sleepless tonight

Chapter 575 Leave Me Alone Inside

I looked at the water glass that Jiang Xiaoning held to my mouth, and shrank back slightly: "Is this water glass yours?"

What Jiang Xiaoning held in his hand was not a disposable water cup, but a thermos cup, pink and very kawaii, with a pattern of Peppa Pig on it.

"I brought it here." Jiang Xiaoning nodded, "Do you dislike my saliva?"

"I don't dislike your saliva, but I'm afraid you dislike mine." I said, "Change to a disposable cup. Don't let me dirty such a good cup."

"It's okay, just use this cup. I brought it here specially to pour water for you." Jiang Xiaoning didn't care at all, and brought the thermos cup to my mouth again, "Drink, slow down."

I drank some boiled water and lay down again. The wound on my body is still not healed, and it is difficult to get out of bed. I can only lie on the bed like this. Jiang Xiaoning has been sitting beside me, chatting with me, talking with me.

I will have several treatments later, and Jiang Xiaoning is always by my side, including going to the toilet, and she is the one who supports me. I am embarrassed to go to the toilet, but Jiang Xiaoning doesn't care at all: "What are you afraid of, I am Doctor, you are a patient, I will go to the bathroom with you, what do you have to worry about?"

"I'm not worried, I'm embarrassed, you go outside and wait for me, and leave me alone inside." I said.

"I close my eyes, just don't look at it." Jiang Xiaoning closed his eyes, "I don't know how much I watched when I was in school, and I even did an autopsy. This is something that every medical student will do. So you don’t have to feel embarrassed, just treat it normally.”

I sighed, seeing that Jiang Xiaoning didn't go out, I could only squeeze in the toilet with her and relieve myself in front of her.

I felt a little weak, so I pulled the chain of my trousers, but after a long time, a hand stretched out and helped me to open the chain of my trousers.

, I looked back at Jiang Xiaoning, Jiang Xiaoning immediately closed his eyes: "I don't look, I don't look."

I went to the toilet a little depressed, and was supported by Jiang Xiaoning back to the hospital bed. Jiang Xiaoning was lying on the side of my hospital bed, looking straight at me.

"What do you see me doing?" I said.

"This is the first time I've seen a man go to the toilet." Jiang Xiaoning's expression was a little strange, as if he was recalling, and also seemed to be a little happy, or secretly happy, as if he had benefited.

"Didn't you just say that you have seen a lot? Why is it the first time?" I wondered.

"I see a lot, but those are all specimens, they are all used for experiments, and they are not alive." Jiang Xiaoning rolled his eyes, "It's alive, this is the first time I've seen it."

"That shouldn't be the case. You have been a nurse for a while, and you usually help patients to go to the bathroom. You told me just now that these things usually happen. It's impossible to see me alone?" I said.

"I usually help them go to the toilet, but I don't go in with them, I'm just outside. Most of the time, I help them lift the bottle, and when they come to the hospital, they are accompanied by their family members, so I don't need to help them." Letting them go to the toilet, like this relatively private thing, their family members accompany them to go in, I rarely go in with them." Jiang Xiaoning smiled at me, "You are the first."

I was a little depressed: "Did you lie to me just now?"

"Don't be angry, I don't want to help others in, but I am willing to help you in." Jiang Xiaoning looked at me and smiled secretly, "It's really interesting."

"What's so interesting?" I looked at Jiang Xiaoning in astonishment.

"Nothing is really interesting, just really interesting." Jiang Xiaoning's words were very strange.

"It's time for you to find a boyfriend," I said.

"Don't look for it, I'll take care of you like this." Jiang Xiaoning shook his head.

"It's impossible for me to lie on the hospital bed like I am now." I said, "In a few days, I will be able to get out of bed and walk by myself without your help. At that time, you will be free and don't have to stay on the bed all the time." By my side, I can do my own thing.”

"Isn't it okay for me to take care of you?" Jiang Xiaoning asked me.

"I'm embarrassed to keep you by my side like this." I said.

"But I am willing." Jiang Xiaoning looked at me, before I could reply, she stood up suddenly, "You are hungry, I will buy you some lunch."

Before I could speak, Jiang Xiaoning ran out.

I looked at the door of the ward, Jiang Xiaoning was gone, I sighed slightly, took out my phone after a while, looked at it, there was a message on it, Su Ran sent me: "I will I’m going to BJ, I’ve already bought a train ticket.”

After so many days, Su Ran still took the initiative to send me a message, and I immediately sent her a message back: "Okay, be careful on the road, buy some food yourself, and take it with you on the train."

"Are you busy with something?" Su Ran sent me another message.

"What's wrong?" I don't know why she asked.

"If you have nothing to do, can you come to the train station to see me off?" Su Ran typed.

To be honest, I really want to see Su Ran off, but with my current situation, it is impossible for me to pass. Even if I can get out of bed, I have to walk slowly. You can only stay at home and rest, you can't walk around.

I sent you a message back to Su Ran: "I have something to do and I can't go for the time being. When you come back after a while, I will pick you up at the train station, or I will go to BJ and come back with you."

"Then you can go about your own business. I'm going to the train station." Su Ran replied to my message.

I sighed, feeling that I had failed Su Ran's expectations of me.After so many days of cold war, she finally took the initiative to send me a message. It must not be as simple as asking me to go to the train station to drop her off. She wants to take the initiative to ease the relationship with me.

During the Cold War, two people didn't talk to each other or even meet each other. Now that one side sends messages and proposes to meet, it must be eased.

But I can't go through the current situation, I can only find a reason to perfunctory the past.

I felt a little uncomfortable, wondering if Su Ran would think too much, would he get on the train with a feeling of disappointment?
I sent her another message: "When you come back from BJ, I will give you a surprise."

Su Ran didn't reply to my message. She should be really upset, but it doesn't matter. I have been in the hospital for so many days, and I will be discharged in a few days. At that time, even if Su Ran hasn't returned Wuchang, it doesn't matter, I can go to BJ to find her, go to BJ to surprise her.

After leaving the hospital, Jiang Xiaoning escorted me all the way back to the villa, still carrying the soup made by her mother. When leaving, Jiang Xiaoning told me: "Although you have been discharged from the hospital now, you still can't do heavy work, and you can't do too much work." If you are overworked, you can’t eat spicy food, and it’s not good for relieving the wound. Besides, you must not smoke, and you must not stay up late.”

"I know, you told me about this in the hospital." I nodded, "Don't worry, I will definitely not commit suicide."

I have been sick, and I still had a serious illness. After walking through the gate of hell, I was stabbed in my body. I cherish my life even more, and I can appreciate the preciousness of life. I will definitely not ruin my body again. .

In fact, I don't think I have spoiled my body much. Maybe this illness is because God punished me, because I deprived another life, or because I hurt so many women. Heart, so God let someone cut a knife on my body.

I feel that I am an atheist, and because of such things, I have started to shake a little bit. If someone happens to come to preach to me at this time, maybe I will really join the religion.

Propagating teachings is the easiest way to move people to change their beliefs when people are in the most pain.

After Jiang Xiaoning left, I went into the bathroom and stood in front of the mirror. My hair was sparse and had almost fallen out, and I looked very haggard.

But it's a blessing to survive, and you shouldn't expect too much.

Gotta get a haircut.

I thought.

(End of this chapter)