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Chapter 437 Mr. Shen, please go back
"On November 2006, 11, I came to Lu Lu's home for the first time. He held my hand and told me that he liked me. It was such a sudden confession, so uncontrollable development, I was afraid. But I Still courageously nodded to him, but...he didn't seem to see it."

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"On January 2007, 1, I quarreled with Lu Lu. He said that I always seemed to be quiet, and he asked me if I didn't like him! He I like him..."

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"On February 2007, 2, many people went out to celebrate Valentine's Day. I thought this would be the first time I spent Valentine's Day with Lu Lu, but I was so useless. He quarreled with me, and I didn't say sorry."

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"On February 2007, 2, Lu Lu reconciled with me. I am really a person who has no demands. When I don't talk for three days, I feel so uncomfortable, but when I see his phone, I feel so sad. I was happy as if nothing happened, but when I saw him, he asked me, 'You never thought about contacting me!', I really wanted to, but I was afraid that he was busy, so I didn't dare."

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"On May 2007, 5, Lu Lu and I quarreled again. We hadn't spoken for three days. He seemed to have gone to Yunnan with his friends. I saw his pictures on Weibo. They were so beautiful, but the people who were with him not me."

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"On June 2007, 6, I was at home waiting for Landing to come back from Yunnan, and then I picked him up. I cooked a lot of dishes, but he didn't come back. He had an appointment with someone else. I know the place he went to. There are a lot of girls."

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"On June 2007, 6, Lu Lu waited downstairs in my dormitory and picked me up to live in his house. He didn't say anything along the way, and I didn't say anything until we entered his house. He hugged me from behind, and I said 'the person he loves the most in this life is me', he said that no one can make him feel so uncomfortable all the time, I didn't tell him how many times I cried at night during this time, but I was afraid he would I was so sad that I didn't dare to speak."

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"July 2007, 7, a birthday with no road to accompany me, he held an art exhibition and wanted to travel around Europe. He originally asked me to go with him, but I refused, I am not used to him I don’t like to watch him talk to others cordially and then neglect me, I don’t want to just stand and watch him from a distance all the time!”

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"August 2007, 8, this day is Lu Lu's birthday. We had no accidents, and we quarreled again. Then this time, I don't think it was my fault. I gave up the chance to go to college. He asked me why... ?I didn’t tell him that my mother didn’t allow it, but he guessed it, he said he could help me, and asked me if I didn’t love him, so I didn’t accept it, he didn’t understand, I just loved him too much, so I didn’t want to You can only rely on him."

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"On September 2007, 9, everyone started to start school one after another. I was going to go to Lulu's company to complete the contract, but I didn't tell him about this in advance. He was undoubtedly angry again and blamed me for not discussing it with him. I I gave up the chance to sign a contract for him, and I also gave up the chance to see him every day... I hope he won't be so irritable and unhappy."

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"On May 2008, 5, I just finished recording the game in Shanghai, and I ran into him as soon as I went out. He was standing outside waiting for me holding flowers. It was the 20th day after the breakup. This was the first time I Seeing him... His face was obviously tired, and then he asked me "can you forgive him" with a face of shame, he said that during the time he was with me, his temper was too severe, I nodded , and then did not speak."

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"On July 2008, 7, Lu Lu always remembered my birthday, and asked for my ID card a week ago. At that time, I didn't know what it was for, but I guessed something, and it really booked me a two-person tour. Air tickets, everything is fine is a simple romance, I didn’t expect him to spend all his thoughts on me, I was very happy, and I pretended not to guess it, I was happy with him, he was like a child when he was happy, a little childish. "

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"On August 2008, 8, I saw an abandoned little Teddy on the side of the road. Lu Lu looked at me and agreed to my request, saying that he would treat it as his birthday present for me. He is so clean. I am so surprised that a person from my family actually agreed to let me have a dog! I named the dog 'milk', but he said I was so casual, and then said that I would not interfere when choosing a child's name in the future!"

