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Chapter 497 Extra Story: He Was Waiting For Me There (3)

"If you are selfish, then there is no serious and magnanimous person in this world, but if you are not selfish, you just let her be in pain for five full years...?"

Zhu Siying's words were very flat, but what she said was all accusations and regrets.

She has been watching Fu Shengzhe for the past five years, and she knows that Fu Shengzhe misses each other as much as Fang Jiya, and he has never had a calmer mind than Fang Jiya.

The things buried in his heart may be more uncomfortable than Fang Jiya's appearance.

Over the years, Zhu Siying has also been looking for a doctor for Fu Shengzhe to see if there are people who voluntarily donate eye masks, but Fu Shengzhe is unwilling to receive treatment, and does not want to have the chance to see the light again.

The avoidance in his heart was not only because he was afraid of Fang Jiya's guilt, but more because he felt that he was not capable enough to love her.

Because of what happened in the past...

He knew that it was his love that made Fang Jiya look like that. Most of the reasons for Fang Jiya's embarrassment and suffering were that he owed him.

Every time he thinks of what his father has done, the "sense of unworthiness" in his heart arises.

When a person lives in a prison of his own making, it is difficult for him to escape.

He needs redemption, and his redemption may not be someone else, it may only be his letting go of himself.

Fu Shengzhe didn't know if Fang Jiya could forgive him, but he couldn't forgive himself.

His father owed her, which means he owed her...

All this is no longer because he gave her a pair of eyes and gave her a chance to see the light again, so that everything can be smoothed out, as if their life and future can get along very smoothly.

While Fang Jiya was lying weakly on the hospital bed, he felt the coldness of her palm, and was holding his palm tightly. He knew that she fell in love with him, and that kind of love could be truly felt.

But it was this kind of love that destroyed his self-confidence, and could not allow him to accept it with peace of mind.

Loving someone cannot be heavy, and loving someone should not be each other's salvation.

He knew that he had failed her trust after all, and he was afraid that one day their peaceful life would be turbulent again.

Falling in love may be a matter between two people, but staying together is the integration of two families.

He was afraid that she would still not be able to forgive him one day, and he also knew that this kind of thinking would make him sink deeper and deeper. He could love her forever, but he couldn't forget the hurt she had suffered because of him.

Fu Shengzhe was afraid of facing Fang Jiya's penetrating eyes, and also afraid that if she saw him again, would she remember the damage his father, the devil, had done to her physically and mentally.

All this is an unavoidable assumption, and it is also the reason why he cannot walk with her again.

There is a gap between two people, although it is external resistance, but to break through, it takes more than 01:30 points of effort.

Fu Shengzhe knew Fang Jiya's generosity, and also knew her sadness...

But he was afraid that he would become her shadow again.

He had seen her go from mad to the stage of collapse, and he knew that her frail appearance, her haggard, sick face, had always been the clearest thing he could see in the dark.

If there was only one firm thing he could do in his life, it was to hope that she would never get hurt again.

Compared with the sadness of the separation of the two people in front of me...

He was more afraid that she would love him and bear the pain he had caused her.

This kind of contradiction made the distance between them unavoidable.

The corner of Fu Shengzhe's mouth raised a smile. Although he couldn't see the direction in front of him clearly, he still seemed to have eyes, and his warm and warm eyes just fell on Fang Jiya's sleeping face.

The corner of his mouth raised slightly, "After all, I am selfish, but... I have no choice!"

"Promise me, accept donations from others, so that your life will not be so depressing. The two of you are torturing each other. Who is it easy for you to get along like this?"

Zhu Siying looked at Fu Shengzhe, her eyes were full of distress for him.

She has never been a gentle person, but she was really moved by Fu Shengzhe's obsession with love.

"I'm not qualified to be bright, and I'm not qualified to stand in front of her and accept everything she's friendly to me. Sister Zhu, forgive me... I can only choose to be cowardly in this life!"

