarrassment, I have to rush to Rongfu to see the old man for the last time.

She ran out of the gate, the sky was still bright just now, but now it was completely overcast, the clouds were thick and heavy, as heavy as lead, ready to fall on the top of her head.The people on Rongning Street are deserted, the light and shadow on the bluestone board are dim, and the lines are like blunt swords, but they are enough to tear the eyeballs.Rong Mansion, a hundred meters away, seemed far away.Hearing a rush of horseshoes in his ears, Xichun was so upset that he didn't bother to look back.

When she ran down the steps, she heard the man shouting: "Get on the horse!"

He stretched out his hand, with long, white fingers.There was a flash in my mind, and the string moved with sound.

In a flash of thought, she grabbed his hand.In the next flash of thought, he had already reached the gate of Rongfu.

He carried her off the horse, and when Xichun landed, she staggered and ran towards the mansion, without looking back at him from the beginning to the end.

Feng Ziying reined in the horse, raised her eyebrows and smiled slightly, and saw her figure disappear at the door, then turned her horse's head and left.He couldn't help laughing on the horse, laughing at himself that every time he saw Xichun, she acted unreasonably, a lady of a big family, running around with bare feet.He laughed out loud, why did Jia's dogma fail to work on her?What a strange girl.

What happened just now was really a coincidence.When Jia Zhen came back today, Feng Ziying, Wei Ruolan, and Chen Yejun went to pick him up at the inn.Jia Zhen looked thinner and lost a lot, but she was still in good spirits. A few people just entered the city and wanted to find a tavern to sit down and talk about the old days. Those concubines will send someone to lock you up" or something like that.Unexpectedly, before he could speak, he saw Lai Yier greeted him with all four hooves.Others can do it, Wei Ruolan is the youngest, she clapped her hands and laughed early: "Hey! This is coming soon! You can't be so fast like a law!" A word made everyone laugh, and the horse galloped to the front , Lai Yier didn't even get off the horse, standing on the saddle and arching his body to salute.This is an extraordinary ceremony in an extraordinary period, and something important must happen in the mansion.Everyone knew something was wrong, and hurriedly swallowed the jokes.Jia Zhen was even more alert, and without answering, she arched her hand to the crowd and called out: "Young companion!" Then she got on her horse and left.Feng Ziying was going to have some fun with Wei and Chen, but somehow she changed her mind and followed Jia Zhen to Rongning Street.

Jia Zhen didn't return home with her intentions, but went straight to Rongfu.Feng Ziying was feeling lost, and was about to go back to her horse, when she saw Xichun running out.He was refreshed, and seeing her bare feet and flustered expression, he immediately guessed her intention automatically.I can't bear to think too much, and I have already called immediately to ask the hero to save the beauty.Tsk tsk, if you are too attentive, you will appear humble, he laughed at himself.

After passing the entrance of Rongning Street, there was another sound of horseshoes behind her. Feng Ziying looked back and saw that the person was here for a reason.He laughed, picked up his horsewhip and whipped him lightly, and shouted: "You dog! You came out quickly!"

"I've neglected you just now! I'm here to make amends!" Lai Yi'er jumped off the horse, lay down on the cold ground, and knocked her head three times.

"The big gift is off, get up!" He raised the whip to remind him to get up, and then asked, "What happened in the mansion?"

"Our old lady is dying. I don't know if we can't make it through today." Lai Yi'er is desolate, he may not have the slightest affection for Jia's mother. Acting too cool, too nostalgic, easy to break taboos.Because the new owner will also think about it, if you treat him like this, it is inevitable that you will not treat me like this in the future.People's hearts are full of thorns, and it is even more difficult to be a slave to others. Be careful in every word and deed.

"Then you should go back and take care of Master Zhen." Feng Ziying told him, "It's the same if I ask someone else to collect the account of my shop outside. It's not a day or two. You can take care of your master with peace of mind, and ——" He looked at Lai Yier with a smile, "You know..."

"There are four girls! The slaves are always careful!" Lai Yi'er answered the words, and he grabbed his rein with a playful smile and raised his face and smiled.On his delicate face, there was a daring smile, vaguely still the monkey who didn't know anything about his personnel back then.

