Alternative Telling of Dream of Red Mansions: Cherishing Spring

Chapter 41
Someone came to be this golden bar and asked the price.He heard the voice familiar, so he couldn't help but look up, but he found that the person who came was really someone he knew.The person who came was the big maid next to Youshi, followed by a woman.It seems that the things are expensive, Youshi is not at ease.There were dense wooden bars on the counter, and he sat with his head bowed in the dark of the counter, neither the maid nor the mother-in-law recognized him.

He gave the shopkeeper a wink, and the shopkeeper accepted the item at a slightly higher price, and the two left overjoyed.Lai Yi'er stood at the counter weighing the golden bar, and looked at the backs of the two hurriedly leaving with a secret smile.Youshi swallowed his bait, he believed that Youshi would definitely come again, and the golden comb was just the beginning.Her money will become more and more tight.

After leaving Jia's mansion for a long time, the golden comb in his hand is the key for him to open that door again.

In the afternoon when Lai Yier returned to Feng's residence, Xichun and Feng Ziying suddenly had a very tense quarrel, and Xichun insisted on moving to the residence that was very similar to the Xiaoxiang Pavilion.Uncharacteristically, Feng Ziying stopped obstructing her, and responded calmly, "I'll ask Ziyun to help you tidy up tomorrow." Xichun went to tell Feng's mother after eating, but Feng's mother cared very much, and her face inevitably showed the expected regret. .

Mother Feng asked Xichun to sit on the brocade mattress under the west window, and the maids in Mother Feng's room hurriedly brought tea.The two ate tea in silence for a while, and Feng's mother said, "You want to move there? With Ziying..." Xichun spent some time in the mansion and got to know each other a little better. mouth.

Xichun put down the teacup, with a smile on his face that was about to wither, he said: "I had this plan in the morning, but he was not in full health at that time, so I can't argue with him, otherwise I would violate my wife's order to come to the mansion." His original intention. Now he is in good health, and I have lived in this mansion for a long time. Even if the wife and master are considerate, and the servants in the family don’t say much, I think it’s not appropriate to spread the word. I don’t May this cause any trouble to Ziying, besides, Yuchan is also a girl from a good family, there is no such thing as a fight between me and her, so there is no need to let her feel uncomfortable when she sees me."

Mother Feng stared at Xichun for a long time, and sighed deeply as if seeing her clearly for the first time: "Xi'er." She called her "Xi'er" for the first time, and her words were somewhat probing, like a toddler Be careful like that.She said solemnly, "If I hadn't listened to you personally like this, I really can't imagine that this is what you said. Your bearing is far from that of a woman. I thank you for thinking about Ziying."

Xichun's face was so soft and beautiful in the afternoon light that it broke my heart.There was a little sadness in her lowered eyebrows, and the sadness in her body slowly seeped out, like a flower that has gathered strength and is waiting to bloom.

Mother Feng couldn't bear it, she left her seat and walked to Xichun's side, gently hugging her into her arms.Saying nothing, she shed tears.At this moment, she left her identity and cherished an orphan girl like her old sister who died in old age. She saw the wound in her heart burst again, black, dry, and unable to ooze blood.

"Go and live, I'll take care of everything in this mansion." The light coming in from the window gradually dimmed on Feng's mother's face.She looked over the high edge of the roof to the empty, pale blue sky.She realized that Xichun was going to leave after all, and this feeling made her worry.However, just as she expected, Feng Ziying gradually couldn't keep her.Maybe he was Xichun's pulse, but when she wants to cut it with her own hands, no one can stop her.

"The place where I live has not been named yet. If you choose one, even if you are not around in the future, it is still in my thoughts." She said for a long time.

Xichun was not surprised that Feng's mother could see that she did not want to stay in the mansion for a long time.She already had a deep intention of going there, and it was only expedient to move there.What happened yesterday made her uneasy, the entanglement had reached this far, and if she continued to indulge in it, she would only be doomed.In one thought, she named the place, which is the same as the Xiaoxiang Pavilion - Xie Zhuxuan.

Lai Yier sent someone to send Xichun to Xie Zhuxuan.While he was busy, he suddenly fell in love with Xichun.Xichun standing quietly by the window reminded him of how he walked step by step in the days when no one could trust him. It was the loneliness and determination that he was afraid of falling into every step, but had to go.He stood on the steps directing his servants, but he kept watching her carefully. Like a wolf, he felt a distant sense of closeness to the same kind he met, and he felt that they were lonely kind.

