To Youth: Secretly Falling in Love with You

Chapter 37 Pain and happiness
He lowered his head, as if thinking about something.The night wind blew the leaves, the rustling sound was like countless little cat's claws, scratching Fu Jiani's heart one by one, itchy and painful, but there was an indescribable tension and excitement.

pain and joy.

Distressed because it was unclear what his answer was.Happy, because just now, he made a promise to himself, just like any good promise, and it is much more true and sincere than those promises—in the name of a teacher, he said that he would help her make up lessons when she was sick; In the name of a "couple", he said that she must make herself well, no matter what, he didn't want to see her sick and struggling.

After a while, he seemed to have finally cleared his mind, and said to her with a serious face: "Jiani, you are a girl, you must take good care of yourself. Girls are made of water, and no harm can be tolerated. If you don’t even treat yourself well, who else will treat you well.”

Fu Jiani felt lost for a moment, and then she was overwhelmed with emotion, so moved that she almost shed tears. ,

She has never had so many tears to shed. She and other girls seem to be two kinds of creatures.Her speech was dry, as if there was no water in it, and what was originally lyrical could be recited by her as a boring math problem full of rationality.Maybe it just became a concept.

Although he didn't confess, being moved is something that can stimulate the tear glands.She wanted to cry, but she couldn't cry, and the complicated thoughts in her heart were more than the usual square and square.

But she couldn't speak a word.

She is afraid to speak, and tears will hit the front.

She really felt that at this moment, there was nothing more tear-jerking than this sentence.

Even those sad songs that sing about farewell, death, and breakup are the same. The momentary touch is like a bubble that shatters in a blink of an eye.

This is the melody in her heart.

Two people who love each other until the twilight, I will hold your hand, I will hold you to the white head, and hold you to the end of time to see the tenderness in the heart of the hand.

Is this what she imagined, and his ending?

As with all happy endings, a strong sense of unreality came through.

Like all young girls, she is looking forward to a fairy tale story and a fairy tale ending.

All this was too heavy, and she didn't know how to bear this emotion.

So, she hasn't thought of an answer yet.

She froze for a long time.

She thought of many stories between them, as if it just happened yesterday.

The evening wind was like a song, his laughter echoed clearly in her ears, and every word he said was firmly engraved in her heart.

Only at that moment did she make such a difficult, sacred, final decision——

It's definitely not something that can be solved with a simple "um" or "thank you teacher for your concern" - you need the deepest feelings so that you won't be addicted to tears.

Want the deepest affection.

The kind of feelings for him that have been buried for a long time.

--"I like you."

The air trembled slightly with her clear and firm voice, Cai Yilian looked at Fu Jiani in surprise.Her smile blurred her outline under the sunset, the lines of her eyebrows and eyes were so soft and agile, and An Ran's eyes were the same as her voice.

Silence.

The scene as quiet as water suddenly ceased to be beautiful with Cai Yilian's sudden change of expression.

On his face was a mixture of surprise and sigh.

What the hell—what went wrong?
The ear-piercing sound of the siren tore apart all her fantasies, she forced herself not to think about the worst aspects, but her imagination was dyed ugly black time and time again—dirty, everything Not clean anymore. ,

what is itWhat is his answer?
Is it a polite refusal, such as "we are teachers and students" or "we are not suitable"?
Or, those words that really made her despair, those real truths?

She would rather be the former, which would allow her to continue to have some unrealistic fantasies about him and her.

"Jiani, you..." He sighed, looking at her with the eyes of an elder looking at an ignorant junior.

He thinks that he has not grown up yet, he thinks girls at this age are like this, they are in love at the beginning, they like someone for the first time, love someone for the first time.Yes, there is nothing wrong with that.But what he didn't know was the depth of their affection.

"Jiani, I'm sorry, I have a fiancee." He finally said this with a trembling voice.

A hard stone was thrown into the originally calm water.

Despite all the psychological preparations, the truth always catches people off guard.

Her heart was torn open a big wound.

The scar was deep, and no one came to lick the wound for her.

It hurts, but not as heart-piercing as imagined.

She could only be alone, shedding tears, licking the blood continuously overflowing from the wound, the tears flowed into the wound mixed with despair, and the stinging pain hit - this is the so-called "sprinkling salt on the wound", right?

However, how long does it take for this wound to heal?

Is it a week, a month, a year... or, a lifetime?
Such a brazen description of her own pain is probably one of the things that all girls who are hurt by love will say on the spur of the moment.

She should be damned.

She shouldn't have said such things at all, maybe she could still enjoy his tenderness and consideration for a while—even if it was an illusion.But she was still happy.

