sleepless tonight

Chapter 571 Do You Want To Go Out For A Meeting?

"How do you want me to explain it to you?" I looked at Su Ran, "I have nothing to do with Shao Siqi."

"You know that's not what I'm talking about. Why did you lie to me? Is there something you're hiding from me that you don't want me to know? You obviously came back from E City, but when you left, you told me that you wouldn't come back. It looks like this, you live in the community and didn't go to the hotel, but you lied to me that you went to the hotel." Su Ran looked at me, "Do you have something to hide, you have a compelling reason, so if you want to lie to me, tell me ,What is the reason?"

I am silent, what is the reason?Could it be that I told Su Ran that because I was sick and needed to take medicine, I deliberately found a separate place to put the medicine there, and ran over when I needed to take medicine?

Definitely not, I don't know how long I can hide Su Ran, but at least I must hide it now, at least before the operation, it only takes two weeks, and the result will be known soon, by that time , no matter good or bad, I will confess to Su Ran.

But not now, before the result comes out, I can't tell Su Ran that I don't have the courage to face her directly, and I can't bear to see Su Ran worry about me.

Misunderstanding is better than worrying.

Moreover, this misunderstanding can be resolved, and it only takes a little time.

"There is no reason, just a sudden decision." I finally said it, and lied again.

"Am I not worthy of your trust? Not worthy of your telling me the truth?" Su Ran looked at me, her eyes were red.

"You are worthy of my trust and worthy of my love. You are the best girl I have ever met. I hope to spend my life with you." I said.

"Then why don't you tell me the truth, why do you hide from me?" Su Ran still wanted to find out the reason.

"I told you the truth, it was indeed a sudden decision," I said.

Su Ran glanced at me, turned around and went upstairs, closing the door.

She was obviously dissatisfied with my explanation, thinking that I was perfunctory to her, she repeatedly asked me why, and locked herself up after not getting a satisfactory answer.

I turned my head and stared at the direction upstairs. After a long time, I sighed, cleaned up the dishes on the table, took a shower and sat in the room.

In the past, I have always pursued such a room and such an environment, but now, I suddenly find that this room is too depressing.

Lying on the bed, I wanted to fall asleep and not think about worrying things, but I couldn't fall asleep, my head hurt like a crack, finally I got up, went up the stairs, went to the door of Su Ran's room, twisted I checked the door and found that it was locked from the inside: "Would you like to go out for a while?"

Su Ran didn't answer me, but I knew she was inside.

"You have to believe me, I won't do anything to be sorry for you, everything happens for a reason." I said.

"Then tell me what's the reason?" Su Ran said to me through the door, "As long as you give me an explanation, I'm willing to believe you, don't perfunctory me, don't tell me that you did it all of a sudden If you really made a decision suddenly, you will also call me or send me a message to tell me that you will not live outside and not come back, and you will hide it from me."

"It's really just a sudden decision, and there was some unpleasantness between us in those few days, so I didn't think about calling you." I said.

"Go for a walk by yourself." Su Ran replied to me.

I stared at the door, I wanted to see Su Ran in the room through the wooden door, but obviously I couldn't see it, I stood at the door of Su Ran's room for a while, then I went downstairs and out of the yard , Walking slowly along the path by the East Lake.

Habitually touched the pocket, found that the pocket was deflated, there was nothing there, even the mobile phone was not brought out, the cigarette had been thrown away by me, and now I wanted to worry about the feeling of the smoke circulating in the mouth and lungs .

feeling bad.

I stood in front of a grocery store, staring at the cigarettes on the shelves in the glass window. I really wanted to go in and buy a pack, put it in my mouth, take a sip, and enjoy the feeling slowly.

I walked a few steps towards the door of the store, and finally I stopped, turned around and continued walking along the East Lake Greenway, broke off a piece of grass stem, and held it in my mouth.

I didn't have any money with me, and even if there were a store, I couldn't buy cigarettes.

Biting the grass stalk, after walking for more than half an hour, the stuffy feeling in my heart was slightly relieved, and I turned back.

But when I returned to the villa, I found that Su Ran was putting her luggage on the Audi car. I immediately walked over and grabbed her suitcase: "What are you doing, don't you need to look like this?"

"I think it's better for us to be separated a little bit, for a while." Su Ran looked at me very calmly, "Distance creates beauty, I finally understand this sentence. Maybe the two of us have been together since the beginning. In that case, our relationship will always be maintained, and it will not be like now, living together and getting closer, but the conflict broke out uncontrollably."

"We don't live together now. You live upstairs and I live downstairs. The number of times we see each other every day is quite limited. If you really don't want to see me, I will just stay in the room after I come back." You don't have to move out," I said.

"I will move to Xiaomo's place and live there for a period of time. By the way, I will be with her. During this time, we should both calm down and think about whether we are really suitable." Su Ran said.

"I think we are very suitable. It's all my fault. You don't have any fault, but I really have difficulties. You have to trust me. Wait a little longer and give me some time, okay?" I looked at Su Ran.

"I moved to Xiaomo's place, and I didn't say I wanted to break up with you, but I just felt that sometimes, even two close people should keep a proper distance, so that we won't find the flaws and contradictions between each other. "Su Ran said, "Chen Jin, I really want to trust you, but when there is a crack in this whole-body trust, it's like a mirror. The mirror is broken and it's hard to restore it."

"Haven't you heard the allusion of the reunion of a broken mirror? Even the cracks in a mirror can be repaired." I lifted Su Ran's luggage from the car again, "Come on, I'll help you carry the luggage back to the room Li, if you really hate me and feel uncomfortable seeing me, I will come back absolutely quietly in the future, not to disturb you, and not to appear in front of you."

"Do you think it's necessary to do this?" Su Ran didn't move.

"I think it is very necessary. Even if there is a conflict between the two of us, it shouldn't be like this. It's good to live here, why did you move to Su Mumo? She has a child, and her personality You also know, carelessly, how can you work when you move to her place?" I said.

"I'm going to BJ in a few days." Su Ran said suddenly.

I froze for a moment and looked at her: "Go to BJ? To see your mother?"

"It's not the main reason. It's mainly because Shen Chong introduced me to a partner company, so I'm going to BJ to have a look." Su Ran said.

My mood suddenly took a turn for the worse, and my voice was a little low: "Didn't you say that you would not accept his help? Why did you immediately agree to the business introduction he introduced to you now? It was because of me, because you had a quarrel with me. What do you think?" A conflict broke out between us, I am not the person you thought, that's why you agreed with Shen Chong and are willing to accept his help?"

I silently took a deep breath and looked at Su Ran.

"This is part of the reason." Su Ran nodded, "Maybe I have been a bit high on people all the time. I gave you my trust, but you concealed me and refused to tell me the truth. At the beginning, I thought This kind of situation will definitely not happen between the two of us, but I didn't expect such a thing to happen."

"At this time, I was wondering if I was too demanding on people, so when Shen Chong proposed that he had better contacts and could approach me, I was thinking, why must I refuse? What? There is nothing between me and him. I was unwilling to accept his help before because he was pursuing me, and I was avoiding it deliberately. Avoid him, he's not a bad guy."

(End of this chapter)