american tragedy

Chapter 88 (2)
Chapter 242 (2)
As he went down the road, dismounting to drink, she cried, "I've been wanting to tell you something. When mother heard you were coming up last night, you should have seen her." face. Naturally, she couldn't be sure what I did about it, because she thought Bettina liked you too. I did it, to make her think so. But I think she always suspected me of meddling, anyway. She didn't like it. But she couldn't give a reason other than what she had said before. I just talked to Bettina, and she promised to help me in whatever way she could. But since then, We should be very careful. Because I feel that if my mother is too suspicious, I don't know what she will do, and I may have to let us get out of here and never see each other again. You know it, she Think I'm only interested in whoever she likes, and you know how it goes. She's the same way with Stuart. But whenever we're with any of us, you just have to be careful not to Showed your love for me, and I don't think she will, at least not yet. It will be a little while later, when we return to Lycurgos in the fall. By then When I'm old enough you'll see what I can do. I've never loved anyone, but I do have a heart for you, and I'll never give you up, never. And I'll never subject to their compulsion."

She kicked and kicked.At this moment the two lazy beasts were looking around.Clyde was both excited and surprised when he saw her make it clear to him again.On the other hand, he thought of another exciting thing, elopement, marriage, if he really wanted to do it, he should do it now.In this way, you can stop worrying.So he looked into her eyes with hope and fear.If he suddenly proposed to her like this, maybe she would be afraid, and then reject him, or change her mind.Moreover, he has no money, and even if she accepts his proposal, he has no idea in his heart where the two of them should go.But maybe she has an idea.As long as she promised, wouldn't she probably help him? Of course she would.In short, he thought it necessary to speak out, and as to luck, it depended on God.

So he said: "Why can't you come with me now? My dear Sandra. It's too long to wait until the autumn, and I need you so badly now. Why can't we do this? Till then, whatever Anyway, your mother won't let us get married. But if we go now, there's nothing she can do. Isn't there? After that, say in a few months, you can write to her again, and by then , she won't do any more. Why can't we do this, Sandra?" He pleaded, lest she refuse, and fear that if she refused, he would be hopeless.

His expression and words touched her heart deeply.She hesitated for a moment. In fact, she was not surprised by this proposal at all, but was very moved.She was very flattered at the thought that she could bring Clyde to such a desperate outburst of passion.He was so reckless, she felt that the flame she ignited was now burning so big, but she also knew that she herself would not have such a strong feeling like him, and she had never felt this kind of flame in anyone else. see.And how wonderful it would be if she could elope with him now, and go to Canada, or New York, or Boston, or wherever.What a stir her elopement with him would cause in Lycurgus, Albany, Utiga...! What would be thought and said in her home and elsewhere! And Gilbert was about to become Her relatives, no matter what he thought, the Griffiths would marry her, how envious her parents were of them.

In a split second, her eyes almost spoke her wish, her determination, to listen to him, to leave, to let this matter, to let her passionate love cause a huge disturbance.As soon as she got married, her parents' attitude should be better. Besides, wouldn't Clyde deserve her and them? Of course he deserved it.Although almost everyone who was with her thought that he was not ideal, it was only because he was not as rich as them.But he's going to be rich too, isn't he, and when he's married he can get a good job in her father's company, just like Gilbert, can't he?

But then she thought of her life here, of the shock her parents would suffer, and how angry her mother would be when her own plans failed, even with her Not being old was an excuse to declare the marriage null and void. Thinking of this, she hesitated. The joyful idea just now disappeared without a trace, replaced by her materialistic and practical nature.After all, what would happen to a few months? That road might separate her and Clyde forever, but if it could wait a few months, maybe they would never be apart, yes, it would Is such that.

So she shook her head, but in a certain, affectionate way.Clyde knew he was doomed to fail, the worst failure he had ever suffered in the matter.If she doesn't want to go with him, then he is useless, maybe he will never get her.God, with a rare tenderness on her face, she said: "This is my helpless plan, my dear, too impatient. Now, mother can't do anything, you know she won't Yes. Besides, I know she already has a plan to have a big dinner just for me this summer. She wants my attitude to be better, you know who I mean. I can do it, and I'm sure It won't get in the way of either of us, as long as I don't do things that scare her." She paused, and smiled at him encouragingly. "But you can come up whenever you want, you know? And she and the others don't have any other ideas, because you're not our guest. I made it up with Bettina, I mean Yeah, this summer, we can all be together, you know? Then, in the fall, if I find out she still treats you badly or won't let us get engaged, then I'll run away with you. Trust me honey ,I certainly will."

My dear, it's autumn.

When she finished, her eyes showed that she was aware of the difficulty they were having.She took his hands, looked up at his face, and then, hugging him very excitedly, made him bow his head and kiss her.

"My dear, do you understand? Don't look so sad, my dear. Sandra is madly in love with Clyde. And she will certainly try to make it work. She will never give him up, never!"

Clyde also knew that he could no longer find any strong reason to persuade her, indeed, there was no reason not to be surprised by his excessive impatience, so as to arouse suspicion.It's all because of this request from Roberta, and unless... unless... ah... unless Roberta lets him go, he's lost.He was very sad, even looking at her face in despair. How beautiful she was! How wonderful the world was.However, others would never let him get her, get this world.And, Roberta, who had demanded and had his promise, was pressing on him! Besides, there was nothing he could do but flee, my God!

By this time there was an expression of panic in his eyes of such intensity as he had never seen before, almost to the extreme, and this expression Sandra had noticed too, and he looked so sad, so heartbroken, so hopeless. , she couldn't help crying: "Clyde, my dear Clyde, what's the matter with you? You look like this." "Ah, I can't tell at the moment, is it despair, or..." Is he so Does he love me so much? Could it be that he can't wait for three or four months? But, he can wait.The situation is not as bad as he imagined.He can always be with me, he loves me so much, when he is not around, I will write to him every day, every day.

"But, Sandra, Sandra, if only I could tell you. If only you knew how much it affected me . . . "

He stopped because, noticing Sandra's matter-of-fact look, he seemed to be wondering why she had to go with him? Clyde immediately sensed that she was attached to this place and couldn't do without it. Being too persistent will make her doubt whether she should give so much love.He didn't dare to continue, because if he continued, she would definitely break the casserole and ask the end, maybe she would change her mind, or even reduce her enthusiasm, or even make her dream come true.

He stopped talking without further explanation to her.He said: "How much I need you now, my dear, I can never leave you. Sometimes, I even feel like I can't live without you every minute. Ah, I will miss you all the time."

Sandra, though proud of his fanatical love, still just repeated the original words.They have to wait.Come fall, everything will be fine. (Clyde is almost numb from failure. Still racking his brains for ideas, maybe a plan to use the boat, or something.)

But what else is there to do?

But no, no.He is not a murderer, and never will be.He was never, never, never...

But what is he about to lose?

The coming catastrophe, catastrophe!

How can we get Sandra without escaping?

so what?

He thought, let's wait a little longer! However, at this time, he was also very scared and very disturbed.He realized the following: nothing like this had ever happened to him in his life.People in society, even his mother, thought that he should at least save Roberta, but in the case of Esta, who saved her? Her lover? He left her without a trace of remorse, But she was alive and well! Oh, Roberta was no worse than his sister, why should she ruin his life.Why should he let him give up his social status? If she can let him go, then in his opinion, he can help her a lot, and naturally he will help her with Sandra's money.He would never allow her to ruin his life.

(End of this chapter)