my mysterious boyfriend

Chapter 64 A woman with nothing, the best way to repay a kind man

He suddenly increased his strength and hugged me, his mouth moved closer to my ear, and he said almost word by word: "Lin Sisi, if you say it, it may scare you. Are you trying to make me get married?" Impulsive woman. I must be crazy, I must be crazy."

Whether he's crazy or not, I'm not sure.

But I'm pretty sure I'm going crazy.

During these days, I have been telling myself that the more I am moved, the more painful it will be. What I can do is to abide by myself, stick to myself, and never harm others.And just a moment ago, I actually wanted to hide my past and have a crazy relationship with this man. I knew from the beginning that I was going to break up.

I'm not crazy what is it!
I feel that I am really ridiculous to the extreme, but also selfish to the extreme!
I am afraid to confess my past to him, I am afraid that he will look down on me, I am afraid that I will fall into a deeper abyss, but I forget that the more silent I am, the more I step back, he must try to move forward step by step, which will only increase his pain.

He should have been the last person I wanted to hurt.But what did I do!
That is, within these ten seconds, I suppressed all the turbulent emotions in my heart and made a difficult decision.

Almost weak, my voice seemed to be lowered into the dust, and I said, "Yu Minghui, let me go first."

Yu Minghui's hand clings even tighter disobediently, he said: "No, I don't want to let go, and I don't want to let go."

I was even more powerless, and I said, "Let go of me first, I have some things I want to make clear to you."

But he was very stubborn, Yu Minghui hugged me harder, he said: "You can talk even if you hold me, you say it, I will listen."

I am really lonely for too long, I am really greedy, I really like this hug that makes me sink and shake, but I am afraid, I am afraid that he is just an ordinary person, I am afraid that he is just one of the ordinary superficial men, he is in Holding me and listening to my past, he will be frightened and shocked, and even treat me as a scourge, and he will suddenly leave me, how embarrassed I should be and how much I want to go to hell immediately.

So I was so stubborn that I couldn't help it, and I said, "I want you to let me go first!"

Yu Minghui hesitated for a moment, and finally let go of his hand.

He looked at me with eyes that were as deep as a lake, but inside they shone brightly like stars.

I was afraid to see his eyes, so I straightened my body, looked away, slightly raised my eyebrows, calmed down, and said softly, "Let me tell you about Ding Zhanbo."

Yu Minghui didn't make a sound.

In the entire huge space, only Ada didn't know where the high point was, and kept throwing the ball back and forth, making the collision sound.

I took a deep breath, and then continued slowly: "When I was in high school, there was a male student named Ding Zhanbo in my class. He was handsome, well-dressed, well-dressed, and he was also good at basketball. What fascinates me the most is that his grades are very good. He is the first in the whole class in every exam, and I am the second. A few months before the college entrance examination, he sent me a note asking if I would like to take the Peking University exam with him. .I don’t know if I can really get into Peking University, but I agreed. We were really naive and hopelessly naive at that time. Promises and sweet words always came out of our mouths. He said he loves me, he said we I will get married in the future, and I will believe what he says at that time. My puppy love came at a very bad time, but it came crazy and reckless. In the days after the college entrance examination, many students ran out to surf the Internet all night, and some students hid in the dormitory I drank beer in there, and when I drank too much, I went to confess my love to my favorite classmates. But Ding Zhanbo invited me to set off fireworks, and he invited me to set off fireworks at the Cultural Plaza in the middle of the night."

Speaking of this, I glanced at Yu Minghui cautiously, only to see that his face was full of seriousness, his brows were all knit together, and he listened very seriously.

