Alternative Telling of Dream of Red Mansions: Cherishing Spring

Chapter 42
At this time, there was no one in the courtyard.Yuchan walked out of the house and stood on the porch looking at Zihua for a while. She hadn't been out of the room for a long time, and at this moment she felt calm and peaceful like never before.After deciding on the path she was going to take, the sadness that had suppressed her for many days loosened up.She became clear and simple.In front of me, the breeze is shining, the grass is full of flowers, and there are butterflies standing lightly on the flower branches and swaying coquettishly.In this glamorous moment, she slightly touched the threshold between life and death.Just like Zhuang Shenghuadie, who suddenly returned to her innocent childhood, she also stayed under the flower tree like this, watching the flowers bloom quietly day after day without feeling sentimental.

She found that in this brief moment, she completely forgot about the person in her heart. She had never met him, nor loved him.Her whole life is complete as a new egg, not yet hatched.Although ignorant but simple.

Jue Luoshi came to call her, he was surprised and happy to see her in the yard who had not been out of the room for a long time, he caught up with her and took her hand to greet her.Yuchan responded a few times, then asked straightforwardly: "Mother, is he here?"

Jue Luo's expression froze when she asked her, and he nodded uncomfortably: "That bastard is in the west hall. Let's talk to him later." Seeing Yuchan's normal expression, Jue Luo said again, "Daughter, you It's too good-natured. If I knew he was a bastard, even if I raised you for the rest of my life, I definitely wouldn't let you enter the Feng family and suffer such grievances!"

Thinking back to the beginning, Yuchan felt a little choked up in her heart.Jue Luoshi's words reminded her of some past events unconsciously, and Yu Chan felt like a bug was trying to get out of the net, and she struggled and shook slightly. "Mother!" Yuchan bowed her head in silence for a while, looked up at her and said softly, "I choose the person myself, even if I choose the wrong one, I don't regret it. What's the use of talking about it now?"

Jue Luo saw that her expression and words were very different from the past, so she couldn't help being suspicious: "Daughter, what's wrong with you today?"

Yu Chan smiled and helped Jue Luo Shi walk around the rockery and said: "It's nothing, I just figured it out. If I want him, I have to tolerate his mistakes. If Ziying comes to pick me up, it's because he's still in his heart." With my place, I will naturally go back with him. What happens in the future, whether we live well or not is a matter between me and him, and it is also my destiny. We are already married, so we can't be coquettish and foolish, and don't know the importance. If he doesn't come to pick me up, I will go my own way, and I will never embarrass my parents." She smiled a little guilty, "My daughter has made my parents worry about these days."

Jue Luo's suspicion deepened, he couldn't help but stop, took Yuchan's shoulder, and looked at her carefully.Yuchan looked at her with a slight smile, letting her gaze be as meticulous as a needle without revealing anything strange.

Jue Luo felt a little relieved, because although Yuchan was depressed during the time she came back, she didn't do anything radical, and she wouldn't think of other things for a while.

The mother and daughter walked all the way along the cobblestone path, and stood on the arch bridge to watch the fish.Jue Luoshi felt emotional suddenly, turned to look at the water and sighed: "Daughter, don't say anything about whether you are worried or not. When you have children yourself, you will know that no matter how much a master should worry about a servant." Seeing that Yuchan was silent, she said again, "I'll tell you after you have figured it out today. Don't look at the fishes in the bottom of the water paired up, the birds in the sky are in pairs, and the relationship between husband and wife in the world is actually cold. You and Zi What happened to Ying seems like a big deal to you, but it is also common to us. People grow up for decades, what kind of people and things can’t happen? Even I am not the only person in your father’s heart, but he still Instead of staying with me, and giving birth to you with me? You don’t have to care so clearly about true feelings and falsehoods, and neither do you.”

A tiny light ignited in Yuchan's eyes, like stars quietly appearing in the dark sky.This rising stubbornness makes her different from Jue Luo's compromise.She silently picked up some fish food, sprinkled it down and said, "Mother, is it true that the basic principle of marriage is that the two benefits are the most important, and the two evils are the lesser? Marriage can be maintained not because of love, but because of love." Need, is it just because we are fellow travelers?"

Jue Luo's original intention was to comfort Yuchan, but unexpectedly he said it in a heartbroken way, but the grievances between husband and wife in the past few decades cannot be explained clearly in a few words.She hurriedly stopped the conversation, and said with a forced smile: "I'm crazy today, I don't have to tell you what to do with these sad words." She took Yuchan along and said, "Let's go to the west hall, after talking about it for a while , about the same time. Your father wants us to go there together."

