To Youth: Secretly Falling in Love with You

Chapter 34 I'm Thinking Too Much

"Why are you here?" Cai Yilian put it away as soon as he saw Lin Yanxi's disappointed expression.His feelings towards Lin Yanxi are complicated, if it wasn't for her, he wouldn't dare to be with Fu Jiani and could only look at Fu Jiani smiling beside others, coquettishly, making those lovely expressions that belonged to her , to share her joys and sorrows.

"Yi Lian, didn't I say that I would come and wait for you?" Lin Yanxi suppressed the sadness in her heart and then looked at Cai Yilian tenderly with a smile on her face. Even though this man is not in love with herself now, Lin Yanxi Xi believes that one day the person he loves will be his own.

"It's okay, you don't need to pick me up, I'll go by myself." Cai Yilian's tone was cold. Even though he knew that Lin Yanxi did that because she loved her, there is no man who accepts the threat of others and leaves the woman he likes. with her.

Because no matter how long it has passed, every time he sees this woman, he will think of the thing that he was threatened that day, the humiliation of being disgraced and being oppressed by someone to give up the important and important person in his heart. .

"Anyway, I'm fine, so I'll pick you up. Let's go, I've already prepared the food, let's go back and eat." Lin Yanxi, who had never cooked before, did it for Cai Yilian, using her pair of brushes Cooking with her hands, every time she was burned by oil, she felt so painful that she wanted to cry, if it wasn't for this man, how could she suffer such grievances.

"Let's go." No matter what Cai Yilian's tone was, Lin Yanxi would always respond with a smile, so Cai Yilian became familiar with it after a long time.

After lunch, she really didn't want to cause everyone's misunderstanding again because Tian Yuan was by her side, so after dinner, Fu Jiani resolutely stated that she was not very comfortable yet and wanted to go back to the dormitory to rest.

So Fu Jiani finally fled quickly with a book under Tian Yuan's somewhat sad eyes.

And Cai Yilian, who also had no class in the afternoon, found an excuse to come out from Lin Yanxi. He just walked to the school gate, but saw Tian Yuan, and he looked like he was waiting for us on purpose.

Because when he saw Cai Yilian, Tian Yuan's eyes flashed and then he walked towards him directly.

"I want to talk to you." Tian Yuan didn't hide his purpose of coming, and said straight to the point.

"I don't think we have anything to talk about." Cai Yilian looked at the man younger than himself and didn't want to talk to him.

"I want to talk to you about Jiajia." Tian Yuan burst out Fu Jiani's name, and at the same time saw Cai Yilian stop.

"What do you want to talk about her with me, you don't seem to have anything to do with her." Cai Yilian looked into Tian Yuan's eyes unwilling to show weakness, even though this was his student, but he liked a girl at the same time For his sake, he has no reason to retreat.

"Is it okay for me to be someone who likes her?" A faint smile flashed on Tian Yuan's face, as if he was very happy about such a thing.

"But what does that have to do with me?" Cai Yilian's chest was beating rapidly, even though he knew it, he still couldn't help being surprised by the excitement in his heart.

"If it doesn't matter, then I won't be talking to you here." Tian Yuan's expression was serious, but there was also a little haze, but that little bit of feeling was not easy to be seen by others.

"Yes, I am the one Jiajia loves." Cai Yilian countered to Tian Yuan, no matter how confident and imposing he is in front of him now, what can decide in this love is that they love together the woman and not them.

"If you can't be with Jiajia, then don't provoke her. Since you like her, don't make her sad. If you can't protect her, then I will take over her happiness."

Tian Yuan left that place after speaking, he believed that he would understand what he said.

The sky blue is almost transparent, like blue glass.

This kind of weather is really precious like some kind of fragile jewelry.

The cool autumn wind brushed through Fu Jiani's hair.

Fu Jiani lay limply on the table, frowning tightly.

The severe pain still did not show any sign of relief, clamoring and torturing her fragile nerves.

When she was in class just now, she tried her best to concentrate, pretending to be the same as usual, listening attentively, and taking detailed notes-Cai Yilian's class, she has always been the most attentive one.Even so, she still couldn't resist the headache mixed with bouts of tiredness occupying her unconscious consciousness. The pen in her hand was always trembling slightly, almost slipping out of her hand and falling to the ground several times.

The moment the get out of class bell rang, she couldn't hold on anymore, and her poor disguise was shattered in an instant.