"Be good, Hozen!" Feng Ziying bent down, kissed him on the face, smiled very complacently, threw down a big silver, and walked away.

Behind him, someone's sigh sounded, which shattered the coldness of the long street.

Xichun never expected that it is not easy to enter the mansion, and it is even more difficult to meet people.Before she reached Jia Mu's main room, she was stopped in the corridor and dragged into the wing room.Xichun calmed down and saw that it was You Shi who came, and stopped her with a few wives laughing, just making fun of her: "Where did this disheveled girl come from? Where are you going?"

Xichun wakes up suddenly, they have a premeditated plan.From the fact that there was no car in the house to the interception on the way now, it was all calculated, and they were at ease not to let her see the old lady for the last time.If there is one less person present in the inheritance, there will be one less person to share.She held back her breath and scolded her: "I'm going to see the old lady, don't get in the way!"

"The old lady is busy. The people in that house alone are too busy, so how can they have time to talk to us? The girl is always with the old lady, so it's okay if I don't see you now!" Youshi stabbed her lukewarmly.The women followed with a burst of laughter.Xichun looked at Youshi coldly, she couldn't count how many benefits she had gained, but she is trying so hard to stop her now, she is definitely not a villain without benefits.Xichun knew in her heart that in this mansion, everyone was from the same path, with the same purpose, and it was only about the depth of skill!

She has no time to quarrel with this woman now, and she doesn't have to struggle anymore, so the women had to let her go.She suddenly dodged them and ran towards the door, but unfortunately she miscalculated, there were several of them, and she didn't see You Shi's wink, she glanced at it, and those women who were thick in Wuhan University came up and crushed her feet with their feet .

pain!She cried out and fell to the ground.Tears are about to roll, this is too much!Has she ever been humiliated like this since she was a child?Even Jia Zhen, who hated her so much, dared not be so blatantly rude to her.For a moment, there were mixed feelings in my heart, and all the sadness and grievances came to my heart. These people saw that the old lady was useless, and the big tree that shaded her was about to fall, so they dared to step on her so recklessly.It's also true, and they are very sensible, these people... She closed her eyes, she didn't even feel astonished, she really had nothing to say.

"Why you? You came to deal with me? Why do you hate me so much?" She managed to stand up and asked Youshi repeatedly.Even though she was clever, she couldn't figure out why You Shi helped the people in this house to deal with her.Even if she deals with her, she will not get a share of the inheritance.Benefits—even if there are benefits, there are limits.Even if people from such a family were poor, they would not be so short-sighted, and the benefits of a few hundred taels of silver would not be worth a Youshi.It is unrealistic to spend a thousand taels.

"Why..." You Shi brushed the old woman away, approached her, and stared into her eyes.Xichun was terrified, she had never seen such a resentful expression on Youshi's face, what was burning in her eyes - Xichun took a step back in shock, she recognized that it was the Buddhist scriptures that warned all beings - Asura's jealousy.

"You hate me?" Xichun came to the conclusion in astonishment, and a little bit of chill came to her heart.

"Strange, isn't it?" Youshi looked at her indifferently, or didn't look at her at all.Youshi's eyes drifted out of the window.There is a tall phoenix tree outside the window, and a tree of fiery red flowers is burning under the blue sky. The fire-like flowers burn people's sight.

"——I hate your mother, Qin Keqing. Her existence makes me just a concubine forever. Do you know what it's like to be a concubine?" Strands of resentment.

Xichun is silent, what Youshi said is not a lie, even Xichun herself, she only thinks Youshi is a concubine.In her heart, no one can replace Qin's position. There will always be only one wife of Jia Zhen——Qin Keqing.

Youshi's voice was in pain: "No matter how hard I try, I'm just another woman's substitute. In this house, in his heart, in everyone's heart, have you ever respected me?" Youshi said deeply. He sighed for a long time, "Even you, you bastard, you never thought of calling me sister-in-law. I went to your room and was kicked out by you. How could you treat others like this?" ?”

Xichun shuddered, looking at Youshi's distorted face, she was completely horrified!She thought that few people would know about her life experience, but now it seems that Youshi knows it all, it is not a secret at all!Xichun's face was pale, and her heart was bleeding like a sharp knife.