Because Xichun is a woman, he still has a little pity.However, his affection for her was nothing more than that.He will not fall in love with her, will not suffer like Feng Ziying, will not struggle for her.Ten years ago, his emotions were as smooth as long, well-groomed hair.The thorns all over the place are hidden deep in the soil.He still can't feel it too deeply-the closer the relationship is, the more it is like a pillow full of sand and gravel. If you don't sleep, there will be nothing under your head, and if you sleep on it, it will grind you to death.

The shadow of Xichun emerged from the depths of his memory, and ten years later, he actually overlapped her with the shadow in the painting but did not confuse her.Xichun, who is standing in front of the window looking at thousands of green bamboos, is speechless, and Ruhua, who is sitting in front of his desk and weeping fiercely, is the same person.

Maybe in the end, people's emotions can be returned to the original and purified, and they are not so complicated at all. Sad people will only hurt their hearts in the end.

A child has a good dream, but wakes up at the most critical moment. The child closes his eyes tightly on the pillow, determined to fall asleep soon, and continue the dream again.But Feng Ziying found that his dream could no longer continue.He didn't expect that the time when he and Xichun were closest was the time when their conflicts and rifts were the deepest.

Counting the past, he did not do anything for Xichun.But he can swear to God that there is no falsehood in his intention to try his best to protect her. He wants to do his best to prevent anyone from hurting her. He has always thought and done this.When he thought he had finally found a way to protect her, she suddenly said, "I don't know what to rely on!"

This sentence caught him off guard.He was like a child holding a crystal ball full of hope, and suddenly the crystal ball was broken, and all thoughts shattered.Xichun's one-sentence veto made him more slack and completely discouraged than the whole family's opposition at the beginning.

"I tried so hard to make her trustworthy, but she still says that she doesn't know what to rely on me? How embarrassing is this for me!" Feng Ziying said with a wry smile as she sat on the edge of the embankment as the night was fading.He was not talking to himself, Zhang Youshi was sitting not far from him.

Zhang Youshi also drank the wine one mouthful at a time. What was different from Feng Ziying was that he always had that calm face.He sat across from him with his head down and drank silently, as if he was just accompanying himself.

"Our relationship always has to go through doubts again and again, and we have to fold and confirm it repeatedly before we know the turmoil and ups and downs. The relationship I experienced didn't even have the opportunity to be confirmed like this." Zhang Youshi said, lifting his melancholy With graying eyes, she said as if she wanted to see through Feng Ziying, "Time gave me the answer, but life didn't. You shouldn't have given up so early."

"Why do I want to give up?" Feng Ziying raised her head and drank the wine, threw the wine jar into the river, and the jar went dangling.Feng Ziying felt that she was very much like the wine jar, empty, with nothing but the body, while Xichun was a calm wave, calmly controlling his thoughts and whereabouts.

he hates.In his relationship with her, Xichun has always been the master, and she can only follow the trend.Sometimes he is involved by Xichun, sometimes by Yuchan, sometimes by family, sometimes by the court, everyone has a position, except himself.

"She actually told my mother that she wants me to bring Yuchan back! I'm going crazy. I don't want her to be so reasonable, I'd rather her be selfish than to leave me at any time. I have no idea!" Feng Ziying He stood up and said bitterly, "I really went to pick her up, what good is it for the three of us! I only have her in my heart from the beginning to the end, but she doesn't understand me like this."

"Go back!" Ignoring his resentment, Zhang Youshi stood up and walked towards the horse tied to the tree. The early night wind blew him very sadly. He swayed his body like a bluegrass in the wind, his face showing A trace of indifference, "Never think of the relationship between people too close. After all, your heart and her heart live in two bodies, no matter how close they are, there is still a distance."

After saying this, he felt that there was another annual ring in his heart.

Feng Ziying, who was very drunk, was sent home by Zhang Youshi. She woke up the next day in a daze, but was still called to pick up Yuchan and go home.He knew he couldn't avoid it, and before he gave Yuchan a divorce letter, they would finally see each other.

He rode his horse to Nalan's mansion outside Di'anmen, followed by the prepared car. Before he left, Father Feng had ordered that he must see Yuchan come back today.

Mother Feng still had to say something when she sent him out of the house, Feng Ziying frowned and said: "Son, don't worry." In the middle, after thinking about it, I finally felt uneasy, and said again: "After all, you are wrong. When you see Yuchan, you should be kinder."