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“On February 2009, 2, Lu Lu took me back to his home for the first time for the Spring Festival. This year’s New Year’s Eve is Valentine’s Day. Knowing that our current identities are very inappropriate to walk around outside, the fans and reporters are a little annoyed, I am afraid they will talk about us, to be honest, I am not afraid to disclose my relationship, anyway, I believe that I am him in this life people."

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"April 2010, 4, I think this is a day I will remember forever, I got a brain tumor, sitting in the car home, I thought a lot about being with Lu Lu, I was afraid I would forget , so when recalling, I kept laughing, I was afraid to forget all the happy things between us.”

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"On July 2011, 7, I chose to give up and ended all the entanglements between us for five years. This year was a milestone in the land business. A well-known painter's agent wanted him to go abroad for further studies, but he was unwilling. , I knew he didn't want to leave me for too long, I advised him to 'go' several times, he got angry with me, and asked me if I didn't love him!"

He always said: I don't seem to have said that I like him.

This time I nodded, for his dream, and for one day, I will leave him after all.

Anyway, there will always be an end between us. I have been greedy for more than a year, and I am content.

I never thought about the end between us, I brought it up.

This time I deeply understand that it is impossible for me to have a chance to get back together with him again, because I took the initiative, he will no longer be willing to bow his head, and I will not take the initiative to ask for favors.

I hate the cowardice in my bones, and I dare not even ask him to accompany me to share the difficulties in the future.

The day he left, he was so chic, he didn't say a word to me, he just left quietly.

That kind of quietness is very scary, as if in my world, he has never been here.

I understand his character, and I also understand that this time I should not continue to be sad.

I started to think about the little things that happened between us.

I always wonder whether there are more happy things between us or more unhappy things.

But every time I think about it, I can't tell what's wrong with him...?From the beginning to the end, it seemed that I was not very good at talking. "

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"July 2011, 7 was my birthday, but I didn't drink alcohol. The inspection report I went to the hospital two days ago came out, and I was pregnant.

I am extremely looking forward to and excited to welcome the arrival of this little life. I want to be a mother and have a child with me and Lu Lu. Although people around me are against it, they don't understand how much I love Lu Lu. "

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"On August 2011, 8, he would post on Weibo on his birthday. I am grateful that I still have a place where I can know all his news. I can't help but click on his news. It is obviously a very For simple things, I always think about who he is with, and whether he meets the freedom and happiness that I can't give him, but others can give him!"

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"On September 2011, 9, I really wanted Lu Lu, I really wanted to tell him that sentence I never dared to say, I really wanted to tell him how much I love him, even though the love between us is so tired, but Every time I think about it, there are only happy ones left.”

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Every time after that, the text becomes simpler and simpler.

But what was conveyed in every sentence was "Ye Guan loves Lu Lu, it's the kind of love... the kind of love."

But Lu Lu didn't know all of this.

And Ye Guan placed herself in a kind of extreme inferiority complex and fear.

She was afraid that if she got close to the land again, the two of them would torture and hurt each other again.

She was also afraid that one day she would drag Lu Lu down because of her illness.

No one wants to be the shackles that bind the other's freedom.

Lu Lu should not be bound by nature, just like before he met her, he should exist in the vastness where the sky is high and birds can fly.

But she just tried her best to stand where he could see and became a stop in his life journey.

But people should not be greedy, especially when you really love someone, you should not confine that person who could belong to the bigger world for your own selfishness.

Ye Guan's natural personality is complicated, and she always thinks more about things, which makes her always hope that she will not be a burden to anyone.

She would rather hope that she can take care of everything by herself, and not let others worry about her.

Ye Guan was afraid of gaining, but also afraid of losing.

The interweaving of all these made her even more afraid that Lu Lu would stay by her side reluctantly because of pity.

Especially the land road can be said to go, so chic.

He could never leave her name in every record.

Then what right did she have to speak and let him stay by her side.

Maybe leaving is the best choice for each other.