My fingers curled up unconsciously, and I made a self-deprecating smile, and continued: "At that time, the cultural square in Suixi was so desolate. At two o'clock in the morning, we didn't see a single living person. At that time, I only I feel very romantic, but I don’t think it’s dangerous. In the early morning that changed my life, under the light of those bright fireworks, Ding Zhanbo came over and wanted to kiss me. I thought that the first kiss happened under such circumstances, It was a worthwhile trip, so I closed my eyes. I just closed my eyes for more than ten seconds, and it was all a nightmare when I opened my eyes. I still don’t understand why it’s so late, and there are so many Men came to trouble me after drinking too much. They kept pulling my hand, touching me, and dragging me away. But the man who said he loved me very much and wanted to marry me ran away at night and left me behind. In the same place, I was thrown to some drunk, inhuman and unreasonable men. I was carried away by several people, and they threw me down a few times when they were too drunk, but I twisted my foot and I couldn't run at all. They carried me to an abandoned unfinished building next to the canal. I screamed and even kowtowed to beg for mercy, but in return I was punched and kicked..."

Before I finished speaking, Yu Minghui suddenly rushed over and covered my mouth with his hand. My eyes were already blurred with tears. I couldn't see his expression clearly at all. I only heard him raise his voice and say: "Stop, stop here, don't say any more No need to say any more!"

I think my expression must be very weird, I just smiled and cried, and took Yu Minghui's hand off.

What broke me so much was that I could finally see his expression clearly.

His face was very white, as white as a cloud.After I took his hand off, he didn't know whether it was habitual or subconscious, he moved back.

It was enough to break my heart.

So, I continued like crazy: "I was knocked unconscious by a brick slab. When I woke up, I was naked and covered with a quilt, and my lower body was full of blood. I remember that day The rain was particularly heavy, but even though it was raining heavily, even though the scene was surrounded, and even though the police were constantly maintaining order, there were still many people watching and watching, whispering and pointing. I was in one day, It caused a sensation in the entire county. But, when people talk about me, they won't think that I, Lin Sisi, is a victim, and they won't give me too much sympathy. They will only think that I am a decent girl I won’t be wandering outside in the middle of the night. What happened to me by some men? I deserve it. I’m poisonous. Some people even rumored that I was infected with AIDS. Stay away from me, or you will be infected. These things continue to flow The turmoil and devastation, I can’t stop until now. I dare not go home, my whole family dare not go home again, we hide and live like street mice. Not only did I harm myself, I also harmed The whole family. Yu Minghui, tell me, is a broken person like me really qualified to start a new life?"

Yu Minghui's complexion was astonishingly pale, he sat there firmly, he didn't move towards me again, and he didn't open his mouth to talk to me, he just sat there silently like a log, not knowing what to think.

Obviously such a cold and glamorous man, obviously a man who is always calm and composed, obviously a man who once made me feel as stable as Mount Tai, but now he is nothing more than that, and now he is just flustered like this.

I really don't have the qualifications to blame him too much, nor do I have the qualifications to ask him to become a saint, nor do I have the qualifications to ask him to accept and tolerate my past.

But why why, my heart hurts so much.

It was as if someone had dropped a bomb in it and ignited it mercilessly and exploded. Those heart-piercing, fragmented, painful feelings were like uncontrollable waves in a tsunami, layer after layer. The cover came up and overwhelmed me.

Grinning again, I reached out to wipe my tears indiscriminately, and dropped another bomb almost in despair: "Well, I know I'm not qualified, I shouldn't throw this question to you I really deserve it, I am still a scourge. My parents still want to help me get justice, they are still running for me, begging humblely. Just after this matter cannot be completely resolved, it has lasted for nearly two months , I was found to be pregnant. It seems that I have become an advantageous party in obtaining evidence. But overnight, the fish pond at my house was poisoned, and my family received a warning call. It’s not in the fish pond, maybe one day it will be accidentally sprinkled in the water we drink. I ran to the hospital and killed the child myself.”

