my unparalleled way

Chapter 1444 Accident
"We feel good, but it doesn't mean we can be recognized... I can't help but think too much."

Although her words did not surprise Lin San and made him very relieved, he could only shake his head.

At the mention of approval, her eyes could not help but darken.

She didn't tell her parents all the time, maybe it's because she also understands that they are unlikely to accept Lin San as a person.

Although the great uncle's family is far from the imperial family, but after all, it can be regarded as a famous family, isn't it?Apart from their family background, their family actually has a noble title of Baron...

"Why do people pay so much attention to things outside of them? As long as they feel good, isn't that all right?" She couldn't help complaining.

Lin San rubbed his forehead helplessly: "You are living a good life, easy to be satisfied, and have no desire to compare, that's why you came up with this idea..."

"Xi Zifu has never been rich in his life, but now he is a painter admired by countless people. His name is even listed in classroom books and praised by countless people. Isn't he successful? In my eyes, you are already very powerful , smarter than me, knows a lot of things I don't understand, I often feel that I can't compare with you..."

Lin San had also heard what she called Xi Zifu, who was a painter of the Bilan Empire 800 years ago, who left behind many handed down paintings, and was even regarded as a master after his death.

"Your praise made me feel a little ecstatic, but when Xi Zifu was alive, his life was once poor. When many people mention this period of history, they will instinctively have a feeling."

"How do you feel?" Tai Shuxue asked involuntarily.

"His paintings did not earn a lot of money, so he was a failure when he was alive, and he was gradually valued after his death. For many people, it is a tragedy. And the value standard of his paintings is in the eyes of many people. It's not how good the paintings are, but how much they are worth.

Regardless of whether painters, musicians, craftsmen, scholars or other industries, no matter how outstanding and profound they are in that field, if they cannot use that field to bring in a lot of money, it will still be considered by many people as meaningless, or even Failed and incompetent.Politicians and practitioners may be the only ones who can be excluded from this standard, and they have another set of standards. "

Uncle Xue Ping never thought about all this carefully.

She wanted to refute, but after thinking for a long time, she found that she couldn't refute at all.

A musician, no matter how beautiful her playing is, even if she has a very thorough and in-depth study of music, if she can't bring her money...

Just like herself, if she can't get paid to teach that group of children, then I'm afraid she will get a different evaluation.And if those who played better than her in Linglan College did not earn as much as her now, then others will think that those people are not as good as her now.

Not many people will pay attention to their strength and so-called attainments, what people pay attention to is the 'value' obtained by 'conversion'.

"This...how could this be?" She felt shocked.

"It's normal." There was no unacceptable expression on Lin San's face. To him, this didn't seem to be surprising at all: "Money is a medium for exchanging many things, so it has become a way for people to live and work. Ben. For many people, money is everything, and it’s no surprise that it’s used as a measure of ability and worth.”

"However, each line has its own domain. Isn't it too sad to measure the value of everything, such as paintings, music, poems, etc., by how much it is worth?"

"I understand what you mean. Achievements in one's own field should be respected. But I have to say that making money is also a field, and making money... is actually a manifestation of ability, and there is nothing wrong with being respected."

"But don't you think it's a bit too much? They are all outstanding in their respective fields. A successful businessman will definitely receive much more respect than a farmer who is the best at farming. The former will make countless people fall under their feet. The latter may be ridiculed by others. The former field seems to be naturally superior to countless other fields..."

She seemed unable to agree with Lin San's point of view, and the example she gave made him feel dumbfounded.

He already regretted talking about this topic, because it was too grand, and he couldn't stand it.

How could a common man like him be qualified to give advice on this kind of topic?That would make people laugh too, wouldn't it?
"I really can't answer this question. Maybe it's because the former's money can be exchanged for the things that many people dream of and satisfy many of their own wishes, but the latter can't do it... So many people will envy and even worship the former, right? "

"But we can eat and have a place to live, we can live well, we don't envy them at all, why can't we pursue the way we like? Why do we have to be respected and recognized by others, and achieve success in their eyes? "

"This, I think too. The success I think is not like that..." He sighed softly. If he was the only one, he would definitely not care too much.

But the key is now two people, some things that I didn't care about before, but now I have to care about them.At least, to get the approval of her parents, you can only show that kind of value, right?

While he was pleased with her thoughts, he couldn't help feeling a little surprised.

He didn't expect that she could think so far, and she had novel ideas that many people in another world rarely have.

……

That argument didn't affect their relationship, in fact, it wasn't much of an argument, deep down, Lin San didn't want to refute her at all.

He quit his job at Jianji Dyeing Workshop and began to look for new opportunities everywhere.