Ye Guan thanked her for being decisive, and also thanked Lu Lu for not caring about him after he left, otherwise, as long as he bowed his head, she would definitely agree softly, and then repeated all kinds of conflicts caused by the imbalance between the two parties before.

She yearns for Lu Lu to be a rebellious painter who can gallop around the world and have her own quiet paradise.

And he cared that she was like a blue bird fluttering its wings, always out of his control, and one day it seemed that she would fly to a place where he couldn't catch it.

Once the balance of love between two people collapses, it will be very difficult to rebuild it.

Who doesn't want to be just the person who looks up to each other?
But no one can understand that the other party has a lot of silent inferiority complex and hope?

Lu Lu felt that Ye Guan was flying higher and higher, and wanted to leave him one day, so he was sad and no longer dared to show his deep love, because he was angry that his love did not receive any response.

It's like throwing into the bottomless Tan, the stone can't make too big ripples.

And Ye Guan was afraid that she would get further and further away from him.

So she hopes to have the opportunity to get closer to him, and she hopes that she can be the one whom he can take out and introduce to others. She hopes that her love is not hidden.

Love should be aboveboard!
But when the two began to try to compromise and get closer to each other, they didn't expect a disease to completely destroy the midpoint between them that had already retreated to the balance.

Ye Guan knew that she was doomed to be lonely in this life. She was abandoned from birth, and was easily forgotten when she grew up. No one was willing to take care of a sick and weak person, even her biological parents would abandon her and raise her.

How dare she believe that a person who has no relatives with her will take care of her.

After all, Ye Guan did not dare to think about love so great, but she kept thinking of her regretful first love, maybe a person can only love one person in this life.

If you have loved and been dissatisfied, you will never forget it.

Ye Guan has this kind of love and dissatisfaction towards Lu Lu.

When she didn't dare to think highly of the weight of other people's love, she was always ignoring that she could love someone so much. Since she could, why couldn't others?
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Lin Ran's eyes were full of bottomless winks, she looked at the man in front of her, the corner of her mouth curled up, and she just chuckled, after reading the words she had memorized by heart, she still hated Lu Lu after all!
She didn't understand why Ye Guan gave the best love of her life to this man.

Obviously he is not worth anything?

It's just that who can say something like love accurately, this thing is your love and my wish, the state of two people being stupid together, if the love is right, it will be a happy life, if the love is wrong, it will be depressed and dissatisfied in this life.

However, Ye Guan has never been unhappy.

She can't learn to hate people.

Lin Ran also understood that she said she didn't want Lu Lu to come here, but she was afraid that he would blame himself, and she still missed him until she died, but how many people knew how much love she gave in her life.

Some people like to put romantic promises in their mouths, saying that they want to let the whole world know that they are the favorite. That kind of person lives so affectionately that they even feel that he is worthy of sympathy.

And some people will not say "I love you" in this life, but the love she keeps in her heart is like an iceberg hidden in the sea. Although it only reveals a corner, what she hides in this life is more than anyone else many.

Ye Guan loves Lu Lu, this is undoubtedly a deep love, but she loves this person so much that she never knows it.

Many people are in love and always feel that they are the most pitiful person in the world.

Once he gets into this kind of drama, he will lose sight of other people's love.

And once some people fall in love, they will always look at the good of others, and then feel that what they can do is not enough.

It is undoubtedly painful for two people like this to fall in love, because the love in their bones is different.

"Sister Guan, we're on our way! Mr. Shen, please go back."

Lu Lu slowly got up from the ground, and then slowly raised his eyes. When he looked at Lin Ran, his eyes were full of sadness, and he said in a slow voice: "She is so stupid! I don't deserve her... ..."

"Whether it's worth it or not is not up to Mr. Shen. At this time, she is willing... You have no right to blame how stupid she was when she loved you, and you have no right to blame whether she hated you or not. Her power, just like whether she loves or not is her power."

　Sorry for telling Ye Guan's story in this way.

　　
　
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