Yuchan showed a look of hesitation: "I don't want to see him directly." Jue Luoshi pondered: "It's okay, then you wait in the back of the hall. If he really changes his ways, you come out and follow him back. If so..." She She paused, it was a bad idea, and she couldn't bear to say it.

Yuchan didn't seem to notice, she pressed the purse on her waist with her hand, nodded and said: "Just follow the mother." Jue Luoshi turned to look at her again, she felt that Yuchan's smoothness today was a bit strange.There was no time to think about it at the moment, so she took Yuchan to the west hall.

She leaned against the door to listen to him, the voice was very close and rang clearly in her ears.She was startled to realize that her missing him was like she had given birth to her own ears, and she couldn't wait to understand all the details about him.She was like a dry pond waiting for the rain to come, and she suffered so much that her heart cracked.But when the rain and dew really came, I was terrified—whether I could bear the weight of coming again after the dry waiting.

Sure enough, he offered a letter of divorce and knocked her down!He put on a gesture that he didn't want to have anything to do with her anymore.After hearing this, Yuchan felt bitter like a thunderbolt, her lips were stuck together and she couldn't make a sound.The five sons Deng Ketu on the carved window came alive in her eyes, and the small figures were like ghosts who had died before being reincarnated and hid here, whispering together.The figures of the servants by the door of the Moon Cave passed by, and they seemed to have heard something again—if the family members were like this, one can imagine what the outsiders were talking about.In the past few months since she came back, she has also heard a lot of gossip.

She was dismissed for nothing, which was more shameful than being dismissed for her fault.She was afraid of being criticized by thousands of people, so she died without any illness.Even if this man is useless and unsatisfactory, having him is like a fig leaf in front of people - after all, you are a woman wanted by someone, not someone who is wanted by no one.

Yuchan dazedly recalled the desolate look her mother had shown just now, and laughed at herself in her heart.She is worse than her mother, even if she wants to be a confused couple, others may not give her a chance.It takes someone willing to make do with you to change your sincerity. She is so humble that she wants to maintain her husband and wife status in name only, and she is not qualified.

The people in the hall seemed to be still talking about something... Yuchan couldn't hear clearly, the branches and leaves in her heart trembled, and her love for Feng Ziying fell like the last petal.But at this moment, she didn't hate Feng Ziying or Xichun at all, her heart was as pure as the beginning of heaven and earth.When Yuchan pulled out the golden hairpin, she saw another self in the dark shadow of the door, she suddenly felt that that person was not herself, she just stabbed the golden hairpin into her throat, it was so simple and clear.

When she fell down, she saw her 12-year-old self, returning to the paddock, riding a horse and following him with his eyes all the time. When he received the reward, he turned his head and smiled at her.He immediately turned around, but he didn't know that bright smile remained in her heart all the time. That scene was a stone that broke her heart suddenly. When the stone fell, the shock caused became bigger and bigger, and it became a symbol of her affection for him over time.

That aftermath still hits her accurately to this day.At the end of her life, it was still fresh as if it had just bloomed.Her last tears poured out together with the blood, filling the air like a thick fog.She loved him, a love that had given her endless hope, but also brought her endless pain.That alone is worth it.

Fog gradually filled Feng Ziying's eyes.He had no time to see Jue Luoshi who was crying so much that he almost passed out on the ground, and he had no time to care about Nalan Daizhan's ruthless attempts to deal with him.He clenched the fatal poem in his hand, and there was a sentence behind the poem: "What happened to my daughter today has nothing to do with Feng Ziying, and I have nothing to do with him from now on."

In an instant, a huge sense of guilt pressed down on Feng Ziying, smashing him to pieces.It seemed that he only saw Yuchan's face clearly at this time, and understood her feelings for him.The feelings have been intertwined between her eyebrows and eyes over the years, and they are more serious than he expected.She was still thinking about him until she died - she said she had nothing to do with him, because she didn't want him to be embarrassed.However, "I don't kill Boren, Boren died because of me."Even if Yuchan's parents didn't embarrass him, he couldn't pass his own test.

Feng Ziying's heart seemed to be bitten by thousands of bugs.He slowly stretched out his hand, but hesitated when he touched Yuchan's face.He saw the relieved smile on her face, not sure if she would still accept his approach.Yuchan left suddenly, Xichun gradually distanced herself from her.A terrible feeling rose in his heart, he felt that he was abandoned by everyone.This feeling of loneliness overwhelmed him, and he cried helplessly like a baby.

