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Chapter 17: I Can't Go Back (2)
She was wearing a short-sleeved chiffon shirt, and he tore open her shirt in a crazy manner, and even pulled off the shoulder straps of her underwear, and then buried himself in the beauty of her chest and wreaked havoc, completely ignoring the current situation. It was still on the street, but fortunately it was raining and it was late at night, so there were few pedestrians on the road.

She didn't know whether her heart was numb or desperate, and she didn't have any resistance, she just let him kiss her numbly, waiting for him to kiss her collarbone along her chest, then her neck, and then came to her lips Only then did I taste the smell of fishy and salty tears.

Only then did he get up from her panting, the face of the man opposite was distorted due to anger, he snorted coldly, rolled up the window and stepped on the accelerator, the car sped past Chen Qingchu.

Xu Liulian never thought that one day when she met Chen Qingchu again, she would be threatened and humiliated by other men like her.She thought she would at least tell him gracefully and calmly that she was married, but she didn't expect it to be in such a hasty and embarrassing way.

Lu Zhouyue threw the numb Xu Liulian into the big bed in a crazy way. He covered her body and said viciously, "Xu Liulian, I think I should tell you something, don't recall! Because you can't go back! No matter what How wonderful is your past with him, you will never go back in this life, you are destined to be my Lu Zhouyue's woman in this life!"

After the initial silence, Xu Liulian suddenly cried and scolded him hysterically under him, "Lu Zhouyue, you bastard!"

Maybe it was her cursing that angered him, he rudely tore off her clothes, pressed her on the big bed and kissed her, his fingers went straight to the point, kneading and caressing the beauty covering her chest, He used the most skillful technique to ignite the flame of passion on her body, Xu Liulian gritted his teeth tightly to prevent himself from making a sound, and from his body to have any reaction.

He stopped and stretched out his hand to pinch her chin, and said in a very harsh tone, "Xu Liulian, I'll tell you, I will never let you go in this life, and I don't mind if you feel that you have to be so repulsive in bed all your life, Anyway, I can have as much fun as I want, and it has nothing to do with me if you don't experience the happiness of being a woman, I want to give you happiness, but you don't want it!"

Xu Liulian was embarrassed and angry. She was embarrassed because he talked about this kind of thing with her so bluntly, and she was angry because he said calmly that he would never let her go, forever, fuck you For a lifetime, she is not rare!
He ignored the grief and indignation on her face and continued, "This kind of bed thing is for two people after all. If you are sensible, you'd better cooperate with me, otherwise don't blame me for not letting you go! I will torture you all the time, I physical strength..."

When he said this, he slowly bent down to wrap her round earlobe in his mouth, and murmured the last sentence ambiguously, "You must be very clear..."

After he finished speaking, he opened his teeth lightly, biting her sensitive earlobe carefully, and the hot tip of his tongue devoured her beautiful auricle with moisture. Xu Liulian bit her lip and closed her eyes slowly after the initial shock. He didn't look at him and didn't say a word, but gradually relaxed his body.

Of course she knew, he did what he said.She had been in love with him a few times, and she was tormented by him almost every time, and now, listening to his cruel words, she had no choice but to cooperate with him as he said.

When he entered her, he was stronger and more ruthless than ever before, as if he wanted to penetrate her. She let out a muffled grunt in pain, and then his lips came up again and kissed her lingeringly, blocking it. All her voices.

She was probably annoyed by the pain he made her, she opened her mouth suddenly and bit his lips fiercely, he snorted and wanted to withdraw his lips, but she bit him tightly , the arms around his back even went around his neck and pulled him down forcefully.

His eyes opened suddenly, and there was a strong wave of passion in them. He was a little surprised and vaguely surprised by her sudden action, but in an instant, he understood her heart. Her enthusiasm was just to let her He finishes early.