"How dare you insult her!" Xichun yelled angrily as she glared at the woman in front of her!Her voice alarmed Jia Zhen who came to look for Youshi outside the door.He pushed the door open and came in, just in time to hear Youshi's desperate roar - "I have nothing to say, that bitch, she is shameless, you are only with that person!"

Before Xichun had time to react, Jia Zhen had already caught up and slapped You Shi in the face with a raised hand.He mercilessly slapped Youshi so hard that Youshi staggered and fell to the ground.Jia Zhen was furious, and regardless of whether anyone was watching, she pulled You Shi's hair and slammed it to the ground.When Youshi saw him, his face turned pale with fright, how could he say a complete sentence?

"I told you to tell me! You bastard, I'll kill you!" Jia Zhen's eyes were fierce, and she grabbed You Shi's throat with her hand.His face looked more and more sinister in the shadow of the wing.It was a man-eating, manic, bloodthirsty beast.

Youshi's face turned purple, and he grabbed Jia Zhen's hand and struggled desperately.Xichun who was standing next to her suddenly woke up, and she remembered that Jia Zhen strangled her neck like this back then.This lunatic, he wants to repeat the old trick again, he will strangle anyone who doesn't like him!

"Let her go!" Xichun broke his hand hard and bit down hard.Xichun was terrified to death, she didn't know what Jia Zhen would do to her if she let Youshi go, she couldn't imagine.He is a lunatic, a lunatic with unreasonable thinking and logic, a lunatic who can't control himself every time Qin is mentioned.She hated him, and she was even more afraid of him.Jia Zhen withdrew her hand in pain, her bloodshot eyes grabbed Xichun, and asked obsessively and obsessively: "You don't want to kill her? If you kill her, one less person will know your secret." Jia Zhen's calm reaction made her puzzled, but One thing she knew was that she couldn't kill someone for her own secret.Xichun shook her head, she didn't know what force made her dare to order Jia Zhen: "Don't hurt her."

Jia Zhen let out a weird laugh and fixed her eyes on Xichun, but he really let Youshi go. "Don't let me hear another word from you that I shouldn't listen to. Otherwise, the Heavenly King and I will not be able to stop me from dealing with you!" He squinted his eyes to warn You Shi, and walked out.Xichun looked at his back and heaved a sigh of relief.She believed that this lunatic listened to her today, not because of how much influence she had, but because he didn't want to make trouble at this time today.

"How did this happen?" Xichun stood up slowly while supporting the chair, and asked You Shi, who had escaped from death with a pale face.All these vicissitudes of people's hearts are not only not in her plan, even her imagination is too far behind.

"As you can see, there are only two women he cares about most in his life, one is Qin and the other is you."

"No...how could it be?" Xichun was stunned!Shake your head!Jia Zhen hates her, she doesn't doubt that he cares about her, it's a fantasy!
You Shi gasped and coughed unceasingly, and it took him a long time to say the next sentence.She raised her eyes to look at Xi Chun, with a smile on the corner of her mouth, but there was a cold flame in her eyes, and the raging fire was burning the two people in the dark wing.

She said: "Hate can also occupy a person's heart. He hates you, hates with his heart, and is sensitive to your every move, but for me, he is dispensable and doesn't care. The matter that Sister Feng was the second sister that year Go to the mansion to make a fuss, saying that I am useless and don't care about things, let him mess around outside. She doesn't understand my suffering at all. For a person like me, he can listen to what he says? I even his people I can't control it, how can I have the right to meddle in his affairs..." Youshi burst into tears—crying uncontrollably.It is not a bad thing if the misery of life will flow away with tears.

Xichun said nothing, turned around and walked out slowly.Her feet were numb and painful, and they were definitely swollen. She didn't know how to comfort You Shi, just like she didn't know how to stop her feet from swelling.The entanglement between their husband and wife, the grievances and grievances between many people, everything can only be resigned to fate.

"Your eyes are too similar to hers." Youshi sighed quietly behind her.

With his back to her, Xichun's face twitched, frightened.What does this mean?Her eyes are like hers, it's scary!She is so sad that she can't have a little bit of her mother's imprint, for fear of being seen through.To be human, to act like a scarecrow, to look human, but not at all real.

(End of this chapter)