This journey is not smooth, this is a different world after all, this kind of position that is easy to be recruited, and the threshold is not high, is very rare in this world.

Many chambers of commerce do not seem to have this kind of work that specializes in selling customers to get commissions, and his intention to come was also rejected by many chambers of commerce because they did not need this kind of person.

After quitting his job, he sometimes became more free than before, and they had more opportunities to get along with each other.

The two who are tired of being together most of the time have almost become inseparable from each other.Sometimes when she was busy because of the course, he had already started to feel lonely when he was alone; and sometimes when he didn't go to see her while he was looking for a job outside, she would confide in her unabashed thoughts the next day .

Although, it's just that I haven't seen it for a day.

There were no twists and turns, perhaps because the people around them didn't know about their love affair, and the plot where the noble and rich young master intervened to win the love with a sword never appeared at all.

There were no such tragic things as natural disasters, man-made disasters, great changes, family fortunes, or serious illnesses.

And the relationship between the two of them just got better and better, and there was no problem at all.Although the two people's origins and childhood experiences are completely different, and their living habits are also somewhat different, but that doesn't seem to be a big deal, they are naturally changing for each other...

But the scene I didn't want to see finally came.

He came back from outside that day, waiting for her arrival at home.In fact, as usual, she would have been waiting for him in his room, but this time she was not.

He didn't feel too surprised, after all, when they parted yesterday evening, the two were still reluctant to leave, and they agreed to see each other today.

But as time passed bit by bit, his heart gradually became a little uneasy.

Why haven't you come yet?Is there any accident?
When the time came to the evening, he tried his best to calm down the anxiety in his heart. Isn't it normal not to see each other for a day?Maybe it's just because of something at home, or maybe it's because she's a little busy with her jiu-string lessons today.

I really have sunk too deep, have I reached this point?He began to examine his state, and found that he had really changed too much now.

In the past, he always felt that it was impossible for him to have someone he liked.Even if there is, I will always keep calm, I will not be crazy about others, I will not be dominated by others, and I can withdraw at any time.

Now it seems that the idea at that time was really naive.

He shook his head and told himself secretly, there is nothing wrong with this state, isn't it?

However, when he still didn't see her figure the next day, his heart finally couldn't maintain peace.

He suddenly had a premonition that he had lost the most important treasure.This premonition made his heart feel empty, as if his soul was about to leave his body.

He couldn't imagine the situation of losing her at all. He clearly knew that his idea was naive and dangerous, but he couldn't control its spread at all.

Is she sick?Or something unexpected?He thought that the person who was sick might be himself?

Before he knew it, he had already arrived at the river island, and looking as far as he could, she was not in it.So, he came outside that wall.

"I am coming."

"are you there?"

Without any response, his words were like talking to himself, which seemed a little ridiculous.

He stopped outside that wall for a long time, and finally dragged his exhausted body back to his 'home'.He didn't go in to find out, although it was easy to do with his strength.

After all, this is a tacit understanding between him and her, don't disturb her family for the time being, and he will naturally respect her.

It's just that what he got in exchange for this respect was his own sleepless nights.

On the third day, he had no intention of going out.

For a whole morning, he sat dryly in the room, but countless complicated thoughts kept pounding him.

This feeling was very uncomfortable, but it was inexplicable that he had a faint 'illusion', as if his body was lighter than before, as if a long-sleeping seed in his body finally broke through the ground and germinated.

This 'illusion' is not obvious, and at this time, he has no intention of observing such bizarre things.

Countless not-so-good conjectures had already surged in his mind, and the one that frightened him the most was that it was false.

The previous relationship was all fake, and the reason why he accompanied him was because the boring lady was experiencing new fun.In fact, she was just looking for someone to relieve boredom, just to play, and now she is tired of playing, or she feels that it will become dangerous to continue sinking, so now she simply cut off this experience and disappeared from his world.

This relationship is almost everything in his eyes, but it may be just a game in her eyes...

That's right, he is a person with a lot of thoughts, and there is almost no possibility that he can escape his prediction.Even if he fell into this state of being unable to extricate himself, he still would not lose his sobriety and reason.

But soon, he ruled out this kind of speculation that was deeply malicious and disrespectful to her.

I should trust her, and I should trust my own eyes.She is serious, and she is not the kind of person with extraordinary acting ability. I can always feel this, can't I?It's a bit too despicable for me to hold that kind of guessing.

However, in fact, the most fundamental reason why there is such a conjecture is that he has always felt that this relationship is like a gift that is elusive, which makes him feel that he is in an incredible dream, as if he is extremely unattainable. Real isn't it?
He didn't want to continue guessing like this, he decided to go to the music hall where she taught the group of young masters and ladies.

(End of this chapter)