Fu Shengzhe spoke with a smile, but the voice of the words made people feel painful.

Lin Ran sat on the side, and she didn't know what kind of expression to use. She felt that what she was facing was a sad picture, "We are clearly in love, but we can't stay together forever."

In love, some people will choose to be cowards after all, not because they are not brave enough for love...

It's because I have too high expectations for love.

It is because I forgive a little damage in a love.

It might be nice to reunite after a broken mirror...

But no one wants to face the beauty that they admire, but it brings a little bit of unpleasantness when they let themselves face it.

Fu Shengzhe's fault was because he loved too much.

Lin Ran and Zhu Siying stopped talking after all, they just wanted to leave the silence here to the two of them, because the salvation in their hearts could only be resolved by themselves.

If they stay together, they can only recognize for themselves that life is not very smooth.

The two of them exited the room quietly, leaving the two people in the room to feel each other's breath.

The lights in the room are bright, and in the seemingly majestic environment, the two people staying in the room cannot see each other's expressions. One of them is sleeping soundly, and the other is just smiling and feeling...

But they seem to feel each other's presence.

Smiles are displayed on their faces, without a word, but with many unspoken emotions.

Fu Shengzhe's eyes were kept tightly closed. He felt that he still had the opportunity to be so close to her. This feeling was very fortunate and very happy...

But this can only be cherished and tasted secretly, he knows too well that when she wakes up, he will be ready to leave again.

His lips parted slightly: "Aya! I love you so much..."

But when the voice came out, he couldn't see the other person's expression. He could only rely on his previous impressions to know what kind of expression she had. He felt that the woman in front of him was looking at him.

Not when we first met, she was like a wounded girl, full of guard against anyone.

That feeling in the eyes is a kind of warmth, and it is what he felt when they got along day and night during those few months, and she began to learn to be soft.

He still remembered Fang Jiya's expression when he opened the door to welcome him in.

Although her face was calm and a little desolate, there was always a smile on her face, which made people feel that she was very gentle.

He never thought that there would be twists and turns behind the two of them.

If given the chance, he really hoped that their lives could go back to those few months again, and start their life like a normal couple again.

At that time, he was not the noble "Young Master Fu" in Yecheng, and she did not live under the spotlight that everyone envied.

They are so ordinary that they cannot be more ordinary.

Although they look at each other peacefully every day, sometimes just a simple "hello" can finish their whole day's words.

But that kind of relationship is indelible.

In those days, he began to learn to be an ordinary person, began to understand the responsibility of a man, and no longer only expressed love in pale words.

He would want to protect her and support her from the bottom of his heart.

Fang Jiya always prepares a delicious breakfast for him every morning.

She is not as cold as outsiders think, she also has her own softness, just like facing a stranger, she can give her tenderness.

At that time, two people got along in the same room, and neither could hide from each other.

……

What impressed him most was that they once walked through the alley downstairs together.

There are people kneeling on the ground begging...

Fu Shengzhe prepared to leave with a peaceful expression. He knew that the man had sound limbs and was clearly capable of self-sufficiency, but he chose "get something for nothing."

Such people are generally not worthy of sympathy.

But Fang Jiya stopped in her tracks, she bent down with a smile, different from her usual desolation, she actually showed a very beautiful smile.

She took the money out of her pocket and gave the man a "100 yuan."

Fu Shengzhe looked at her and was a little surprised. She learned to be cold in the eyes of the outside world, but she gave others tenderness and beauty in places that others could not see.

At that moment, he really fell into her beauty, unlike before just because of her tenacity and beauty.

When he saw her softness, he also understood that maybe she didn't love herself, but she just had kindness in her heart, so she chose to give.

Maybe she has never been selfish, after all, she can be gentle when she meets strangers.

After Fu Shengzhe and Fang Jiya left the alley, he asked her why he was very puzzled, "Why are you so generous to him? He took your money and would not appreciate you, but think you are stupid."

"What's the...?"