Feng Ziying nodded silently, and turned to leave. He seemed to be hungover, with a cloud of confusion on his face. When he bid farewell to his parents, he unconsciously turned his head and glanced at the desolate place with green shadows in the west.The green bamboo shadow passed his eyes, and an illusion flashed in his mind, it seemed that Xichun was looking at him from behind the dark green clump, her eyes shone like fine white sand shaking at the bottom of the water.He hesitated for a while, did not dare to take a second look, hurried down the steps, and went straight out of the courtyard.

Feng Ziying was riding on the horse, the scene of being at home in the morning flashed through his mind, and suddenly he thought that he would see Yuchan soon, his heart fluttered like a bell being struck until he suddenly fell silent.

Thinking about things, he walked quickly, and soon he arrived at the gate of Nalan Mansion, strangely, no one stopped him, and his servants led him to the west hall where he entertained guests, and gently closed the door and left.The west hall was empty, and the furnishings were still the same as he had seen before: there were calligraphy and paintings on the east wall, a long red sandalwood table with no patterns on the bottom, and a gilt copper stove with lotus feet on the top, floating out of it. There is some sandalwood fragrance, the main seat in the hall is down, and there are four rosewood carved south hat chairs on the left and right. There are rosewood square tables between the chairs, on top of which there are tuanlong tureen bowls and several plates of fine fruit snacks.Feng Ziying felt like a beginner at this time, standing there, not daring to look around, just staring at the ground.The ground is cool and shiny, like the eyes of a person who has been lonely for too long, shooting out a desperate darkness.He stared at those eyes for a long time, feeling more and more confused. He was about to turn around and go out to ask someone, but he heard a male voice behind him snorting coldly: "You want to leave after waiting for so long? How long has my daughter been waiting for you?"

Feng Ziying was already hesitant in her heart whether to leave or not, so she stopped when she heard the voice, and saluted without raising her head: "Ziying greets father-in-law and mother-in-law."

"Don't dare to do it, you've ruined our lives carefully." Mother Yuchan, who hadn't spoken before, waved her handkerchief and said coldly.

Feng Ziying came here to make amends, she didn't dare to talk back but she had to say something, just as she opened her mouth, Yuchan's father slapped her face.When the incident happened suddenly, Feng Ziying was stunned on the spot.Although he is not a noble prince of Baylor, he was spoiled and spoiled since he was a child, not to mention he was sent to the palace as a companion, and no one has ever dared to do anything to him. After such a sudden attack, his face was fine, but his heart was not. No matter how he couldn't get it right, his face froze all of a sudden, and he raised his head just as he was about to explode, when he suddenly remembered Feng's mother's instruction before leaving: "It's your fault after all."

It was his fault.Thinking of Yuchan, Feng Ziying's heart twitched. He is not a person who is good at defending himself, and the guilt in his heart rises like a thick cloud, and it is not easy to dissipate.There was nothing wrong with Yu Chan, even if she went home and quarreled with him, it was his fault first.In any case, he came this time not to win the battle, but to solve those unresolved issues.Thinking of this, his anger calmed down.

"Ziying's actions are inappropriate, please bear with her father-in-law and mother-in-law." Feng Ziying said as she landed on her knees, and knelt very hard with a thud, and the sound of kneeling was shocking in the stagnant room.

Yuchan's parents were surprised when they saw his unexpected humility.They glanced at each other, left Feng Ziying to sit on the chair in the living room, and had nothing to say for a while.Although Yuchan's father Nalan Daizhan slapped Feng Ziying in a moment of anger, he didn't really hate him.It's just anger, and now that he's out of anger, if he is asked to punish Feng Ziying again, he will either be unwilling or dare not.As the saying goes, "Water thrown out by a married daughter" and "girls are extroverted". If Feng Ziying really loses face and walks away in a rage, it will be her own daughter who will wash her face with tears at home, let alone Feng Ziying He is also a young upstart, and he is unwilling to really offend this son-in-law.He pretended to be stroking the white jade finger in his hand, looking at the continuous lines of characters on it, and using the corner of his eyes to signal Yuchan's mother Xilin Jueluo to speak.

"Get up." Jue Luoshi's voice floated up from the oppressive air like bubbles, with a slight temptation.Seeing Feng Ziying knelt there without any response, she said again, "Actually, how much of the affairs between you young couples is in the hands of our adults? We just hope that your husband and wife will be harmonious. Young men who are young and dissipated are fine." It’s not a big mistake, but you shouldn’t have brought Yu Chan back home and left her alone for many days, she shed tears every day, even a mother like me would feel so sad to see her!”

Feng Ziying still lowered her head, knelt there without moving the folds of her clothes, and said solemnly: "It's my fault."