Stretching out my hand and pressing my abdomen heavily, I said casually: "Well, that's right, Lin Sisi is a hopelessly unlucky woman, she was pregnant with the children of those sexual rapists, she beat the children, she She made concessions and compromises to those vicious murderers, and she trampled her miserable dignity under her feet, and she made the smartest choice in this way. Then she ran to Zhanjiang as if nothing had happened to earn money to help her family pay off her debts. Then even if she knew She is not worthy, and fell madly in love with a man named Yu Minghui. Then just ten minutes ago, she shamelessly wanted to hide her past and talk about a relationship with that man named Yu Minghui that would break up. But fortunately She is not too bad, she suddenly realized that she told the man named Yu Minghui a story of her own, and let the man named Yu Minghui make a choice. And then she knew that her dream had come to this moment , or it should be over."

After I stopped all the narration, Yu Minghui's response was still silence, a deathly silence.

In the space where my voice was still echoing just now, there was only the sound of Ada throwing the ball and hitting it back and forth in an instant.

After a stalemate in silence for nearly 5 minutes, Yu Minghui suddenly yelled at Ada and said, "Ada, you are not finished! Can't you fucking be quieter!"

I automatically and consciously think that this is his order to expel me in a different way.He's still a good guy, and he took my pathetic pride into consideration in such a different way.

Feeling ashamed, I took the account book I brought over, and I put it on my lap, and still said in an understatement tone: "Yu Minghui, let's get back to business. I don't have the money you paid for me for the time being." Take out the method at once, and I will return it to you as soon as possible."

After I finished speaking, I stood up and stumbled towards the door.

Just when I was about to touch the handle of the door, Yu Minghui suddenly grabbed my hand, his hand was shaking badly, but he still didn't speak to me.

I turned around and stared at him for no less than 30 seconds. I knew I shouldn't be so mean, but how did I become so mean.

Yes, I did smile at Yu Minghui so flirtatiously, and I said, "Do you regret paying for my debts on the spur of the moment without knowing the situation? I really don't have that much money now, if you I really feel uncomfortable in my heart, I am willing to repay you first, and treat it as interest."

After finishing speaking, I shook off his hand, and casually threw the small bookkeeping book on the porch, my fingers trembling as I went to unbutton my clothes.

The buttons that are so easy to untie when I usually change clothes, why are they so difficult now?
I unbuttoned the buttons for about 30 seconds before unfastening one of them. At this moment, Yu Minghui stretched out his hand to hold my trembling hand, and he finally spoke.

He said, "Lin Sisi, don't do this."

I suddenly hated him so much.

It's the kind of hate that is so unreasonable and unreasonable. I hate him for not knowing why he had a brain convulsion and reached out to me that night. I hate him for taking me away after I was drunk. I hate him for helping me block the The attack of the poisonous snake, I hate him for helping me teach Wang Mayi a hard lesson, I even hate him for helping me get the ring back by my side when I lost a loved one.

I almost hated all his kindness to me.

What I hate the most is that I deeply know that my hatred must come from love.I hate him for giving me too much warmth, I hate him for making me fall in love with him, and I also hate him for saying this at this moment.

Too cold and too hurtful.

Lin Sisi, don't do this.

So what am I going to do?Then what else can I do!
I shook off his hand fiercely, and I just smiled shamelessly as if nothing had happened, and said: "Yu Minghui, you have to forgive me for my presumptuousness. Maybe it's because my three views are wrong. I think a woman with nothing , the best way to repay a kind man is to promise him with his body. I really don’t have any money right now, so I can’t return the money to you and settle it with you all at once. If this is the case, then you can sleep with me once as interest .If you think it’s not clean, you can use a condom. If you think it’s a waste, I can pay for the condom.”

After I finished speaking, my hands that were on top of the clothes used brute force, and quickly and frantically grabbed the buttons all the way down.

Sure enough, it’s cheap and not good. The clothes I bought for ten yuan at the clothes wholesale department of South Railway Station, those buttons are as fragile as my heart, which is broken like catkins, and they fell to the ground one after another, and those A piece of clothing with no buttons to support it, it swings to the sides, and most of my upper body is exposed like this.

(End of this chapter)