She tilted her head and smiled gently, then met his complaining eyes, and said calmly: "I have the ability to help him, why not?"

"Isn't he worth your help?"

"If a person is not desperate, he will not choose to humiliate himself like this."

"But……"

"I know what you want to say? You must think I'm stupid, and you also think that if I help him, he will definitely become more decadent and depraved..."

Fang Jiya lowered her head and smiled. When she was warm, it really made people feel that her smile was very beautiful.

"You know it all, but you...?"

"But I am more willing to believe that he is just in a predicament. If because of what I give...he has the ability to stand up again, I believe he is not willing to choose..."

"What if he is obsessed with it?"

"Then I only lost 100 yuan, which is not a big loss to me, but if he is really just like I imagined, everyone is very indifferent to him, then...?"

Fang Jiya shook her head and did not continue. Her attitude in private is different from the impression she left on the public. She is really beautiful in that way.

She walked a long distance, and found that the man beside her hadn't followed, she turned her head to look at the man behind her.

Fu Shengzhe quickly ran to the beggar just now, lowered his body, took out the same red one hundred from his pocket, and saw that he was looking at the person in front with very determined eyes.

"Take this money and start over for yourself!"

His voice was very serious, and his eyes revealed a different kind of sincerity. Fang Jiya saw him like this from a distance, and was a little amused by his actions. She tilted her head and looked at him with flickering eyes. Two people in the distance.

Hearing Fu Shengzhe's words, the man kneeling on the ground raised his head suddenly, and looked at the calm man in front of him with some surprise. Seeing Fu Shengzhe, he nodded earnestly at him with a smile.

He was dazed and in a trance for a moment...

But he didn't speak, and again... bowed his head again.

After Fu Shengzhe expressed his kindness, he straightened up quickly, and ran to Fang Jiya's side with a smile on his face, only to hear Fang Jiya give him a mocking smile.

He was a little puzzled and asked, "What's wrong?"

Fang Jiya looked at him, did not speak, looked back from a distance, just turned around calmly, waved her hand, and said in a cool voice: "It turns out... I missed the person."

Fu Shengzhe: "Ah...?"

He didn't understand Fang Jiya's words, but just followed Fang Jiya's footsteps, and then asked her what she meant?
"You idiot, you can know the other party's integrity with 100 yuan, but you just gave 100 yuan more, are you stupid?"

"Emotionally, what you do is smart, what I do is..."

"Shh, don't say it."

Fang Jiya turned her head, looked at him with smiling eyes, and nodded seriously.

Fu Shengzhe froze in place, completely dumbfounded.

That was the first time he saw Fang Jiya who not only looked pure and flawless on the outside, but also the first time he felt that there was a lovely tenderness and beauty in her heart.

It's just that in the past, she always liked to wrap herself up, giving outsiders a cold and unapproachable look.

"I never knew, you are such a person?"

"what kind of person?"

"A little cunning, a little..."

"This is the first time you don't just praise me blindly."

Fang Jiya is used to Fu Shengzhe's praises in her ears, but she has a different kind of appreciation for him using such adjectives to herself, and feels that it is "refreshing."

"I didn't mean to scold you."

"I know."

She looked at his embarrassment, and hurriedly uttered words of explanation, her eyes were warm and direct, showing a different kind of gentleness, the corners of her mouth slightly raised, and then she seemed to remove all her disguise, and said something very peaceful discourse.

"It was you... who made me like this."

"what?"

"nothing……"

She smiled and turned to leave without explaining too much, but the picture left by the man beside her was always in her mind. His confused face was so cute.

From then on, Fang Jiya also got to know and understand Fu Shengzhe better.

Fu Shengzhe also began to discover a more comprehensive Fang Jiya. His love for her was no longer a one-sided and simple understanding, but he seemed to have begun to understand her comprehensive appearance.

Fang Jiya, who is completely unguarded towards others and no longer pretends to be himself, is clearly gentle and kind.

　Good night~
　　
　
(End of this chapter)