He only felt sore in his heart, and he couldn't help closing his eyes and kissing her back forcefully. He could even smell the faint smell of blood coming from between their lips and teeth, and the strength of his waist penetrated into her fiercely, reaching her deepest part. , let her deeply accommodate him, it seems that only in this way can the pain in her heart dissipate a little, Xu Liulian closed her eyes and responded to him with unprecedented enthusiasm in the most desperate gesture.

This is a fierce love that is full of despair in each other's hearts.

When she woke up the next day, he was no longer there, and she was the only one left on the empty big bed. She rolled up the quilt and stared blankly at the messy bed beside her, recalling the intense love last night, and suddenly felt like the same Changmeng, when did she, who kept saying she didn't love her, respond to him so enthusiastically?

Simply tidy up and go downstairs. Sister Qin said that he had already gone to work, and she was not in the mood to eat breakfast and planned to go back to school. Sister Qin stopped her, "Ma'am, sir, I have to watch my wife eat breakfast." Just do it!"

Because Lu Zhouyue has a bad stomach, he is very particular about his diet. He must eat three meals a day, and they must be rich and nutritious. And because he knows the tormenting taste of stomach pain, he also requires People around him strictly followed their diet, especially her.

Xu Liulian was a little angry, why did he even care about eating?Seeing her displeasure, Sister Qin said helplessly, "Madam, please don't make things difficult for us!"

Although Mr. Lu is usually a gentle person, as long as anything touches her, he must be extremely concerned and easily angered.He specially explained the sea cucumber soup, and before leaving, he also told them, "She was exhausted last night, let her sleep until she wakes up naturally, don't call her!"

She clearly saw the slight curve of his beautiful mouth, that curve is called pity, love, happiness, satisfaction, all the emotions of a man deeply in love with a woman.

Xu Liulian glanced at Sister Qin who was looking distressed, then at the other servants who were terrified, rushed into the dining room and ate the breakfast he ordered, and then fled in a hurry. She never wanted to set foot in this place again. .

On the way, she received a strange call, her eyelids twitched violently, and when she picked it up, it was indeed Chen Qingchu's, "Xiao Lian, the marriage you mentioned last night...is it with Lu Zhouyue?"

Chen Qingchu's voice was full of eagerness and anger, but she suddenly felt calm for some reason, "Qingchu, from now on...we won't meet again!"

What's the use of meeting again?Last night that man said that he would never let her go in this life, which means that she and Chen Qingchu will never be together again in this life.Why is she still dragging Chen Qingchu? He should have forgotten her to find new happiness.

"What the hell don't meet again! I want to see you, Xu Liulian, I love you, and I want to be with you again!"

Chen Qingchu couldn't stop roaring, she just hung up the phone resolutely and pretended not to hear his crazy words, then stood quietly by the street alone, tears streaming down her face.

The part-time job in the convenience store is from noon to three in the afternoon today. Without any accident, Chen Qingchu came again, and changed into his favorite casual attire in the past, making her think that she was back in the middle of the night when she saw him. In those years, but his expression was unusually haggard, which made people feel more distressed than the dusty travels last night.

Under the ambiguous eyes of other convenience store employees, she walked out with him, and Chen Qingchu pulled her heartbroken, "Xiao Lian, please tell me that you were just joking with me when you mentioned the marriage last night, right? "

She couldn't bear to see the pain spreading in his eyes, so she closed her eyes and turned her head away, "Qingchu, I'm not a person who likes to joke!"

Chen Qingchu's hand holding her arm tightened so hard that it seemed to break her arm. Xu Liulian looked back at him with some pain. He realized that he had lost control and let her go slightly. He took a deep breath Let yourself calm down in one breath, "Xiao Lian, let's talk!"

The emotion in his eyes was too strong, she had no more love for him, and she followed him after all.

In the bright coffee shop, she was sitting opposite him, Chen Qingchu wanted to hold her hand, a certain stern face flashed past her eyes, she was startled and quickly withdrew her hand, Chen Qingchu looked at her dodging eyes full of Sadly, "Xiao Lian, tell me, do you love him?"

love him?