But now, there is nothing left.

Don't blame him, really don't blame him.

She was too anxious.

So she lost, and hurt herself.

Fu Jiani cried, tears she had endured for a long time.

Too many complex emotions, as the last line of defense in my heart was broken, roared out like an endless flood.

Her tears were finally used to bury her love that had ended before it even started.

The hero in the story left without changing his smile, but his tone was gentle and decisive.

She has never been sovereign in this game of love, she has always been a prey to kill.

It's a pity that there are no hunters to hunt.The only him no longer belongs to her.

It should be said that it never belonged to her.

that love.

He already has his own happiness.

"Oh...then, bless you."

Sorry to bless you at such an embarrassing time.

I am afraid that the next time I meet, I no longer have the courage to wish.

Your bride will not be me, but I will still wish her happiness.

I don't want to know who she is, it doesn't matter.The important thing is——

she loves you.

To love you like I do.

Ever since Fu Jiani found out that Cai Yilian had a fiancee, her mind became very confused.After all, she had never seen Cai Yilian stay with his so-called fiancée, nor had she listened to the discussions of the school students.This sudden news made her unable to accept it all at once.

"Cai Yilian, do you really have a fiancée?" Fu Jiani called Cai Yilian again when she returned to the dormitory in disbelief.Even if she blessed Cai Yilian, she still couldn't let him go.On the phone, Cai Yilian's voice became deeper and deeper.Fu Jiani hoped that Cai Yilian could gently answer no.

"Fu Jiani, as I said, it is true. Look, I have never lied to you." Cai Yilian said slowly on the other side of the phone. He knew it would be cruel, but for Fu Jiani's future life, long-term pain is worse than pain short pain.They couldn't have been a couple in the first place, there was no doubt about that.

"Cai Yilian, you really won't lie to me, but how I wish you could lie to me once, just once." Fu Jiani's voice was a little choked up, but it was not enough for the other party to notice, Fu Jiani bit her hard He squeezed his lips, suppressing the sobs that were about to come out.Just talking slowly, talking about the hope in my heart.

"You know, I, how could I lie to you." Cai Yilian said softly, but he didn't expect that Fu Jiani's obsession with himself has become quite deep. Is this good or bad?I hope that my decision this time can make Fu Jiani give up, that's good.

Sighing, Cai Yilian was about to speak when he heard Fu Jiani say on the other side of the phone: "Then, can you bring your fiancée to meet me?" Although Fu Jiani doesn't like socializing, But he is a stubborn and strong person, especially when it comes to dealing with feelings. Let's say that you don't turn back if you hit the south wall, maybe you don't necessarily turn back if you hit the south wall.

This is exactly what Cai Yilian wanted to say just now, but Fu Jiani preempted him. Of course, he has no reason to refuse, "That's fine." Cai Yilian replied slowly on the phone, "Tomorrow at twelve o'clock, we will go to school I will take her with me for lunch at the nearby Langyuan Restaurant, and I believe you will like her too." When talking about his fiancée, Cai Yilian's voice was very soft, bringing something that Fu Jiani had never heard of before. The tone of voice made Fu Jiani feel a little uncomfortable.

"Well, I will go as promised." Fu Jiani agreed, but she was thinking in her heart that she must meet Cai Yilian's so-called fiancée by then.She didn't believe that Cai Yilian had been with her for so long, taking care of himself all the time, and he didn't feel anything about himself. She would never believe this.

Fu Jiani didn't know whether she was looking forward to tomorrow's arrival or was afraid of tomorrow's arrival. In short, she felt uneasy and couldn't express it clearly in words.

"We're back." Fu Jiani's roommate opened the door and said happily.But as soon as she came back, she saw Fu Jiani standing on the balcony, leaning on the guardrail lightly, her eyes were far away, she didn't know what she was thinking.Looking at each other, Fu Jiani's mood has not been very stable these days, and they are not very good at intervening. After all, Fu Jiani has never liked to tell others what she wants, so the three of them don't know how to say it.

Pushing and yelling at each other, Fu Jiani finally came in from the balcony, "You are back." He greeted lightly, "I'm going out for a while," Fu Jiani said.

"It's so late, where are you going?" The person standing by the door stopped Fu Jiani from going out and asked.Although it is said that there will be no danger in the school, after all, go out alone.

"I'm not going out, just wandering around the school." Knowing her roommate's worry, Fu Jiani said slowly that she needed a place to relieve her breathless mood.

"We will accompany you." Several people said at the same time.

(End of this chapter)