"Yu Chan." He called her name and knelt beside her.Yuchan became very small in his eyes.He suddenly remembered what she was like when she was a child.He once forgot her face for a long time, he only thought that she was a vague existence, he got it for granted, so he forgot it for granted.Tears fell on her face, he remembered someone said that the tears of relatives will turn into moles on the face, and he will recognize her by this in the next life.

"I'll take her home." He choked with sobs and leaned over to hug her.Yuchan's body was still warm, as soft as if she was in his arms for the first time.

Jue Luoshi was so sad that he couldn't help but see him holding Yuchan in his arms, but he didn't stop him, he just folded his hands and looked at him and wept.Nalan Daizhan held on to himself, seeing this, hurriedly stepped across the threshold and stopped in front of him, shouting: "Nie Zhan, you still haven't let my daughter go! You've divorced her, why are you still entangled like this?"

Feng Ziying did not argue, and walked straight out holding Yuchan, with only one thought in his mind: take Yuchan home.He knew it would be useless to say anything now, since Yuchan didn't accept his divorce letter with her own hands, she was still his wife.He was about to take her home.

What did Nalan Daizhan do to Feng Ziying because he was holding Yuchan in his arms, so he couldn't go forward.In his heart, Yuchan didn't die either, his daughter just fell asleep and entered a good dream.He was afraid of disturbing her.But he couldn't just watch Feng Ziying take Yuchan away, and anxiously shouted behind Feng Ziying: "Wait!"

Feng Ziying stopped slightly, and Nalan Daizhan stared at him and said, "Do you think my daughter wants to go back with you again?" Feng Ziying was in a daze for a moment, and he lowered his head to look at Yuchan, subconsciously hoping to get something from her. an exact answer.However, she closed her eyes, like a long lonely road covered by darkness.Knowing that there would be no reply, he felt an inexplicable pain in his heart again, and burst into tears.

Jue Luo, who had been crying and speechless, stepped forward and said, "Master, let Yuchan go with Ziying." She stepped forward to caress Yuchan's face, remembering the scene in the backyard just now, she regretted so much that she wished to kill her. own.She hated herself for being careless for not listening to Yuchan's subtext, and now she regrets it.Even though she also hated Feng Ziying deeply, that was for the future.Now the only thing she can do for Yuchan is to fulfill her last wish.She can appreciate her daughter's thoughts, even if she can't get his love, she is willing to stay with the man she loves.She glanced at her husband because that was exactly what she was doing too.

Nalan Daizhan said in amazement: "Have you lost your head! Yuchan, she..." Even though Yuchan's death was an irreversible fact, he hesitated for a long time, but he couldn't say the word "death" after all.

"This is Yuchan's meaning." Jueluo said with tears in her eyes, "She said that if Ziying came to pick her up, she would go back with him, and if he didn't pick her up, she would have her own plan." Yan seemed to be severely injured, and looked at Jue Luo Shi in disbelief, but he also felt that Luo Shi would never lie to him.He stared at Yuchan for a long time, with tears in his eyes, he was so puzzled and lonely, then looked at Feng Ziying, sighed, waved his hands and said, "Let's go."

Nalan Daizhan supported Jue Luoshi's shoulders and turned his head away, not looking at their leaving backs.Apart from sadness, his heart was suddenly very lonely, with slight resentment.He did not have a second child, and Yuchan left, leaving him the sorrow behind him.His planned life is like a well-built house suddenly collapsed.

The wind picked up again in the garden, and Nalan Daizhan stood on the ruins feeling cold and disheartened.He hugged his crying wife and felt that life was a wave after wave of emptiness.What a person cares about and wants to have is like a ship waiting for a long journey at the ferry, and it is impossible to really keep it.In an instant, his feelings for Jue Luoshi revived, and he deeply felt that they were inseparable and sympathetic to each other.He lowered his head to see his weeping wife, embraced her with affection, and sighed: "Jueluo, I was sorry to you before. In a hundred years of life, you and I will always rely on each other."

Jue Luo raised his head to look at him in astonishment, for a moment he couldn't distinguish between joy and sorrow, and stood there dumbfounded.

Hearing the news of Yuchan's death, Feng Tang gasped and sat down on the chair.There is a reason for his eager request to take Yuchan back.There is a faint change in the court. At this time, he will never allow the relationship between the Feng family and the Nalan family to break up, but at this time, Yuchan is dead!The most crucial bond that held them together was broken.