Hearing Chen Qingchu's question, Xu Liulian raised the corners of her mouth with a wry smile. For the person who broke into her life domineeringly, at best, she only hated him. How could he talk about damned love?The one she loves deeply is obviously the emaciated man sitting opposite, but she can no longer say that she loves him.

Seeing her expression, Chen Qingchu immediately understood her intentions, and finally showed the first smile on his face in a long time, a little bit tired but also a little bit relieved, "Xiao Lian, since you don't love him, why do you love him?" Don't divorce him! Marriage is a matter of mutual affection, if he forces you like this, you can sue the law!"

The word divorce caused Xu Liulian's hand to tremble and almost knocked over the coffee she was stirring. It's not that she never thought about divorce. She mentioned it to him on the day she signed the contract with him. She remembered that he threw it at her in a rage. Do you want to die?" Such a sentence, and then smashed the phone.

Chen Qingchu immediately held her hand on the coffee cup, "I know you still love me, so what if you're married, I'll take you back!"

Maybe his words were too affectionate, maybe his tone was too firm, Xu Liulian just raised his eyes and stared blankly at the person opposite, his breath, his eyebrows, his smile like sunshine, all appear in dreams every time Yes, for a moment, she had the urge to abandon everything and be with Chen Qingchu.

However, rationality finally defeated impulse. She knew that if she really did that, according to that person's temperament, she and Chen Qingchu, as well as the rest of her life with Chen Qingchu's family, would not have a good life. So many irrelevant people have been implicated by selfishness.

"Xiao Lian, you don't want to be with me anymore, are you blaming me? You know I was forced to tell you to break up and go to the United States..."

Chen Qingchu grabbed her hand and put it on her lips, kissing it affectionately, and murmured in pain.

"Qingchu, I know, I didn't blame you, I didn't blame you!"

Xu Liulian thought of the dark and gloomy year in her third year of high school, the pain that his departure brought her, and the shock after learning the truth, her eyes couldn't help but feel extremely sour.

It was the graduation meal after the college entrance examination. At that time, Chen Qingchu had already gone to the United States and there was no news. Several boys who were close to Chen Qingchu walked up to her together. One of the boys said drunkenly, "Xu Liulian, do you know , Why did Qingchu go abroad in the first place?"

"why?"

Because of Chen Qingchu's perfunctory "let's break up" at the beginning, she easily broke up their relationship for more than two years, and she was heartbroken, so she was also a little hostile to his friend, and she was a little bit reluctant to ask.

"Because our great Teacher Lu Zhouyue threatened him with Qingchu's company and forced him to leave the United States!"

Another boy said angrily.

Many teachers and even the school leaders came to this dinner today. He was the only one who didn't come, but maybe it was because he didn't come that these boys dared to say these things. They also relied on the fact that they had already graduated from high school. , has nothing to do with him.

"what?"

She jumped up from her seat almost all at once, and looked at the boys in astonishment, "Why did Teacher Lu do this?"

At that time, she still called him Mr. Lu respectfully, and innocently abided by her duties as a student and a teacher. She could vaguely feel his hidden friendship on weekdays, but she never thought about it deeply, and she never expected to hear him. Such amazing news.

The boy said again, "Xu Liulian, you don't know, do you? You are the one that Mr. Lu really likes!"

It is said that the authorities are obsessed with onlookers, and their group of boys can see through the teacher's thoughts for her at a glance, especially Chen Qingchu, who always hates him every time he is mentioned, but there is nothing he can do. He is their English teacher, and he can't hold back Thighs, not to mention that he and the school director Zhuo Tingfeng are still good friends, even if they want to unite and let the school replace him, it is impossible.

The astonishment on Xu Liulian's face was even worse, and he shook his head violently after a while, "Impossible! How is this possible, it's ridiculous!"

