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Chapter 1370 Memory
Under Han Yu's unblinking gaze, the video started to play, first there was a shaking scene, and then a face he was very familiar with appeared in front of the camera...it was himself.

Through the confirmation of his eyes, he was sure that it was him, it was Han Yu!

"OK...uh, the first day of planning. Although I don't like doing this kind of thing, just in case, I'd like to make a rough record."

In the video, Han Yu was dressed in casual attire, and sat down cross-legged while adjusting the camera.

To be honest, from him, Han Yu can't see any shadow of Richard, but by comparing his memory and the background in the video, he can confirm that the recording time of this video was a few days before he returned to South Korea. months.

He also noticed the word he used in the video, plan?What is the plan?
"The preparations before going home have basically entered the final process, but I can't go back as I am now, I can't..."

In the video, Han Yu shook his head inexplicably at the camera. He raised his hand and scratched his forehead, and then said:
"In the past period of time, I tried to see several famous psychiatrists, but they all disappointed me with my diagnosis. They all thought that I was fine. It seems that my subconscious avoidance has affected the correctness of others. judge."

"I tried to study psychology in the past, hoping to learn how to guide myself when I was under too much pressure. Now it seems that this decision was right and wrong."

"My inability to open up to other people, combined with the fact that I've always been able to rationalize my avoidance of the doctors' questions, means that I now find that no one but myself is aware of my real problems..."

Having said that, Han Yu in the video looked up at the camera again, with surprisingly complicated eyes. He reached out to pick up the shooting equipment, moved it in front of him, and said in a low voice:

"It is difficult for a person who once plunged into the darkness to be completely clean after breaking free. I only understand this now."

"Although the me today is obviously different from the past, the me of the past still has a great influence on the me of the present."

"I found that the darkness in my past life is still haunting me, and it has accumulated over the years. They will pop up in my mind from time to time, especially when my return date is getting closer, when I think of Yuner They, my family, I'm increasingly unsure if I should go back to them..."

"Because their world is bright, but I return with darkness."

"I know, my mind can clearly realize that if this continues, even if I can go home smoothly, as long as those dark memories are still in my mind, sooner or later they will get out of control, and they will evolve into real psychological pain. Questions, make me a lunatic."

"To be honest, I now feel that I have a faint tendency to split my personality."

"It's a pity that those doctors can't find my abnormality, and it's impossible for me to tell them my secret."

"Knowing what is right, but not being able to do it, my mentality also confirms my worries."

"Without a doubt, I came home to give back to my family the me they needed, not like I am now, with a lot of secrets inside, suspicious of everyone, and even casually. I who can despise life and law."

"It's too dangerous for me like this to stay by their side."

"Crazy people are crazy because they are crazy and don't know it."

"I can't guarantee that my control will allow me to play a good show in front of them for the rest of my life, so... I think I have to take measures to solve this."

"This is the record of the first day. I decided to visit a famous psychiatrist again in a secret capacity. I no longer need him to diagnose me. I only need treatment from him."

"Hopefully the approach of doing this works."

After finishing the last sentence, Han Yu in the video pursed his lips to look at the camera, and turned off the shooting equipment with his hand.

Han Yu sat on the sofa, thinking about every sentence in the video just now.

Since his memory has almost completely returned now, he can also fully understand the meaning of the words he said in the video.

Whether it is Han Yu in the past or the current Han Yu, they are all people who attach great importance to their families.

In his whole life, his family is everything to him, and because he has lost it, he cherishes it even more.

But what surprised Han Yu was that he didn't expect that he had realized the problem of his own mental state long before returning to China, and had tried to treat it.

From the current point of view, these video files should be the records of his treatment process, but judging from his current situation, it seems that his treatment at that time failed in the end?

Han Yu thoughtfully opened the next video and continued watching.

The camera pans and his own face reappears in the frame.

"As of today, the plan has been implemented for exactly one month. I found that the effect of cooperating with the doctor for treatment is not ideal, or it has no effect. The reason is because my psychological defense is too strong, and because I left it in my heart. There are too many problems, and it is difficult to solve them in a unified way. If this continues, it may be difficult to see the effect. I think I should adopt another method..."

Watching the entire video in silence, as expected, the treatment had little effect.

Next, Han Yu opened those video files one by one in order, and he found that these video files were indeed the pictures he had recorded in the months before returning to China.

In these videos, he learned that he had made various attempts to adjust his mental state before returning to South Korea. Some took a long time, such as a month, and some were shorter, only a few sky.

All in all, these attempts ended in failure.

Looking all the way down, even Han Yu, who is sitting in this house now, couldn't help frowning.

He seems to have foreseen the final outcome of the matter, but is the truth of the matter really like this?So why can't he still recall the memories of those months?

Finally, when he clicked on the penultimate video, at the end, Han Yu heard something that lifted his spirits.

"...I suddenly had a whimsical idea, but if this idea can be realized, I think it might solve my problem completely. I'll go back and think about it."

Whimsical idea?
Han Yu immediately clicked on the second-to-last video. As soon as the video started playing, he saw himself staring at the camera with an indescribable look. After a few seconds, he slowly opened his mouth:
"I designed a new treatment plan. Since my psychological problems are difficult to solve together, can I solve those problems in my past one by one by dividing memory?"

For a moment, Han Yu, who was sitting in front of the video, couldn't help but narrowed his eyes, a little dazed.

(End of this chapter)