"This bastard! He has to destroy the Feng family to be reconciled!" Feng's father was so angry that there was nothing he could do.Sitting across from him, Mother Feng wept silently, not daring to speak, and occasionally raised her eyes to look at Father Feng, hoping that he would come up with a countermeasure as soon as possible.Yuchan died, she was more worried about the crisis brought about by this accident than she was sad.

Father Feng raised his head and stared at the beam in silence, wondering what to do.The vertical and horizontal beams look like an abstract chessboard. He is the one who plays the game, and needs to be cautious in the face of invisible enemies.The sudden change did disrupt all his plans.But he immediately asked himself to remain calm and figure out what to do next.

The twilight gradually fell to the ground, and there was no third person in the house.Mother Feng lightly got up and lit the candle, and looked at Father Feng seriously in the center of the flickering candlelight.I saw Feng's father raised his head and said with a cold face: "If I guess right, Ziying's job will be lost." For such a thing, the Nalan family is determined not to spare Ziying easily, and I believe there will be some action in the near future. But should we just sit and wait? Si Ye..."

"Don't talk lightly about Fourth Master." Father Feng's eyes flashed coldly, and he raised his hand to stop her from continuing.Although the Feng family is deeply rooted in the "Four Lords Party", they also know that the ownership of the throne is still uncertain, and that all fortunes and misfortunes are in danger, so it is really unreasonable.It is difficult to explain this hidden worry to others, but it is clear to my wife.He stood up and sighed, "You don't know. The fourth master just angered the emperor for the matter of recovering the treasury silver. It's too late for him to hide his strength and bide his time. He may not be willing to stand up for Ziying. Besides, although this matter involves far-reaching things, it is still a housework when it is said." The thing is, even if the fourth master is willing to stand up for Ziying, it may not have any good results, but it will fall into the mouth. It is not good to blindly pin your hopes on others now."

Mother Feng saw that the seriousness of the situation was far beyond her expectations, she couldn't help but had a sad face on her cheeks, and asked anxiously: "Then what should I do according to you?"

Feng's father glanced outside the house and said: "First, finish Yuchan's funeral. This must be done beautifully. We can't let outsiders talk about us. Since Nalan asked Ziying to bring Yuchan back, I Presumably he couldn't say that Ziying forced Yuchan to death, he had to find other excuses if he wanted to take revenge, so he asked Ziying to stay behind closed doors in the name of losing his wife, so as not to have other excuses falling into the hands of others .Even if you lose your errand, it’s not a major event that will shake the fundamentals. We’ll make plans in the future. There’s just one thing, you must send Xichun away as soon as possible. It’s always a disaster for her to stay in the mansion.”

"I'll do it right away." Mother Feng hurriedly replied.She and Feng's father already understood each other's meaning when they looked at each other - now they don't care what Feng Ziying thinks.She no longer feels pity for Xichun, after all, Xichun is an outsider, and when something happens, her first consideration is how to protect the Feng family.

Xichun had evening classes every day, and she hadn't fallen asleep when Mother Feng came to see her.What kind of person is Xichun, when she saw Mother Feng's sudden arrival, she already guessed that something was going on, so she hurriedly stood up to greet her, and greeted Mother Feng.

"You must leave immediately, Yuchan is dead." Mother Feng was not polite, and said straight to the point.

Xichun's heart skipped a beat. Although she had made up her mind to leave, she still felt a little uncomfortable when she was told to leave.Xichun looked past Feng's mother at the case.As soon as the candle exploded, the light in her eyes flickered, and she saw the truth looming on the surface.Xichun's mind is clear, and he has figured out the seriousness of the matter in a blink of an eye: he has neither a wife nor a concubine, and he is a person who should have been a monk and buried in the Marquis of Wuqing. Listening to Feng's mother's voice, there must be something wrong with Yuchan's death. Maybe it has a lot to do with Feng Ziying.If it was really related to Feng Ziying, if she didn't leave at this time, once someone found out that she was a runaway concubine, it would be another piece of evidence that he couldn't deny, and the consequences would be unimaginable.

So she didn't ask any more questions, and glanced outside, the moon occasionally shed a clear light in the gaps in the clouds, and now it's not too late, she said decisively: "I'm leaving now." After speaking, she turned and went to pack her luggage .Seeing that Xichun was so reasonable, Mother Feng felt relieved, stopped her and said, "You don't need to be busy, I'll ask someone to prepare clothes and silver for you, and send you out." Thinking about it, she asked, "Do you have a place to go? "

(End of this chapter)