With identities like teacher and student, it's clear that there should be no emotional entanglement in the relationship, but he, he actually has such dirty thoughts about her?She thought of some of his usual behaviors, words and eyes, and couldn't help being shocked.

"It is said that he stayed in our school to teach because of you. Otherwise, you think he runs such a big company, and his father is the famous Lu Fangting, how could he be content to be a teacher in a school?"

She couldn't remember what they said later, she just sat there weakly and mechanically poured wine into the glass, and then drank it one gulp after another, the news was too shocking, she desperately needed something to numb her Painful nerves.

She said how could her Qingchu break their relationship for two years so cruelly?It turned out that he was forced to do nothing!
She felt sorry for Chen Qingchu and walked away helplessly. She hated the despicable and shameless unscrupulousness of the man in the teacher's coat. She hated him for ruining the first love she depended on for survival and forcing away the person she loved with all her strength. She gritted her teeth and hated him.

So she, who was full of grief and anger, had the absurdity of that night. She actually wanted to kill him that night, but she was full of anger and bitterness, facing him calmly and calmly, all of a sudden. become extremely small.

She often wonders if she made a wrong step, wrong step by step?She shouldn't have provoked him that night. If she hadn't provoked him, he might not have been thinking about her all the time.

It's just that she didn't know that no matter whether she provoked him that night or not, he was bound to win her, it was just a matter of time.

"No! Xiao Lian, you don't know, he does more than that!"

Chen Qingchu may have just recalled those past events with her just now, and hatred gradually welled up in his eyes, "Don't you wonder why I haven't heard from me for three years and never returned to China?"

When he said this, Xu Liulian quickly looked up at him, and she was also heartbroken by this question. Since he didn't really go abroad at the beginning, why didn't he contact her after he went abroad? As long as he spoke, she would wait for him, no matter what He could wait as long as he wanted, but he didn't.

There was no news for three years, which made her look forward to him gradually fade away, and sometimes she even thought that maybe he had a new home abroad and gave up on her just like that, that's why she refused to contact her. she.

Chen Qingchu gritted her teeth and said, "Since I don't really want to break up with you, I can continue to contact you even if I go abroad, but he doesn't know what tricks he used to make the embassy not allow me to go back to China, not to let me Contact the country!"

Xu Liulian's face was full of astonishment at first, then anger and shock, and finally returned to a calm and self-deprecating smile with the corners of her lips curled up weakly. Why didn't she expect that this was a trick of that person. Since they were separated, they would not Give them any chance of resurgence.

That man's method was really vicious and cruel.He may have already seen through that time and distance will separate the two people who were originally deeply in love beyond recognition.

Chen Qingchu looked at her calm face and asked her heartbroken, "Xiao Lian, why are you so calm, don't you hate him?"

"hatred?"

She smiled wryly and raised her head to gulp down the coffee in the cup. The bitter taste slid down her mouth and into her stomach, and her whole body felt astringent in an instant. This is it!"

What she said seemed easy, but her heart was extremely heavy and desperate, so what if she hated her?Who will tell her, what can I do if I hate him?Should she have stabbed him in the heart late at night when he was sleeping?She knew that he was defenseless against her, as long as she wanted to, she could kill him with a single blow.

Perhaps because she realized that her thoughts were too vicious, she hurriedly changed the subject and asked Chen Qingchu, "Then how can you come back now?"

Chen Qingchu's eyes dodged for a moment and he muttered, "Maybe he thinks I can't pose any danger to him anymore."

She smiled wryly and turned her head away to look out the window, didn't she, she was married to him, so what if ten Chen Qingchus came back?Raw rice has already been cooked!
There was too much pain in her heart, so she didn't think carefully about the dodge in Chen Qingchu's eyes. Chen Qingchu probably had something in her heart, so she fell silent. In an instant, the two people who were deeply in love suddenly came to a relatively speechless the point.

(End of this chapter)