Nalan Dai looked at the words, his face turned pale, and he said: "Since that's the case, why are you still kneeling here? Get up and apologize to Yuchan. You two, go home and live a good life! After all, you are married. Those who have gone out will go back to their mother's house as soon as they get angry, what kind of appearance! Speaking out will not only damage the reputation of our Nalan family, but also your Feng family will not look good."

Knowing daughter Mo Ruomu felt that although Luo Shi was annoyed that Feng Ziying treated Yuchan badly, she did not want to embarrass Feng Ziying too much and make Yuchan sad. Seeing Yuchan's father softened, she stood up to be a peacemaker. The west side hall took a look, and was going to wake up Feng Ziying first, and then call Yuchan to come out to meet each other—Yuchan had been hiding behind the door.

However, the frozen atmosphere in the hall did not relax because of her hospitality, Feng Ziying still knelt there unmoved.Yuchan's parents looked at each other with surprise in their eyes. Nalan Daizhan is a person with a long history of experience, and there is something strange in his mind, that is to say, he feels that Luo Shi doesn't need to say more.He sneered at Feng Ziying and said, "What! Do you have anything else to say?"

"Yes." Feng Ziying nodded and looked up, his eyes were shining in the dark light, and his face looked thinner and thinner in the shadows.He took out the letter from his bosom, stood up and offered it to Nalan Daizhan with both hands, and said, "This is the letter of divorce I prepared. I came this time to make it clear to Yuchan that we can no longer be together. At the same time, maintaining the status of husband and wife that exists only in name only traps the two of us in the same net, and the desperate struggle ends in both losers. I am a man, even if there are some mistakes, others will not say anything, but Yuchan, if she It’s really not worthwhile for such a person to cover his eyes and waste his youth for no reason.”

Nalan Daizhan's face sank, he grabbed the teacup on the small table and threw it at Feng Ziying, Feng Ziying leaned to the left, the teacup hit his shoulder and shattered onto the floor.

Nalan Daizhan looked at the divorce letter in his hand, the divorce letter seemed sharper than a sword, hotter than coal fire, he was not sure whether to tear it up immediately or just hold it like this.He was so angry that his hands were shaking non-stop, and when he let go, the letter of divorce fell to the ground.Nalan Daizhan laughed angrily and said: "Okay! You have such a skill! This is beyond my expectation! Feng Tang taught you such a good thing, you scoundrel get out of Nalan Mansion immediately, and from now on From now on, you and my family will never get in touch with each other!"

It was expected that Nalan Daizhan's reaction would be fierce, but Feng Ziying remained silent.Jue Luoshi was beside her, but she was so startled by the sudden turning point that she almost stopped thinking. She was in a trance for a moment, as if she had suddenly entered a nightmare state, looking at everything that happened in front of her at a loss.She bent down in a daze to pick up the divorce letter, and just opened it, only to hear a muffled sound behind the door, as if something heavy fell down.Among the three, Jue Luo woke up first, and her mother's intuition made her feel deeply uneasy. Almost at the same time as the sound came out, she turned around and rushed to the side door behind the hall with a cry of surprise.

Yuchan died at the door.She pierced her throat, which was as thin as porcelain, with a golden hairpin, and she was so resolute that people were caught off guard.The blood-stained gold hairpin fell from her hand to the ground.Blood flowed out from the deep hole, like a bright red on sweet white porcelain, so beautiful that it made people tremble.

The hairpin was pierced too deep, and Yuchan was already unable to be revived.But there was a relieved smile on her face.

Feng Ziying stood there dumbfounded, so stiff that she couldn't even breathe.Yuchan is like the exquisite jade cup that he accidentally smashed when he was young. If he was not careful, he would be smashed to pieces and could not be restored.Childhood fears come back.He felt that he had become very small again, squatting in the big room, the top of his fear was pressed down, he looked up at it, helplessly waiting for the final judgment.

Now he slowly, slowly, crouched down again.Today, Yuchan wore a light purple dress, which was gradually stained with blood, and changed into another sad color, looking particularly shocked.He saw a corner of the letter paper in the purse at her waist, and reached out to take it. He knew that Yuchan had left it for him, so he opened it silently.

"It's a pity that seeing you miss your whole life, throwing your heart and heart in vain. May I burn my body to the sea of ​​love, and don't tie up the cause of the future."

Yuchan's pen landed on the last stroke of the word "Yin", she put down the pen and laughed absently.She lifted the curtain and looked into the yard, where the Phalaenopsis was in full bloom.She thought for a while and went back to the table, wrote a few words on the paper, picked it up and looked at it, folded the letter and stuffed it into her purse.

(End of this chapter)