The memory of last night was like a tide, spreading and tumbling in her mind... The colorful neon lights in the bar stimulated the nerves of excitement, men and women writhing crazily on the dance floor, all kinds of cocktails under the lights The seductive and dizzying light is emitted by the sunlight... Also, sitting in a dark and quiet corner, drunk from just a few bottles of beer and a smile on his face, but there is a worried look in his eyes Tian Yuan.

It was as if all the oxygen in my brain had been evacuated, and I suddenly felt like I was about to suffocate.The surrounding scenery became blurred, looming, shrouded in a thin layer of mist, obliterating the illusory light in front of him.

"Tian Yuan, do you know that I actually like Cai Yilian..."

She heard her own words clearly.

She clearly saw Tian Yuan's flash of disappointment.

Tian Yuan wasn't too surprised, as if he had expected her words, he was silent for a long time, and then he poured a bottle of beer down his throat.

Fu Jiani was a little dazed at the time, with a violent "buzzing" sound in her head, and she didn't realize why Tian Yuan was so excited all of a sudden.Thinking about it now, I could only smile wryly—because Tian Yuan likes herself.

Damn it, why did you say that to Tian Yuan at that time.

Her mind was chaotic, a fever stimulated by alcohol——

Hey, alcohol is such a love-hate thing.

The sky was clean and there were no clouds at all.The wind suddenly screamed sharply.

Autumn is really a season of change.

The chaotic fragments kept rolling and flashing in her mind, disturbing Fu Jiani's restlessness.

Simply empty your mind, leaving only some unclear emotions, like fallen leaves, with nowhere to rest.

How much Fu Jiani hoped that Cai Yilian could come over at this time and ask her, "What's wrong with you?" Accompany her to get injections, feed her medicine, and help her make up lessons by the way... Then just like in any vulgar romance movie, just fall in love and become a couple that everyone envies.

It's crazy.

As is often said in romance novels, people who fall in love have a lot lower IQ.

Although it was just a joking joke, it inadvertently became reality in so many stories that seemed to be like dreams.

Her feelings for him gradually warmed up. For him, she worked hard to break through her indifferent and hard shell, changed the lonely problem that had been developed since childhood, and became a brand new self—although, although it was With his help, it's not something to brag about.But... did he really see it?Have you seen her admiring eyes that follow his figure all the time?Did you see her working so hard in his class?Have you seen the breakfast she carefully prepares for him every day? ... Those insignificant things may not be able to exchange his feelings.Except for those ambiguous hints that he thought were unclear - he just treated himself as an ordinary student and cared more, and there was no so-called love that she expected...

Is it, in the end, a gorgeous and lonely one-man show performed by myself?
Maybe, maybe he is just like me, because of his identity as a teacher and student, so he is ashamed to express his feelings for him...

Fu Jiani comforted herself like this, and her headache seemed to be showing some signs of relief.

She fell asleep peacefully, like a child who is ignorant and careless.

In the dim warm light, Fu Jiani vaguely saw a huge halo rushing toward her face...

Well, what is that?She rubbed her eyes, as if she had returned to her girlhood, and the countless dreamy and colorful fantasies in her heart were reawakened.

"are you OK?"

The eyelashes fluttered slightly, and Cai Yilian's worried face jumped into his eyes.

Like a fantasy, such a thing actually happened to her.Even the comforting words were word for word.

Just right, the distance between fantasy and reality is not more than one micron, not less than one micron.

The wind is also lyrical. The sound of "shasha" falling leaves, the distant laughter that makes people feel a little ethereal, and the "bang" and "bang" rhythmic beating sounds of her and his hearts are intertwined.It cut through the quiet air so gently, as naturally as a brown leaf spun through the wind and floated to a certain place.

Like a piece of pure white snowflakes falling into the crystal clear pupils.

Then, turned into warm tears,

Slowly drip down the cheeks.

However, at this moment she remembered her previous guess:
It's all about caring, there is no love...

She looked up at him blankly.There were indeed some expressions on his face, worried, anxious, and maybe a little bit of blame, blaming her for not taking good care of herself... But, it didn't have the distress she expected.

He doesn't love her, he doesn't love her, he doesn't love her... These short four words circulated endlessly in Fu Jiani's mind, and gradually filled all the space in her mind, endlessly. Squeezing out the little oxygen left, she invaded her mind presumptuously and domineeringly, her heartbeat was unbelievably fast...

Is he tortured to pieces for his baseless guesses like this?
How much do you like him, or rather, how much you love him, is it worth being so crazy about him?

(End of this chapter)